Not really asking for help. Just sharing a story.

[eat_sleep_lift]

I've been suffering from depression for the past few years. Life has been nothing but misery. I've had alot of cruel revelations in the past few months that have changed my personality and outlook on life completely. Anyway my life is a nightmare but enough of that. Today I was walking to a store to buy a chocolate bar(I hadn't had one in 3-4 months). I'm also about 298 at around 6'1ish. As I was walking I suddenly felt a huge embarrassment. I could imagine people behind me laughing at my ass at the way it jiggled and shook from all the fat. I could imagine people completely disgusted with me. It felt like I was walking naked.. I felt so embarrassed of myself. I felt like a glutton who didn't know the meaning of hard work or suffering in life. I never knew how privileged I was to even BE fat in the first place. I felt disgusted, over fed and underworked. The world sickened me. I could imagine girls thinking about how I looked naked and me jerking off to some kind of porn. I felt so embarrassed. I don't really know what else to say so ill leave it at this.

[cyco85]

Sorry, I didn't catch that... I was too busy jerking off to porn

[eat_sleep_lift]

Sorry, I didn't catch that... I was too busy jerking off to porn

Huh?

[K3RB3R0S]

DO something about it.

It is great you hadn't had a candy bar in 3-4 months but get your diet right and lift. The pounds will shed off and the strength you gain will make you feel amazing.

[eat_sleep_lift]

DO something about it.

It is great you hadn't had a candy bar in 3-4 months but get your diet right and lift. The pounds will shed off and the strength you gain will make you feel amazing.

I don't think u realize what kind of world we live in. Depression is no joke. I had a psych appointment today and had to call the suicide hotline just so I could talk to one guy. I can barely pull myself out of bed to go eat something. I was at the store today and got all kinds of fuked up looks from people who seemed delighted that a depressed 24 year old indian guy was lining up for a beer to drown his sorrows.

[TheRightPath]

Life can be alot worse than being fat, be glad you are not starving, be glad you are not sick with a terminal illness, be glad you can wake up each day not worrying if you will see the next one. Only you can change your circumstances and being fat is not that big of one, you have to make a choice, do I pity myself everyday about stuff that I can control or do you take matters into your hands and make changes.

Take it from someone who knows, I use to be 400lbs and made changes, it is hard work and dedication but you can achieve it if you want it. It is the easiest hardest thing you will do but you will be glad you did it when its done. The choice is yours and only yours no one can complete this task for you.

[dmacdonal9]

Are you fat because you have depression (clinically diagnosed), or do you have depression because you're fat? Those are two very different things requiring different approaches to solve.

[Compy386]

No one is looking at you. No one cares. The world is not a big high school.

So dramatic. If you want to suffer go suffer. Break that emotional connection with food. If buying a chocolate bar made you feel that then there is something wrong.

However bad you think your life is many other people have it way worse. Have you ever washed your clothes in the bathtub because you didn't have enough money for the coin laundry? Have you ever eaten nothing but rice and potatoes for a month because that's all you could afford? Been divorced? Have a handicapped child? Been 450lbs?

No. Because you're young single with no children so the world still revolves around you and your precious body image.

[Serpentarius]

Time to man up, people need to stop being so supportive of the entitled. Look at my sig, there is a dude with no arms on the forum that lifts and doesn't complain about it

[whipple99]

OP,
I remember starting my diet about 9 months ago now. The first time I weight myself I was 298lbs @ 6' 2" that was about 3 weeks into all of my dieting (I was to embarrassed to weigh myself before) Never been depressed about it. I always thank God that I am able to just wake up. But man I was embarrassed. Hated myself for getting that big. But now... I weight 193lbs 9 months I lost 105lbs. No longer getting looked at as some pig. To take 9 months out of your life and lose all the extra weight you don't need. 9 months is all it took me. Ive seen people do it faster but 9 months from your busy busy life its nothing those 9 months add years to my life. I had High blood pressure at 22 years old. LOL no energy I had back pain every morning getting out of bed cause of how out of shape I was.... (least that's what I think it was from as I don't have back pain anymore. You just need to get up and do it, get up and make something of yourself, and anyone on here that has lost a bunch of weight will tell you that losing the weight and getting yourself some more self confidence will improve your life so much.

[eat_sleep_lift]

I'm fat AND depressed. Just absolutely no mood to lose weight and diet. Life has been a living nightmare. To make matters worse I live in Singapore which is 75% Chinese and most of these Asians are super fit and hardworking. I feel like some kind of fat out of shape indian guy whose super lazy and overfed and underworked. It's just really awkward I feel so embarrassed to be seen at McDonald's. I just had my breakfast and lunch there(just ate 1 meal to cover both feeds, nothing extra just a regular meal) and later I'm having dinner at home. I live in asia so I don't really have access to all the stuff white people have. I mean I do have access to protein powder and supplements. But nothing else lol.

[jtswjs22]

You sound like you are depressed because you are fat.... lucky for you that's an easy fix

[TheNormalMan]

I'm a supportive guy when it comes to people wanting to lose weight, but your attitude just sucks, even if you are depressed.

I've gone through the same feelings before and only you can make them change.

Don't whine to us to make them change for you because it's not in our power.

And frankly, all the people you think making fun of you don't care. Everyone else has their own struggles and life to worry about.

No one cares about the fat guy buying a candy bar or eating a Happy Meal.

You want to change, then change, but only you can do that.

All the information you need to get started is on this website in plain view.

So man up, put in the time to effort to learn, and then go forth and reap the rewards.

[al4n]

I'm fat AND depressed. Just absolutely no mood to lose weight and diet. Life has been a living nightmare. To make matters worse I live in Singapore which is 75% Chinese and most of these Asians are super fit and hardworking. I feel like some kind of fat out of shape indian guy whose super lazy and overfed and underworked. It's just really awkward I feel so embarrassed to be seen at McDonald's. I just had my breakfast and lunch there(just ate 1 meal to cover both feeds, nothing extra just a regular meal) and later I'm having dinner at home. I live in asia so I don't really have access to all the stuff white people have. I mean I do have access to protein powder and supplements. But nothing else lol.

First see bolded. You act like these people are just more lucky than you or something but then the truth came out right there.

Second what is it that us white people have that you don't? You don't need more of anything to lose weight you need less, less food, that's it.

Sorry if this is harsh but stop blaming your problems on other things, other people have this and that, it's all bull****. You have everything you need to get into shape (a body, that's all you need) so if you can't do it you're either too lazy or just don't want it as bad as you think you do. There is a third option for some people which is that they are uneducated in how to lose weight but you are on this website which has all the information you could ever need so I refuse to believe you are in that category. Again you're either too lazy to put the small amount of effort in to lose weight or just don't really want to, end of.

Please don't come back by saying you can't afford to eat healthily, funnily enough eating less is cheaper than eating more, shocking I know.

[workingthedream]

bro, take a breath and step back.

Depression isn't uncommon. Hell, i was diagnosed with it when younger and got put on meds.

It made me feel like i was living life looking out of my bedroom window so i stopped taking them.

I know depression is no joke. But i used to make excuses about it as though THAT was the reason i was fat. I don't know you, i don't know your circumstances so im not going to give you any advice. BUT what helped me was realizing that the reason i was overweight was me. I stopped blaming other things for my circumstances. I bit the bullet and tried to lose weight. I failed many many times before i started becoming successful at it. Its ok to fail, just get back onto it and dont make a habit out of it.

Motivation is tough when you are down. But dude, I promise you 95% of the time you think people are judging you, they are not. It's your self esteem telling you you're worthless.

Take some time, look in the mirror and work out where you are and what you want to be. Make up a plan on paper and follow it. Regardless of your mood. Once it becomes routine, it becomes so much easier. The only thing stopping you from losing weight is you.

All the best bro.

[eat_sleep_lift]

First see bolded. You act like these people are just more lucky than you or something but then the truth came out right there.

Second what is it that us white people have that you don't? You don't need more of anything to lose weight you need less, less food, that's it.

Sorry if this is harsh but stop blaming your problems on other things, other people have this and that, it's all bull****. You have everything you need to get into shape (a body, that's all you need) so if you can't do it you're either too lazy or just don't want it as bad as you think you do. There is a third option for some people which is that they are uneducated in how to lose weight but you are on this website which has all the information you could ever need so I refuse to believe you are in that category. Again you're either too lazy to put the small amount of effort in to lose weight or just don't really want to, end of.

Please don't come back by saying you can't afford to eat healthily, funnily enough eating less is cheaper than eating more, shocking I know.

Yeah it's just embarrassing. I mean I don't usually tell people irl, but my dads a doctor and even he's embarrassed of me lol. He doesn't talk to me or like to be seen with me. And if he does its just to accompany me jogging. And these asian people are super fit and on the ball lol, the women look like underwear models even without working out. Super jelly of them lol. Anyway I was told to go on a calorie deficit and that it would solve all my problems. It's just so embarrassing to have to live like that.

I don't think white people have more of what I want or less. I just mean that my circumstances differ alot to the people on the board, majority of whom are white.

[mmilla]

I was 280 not long ago, I'm currently 179. I was depressed then, "clinically depressed", and I still am. The world is a stressful place, no matter the job or the amount of money you have, no matter where you live. Whether you're depressed because you're fat, or depressed for any other reason, you're always going to have a reason to be depressed about something. **** McDonald's, cook your own food, or go spend $10 on some dank food across the street, take a backpack with some real food in it when you're out doing what you do, maybe a healthy alternative in the same form of what you're used to. You probably love soda too. I completely cut out fast food and soda, and it was the main reason I initially lost so much weight.

Everything in this world is an addiction, and it doesn't take long to develop one. It could be sitting around thinking about how depressed you are...is it's gonna be a big mac and fries or a snickers, or both...it works the same way with other things, the next thing is just as addicting as the one before. Eating healthy foods is addicting, not eating anything at all is addicting, working out is addicting...dropping 10lbs and wanting to drop another 10lbs, now that's addicting. Change your habits, develop better ones.

You're probably like a foot taller than the average person in Singapore. When they stare at you, stare at them harder, watch who looks away then. Maybe toss in a smile just to get a kick out of it. I do this every chance I get, it's how I meet girls, or it's how I let people know I hate them too. People could care less about what you're doing, in the end people care much more about themselves. We're all on this forum for a reason, the same reason you are, wanting to do something about ourselves. You've taken one step by coming here, act on it.

[Verbalcody]

i live in asia. eat lots of chicken. Asian people have 5000 years of NOT stuffing their faces full of crap food, and they generally don't overeat every day or even any day. They have amazing life routines and are very strict

you signed up for this site 6 years ago with the name eat sleep lift, come on man.... if you HAD done, you'd be in amazing shape right now. but you clearly quite. But that doesnt matter, now you can think where you want to be 6 years down to the road from today, or you can quit again. You are the reason you are fat, and you can fix it any time you want.

Choose a life you want to live

good luck

[eat_sleep_lift]

i live in asia. eat lots of chicken. Asian people have 5000 years of NOT stuffing their faces full of crap food, and they generally don't overeat every day or even any day. They have amazing life routines and are very strict

you signed up for this site 6 years ago with the name eat sleep lift, come on man.... if you HAD done, you'd be in amazing shape right now. but you clearly quite. But that doesnt matter, now you can think where you want to be 6 years down to the road from today, or you can quit again. You are the reason you are fat, and you can fix it any time you want.

Choose a life you want to live

good luck

Living in Singapore and honestly growing up I was a spoiled brat who took everything I had for granted, I never had so much of respect for a race as the Chinese. How they can turn a country from 3rd world to 1st that is 710 km2, with a population of 2 million and only human as their only resource into the top 10 countries to be born in the world is just amazing. And in only 40 years.I think the Chinese are amazing in fact I lost my virginity to a Chinese girl (I'm indian Sikh). I just love following the culture and seeing the people. It amazes me that a population of only 2.8 million can produce some of the worlds greatest politicians and businessmen. Never seen a better place to live in.

Kinda off topic I know. But I just am totally out of it right now. Not in the mood to meet anyone because mentally I don't feel safe at all.