[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part II

[benrhyno1989]

Btw I remember I saw some people trash talking this thread a few weeks back.

This thread is probably the single most important thing in my life right now. Without it, I would be lying about for 22 hours a day in my room thinking about how I am the loneliest guy in the world with constant butterflies in my stomach, you know the feel. It is nice to know there are others fighting the same battle on your side, and it gives me at least a few minutes per day of hope to read comments from people who care.

Just keep going mate, every day completed is another achievement for some of us right now. This thread is now the only reason I come to the misc to try and support others like me and get support when I need it.

[InstantLoser]

I gained back probably all the weight I lost (or close). Started again from square one today.. fat as fukc. I retained most of my muscle though.. can still do ~6 pullups. I'm guessing I'm around 340lbs again. Christ I hate being fat. Women are not 'mirin. Women weren't 'mirin before, but now they're really not 'mirin. Turning 37 on the 30th.. still hating life and self loathing.

I'm tired all the time.. I just want to sleep.

[axiom15]

I gained back probably all the weight I lost (or close). Started again from square one today.. fat as fukc. I retained most of my muscle though.. can still do ~6 pullups. I'm guessing I'm around 340lbs again. Christ I hate being fat. Women are not 'mirin. Women weren't 'mirin before, but now they're really not 'mirin. Turning 37 on the 30th.. still hating life and self loathing.

I'm tired all the time.. I just want to sleep.

If you're being super strict with dieting back off a bit fella, I'm not sure how you do things but you need to have fun with this. Don't ever let yourself be negatively impacted from something you're supposed to be doing out of love (maybe). If you need help with dieting or anything let me know.

[Jallalabadbad]

Is everyone in this thread aware of the app Meetup?

If you live in a reasonably sized city there are tons of social meet ups and groups you can go to, it's worth doing as you never know who you might meet.

[InstantLoser]

If you're being super strict with dieting back off a bit fella, I'm not sure how you do things but you need to have fun with this. Don't ever let yourself be negatively impacted from something you're supposed to be doing out of love (maybe). If you need help with dieting or anything let me know.

I'm trying to lose weight out of a desire to be less of a fat fukc and maybe occasionally attract members of the opposite sex.

[axiom15]

Is everyone in this thread aware of the app Meetup?

If you live in a reasonably sized city there are tons of social meet ups and groups you can go to, it's worth doing as you never know who you might meet.

Inb4 murdered on bike trail

I'm trying to lose weight out of a desire to be less of a fat fukc and maybe occasionally attract members of the opposite sex.

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Obviously fella, but what I mean is stop being so strict. Don't eat chicken and broccoli every day, etc. Love your life, regardless of how ****ty it is. Fitness and health is a long term journey

[Nicklol]

Is everyone in this thread aware of the app Meetup?

If you live in a reasonably sized city there are tons of social meet ups and groups you can go to, it's worth doing as you never know who you might meet.

I literally signed up like 2 days ago.. most of the meetups are 90% men though.
I want to meet a woman because online dating doesnt work for me and I dont drink, so no bars or clubs..

so fukn lonely man

[OneBigFiasco]

I literally signed up like 2 days ago.. most of the meetups are 90% men though.
I want to meet a woman because online dating doesnt work for me and I dont drink, so no bars or clubs..

so fukn lonely man

Your problems with women aren't your looks and may not even be your shyness. It's probably your location. Canada and US are probably the worst places in the world for men in the dating scene. You probably wouldn't have any problems getting a woman in places like Poland or Eastern Europe. I've seen like 5 of your pictures and your about a 5/10. If I was in your situation I would probably get a hooker just to give u a little boost.

And you said you had family problems earlier, do you think that had an impact on you developing an introvert personality?. You don't have to reply, just curious.

[miscerzhatehim]

self awareness is a curse

[2RDEYE]

man this feeling at depression is so different from how i usually am. i just noticed this. i think i'm feeling crisis symptoms. like i'm feeling dizzy all the time and i know i'm not sick. i feel really psychotic or some sense of dysphoria. i don't know how to explain it but mentally i feel really different than just usual depression. i feel like my world is just spinning and no i'm not on drugs.

[300BLK]

I literally signed up like 2 days ago.. most of the meetups are 90% men though.
I want to meet a woman because online dating doesnt work for me and I dont drink, so no bars or clubs..

so fukn lonely man

Most people only turn to online dating when their locals look bad. It isn't their first choice. Why do you refuse to drink? I don't get it. Going to bars and clubs are like the standard to getting laid as an adult. Everyone is aware of the health risk of drinking alcohol if that is your reason. Alcohol is good in moderation though, like most things. It's a good way to loosen up, have fun. Girls become a lot easier too when you get them drunk. You generally become more comfortable around girls, and it's much easier to click and move in on them.

I honestly don't want to hear the excuses man, in fact they don't even make sense. Saying no to bars, clubs, and other social gatherings is like saying, "I want to meet women, but I don't want to find them".

[darwinia]

You brahs complaining about not having a gf and being FA making you depressed - take it from me you need to be happy with yourself before you get a girlfriend. I became depressed and unhappy with myself in my relationship and she became my sole source of happiness. When she finally left me I felt like all the happiness in the world was ripped from me. Now I am back at square one learning how to be happy with myself again. Your relationship with anyone will fail unless you are happy with yourself. Sort out your depression then seek a relationship - and if you ever find yourself depressed in a relationship then get it treated or you will lose them!

[InstantLoser]

You brahs complaining about not having a gf and being FA making you depressed - take it from me you need to be happy with yourself before you get a girlfriend. I became depressed and unhappy with myself in my relationship and she became my sole source of happiness. When she finally left me I felt like all the happiness in the world was ripped from me. Now I am back at square one learning how to be happy with myself again. Your relationship with anyone will fail unless you are happy with yourself. Sort out your depression then seek a relationship - and if you ever find yourself depressed in a relationship then get it treated or you will lose them!

You need a reason to be happy. I've never been happy "just because". I don't know anyone like that. The idea that a woman isn't going to make you happy may be true, but just being happy "for its own sake" is nonsense.

[benrhyno1989]

man this feeling at depression is so different from how i usually am. i just noticed this. i think i'm feeling crisis symptoms. like i'm feeling dizzy all the time and i know i'm not sick. i feel really psychotic or some sense of dysphoria. i don't know how to explain it but mentally i feel really different than just usual depression. i feel like my world is just spinning and no i'm not on drugs.

this is what I felt like 2 days ago when I tried to hurt myself. Get out of the house or with some friends or if that fails go out for a coffee and try to calm down. Failing that, emergency room asap

[Jallalabadbad]

I literally signed up like 2 days ago.. most of the meetups are 90% men though.
I want to meet a woman because online dating doesnt work for me and I dont drink, so no bars or clubs..

so fukn lonely man

Guys have friends though, expanding your social circle is one of the best ways to meet new women.

[jizzfarmer]

Brahs, what's your opinion on when people say suicide is the coward's way out? I dunno brahs, it seems like it takes a lot of balls to actually go through with it. Wish I had the balls to go through with it mane I always pussy out.

[axiom15]

Brahs, what's your opinion on when people say suicide is the coward's way out? I dunno brahs, it seems like it takes a lot of balls to actually go through with it. Wish I had the balls to go through with it mane I always pussy out.

The same people that say that dumb **** are the same ones that say "man up". IMO they should admire the amount of courage it takes to do something like that, as ****ed up as that sounds. If anyone ever told me that I'd blow my brains out in front of them.

[axiom15]

Wish I was happy

[benrhyno1989]

Brahs, what's your opinion on when people say suicide is the coward's way out? I dunno brahs, it seems like it takes a lot of balls to actually go through with it. Wish I had the balls to go through with it mane I always pussy out.

It took me a hell of a lot to get as far as I did, and was certainly not acting out of cowardice. What I wanted was an escape from my body being in agony 24/7, and the inside of my head being like a constant tornado and earthquake all the time with some despair and pure sadness/hopelessness. Death would be just a side-effect, what I wanted was a break, or escape from he pain, both physical and mental

[MrDevereaux]

It took me a hell of a lot to get as far as I did, and was certainly not acting out of cowardice. What I wanted was an escape from my body being in agony 24/7, and the inside of my head being like a constant tornado and earthquake all the time with some despair and pure sadness/hopelessness. Death would be just a side-effect, what I wanted was a break, or escape from he pain, both physical and mental

Agreed, it's not a coward's way out. Just lol that those same people would have to admit that it takes courage to skydive or free solo climb or be a firefighter and maybe have a 1% chance of dying but it's cowardice to actually end your own life. I don't think death is less scary for those who choose to end their own lives, they have just reached a point where going on living is too painful and nobody has been able to help them.

That said, please don't kill yourselves brahs.

Started on a new med (mirtazapine) yesterday. Was told it would make me feel drowsy which I laughed off because I'm used to benzos but man, it really is sedating. Really hope it's going to help with depression as well as just make me feel really groggy.

[2RDEYE]

Brahs, what's your opinion on when people say suicide is the coward's way out? I dunno brahs, it seems like it takes a lot of balls to actually go through with it. Wish I had the balls to go through with it mane I always pussy out.

i don't think suicide is cowardly, but i don't think it's a solution for depression either. because once you're gone that's it. you don't exist anymore, anywhere. nothing was solved. but it is an option like any other, if someone i knew commits suicide, i respect their decision, that was their choice to make. i wouldn't think "why would this person do this?..." i would think "i will really miss this person..."

it's different if you have some life-threatening disease and you have only a month to live or something however.

i think there are times when suicide is a solution. like you're being tortured, or will be tortured, or are a sex slave/consistent victim of rape, or are going to prison for life. to commit suicide in those conditions is definitely not cowardly, that would be bravery in my opinion.

[miscerzhatehim]

nvm, im suddenly not depressed anymore. i've just realized that life is too short to worry about stupid sh!t

[MrDevereaux]

nvm, im suddenly not depressed anymore. i've just realized that life is too short to worry about stupid sh!t

If only the cure for depression were that simple brah........ but glad you're feeling better.

[2RDEYE]

omg f*ck new years. usually it's never packed in the morning in my gym and i can workout in peace but god damn, now it's like all these gym rat cocky chit east indians cooking up a chat room in there, in the god damn morning. i fuking hate them. ruin my only favorite time of the day. every time, i'd like to say i have nothing against east indians but they're always fuking chatting it up and acting all gangster, hogging the equipment and chit. it's always the east indians. the gym is literally my only "sanctuary" time, it's like a temple for me to meditate and let go of all my emotions. and now they f*cked it.

[MrDevereaux]

omg f*ck new years. usually it's never packed in the morning in my gym and i can workout in peace but god damn, now it's like all these gym rat cocky chit east indians cooking up a chat room in there, in the god damn morning. i fuking hate them. ruin my only favorite time of the day. every time, i'd like to say i have nothing against east indians but they're always fuking chatting it up and acting all gangster, hogging the equipment and chit. it's always the east indians. the gym is literally my only "sanctuary" time, it's like a temple for me to meditate and let go of all my emotions. and now they f*cked it.

I really hope it's not going to last too long and they're just doing it as a New Years resolution or something. I hate those loud, obnoxious types too. This is one reason I only run outside now, because I'm guaranteed not to have to put up with annoying people.

[2RDEYE]

I really hope it's not going to last too long and they're just doing it as a New Years resolution or something. I hate those loud, obnoxious types too. This is one reason I only run outside now, because I'm guaranteed not to have to put up with annoying people.

it's ridiculous. inside the gym is the only place where i don't feel cynical and sad because i'm letting out so much anger through my lifts, and i don't have to deal with people. but now, it's all f*cked up. i had to skip some exercises, because these fuks were gangbanging all the equipment. anyways that's enough of my venting, just needed to get it out. i think the next relief i'm going to turn to are my MJ edibles. i have no other relief, if not the gym.

[bongowongo]

Gonna start hitting the from saturday (closed on fridays lol) .. Ever since the new year, I've slacked off hard. Having a horrible diet and just not exercising, feel like chit and I know I must have packed on a couple lbs because even prior to the new year I havnt been doing as much cardio as I should for my cut.



Hope you bros have been feeling better though, I've had a bit of a turn around .... My mood has taken a slightly upward trajectory and kind of stayed there in neutral, so I'm not feeling as horrible as I was few weeks ago, but I'm not genuinely "happy", I'm just having a bit of a positive mind set and basically just able to function irl without feeling like utter chit. I dont really put any stock into this whole shtick, but so far this new year has been somewhat kind to me and I feel like things are looking up. Hope it continues for me and all of us.

[MrDevereaux]

Gonna start hitting the from saturday (closed on fridays lol) .. Ever since the new year, I've slacked off hard. Having a horrible diet and just not exercising, feel like chit and I know I must have packed on a couple lbs because even prior to the new year I havnt been doing as much cardio as I should for my cut.



Hope you bros have been feeling better though, I've had a bit of a turn around .... My mood has taken a slightly upward trajectory and kind of stayed there in neutral, so I'm not feeling as horrible as I was few weeks ago, but I'm not genuinely "happy", I'm just having a bit of a positive mind set and basically just able to function irl without feeling like utter chit. I dont really put any stock into this whole shtick, but so far this new year has been somewhat kind to me and I feel like things are looking up. Hope it continues for me and all of us.

Thanks bro and glad to hear you're feeling a bit better. At the moment I just want to be at the 'life isn't unbearable' stage. But then I know when I'm at that stage I'll want to feel good and when I feel good I'll want to feel really good, which has gotten me into trouble many times in the past. More wants more I guess.

2rdEye - I hope those *******s stay away from your gym. Jelly of you enjoying the edibles, my neurochemistry is now so f***ed that taking stuff which used to be guaranteed euphoria now actually produces a dysphoric effect. Benzos are the only drug I seem to be able to tolerate and they don't make me feel good as such, just less bad. But my use was starting to spiral so I'm trying to take a good long break from those. I think the Remeron will help with that as it's knocking me out at the moment.

[benrhyno1989]

Thanks bro and glad to hear you're feeling a bit better. At the moment I just want to be at the 'life isn't unbearable' stage. But then I know when I'm at that stage I'll want to feel good and when I feel good I'll want to feel really good, which has gotten me into trouble many times in the past. More wants more I guess.

2rdEye - I hope those *******s stay away from your gym. Jelly of you enjoying the edibles, my neurochemistry is now so f***ed that taking stuff which used to be guaranteed euphoria now actually produces a dysphoric effect. Benzos are the only drug I seem to be able to tolerate and they don't make me feel good as such, just less bad. But my use was starting to spiral so I'm trying to take a good long break from those. I think the Remeron will help with that as it's knocking me out at the moment.

nice quote a fellow suicide survivor told me today -
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem

stay strong

[PisseninMisc]

That feel when some hardcore feelings hit on January 2nd after a weekend of partying with your old crew.

That feel when miss work two days in a row crawled up in bed and tell your GF who's trying to help you out of it to fuk off.

But also that feel when you've been there before so you crawl out of there and say: fuk this chit. I know the right thing to do. It may feel terrible, but I know this won't last. I HAVE TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT.

That feel when you get back to work and answer the 51 emails and get the ball rolling to fix it tomorrow morning.

That feel when gonno cook a wholesome feast tonight and be back at the gym tomorrow.

Just figured I share these thoughts with you bros. We're all gonno make it. Trust in your experience and in choices in the past that made you feel good, even if it feels like you're in the bottom of that pit right this moment. It will get better. Go out and get that chit done boyo.