I'm so alone that it physically hurts. My ache will start in my arms, and eventually pour throughout my entire body. The only thing I have in the world to comfort me is my music, which inevitably brings me to tears every night. Sometimes I will take long drives and just think about how sad my life is, how lonely I have become, the things I regret, and what I could have done differently. I do this a few times a week, drive and cry. It makes me feel better momentarily. I have no one in the world to talk to, no one who respects me, and no one who loves me.
For my family I try to put act like nothing is wrong, if they ask me why I don't have a girlfriend, (I have never actually had one, no one in my family has ever seen me with a girl) I say something like "I like it that way", when the truth is I have no chance of getting one, and they know the reason.
I am ugly. I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror. When I am walking in the street and the light is on my face, I can't even look at my reflection in a car's mirror as I walk past it, because it will make me depressed. I try my best not to look at myself, because everyone including myself knows that I am hideous.
I live inside my room to hide myself from the outside world. I don't really have anything to do, so I try and sleep most of the days away. I started taking sleeping pills in the middle of the day recently, just so I won't have to go through the day being lonely. There were a few things that used to make me happy, which were lifting weights and basketball, but realizing that I will always be disfigured / ugly has changed my attitude towards even these few things.
I have only ever been with 1 girl. I have never even kissed another girl, held another girls hand, or had another girl show any interest in me whatsoever. Anyone I talk to seems to think I'm a weird, because apparently I am immature for not taking life as seriously as they do, and don't really see things the same way other people tend to.
I haven't been happy in years, I don't see any signs of it getting any better. I see most people getting excited for the weekend, but for me, I get depressed. I have no friends. I have no girlfriend. I have no one.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore, I feel like my life is passing me by and I am wasting it. I want to move away, another state, another country, something, but I have no money.
I feel trapped inside my own ugly head, my thoughts are pushed down because no one will care to listen.
Does anyone feel the same way I do... or know what I can do to feel better?
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10-30-2010, 06:29 PM #1Registered User
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I am ugly, lonely, depressed, and hopeless. Need suggestions. (srs)
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10-30-2010, 06:30 PM #2is hot4hotz
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I did.
Then i went to dermatoligist
Went to gym
Changed harstyle
Changed attitude
glbrah
edit: your age?
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10-30-2010, 06:31 PM #3Greatest of all Time
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o lawd? We have winnerOriginally Posted by hot4hotz
i wil rep u if i get a chance
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10-30-2010, 06:32 PM #4
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10-30-2010, 06:32 PM #5Banned
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strong 1rd post
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10-30-2010, 06:32 PM #6Registered User
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24..Originally Posted by hot4hotz
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10-30-2010, 06:33 PM #7Cheeky m8 I swear
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Take a multi?
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10-30-2010, 06:33 PM #8h4te crew
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do you wake up screaming?
h4te crew - assemble
alpha bodybuilding immune system crew - never get sick crew - tap water crew
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10-30-2010, 06:34 PM #9Banned
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Then i went to dermatologist
went to gym
changed harstyle
changed attitude
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trhats all u need.
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10-30-2010, 06:34 PM #10Registered User
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if this is srs send a msg this way brother!
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10-30-2010, 06:34 PM #11is hot4hotz
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Originally Posted by wakeupscreaming
be the one that says 'that's so true' and not to anything about your life
or do something
glbrah
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10-30-2010, 06:34 PM #12Rex, eat the salad
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Holy **** I'm fuking depressed after reading that...
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10-30-2010, 06:35 PM #13Hello
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Kenny vs Spenny is the **** brah.Originally Posted by hot4hotz
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10-30-2010, 06:35 PM #14U.S. Army
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this. Time to man up and change. Turn your life around, it's never too late. You just need a new attitude in life and work on things. It may start slow but you have to do what you have to do.Originally Posted by hot4hotz
Don't give up brah
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10-30-2010, 06:36 PM #15Banned
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God gave you shoes to fit you
So put 'em on and wear 'em
Be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny
Don't ever let anyone tell you you ain't beautiful
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10-30-2010, 06:36 PM #16Vibram Glove Guy
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Dude, are you in school? the **** are you doing? There are tons of hideous men with not so hideous girls, you just need to man up and grow a pair. Look at my face (my avatar), its ****ing purple and my nose is like a foot long, plus i have HORNS for ****s sake. Doesn't seem to bother me.
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10-30-2010, 06:36 PM #17Banned
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Get some therapy. (serious)
Not teasing you or anything. Find the roots of your problems, fight the insecurity, and start accomplishing some **** brah.
We all been there. Everyone hits there Rock Bottom. But its ultimately up to you to do something about it.
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10-30-2010, 06:37 PM #18Registered User
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This video gave me chills and then made me tear up (srs).Originally Posted by hot4hotz
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10-30-2010, 06:39 PM #19Registered User
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Go see a counseler/psychologist/social worker. They will help you work through your issues and make you better.
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10-30-2010, 06:39 PM #20Registered User
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Yea I'm trying to finish school.. doing well actually. I have nothing else to do, so when I'm bored I study to distract myself.Originally Posted by Jaroctor
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10-30-2010, 06:40 PM #21Registered User
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I think that you are too concerned with girls, and your looks.
Ignore all of that **** and chill out. Control your emotions, don't let them control you.
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10-30-2010, 06:41 PM #22is hot4hotz
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i hope for a good reasonOriginally Posted by wakeupscreaming
if not ...
glbrah
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10-30-2010, 06:41 PM #23Registered User
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Hell man, I had my own problems in the past and thought my rut was absolutely unbearable at the time, but what you're going through sounds a lot worse than how bad I had it. I feel for you man, I really do and were I in your place, I would seriously find a way to start somewhere else fresh. Sounds bold as phuck but desperate times call for desperate measures.
You really just need a change of perspective on life atm and moving away and living on your own is almost guaranteed to give that to you. Hell, if you move to Montreal, I'd help you get your life back on track brah, have helped tons of friends get out of ruts before.
Gl brah, and think about it
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10-30-2010, 06:41 PM #24Banned
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lold hardOriginally Posted by tmc.
ahhahahahahha
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10-30-2010, 06:41 PM #25
find something you are able to change about your looks.
Physique
Haircut
Skin.
i was fking acne riddled hipster until i took accutane.
DO WHAT YOU WANT ITS FKING SHORT LIFE .
read my signature
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10-30-2010, 06:42 PM #26Registered User
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10-30-2010, 06:43 PM #27⎠⎝⎠⎝⎠⎝⎠⎝⎠⎝⎠⎝⎠⎝⎠⎝⎠⎝⎠⎝ ⎠⎝⎠⎝⎠
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I have all those problems except I have no family to go home to.
go on a murderous rampage in southern america
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10-30-2010, 06:43 PM #28Registered Sex Offender
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However mean your life is, meet it and live it; do not shun it and call it hard names. It is not so bad as you are. It looks poorest when you are richest. The fault-finder will find faults even in paradise. Love your life, poor as it is. You may perhaps have some pleasant, thrilling, glorious hours, even in a poorhouse. The setting sun is reflected from the windows of the almshouse as brightly as from the rich man's abode; the snow melts before its door as early in the spring. I do not see but a quiet mind may live as contentedly there, and have as cheering thoughts, as in a palace.
1k+
One minute I'm robbing a dope house. Next minute I'm the youngest heavyweight champion of the world. I'm only 20, 19, with a lot of money. Who am I? What am I? I don't even know who I am. I'm just a dumb child who's being abused and robbed by lawyers. I'm just a dumb pugnacious fool. I'm just a fool who thinks he's someone. Then you tell me I should be responsible?
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10-30-2010, 06:45 PM #29Registered User
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should have been posted already comeon people..
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10-30-2010, 06:45 PM #30Registered User
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Originally Posted by Nesquik7
I read your sig. Everywhere I go, I try to compare myself to the other people around me, and I always come out on the bottom. When I see a girl I like, all I can think of is that there are billions of guys better than me, why the **** would I be the ONE guy who gets her, I am nothing. It's not necessarily about slaying a random drunk girl for me, I want someone to actually care about me, as lame as that may sound.
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