Measly accomplishment I know. BUT I DON"T CARE! First weekend clean and sober for as long as I can remember (Which, granted, isn't long LOL) I am stoked.
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10-29-2013, 06:13 PM #6219
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Is this thread still a sticky? I see no sticky sign today at the front of the thread!!! Hmmmmm.
Anyway. I am counting the days, hours, minutes, seconds.
13 days time and my last addiction to fuk up my life will be a year in the past... And the results from the decision are just off the scale..
Apart from the sleep issues still to this day...Ride it like you just stole it.
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10-29-2013, 06:19 PM #6220
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10-29-2013, 06:24 PM #6221
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How do I fill out the application to get one of the few bloody serious life changing threads around these forums back to how it should be. Stickied?
As for making it CBB. I recon I made it the day I took the decision to come clean and admit to everyone that I had a problem. My whole world is now weighed out like so.
In one hand alcohol
and the other
My life.
I take my life any day of the week. No matter what chit gets chucked at me. I got this.. Srs..Ride it like you just stole it.
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10-29-2013, 06:30 PM #6222
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10-29-2013, 06:44 PM #6225
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I can not let this lay down in the deep graveyard of forgotten threads. No way man... Bad decision to let it pop back up just from a post each time.
If need be I will bump every hour when awake to keep it in sight. With the possibility of helping just one more person on this fuking road to sobriety.
I am sure there are plenty who will assist with this bumping.Ride it like you just stole it.
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10-29-2013, 07:23 PM #6236
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10-30-2013, 01:36 AM #6237
After a year of on and off stretches of sobriety, longest was 5 months, I still struggle mightily. Most recently decided to move to another state because that seemed like a good idea. I move 1300 miles away, no ties to anything or anyone, dry out, experience terrible WD symptoms for a couple of weeks(awful anxiety, insomnia, terrible nightmares when I can sleep)
Plan was to get sober, get back in shape, get diet in check, get a job. For 60 days I completely white knuckle and do all of those things. In my mind I thought, well once I get such a solid routine going I can drink socially, and be able to have "fun" what's the point of life if you can't drink and do all this fun stuff people do that involves alcohol. I get so frustrated by day 60, because I'm feeling better and stuff but still have no social life haven't met any women and have no idea what to do. Anyways I say F it and tell myself im going out, and it was the best decision ever(for the first hour or so) so great, able to relax finally. I'm able to interact with ppl well, get some numbers.... Then it turns into the same scenerio that leads me to try to quit in the past. Nonstop drinking, by myself, for 4 days straight. It's disgusting. I was thankfully able to get through the bender without losing job although it was very very close. Being bored and lonely always seem to win out and lead me to this
Anyways today is day 1***molec crew***
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10-30-2013, 03:30 AM #6239
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Mate.
It is the same for all of us. We go through stages initially where we THINK we can get this under control. Dry out for a month or two and we can handle it in moderation.
Trust me on this. It never works, EVER. It is all or nothing I'm afraid. Straight out stopping or you will just carry your problems around the world with you wherever you decide to go to tackle the issue.
Find an AA meeting. Sit and listen. Make the decision. You got this.Ride it like you just stole it.
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10-30-2013, 03:51 AM #6240
would it be possible my darling to find activities in your life that do not center around drinking?
you have anxiety when you are sober talking to girls? you said you were bored and lonely well ok
many of us go thru times in our lives like this
one step at a time..one thing at a time...do just a little bit today..for you
something that will build you up and not tear you down
even if that something is just saying
"I did ok today"
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