[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[eod8989]

People have been friendlier and talking to me more recently but I just don't know what to say

[eod8989]

How do we fix this depression? I just feel like there isn't a spark anymore and a constant been there done that feeling.

[BigTimePlayer]

WFH is the GOAT for high inhib people. Just passed my 5 year mark of WFH. I'd prob go fkn crazy if I had to deal with clown world people on a daily basis.

It's just annoying. I'm just sick & tired of having to keep going into my job nonstop. At least from home I can maybe relax a bit more & not have to deal with annoying people. I plan on calling out a lot more or maybe try to change my work schedule. It's becoming unbearable & I just get in a bad mood most days having to go into work.

[eod8989]

Man there's just nothing to do. I drove around all day but there was nothing to do anywhere. Everything i do has to be on my own since there's no community anywhere.

[eod8989]

Damn nothing to do again today just driving around looking at the colorful trees

[miscallday12]

Damn nothing to do again today just driving around looking at the colorful trees

Sounds like a good time.

[jizzfarmer]

I'm so phuked man. I want to get help and get talk to someone but if I tell the truth they will throw me in jail or mental phuking house. I feel like I'm losing it and ready to do some phuked up sht. Everywhere I go is filth man I phuking hate Toronto. The only place I get any relief is when I go to Yonge and Finch and get high but I'm broke af now.

[DustinTheHuss]

Damn nothing to do again today just driving around looking at the colorful trees

Please clear your inbox brah.

NFL games today! Plus I got my nails done. Now a meeting and family dinner, and hopefully time to get to the gym before they close at 8pm.

[eod8989]

Just no sense of community anywhere and nobody talking about anything but tv shows and the rain outside

Absolutely nothing to do do lol

[eod8989]

I'm autistic and don't have social skills anymore. Everything is just boring now. Not sure if Anhedonia or what.

[imbored21]

everyone just talks about politics and finance now. it's so boring.

[eod8989]

everyone just talks about politics and finance now. it's so boring.

Where I'm at it's just tv shows/sports ball and food

If you don't give a flying chit about that stuff idk what your supposed to do

I can't do the small talk chit anymore for some reason

[AmuroRay]

Its been awhile guys. Hows everyone doing?

GF and i have and issues for a while. Tomorrow she want to have a frank discussion.... here we go. Its all so tiring

[BigTimePlayer]

Just sucks that my mind just always changes mood when it wants to. I was playing a game before & I literally just started to not feel right & I had to pause it after a half hour since I just wasn't in the mood anymore to play. My moods are always a rollercoaster everyday & for some reason I only feel good consistently late at night. I can never understand why & blood tests & everything always come back normal. I wonder if my brain chemistry in general is just ****ed up causing my mood swings. Are there any tests that I can get for actual brain chemistry? I've had an MRI on my brain & that came back normal.

[eod8989]

Just sucks that my mind just always changes mood when it wants to. I was playing a game before & I literally just started to not feel right & I had to pause it after a half hour since I just wasn't in the mood anymore to play. My moods are always a rollercoaster everyday & for some reason I only feel good consistently late at night. I can never understand why & blood tests & everything always come back normal. I wonder if my brain chemistry in general is just ****ed up causing my mood swings. Are there any tests that I can get for actual brain chemistry? I've had an MRI on my brain & that came back normal.

Same man. I felt good until i ate some taco bell today and then soon after got a mood swing and felt like chit ever since. I can never feel normal for a whole day.

[eod8989]

I don't find anything interesting anymore either like there's nothing to watch on TV, pop culture isn't good and there's no point in going shopping anymore because it can be bought online in 2 seconds. There just isn't anything to do anymore that hasn't been done a thousand times before. I really feel like my life peaked already and it's only getting worse.

[eod8989]

There's no sense of community either so everything has to be done alone. No way to connect with people because of social media.

[BigTimePlayer]

Same man. I felt good until i ate some taco bell today and then soon after got a mood swing and felt like chit ever since. I can never feel normal for a whole day.

It's just ridiculous man. I just want the most basic thing that someone could have which is feel normal & I can't even have that in life. I talked to management at my job the other day & they granted me my wish to work less hours per week going forward. I couldn't deal with the hours anymore since I was working what felt like almost everyday. I guess I'll see if it makes me feel any better at all to work less going forward.

[eod8989]

It's just ridiculous man. I just want the most basic thing that someone could have which is feel normal & I can't even have that in life. I talked to management at my job the other day & they granted me my wish to work less hours per week going forward. I couldn't deal with the hours anymore since I was working what felt like almost everyday. I guess I'll see if it makes me feel any better at all to work less going forward.

I don't get how people are happy wageslaving away for a boss all day. Today is Monday and i'm already mentally drained from doing the same repetitive tasks for 8 hours. My brain just cannot be happy doing this over and over man.

[DustinTheHuss]

I lost my aunt who was like a second mother to me. She loved holidays and decorating so every time I see Halloween decorations I get sad.

I’m still forcing myself to decorate, as hard as it is. Halloween used to be my favorite holiday.

She always hosted Thanksgiving and Christmas with all of the holiday china so the holidays will be sad without her.

[eod8989]

Just keep having bad anxiety from the thought of being stuck in a room all day wageslaving. I hardly ever feel normal unless i'm off work or late at night.

[MinisterOfLust]

Been feeling the blues after getting fired from my job. I thought I was equipped to handle it, but I was wrong.

[eod8989]

Been feeling the blues after getting fired from my job. I thought I was equipped to handle it, but I was wrong.

For what?

I feel like i'm about to get fired too. People don't like me at my job because i'm quiet and probably for a bunch of other reasons. It sucks man.

[imbored21]

my mom makes me depressed and I feel bad about it

[Azrairc]

srs post not depressed but have recently had IBS and got had a health scare (ended up to be nothing with further testing) but I've been having a lot of mental health issues since. IBS triggering anxiety and panic attacks that led me to the ER twice in 3 months.

Didn't get on any meds, my doctor advised therapy and some med for IBS and also have a antihistamine that is working well to prevent panic attacks. Any advice on dealing with this chit? Seems like I've been having a lot of deep seeded fears emerging and overwhelming me lately especially about aging and mortality. In the past I could simply brush it off and operate normally, anxiety that I think I'm dying or some chit. Not really fun. My doc said make therapy a priority but does it really do anything?

[DustinTheHuss]

It was hard seeing the Halloween decorations going up as it made me think of my aunt and how much she loved to decorate, but now I'm starting to enjoy them and be happy about them.

I still miss her a lot. I'll think I can call her to tell her this and that but she's gone.

[ThatsRightBitch]

I've never posted in this before but figure I could offer a resource.

Idk about you all but I've gone through the ringer of chitty ssri/snri/antipsychotics (almost ended up with tardive dyskinesia),other garbage "antidepressants" etc. and none helped, a lot made things worse. Wanted to try an MAOI (the big gun antidepressants) for years but ****gy doctors were too scared to prescribe it. Did some research months ago while in another particularly dark and desperate spot and found an e-health psych that specializes in em and put me on parnate back in mid-july, if I were an anxious mess he'd have given me nardil.

and holy chit, for the first time I can remember life actually feels like it has color and isn't just gray, my motivation returned too (hell it even got me to stop drinking to self-medicate). It's hard to put into words but it's no placebo. If y'all are open to medication then go for MAOIs. The diet is overblown to high chit (even then the doc offers to prescribe this drug I forgot the name of but basically gets rid of the tyramine reaction) and as long as you aren't a retard you won't give yourself serotonin syndrome. Aside from fainting for standing up too quick one single time at a higher dose I've noticed no sides compared to the standard frontline garbage they push. If your depression is the kind that just kinda "showed up" one day for no reason in particular and just kept rolling downhill naturally, this stuff is gold.

If anyone's curious the site's called maoinhibitors.com. No this isn't a plug, just someone who's been in the deep pits of this chit for a long long time and been passed around by conventional ****g0t psychiatrists to the point of being labeled a "lost cause." I know how much it phuking sucks and I always told myself if I ever truly found something that can help, I'd spread the word. I can finally say I'm able to enjoy things again. Confidence went up too, as well as asking girls out for a date and the success rate in doing so (go figure melancholia isn't attractive).

[BigTimePlayer]

Man it just sucks seeing people from your past doing better than you in life. Found out today someone I used to be friends with who only used me for things is pretty successful right now with a great job. It just sucks & makes me feel like **** that I'm nowhere near their level in terms of success. I just never found anything I'm good at which has always been a huge problem for me in terms of a career. I just feel like I'm constantly coasting along through life with no purpose. I'm just tired of the way I'm living but I have so many things going against me & no clue what to do for another line of work that I would enjoy. I just always constantly feel trapped.

[eod8989]

Man there is just nothing to do. No community. No way to make friends. Just work lift and browse the internet. There literally is nothing else to do in clown world.

[BigTimePlayer]

Man there is just nothing to do. No community. No way to make friends. Just work lift and browse the internet. There literally is nothing else to do in clown world.

Life just sucks man after a certain point unless everything just works out organically. It's just impossible to meet new people & most people are just fake. Most people already have their own social circle of friends that they've known for years so I'd never be top priority to them in terms of wanting to hang out over people they have solid relationships for years or decades. I feel working less at my current job is still not going to improve anything for me since other areas of my life are just bad.