ALCOHOLICS: RECOVERY & FITNESS (Serious Only Please)

[JRT6]

I don't have cable tv so I took my daughter to the local bar and grill to watch the ND game. She had rootbeer and I had water.

[muttytwist]

September is the official national recovery month and a banquet will be happening tomorrow with the Mayor and a few other guest speakers.
As well as the largest recovery cake ever made.

I'd like to think its all about me

It is all about you, recovery is always about you

[muttytwist]

I don't have cable tv so I took my daughter to the local bar and grill to watch the ND game. She had rootbeer and I had water.

I have 1 chanel, I wacth the game on the internet. Congrats on the water.

[Blacksmith80]

Nine months sober today. Good luck to everybody who are apstinating.

[JRT6]

I have 1 chanel, I wacth the game on the internet. Congrats on the water.

Where at on the internet? I can't find a site that doesn't charge big for games. The internet goes through my TV and I have Netflix and all that so I would love to get some games on it.

[JRT6]

It's my birthday.

I woke up crying. That used to be a regular occurrence but not recently so it's more troubling that usual. The bad and bizarre dreams have been making a comeback lately.

My house will be empty and I'm on my own till 1530. My goal is to not stick anything in my mouth that I shouldn't be.

[krete77]

NICE!

keep it up man!

Thanks for your support!

No problem.

13 years for me this sunday.

There will be cake

Wow. 13 years is a LONG time buddy. What's it like going for that long? And do you have to stay aware of yourself all the time since you could potentially just have that '1' drink?

Nine months sober today. Good luck to everybody who are apstinating.

Good job man.

[muttytwist]

It's my birthday.

I woke up crying. That used to be a regular occurrence but not recently so it's more troubling that usual. The bad and bizarre dreams have been making a comeback lately.

My house will be empty and I'm on my own till 1530. My goal is to not stick anything in my mouth that I shouldn't be.

Wishing you some strength today. Somethings are hard to deal with ( with your background it's real hard). On another note, I use lshunter ( google it) for live sports. Some of the games come through from England, so the commentary gets weird.

[muttytwist]

Nine months sober today. Good luck to everybody who are apstinating.

Congrats! One day at a time, and then they add up.

[BringerOfRain]

Congrats on the anniversaries guys!

[JRT6]

Wishing you some strength today. Somethings are hard to deal with ( with your background it's real hard). On another note, I use lshunter ( google it) for live sports. Some of the games come through from England, so the commentary gets weird.

Kewl. I got off track but compared to the last few years my derailment was minor by anyone's definition. I'm getting there.

[Gooner89]

So I feel completely ridiculous posting here as a 23 year-old but someone from the misc recommended it. No idea if I am in the right place so bare with me i'll copy/paste the post I made in the normal misc. If this is not the area for this please inform me I am just seeking help.


Posted earlier in a different thread about my 3 best friends dying from a DD 2 years ago. Recently my gf of a year broke up with me because of my alcoholism and I don't know what to do. I feel partially responsible for their deaths as I went to the party with them that they left and feel like I could have stopped them. Ironically I feel as if drinking is my only escape from this but I know it is not the answer. I talked about my Dad dying on this forum and some responses really helped me so I decided I might as well try it again. Any experiences on how to deal with this? Every morning I wake up and I think about all of them. I can't let them go and I break down very often in front of crowds. It has gotten so bad I drink alone at my house because I feel better/can express my emotions and I can't hurt anyone that way. I know this isn't very rational thinking but I don't know what to do. Any advice would be great. I drink at least 5 times a week to near blackout drunk to forget things and it isn't healthy.

[sydneyfit]

man try AA ive been clean and sober for over 2yrs now and I couldn't be happier.I spent 30yrs as a daily drunk and drug user and never considered that there might be something wrong with that.
AA has given me a chance to live a new healthier life and for that I will always be grateful,lots of things have changed in my life because my sobriety is all about change.check it out you might find it helpful,I know it works for me and lots of others just go and see what they have.
THINGS CAN GET BETTER....

[JRT6]

23 is an age where you don't want to waste your youth and then have to deal with a life of regret. Not thinking clearly makes it impossible to see things for what they really are. Thats were therapy and maybe medications come in. They take things down a notch so you can see what you're really facing so you can make the changes you need to make to be able to deal with problems.

A general story I want to relate:

Some things you will have to work on for a long time and maybe the rest of your life. Yesterday my wife kept showing annoyance with everything I said and did because she was tired and grumpy from work and her fatigue problems. So I felt rejected and got caught in the anger loop. I can't get out of that no matter what I do, I can just try not to make things worse until I calm down enough and realize that she is entitled to her bad days and I need to make allowance. At least I need to learn to just focus on something else for awhile and not let someone else determine my day.

I didn't go to the bar which is what I used to do when this happens so the shame and guilt I feel this morning isn't overwhelming.

What caused this anger loop? Feeling like I can't control what happened. My wife gets very defensive when critized so I feel I can't address the problem with her and this just perpetuates the problem. My counselor told me to talk anyway and accept the improvements and the things that won't change. That's where seeing things for what they are can change expectations and the way you respond to stress.

[209vaughn]

So I feel completely ridiculous posting here as a 23 year-old but someone from the misc recommended it. No idea if I am in the right place so bare with me i'll copy/paste the post I made in the normal misc. If this is not the area for this please inform me I am just seeking help.


Posted earlier in a different thread about my 3 best friends dying from a DD 2 years ago. Recently my gf of a year broke up with me because of my alcoholism and I don't know what to do. I feel partially responsible for their deaths as I went to the party with them that they left and feel like I could have stopped them. Ironically I feel as if drinking is my only escape from this but I know it is not the answer. I talked about my Dad dying on this forum and some responses really helped me so I decided I might as well try it again. Any experiences on how to deal with this? Every morning I wake up and I think about all of them. I can't let them go and I break down very often in front of crowds. It has gotten so bad I drink alone at my house because I feel better/can express my emotions and I can't hurt anyone that way. I know this isn't very rational thinking but I don't know what to do. Any advice would be great. I drink at least 5 times a week to near blackout drunk to forget things and it isn't healthy.

I feel your pain - i've been in a deep in a pit of mysery myself before. Cant imagine another day drinking, hell cant imagine a day not drinking. Before you consider death I would recommened you check out AA or a 30 in-patient rehab program. Take some time off and surround yourself with people who've gone through what you're going through right now.

[Big_Sky_Guy]

You're in a tough place Goon. There is help. AA and other places. You have experienced tragic loss and are in some phase of mourning. Maybe even dealing with some PTSD from loosing them.

It would be worth visiting with a medical professional. They will have some good ideas on how to walk through the pain and other feelings associated with loosing so many important people.

You can get through this. It will be tough. But you can.

[sfuller94]

My company is having a mixer today and they'll be serving beer. I'm feeling a lot of anxiety about the thought of attending so I'm staying at my desk and continuing to work. I've already proven to myself that 1 beer can turn into 12 beers. With the thought that I can't trust myself I'm feeling really weird in accepting that fact.

[krete77]

Very strange feeling came over me today while I was at the library. I totally got this feeling of thinking I could just drink again and it wouldn't matter. My mind had totally given up on alcohol, and I was ready to drink. Had I been in a situation where I could drink, I would have. Pretty frightening. I never really knew I was ever addicted to alcohol.. (been 44 days free I think)

[apujols24]

I feel like a complete waste posting in this thread because I am only 18, but I could not find any similar ones in the teen section. Just came to post that it really makes me feeling good that other people are sharing a similar problem AND enjoy weightlifting also. I can a recovering opiate addict (heroin) its amazing this all started because I got pain killers for getting my wisdom teeth out. Weightlifting is the main thing that has given me motivation to stay clean. I am only on day 6 clean, but since I've started college I have only used 3 times in the last 23 days. This is a big improvement from when I was using at least twice a day for the last 10 months. I know this is an alcohol recovery thread, but I figured maybe we could squeeze some narcotics/ opiates in here also because there isn't another thread that I found. See you guys later, happy lifting and continue to enjoy the sober life!

[cowboybiker]

My company is having a mixer today and they'll be serving beer. I'm feeling a lot of anxiety about the thought of attending so I'm staying at my desk and continuing to work. I've already proven to myself that 1 beer can turn into 12 beers. With the thought that I can't trust myself I'm feeling really weird in accepting that fact.

Sometimes in recovery we feel like we are alone in this struggle.
You have a support group in here and many of us have had to go through similar struggles.
I know that feeling all to well at work.
Watching games at friends houses.
Picnics and BBQ's
The easiest way for me is to make sure that I let everyone know that I dont drink and if they push it I let them know why and how dangerous it would be for them if I do

Very strange feeling came over me today while I was at the library. I totally got this feeling of thinking I could just drink again and it wouldn't matter. My mind had totally given up on alcohol, and I was ready to drink. Had I been in a situation where I could drink, I would have. Pretty frightening. I never really knew I was ever addicted to alcohol.. (been 44 days free I think)

Congrats on 44 days.
I have had similar feelings even after years of not drinking and using.
After awhile I just realize that it is a reminder of where I've been and who I am.
Play the tape forward in your head as to where one drink will take you.
You might not like where it goes.

I feel like a complete waste posting in this thread because I am only 18, but I could not find any similar ones in the teen section. Just came to post that it really makes me feeling good that other people are sharing a similar problem AND enjoy weightlifting also. I can a recovering opiate addict (heroin) its amazing this all started because I got pain killers for getting my wisdom teeth out. Weightlifting is the main thing that has given me motivation to stay clean. I am only on day 6 clean, but since I've started college I have only used 3 times in the last 23 days. This is a big improvement from when I was using at least twice a day for the last 10 months. I know this is an alcohol recovery thread, but I figured maybe we could squeeze some narcotics/ opiates in here also because there isn't another thread that I found. See you guys later, happy lifting and continue to enjoy the sober life!

Many of us here are dual addicted.
Myself included.
Meth is my first choice.
Age has nothing to do with posting in here just like the addiction doesnt care how old or young you are.
Congrats on 6 days.
That in itself brings strength and hope to many of us.
The newcomer is most important, because we old timers can only keep what we have by giving it away.
Feel free to share in here anytime and as often as you need to.
It is a struggle that we have all had to go through and we are willing to help as best we can.

[CollegeTuss14]

Been sober for 10 days now. Decided to quit making excuses and give it up. I drank at least 4-5 times a week during my four years in college (just graduated in May). I always chalked it up to being part of the college experience and told myself I could give it up whenever I wanted. I was wrong. I tried setting limits when going out but 2 beers always seemed to turn into 12.

I've been getting more serious with lifting as well as my future and came to the realization that drinking has been dragging me down. I'm sick of waking up not remembering anything and wasting a whole day laying in bed hungover. Thanks for hearing me out. Good luck to all.

[boathead]

and good luck to you! i was not fortunate enough to admit my problem at your age. you've been give a real gift. with some perserverence, patience, and perhaps a little help from your "friends", you can live a life better than you might believe.

or, you can f things up left and right. it's up to you.

today marks my 9th anniversary of the day i was released from re-hab. i was still a frightened child, at the age of 42, but for some reason i had some hope. i hadn't had any of that previously.

still sober today!

[chodan9]

glad you are deciding to make a change in your life CollegeTuss14
I got clean and sober at the age of 24, and I am extremely glad I didn't have to waste decades figuring it out.
I am in this world, one of its most blessed.

[CollegeTuss14]

and good luck to you! i was not fortunate enough to admit my problem at your age. you've been give a real gift. with some perserverence, patience, and perhaps a little help from your "friends", you can live a life better than you might believe.

or, you can f things up left and right. it's up to you.

today marks my 9th anniversary of the day i was released from re-hab. i was still a frightened child, at the age of 42, but for some reason i had some hope. i hadn't had any of that previously.

still sober today!

glad you are deciding to make a change in your life CollegeTuss14
I got clean and sober at the age of 24, and I am extremely glad I didn't have to waste decades figuring it out.
I am in this world, one of its most blessed.

Thanks for the encouragement!! Its definitely going to be a challenge but one that I feel I can handle. It's tough sitting there on Sundays watching football and not slamming down beers like usual. It is nice to actually remember the whole game for a change though.

[cowboybiker]

Having some old anger issuse pop up today.

Just a reminder that Im still a work in progress

[apujols24]

Having some old anger issuse pop up today.

Just a reminder that Im still a work in progress

Keep staying strong my friend. I've relapsed once since in here (day 6).. But currently on day 11 and feeling good. Not going back now, been staying up at college to stay away from the environment back home.

[chodan9]

Having some old anger issuse pop up today.

Just a reminder that Im still a work in progress

just when you think you have that sh!t locked down it rears its ugly head again lol.
usually when you least expect it.

[JRT6]

Having some old anger issuse pop up today.

Just a reminder that Im still a work in progress

You're one of the most positive people that I know of.

Yesterday was a high anxiety day (as opposed to my usual daily anxiety) and that was combined with too much caffiene made me pretty short tempered. I went to BJJ last night and instead of coming out of it emotionaly spent I was really worked up. Took it out a bit on my kids too when they were misbehaving.

My doctor says that when I stop trying to get people to behave and act the way I want them too I will save myself a whole of grief and resentment.

[cowboybiker]

You're one of the most positive people that I know of.

Yesterday was a high anxiety day (as opposed to my usual daily anxiety) and that was combined with too much caffiene made me pretty short tempered. I went to BJJ last night and instead of coming out of it emotionaly spent I was really worked up. Took it out a bit on my kids too when they were misbehaving.

My doctor says that when I stop trying to get people to behave and act the way I want them too I will save myself a whole of grief and resentment.

I didnt feel very positive at the time. Except I was positive I was gonna throw that fuker that wouldnt shut his mouth off of the roof.
I grabbed his shirt and leaned him backwards over the edge.

But I did try to warn him several times that he needed to stop. I bet he takes me serious from now on.

He apologized for pushing my buttons later on and we made peace.

[krete77]

56 days today! Almost at that 2 month mark..I feel so proud of myself.