[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[Smashiin]

first time smoking weed in two weeks. my anxiety has gone away and i feel calm. wish i didnt have to come back to this. but, for now i need it while getting my ducks in a row.

[BigTimePlayer]

Rich piana died a month ago and Sara cheated on him for drugs, specifically meth since she's a tweaker. Now that rich is dead, Sara will try to take everything he owned. They're separated but they are not legally divorced. So, it's highly likely that Sara will inherit everything. Also, the bitch leaked an audio clip of rich going off on her because he found out what she was up to. In the audio rich hit Sara three times. You can hear it.

Well, that sucks. So many women are so fuked up. Some women move on extremely fast as well even after a death to their partner. It's pretty scary to think about. I'm just wondering if I was with someone & died how fast the woman I'm with would move on after I'm gone. I just feel like I can never trust anyone & feel like I'd get fuked over so easily by someone else. I'd always feel paranoid that she's going to cheat or is doing shady **** behind my back & I'll never find out.

[mattburley7]

My problem is I want to talk to people, have friends, have a girlfriend I just rub people the wrong way... rejection sets in and I get upset with myself I’ll admit I have cried recently not to sound like a pussy *******. I don’t trust nobody and nobody trust me

[BigTimePlayer]

lmao I can't make this **** up but I literally a few minutes ago just got a popup on my phone from the News about how compared to the year 1990 women cheating in their marriages increased by 40% yet with men it's stayed the same. Fuking damn whores these days man. It's such a shame that we have to live in such a fuked up time. I swear man I'd probably be so damn paranoid being with someone today thinking she's going to cheat.

[eod8989]

My problem is I want to talk to people, have friends, have a girlfriend I just rub people the wrong way... rejection sets in and I get upset with myself I’ll admit I have cried recently not to sound like a pussy *******. I don’t trust nobody and nobody trust me

How do you run them the wrong way?

[mattburley7]

^^ Probably my boring personality and I’m pretty quiet.

[eod8989]

^^ Probably my boring personality and I’m pretty quiet.

Yeah people think i'm stuck up or weird because of this. It's just stupid man. This is why i just don't talk to people anymore. Unless someone that i like shows interest in me, i'm just not going to say much because i'm always quiet.

[eod8989]

lmao I can't make this **** up but I literally a few minutes ago just got a popup on my phone from the News about how compared to the year 1990 women cheating in their marriages increased by 40% yet with men it's stayed the same. Fuking damn whores these days man. It's such a shame that we have to live in such a fuked up time. I swear man I'd probably be so damn paranoid being with someone today thinking she's going to cheat.

They monkey branch because they don't have to try to get anything. All they have to do is be there. It's no wonder with today's social media like IG and FB that this happens. Surprised the number isn't higher honestly.

[mattburley7]

I have also been lied to and stabbed in the back by guy friends so that doesn’t help with me wanting none of them as friends.

[BigTimePlayer]

They monkey branch because they don't have to try to get anything. All they have to do is be there. It's no wonder with today's social media like IG and FB that this happens. Surprised the number isn't higher honestly.

It's like I'm damned if I do or damned if I don't. It's either be single for eternity or be at high risk of getting cheated on. It's such a fuked up time. The thing that's fuked up is you can never know for sure whether she's actually cheating or not unless you pretty much break your trust with her & snoop into her phone or buy a tracking device for her car to see where she's going when you're not around.

[mattburley7]

I’ve also had guy friends disappear on me once they got girlfriends. I just don’t want to deal with that chit anymore. So I’m better off with none.

[eod8989]

It's like I'm damned if I do or damned if I don't. It's either be single for eternity or be at high risk of getting cheated on. It's such a fuked up time. The thing that's fuked up is you can never know for sure whether she's actually cheating or not unless you pretty much break your trust with her & snoop into her phone or buy a tracking device for her car to see where she's going when you're not around.

Well you kind of know if a girl is faithful or not when you've been together for a while. But you still don't know for sure. If there is any suspicion then it could happen, but you will likely see some red flags or know what's up.

[BigTimePlayer]

Well you kind of know if a girl is faithful or not when you've been together for a while. But you still don't know for sure. If there is any suspicion then it could happen, but you will likely see some red flags or know what's up.

Well, what type of suspicion/red flags are there usually? Like going out at night a lot more than usual? Or staying at work extra late a lot more? I've heard of some women even slooting it up at work with their co-worker during their lunch break. Women seem to be sneaky as fuk about this stuff.

[eod8989]

Well, what type of suspicion/red flags are there usually? Like going out at night a lot more than usual? Or staying at work extra late a lot more? I've heard of some women even slooting it up at work with their co-worker during their lunch break. Women seem to be sneaky as fuk about this stuff.

I personally saw it happen at my last job in the parking lot lol. But yeah stuff like that. Also if she is more distant, less sex, stops saying i love you etc.

[2RDEYE]

happy FA weekend brahs...just kidding. i decided to work through my weekend, too ****in depressing sitting home. i know girls are getting fuked and guys are getting sucked tonight, tomorrow night, and the night afterwards. mother****ers

[mattburley7]

happy FA weekend brahs...just kidding. i decided to work through my weekend, too ****in depressing sitting home. i know girls are getting fuked and guys are getting sucked tonight, tomorrow night, and the night afterwards. mother****ers

Yeah and I’m sitting her rotting away voluntarily.

[eod8989]

Man the days are just so hard to get through. Im off til Tuesday and there is literally nothing for me to do. My back hurts from just sitting around the house all day

[2RDEYE]

Yeah and I’m sitting her rotting away voluntarily.

yeah actually i'm gonna be doing that all weekend too. i forgot public transit doesn't work on weekends and i dont have a car so i can't get to work on weekends. fml. gonna just be rotting. long weekend here because we have thanksgiving monday god damn it

Man the days are just so hard to get through. Im off til Tuesday and there is literally nothing for me to do. My back hurts from just sitting around the house all day

yeah i'm off til tuesday too fukkk

worked 55 hours this week, i would work the entire weekend too just to have something to keep my mind engaged on something else besides misery, but can't get to work.

[eod8989]

yeah actually i'm gonna be doing that all weekend too. i forgot public transit doesn't work on weekends and i dont have a car so i can't get to work on weekends. fml. gonna just be rotting. long weekend here because we have thanksgiving monday god damn it



yeah i'm off til tuesday too fukkk

worked 55 hours this week, i would work the entire weekend too just to have something to keep my mind engaged on something else besides misery, but can't get to work.

I used to work 6 or 7 days a week at my old job. Can't do that where i work now though. Man i've been sitting here since 6 am refreshing the misc and ****in with my weather software. Can't go anywhere cuz it has been raining. This life is garbage

[mattburley7]

Not rotting today for once in my life. I haven’t been home since 6am lol and won’t be home till probably late tonight busy helping my parents and still have to get in a gym session sometime today or tonight. I mostly have nothing to do at nights during the week accept for the gym. Life sucks

[2RDEYE]

i know men having no car is the worst
feeling in the fuking world i get mad as **** when i see a beatiful girl in a expensive car

we are looked down upon by everyone. we don't even count as "men" in our society.

[eod8989]

6 am and i'm already ready for bed. Just been sitting here since 6 am on the computer

[2RDEYE]

i tried sleeping in for the first time. i woke up at 5am, then went back to sleep all the way to 2pm, and now i have an extremely bad migraine. i just read that sleeping in does that. driving me insane. literally can't do anything because eyes so blurry

[mattburley7]

Going to be at home by myself rotting soon at the gym now by myself

I should be used to doing things by myself now but I’m not and it sucks. I just don’t know what to do to get out of being non social with people.

[eod8989]

Going to be at home by myself rotting soon at the gym now by myself

I should be used to doing things by myself now but I’m not and it sucks. I just don’t know what to do to get out of being non social with people.

Yeah i don't know. I have never been that social (except when i was drinking and smoking), but right now it's like i'm completely anti social. Almost like i want to be alone. If someone that i had interest in came up and talked to me i would talk back. But it's just been so long since i've met anyone that i like that i've just given up i guess. I don't know how you can just meet someone randomly when you don't have any connections either. There's just no way of doing anything like this. I swear everyone i talk to i just have no interest in. I don't talk to that many people but the few people i have spoken to i just can't see them as a friend and can't relate to them on a personal level. It's so weird.

[mattburley7]

My problem also is I live in a small town where there is seriously nothing to do. People don’t party, have sex, go out and do things really. The only thing there really is to do Is go to the gym, a movie, dinner or shopping. There really isn’t any clubs or chit to meet people at.

[KRANE]

i tried sleeping in for the first time. i woke up at 5am, then went back to sleep all the way to 2pm, and now i have an extremely bad migraine. i just read that sleeping in does that. driving me insane. literally can't do anything because eyes so blurry

Ditto. But have you had your morning...ahem, afternoon coffee? I might drop by the supermarket and get some coffee or just pop a caffeine tab instead. I need to do some reading and some research, so hopefully that will break me out of the similar slump you're in. Although I don't suffer from migraines but I do have a bit of brain fog. Stay tuned, I'll report back on the progress.

Going to be at home by myself rotting soon at the gym now by myself

I should be used to doing things by myself now but I’m not and it sucks. I just don’t know what to do to get out of being non social with people.

Not sure why this is an issue so often; being sociable is a choice. If people engage me you shouldn't have any problems here.

You can start by finding someone or something about them and giving them a compliment. That's the intro. They will either respond or they won't. Remember the old adage, nothing ventured, nothing gained.

Yeah i don't know. I have never been that social (except when i was drinking and smoking), but right now it's like i'm completely anti social. Almost like i want to be alone. If someone that i had interest in came up and talked to me i would talk back. But it's just been so long since i've met anyone that i like that i've just given up i guess. I don't know how you can just meet someone randomly when you don't have any connections either. There's just no way of doing anything like this. I swear everyone i talk to i just have no interest in. I don't talk to that many people but the few people i have spoken to i just can't see them as a friend and can't relate to them on a personal level. It's so weird.

Yes, you are weird. But you're talking to us now.

[eod8989]

My problem also is I live in a small town where there is seriously nothing to do. People don’t party, have sex, go out and do things really. The only thing there really is to do Is go to the gym, a movie, dinner or shopping. There really isn’t any clubs or chit to meet people at.

How small of a town? I live in a town of 45k people and there is nothing to do. All anyone does here is drink on the weekends

[mattburley7]

^^24k so smaller then your town. We have more then one gym though. Apparently I’ve been told the one gym you don’t want to go to unless your looking for a hookup. Still isn’t anyone to hang out with and do stuff with in this town. Where I work it’s a different story it’s one of the biggest towns in Minnesota. Minneapolis. Still I only go there for work not to meet people plus it’s more then an hour drive. I take transit which only runs during work hours.

[eod8989]

Ditto. But have you had your morning...ahem, afternoon coffee? I might drop by the supermarket and get some coffee or just pop a caffeine tab instead. I need to do some reading and some research, so hopefully that will break me out of the similar slump you're in. Although I don't suffer from migraines but I do have a bit of brain fog. Stay tuned, I'll report back on the progress.Not sure why this is an issue so often; being sociable is a choice. If people engage me you shouldn't have any problems here.

You can start by finding someone or something about them and giving them a compliment. That's the intro. They will either respond or they won't. Remember the old adage, nothing ventured, nothing gained.Yes, you are weird. But you're talking to us now.

I can talk to people on the internet. And i can talk to people who have depression. But i can't relate to normal people. They are just way too happy and energetic for me. It's hard for me to even have a convo with a person, let alone hang with them and do what they do. I don't know what makes these people that always have a smile on their face and talk to people so happy.