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09-27-2007, 03:14 PM #631
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09-27-2007, 03:27 PM #632
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10-01-2007, 04:17 PM #633
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10-06-2007, 05:31 PM #634
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Depressed.
Eating disorders suck.
I know more about exercise, nutrition, and the body than most of my clients, even the athletes, but I can't seem to get my own house in order.
I've gained 15 pounds in three months. Can't seem to shake myself out of this binge cycle this time, and I know it's because I have emotional issues that I haven't been able to deal with. (Problems with my father & brother - and with the guy I was dating...) I had hoped that getting enough rest would be the key to getting a handle on this, but it's not enough.
Don't think I'll be able to conquer this on my own, but am not comfortable with the religious tone of Overeaters Anonymous (and other 12-step groups), especially here, where people tend to not understand the concept of non-denominational.
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10-06-2007, 07:34 PM #635
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Hang in there EC! You are smart, you know what is happening, and you know what you need to be doing to fix it. I am sure you will figure out how to make that happen. It is easy to get into emotional eating, I find myself doing that too. Exercise is helpful for that too, I know you have been having a tough time with that lately but maybe whatever you can get in would help.
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10-07-2007, 08:46 AM #636
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10-07-2007, 04:48 PM #637
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Getting motivated is tough when you're in a funk - but I'm feeling more optimistic today. Comparing how I felt two months ago to how I feel now, and realizing it's much, much better. I really am adapting, and doing OK.
And I need to start just going to the gym, even if all I do is a little walking on the treadmill and some time in the sauna. It's getting it into my routine that's hard right now. Once I'm there, I enjoy it.
Thank you, Decosta.
Nice to have someone remind me...
I know I can do this. I have done it. I simply need to get back into it, and stick with it. And I need to be better at admitting when I need help, and be comfortable with asking for it...
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10-07-2007, 05:06 PM #638
Hey EC, sorry to hear you are down. I know for me it is hard to get into a habit, but once I'm there, it is also pretty hard to get out of it. SO I think your idea about going to the gym regularly, even if just to walk on the Tm, is a good one.
Is OA your only option? Have you gone to meetup.com? This is a site where you can either join or start a social networking club. It's pretty cool - check it out.
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10-07-2007, 09:13 PM #639
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10-07-2007, 09:23 PM #640
Empress - glad you're feeling more optimistic today. You hit the nail on the head though about getting motivated. As you well know, precisely the medicine that will cure that issue is what we kick and scream against sometimes - what a strange conundrum no?
And then when you throw in the impact of stress on cortisol production, you've really got a bit of a hurdle. There's only one way to knock it out - just go. As you said, even if it's only for a few minutes on the treadmill. Good luck getting back into the groove - you'll get there.
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11-01-2007, 06:59 AM #641
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11-01-2007, 08:08 AM #642
Just dropped in to see how you are doing.
Great new avi!
Glad you are feeling more optimistic, hope it continues to improve!We have the power to accomplish anything, it's called our mind.
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11-12-2007, 08:03 PM #643
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Just taking some time to focus on getting my head right. I'm actually feeling really good about myself right now. The depression has cleared but I still have some anger. (The change in hair color helped me shake off the last of the blues.)
There has been some major "isht" to deal with over the guy I was dating who turned out to be a bigger disaster than I ever suspected. And some stuff with my brother and my dad...
I re-gained a LOT of weight during a few months of depression, 25 pounds in total, but have stabilized and am starting to lose again. I had even started drinking. Not a lot, but when you go from one or two beers or glasses of wine a month to three or four, twice a week, that's a big increase. (I'm back to mostly using my wine and beer for cooking.)
Also, I've started getting regular massages - and am beginning to work out some of the issues my body has from a lifetime of neglect and a history (now long past but still remembered in my muscles) of abuse. I knew I was a mess, but have now had four other therapists confirm that I am one of the worst they've ever worked on. There is literally not a single area of my body that does not have major knots, pain, strains or stiffness.
It's no wonder that when I exercise I get pain after a few weeks.
I'm only working out once or twice a week right now, walking or using the elliptical, but remaining active in general. I am finally past the point where massage is wearing me out, and I am actually starting to understand how my body mechanics work through doing massage. Like the fact that my abs are weak and so my glutes and hams try to make up for them and get overused. When I tighten my abs while bending over a client, I feel my shoulders drop and my spine straighten.
I guess I'm sort of in remedial camp for my body right now, and that's OK.
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11-12-2007, 09:16 PM #644
Hi there EC. Sorry to hear about your depression... the binging, and it's residual effects. I've struggled with that depression stuff myself - far too long, really. Stay active, do the things that YOU enjoy doing for YOU. I'm struggling, myself, right now... but if I stay focused, I think I'll be ok. You will too.
By the way - the new hair color and the avi look beautiful. Great smile, too!When the last deer disappears into the morning mist,
When the last elk vanishes from the hills,
When the last buffalo falls on the plains,
I will hunt mice, for I am a hunter,
And I must have my freedom.
Chief Joseph, Nez Perce
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11-14-2007, 07:56 AM #645
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11-15-2007, 06:22 PM #646
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Gah! Did I mention that I'm a mess?
I had piriformis spasms that were strong enough to knock me on my ass, and now I'm in pain.
More massage, more stretching, more *gentle* exercise.
I just have to keep telling myself that just because the road is slow, doesn't mean it's not going anywhere.
And have I mentioned lately how much I love my job?
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11-15-2007, 08:12 PM #647
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