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04-25-2024, 12:09 PM #91
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04-25-2024, 12:12 PM #92
If you say so bro, up to each of us to make the rules for their reboot. As we've talked about I'm mainly focused on quitting pron, removing fapping too but I'm not gonna be ruthless with myself on that as the main battle is pron.
Obviously you've expressed concern about chronic masturbation so I'm sure you'd probably focus on cutting that out over pron. You'd be misguided but ultimately it's your choice to set your own goals
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04-25-2024, 01:03 PM #105
Ah ok feel bit bad mugging you off so much now didn't realise you're older than me. Probably explains our different views as you probably don't understand what it's like watching high speed internet pron when you're like 11. Leaves you much more vulnerable to addiction
I'd ask how old you are but I'm scared of that answer cos I saw you joined in 2013 lmao
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04-26-2024, 07:23 AM #119
Day 41 - Feeling better socialising so far today. More confident but mainly I enjoyed it more, I felt an urge to engage rather than avoid. To be fair, this may be because I feel free at the job now because I know I'm leaving but I doubt it - think it would be easy for me to feel anxious about that instead.
Had a dream last night where I relapsed. I actually can't remember the details but I remember I thought that I would just start again and most importantly avoid bingeing, I even thought about posting on here lmao. Quite a healthy response from dream me. Of course I did feel quite relieved when I woke up and realised it was just a dream.
Wanted to list some improvements as I know I've just been focusing on the withdrawals really. Don't get me wrong that has been the main experience so far but there are also some aspects that have got better:
- balls 100% hang lower now and feel a lot bigger. I swear they used to get so close to my body, sometimes the ball would actually go into my body, and the sack would really constrict. Now they hang low basically all the time, feel bigger, and look a lot healthier in my opinion. This seems pretty obvious, was over ejaculating before and this is obviously going to impact the testículos
- Some improvements socially. Nothing major but things like today. Also little experience with cashier last week. Just subtle changes at certain times where I feel comfortable and effortless, but also an increasing desire to participate. Definitely up and down on this front though
- Posting on here funnily enough. I haven't felt the urge to join an internet forum since I was an early teen. Whilst it obviously isn't a big deal, I do take it as a sign of social anxiety improving. Before I would be uninterested in posting but the main thing that would have stopped me was that I saw it as somehow risky and made me anxious. Stupid of course but just shows how corrosive the anxiety is
- More emotionally sensitive. I've not cried for more than 8 years. I still haven't on this reboot either but there have been a couple of times where I've got closer. Remember listening to music whilst walking on day 20 something and really feeling quite potent melancholy. Flip side is true too, good news has given me a bigger rush. Not been inundated with good news so far haha but have noticed it.
- In the past year or two I've started getting acne on my forehead and side of my face. It's not awful but it's basically been the case that my face is never clear. This is weird because I actually never suffered with acne during puberty. On this reboot there have been signs that it's clearing. Slowly it seems to be fading, skin feels better there, and I've so far not got any new spots to replace the old ones. Plenty of guys have reported this, I don't really understand why and in truth I didn't believe them. But it's definitely something I've noticed.
- Probably placebo but swear I'm developing muscle easier. I've not hit the gym very hard during this reboot yet my muscles feel like they stay pumped for longer. Plus I actually do have a six pack in certain lights, this was true before the reboot TBF as I was hitting abs workout hard but them I've barely exercised abs past few weeks. Plus ive been eating like chit. Likely this is just my mentality shifting rather than actual physical changes but that's still a positive
- Already showing more sensitivity sexually. Completely expected but now a simple pair of tits will excite me a lot, before I was so desensitised that I needed proper hardcore chit to get me going and even then it was quite dulled. Now a nice ass in public will give me a rush. Not all the time tbf as also definitely had periods where my libido's gone and I don't physically react to women
- Flashes of improved mood and confidence in the midst of the withdrawals
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04-26-2024, 07:25 AM #120
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