[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[eod8989]

idk why but i feel like I miss my 20s and feel less excited about things in my 30s...

Same at 30 i had a spiritual awakening and can't get into the little things i could in my 20s like small talk, going to eat and chit like that. Don't care about social media either but everyone else does. Don't know what to do.

[dopamine72]

Has anyone here tried strong psychedelics under the care of a professional ?

One of the only ways I've been able to snap out of my "funks" is after a good mushroom, mescaline or LSD trip.

There's doctors all around my area who will "guide" you through your trip at their office. They have a comfy bed set up for you to lay down on the whole time, dim lighting, calm music etc...You get there and they give you the mushrooms or whatever has been decided to take. Two doctors are there helping you get through the trip and figure yourself the fuk out.

I know you don't wanna hear about Netflix EOD LOL....But there's a series on there called "How to change your mind"

Essentially its about people who have struggled with acute depression/anxiety for years and tried everything in the book including meds (poison) to fix themselves but nothing works.

Then they go to a doctor ONE TIME and they're fixed for years or indefinitely. Pretty eye opening, and I do remember any time I took only that stuff and nothing else it was very intense / introspective / overwhelming / almost scary etc....But it allows you to think differently which is a huge factor for getting yourself better.

I see allot of people's posts are very similar. Time to expand the mind.

Notes:

- Under the care of a professional
- Only take the substances they give you, don't take anything else or it can negatively impact the experience
- I don't like MDMA and I'm on the fence about putting that in the show because it can down-regulate serotonin, especially with me and the next day I feel "depleted" / depressed / anxious....But naturally occurring substances seem to be okay for me and I get a massive "anti-depression" effect from them, days after its all over too, the best way I can explain it is like you're a kid again learning about life again in a whole new way so you have all these new ideas and experiences to help you feel better.

[frankfrank3630]

Idk how to cope anymore I've now went 7 years hearing nothing but tv show convos I went to therapy and all they said was go on meetup.com but I don't want to meet people online. I've always been against that. I just don't know what to do because these aren't the kind of convos I used to have with people.

Don't just summarily the idea of meeting people online, now and unconditionally forever. I have to say that I know some utterly incredible people because I met them online.

You mean. eod, that you wouldn't even go to any kind of small Meetup group when they're meeting in an entirely neutral location, such as a game store or a trailhead?

[DustinTheHuss]

I’m leaving from a beach vacation today and I had no anxiety or depression during the vacation. Obviously home and work contribute, not to mention caring for my family.

[eod8989]

Don't just summarily the idea of meeting people online, now and unconditionally forever. I have to say that I know some utterly incredible people because I met them online.

You mean. eod, that you wouldn't even go to any kind of small Meetup group when they're meeting in an entirely neutral location, such as a game store or a trailhead?

I can't do online meetups because they don't feel organic. Everyone i've met was at work where we see each other every day.

[imbored21]

losing my lust for life. Don't feel love anymore. Not even for my parents. idk why.

[imbored21]

i bought a gameshark and made all my pokemon level 100. It was fun for for 30 minutes and then I got depressed and bored. I feel that way about life now even though I didn't get all level 100s. Everything just became pointless prematurely. Wut the heck. I am nothing. I'm not even real

[imbored21]

don't want to do anything anymore. damn.

[eod8989]

All i wanna do is browse the internet i don't really find anything else fun and idk why

[Nocturne808]

Has anyone here tried strong psychedelics under the care of a professional ?

One of the only ways I've been able to snap out of my "funks" is after a good mushroom, mescaline or LSD trip.

There's doctors all around my area who will "guide" you through your trip at their office. They have a comfy bed set up for you to lay down on the whole time, dim lighting, calm music etc...You get there and they give you the mushrooms or whatever has been decided to take. Two doctors are there helping you get through the trip and figure yourself the fuk out.

I know you don't wanna hear about Netflix EOD LOL....But there's a series on there called "How to change your mind"

Essentially its about people who have struggled with acute depression/anxiety for years and tried everything in the book including meds (poison) to fix themselves but nothing works.

Then they go to a doctor ONE TIME and they're fixed for years or indefinitely. Pretty eye opening, and I do remember any time I took only that stuff and nothing else it was very intense / introspective / overwhelming / almost scary etc....But it allows you to think differently which is a huge factor for getting yourself better.

I see allot of people's posts are very similar. Time to expand the mind.

Notes:

- Under the care of a professional
- Only take the substances they give you, don't take anything else or it can negatively impact the experience
- I don't like MDMA and I'm on the fence about putting that in the show because it can down-regulate serotonin, especially with me and the next day I feel "depleted" / depressed / anxious....But naturally occurring substances seem to be okay for me and I get a massive "anti-depression" effect from them, days after its all over too, the best way I can explain it is like you're a kid again learning about life again in a whole new way so you have all these new ideas and experiences to help you feel better.

It's not covered by insurance and sessions are expensive AF. It's better to just do it yourself and there's something called the Fireside Project where people will take your call if you tripping and help you work through your thoughts and that's free.

[eod8989]

don't want to do anything anymore. damn.

There really isn't much to do. Not much to look forward to really. Idk about you but when i hit late 20s i felt a sudden lack of purpose.

[BigTimePlayer]

It just sucks seeing everyone doing better than me. My one friend just got married who I only talk through text nowadays told me how much him & his wife make combined & it just blew my mind. Life just sucks. It's depressing knowing my life is just going to be mediocre or terrible. It makes me wonder wtf is the point of anything.

[eod8989]

There's just nothing to do most of the day. If you don't like small talk or going places to eat life is just boring. Idk what to do.

[dopamine72]

It's not covered by insurance and sessions are expensive AF. It's better to just do it yourself and there's something called the Fireside Project where people will take your call if you tripping and help you work through your thoughts and that's free.

Awesome to hear!

And I guarantee there's people in this thread who can easily afford it.

I also wouldn't recommend someone with real depression/anxiety issues to take anything like that without being under the supervision of a professional.

[eod8989]

It just sucks seeing everyone doing better than me. My one friend just got married who I only talk through text nowadays told me how much him & his wife make combined & it just blew my mind. Life just sucks. It's depressing knowing my life is just going to be mediocre or terrible. It makes me wonder wtf is the point of anything.

Idk what is wrong with us that makes us not able to feel normal. I feel normal when i wake up and late at night. Some times randomly or on the weekends for a while. But the rest of the time i feel overwhelmed or just in a low enough mood i can't really enjoy anything. Work weeks are the worst i feel so overwhelmed the moment i go into work. Idk how people enjoy it. I just get so bored and restless there and wanna do something else.

[BigTimePlayer]

Idk what is wrong with us that makes us not able to feel normal. I feel normal when i wake up and late at night. Some times randomly or on the weekends for a while. But the rest of the time i feel overwhelmed or just in a low enough mood i can't really enjoy anything. Work weeks are the worst i feel so overwhelmed the moment i go into work. Idk how people enjoy it. I just get so bored and restless there and wanna do something else.

Idk man. I just usually feel sluggish outside of at night. I've done every test I could get to find out what's wrong & no one has figured it out. Once my brain MRI came back normal I knew I was screwed with my issues since where do I go from there if it showed nothing wrong. It's sad how I wanted it to show something like low activity in the brain or something to know what's wrong with me & to fix it. I rarely want to do anything anymore since nothing feels exciting to me. I just feel like how many times am I going to do the same **** & still be excited about it.

[eod8989]

Idk man. I just usually feel sluggish outside of at night. I've done every test I could get to find out what's wrong & no one has figured it out. Once my brain MRI came back normal I knew I was screwed with my issues since where do I go from there if it showed nothing wrong. It's sad how I wanted it to show something like low activity in the brain or something to know what's wrong with me & to fix it. I rarely want to do anything anymore since nothing feels exciting to me. I just feel like how many times am I going to do the same **** & still be excited about it.

You could have low vitamin D srs. But yeah besides my few hobbies i feel like life is a chore and i just go through the motions every day. Nothing excites me and i feel like i've done it all a million times.

[BigTimePlayer]

You could have low vitamin D srs. But yeah besides my few hobbies i feel like life is a chore and i just go through the motions every day. Nothing excites me and i feel like i've done it all a million times.

lol strange you brought that up. I had extensive blood work done back earlier this year & everything was normal EXCEPT my Vitamin D where it was a little bit high. So I don't know wtf is wrong with me. Wouldn't at least abnormal brain chemistry show up on a brain MRI?

[eod8989]

lol strange you brought that up. I had extensive blood work done back earlier this year & everything was normal EXCEPT my Vitamin D where it was a little bit high. So I don't know wtf is wrong with me. Wouldn't at least abnormal brain chemistry show up on a brain MRI?

Yeah mine is good too but i still just don't find little things interesting anymore so i can't ever get out of this rut. You have to enjoy watching tv shows, following pop culture or going to restaurants and stuff otherwise you will just be an outcast. But pop culture is all so bad now. Anything mainstream has significantly decreased in quality over the last several years and i can't even follow it. Also i don't even watch WWE or sports anymore. It's all just gotten so bad and uninteresting to me. I always think of it like this. To even make friends you have to first find at least one person you really connect with. If you can't even do that you're screwed. I don't meet anyone anymore i relate to. I never hear any convos i can jump into either so i can never make progress if this doesn't change.

[imbored21]

only ugly ass girls like me

[eod8989]

only ugly ass girls like me

Dude that sucks they're all like 250 lbs

[imbored21]

Dude that sucks they're all like 250 lbs

i rather die

[DustinTheHuss]

I find my depression is improving now that I'm going to concerts and sporting events.

They're just expensive and I'm tired from the lack of sleep, but with depression I was sleeping 10-12 hours a day.

[eod8989]

Anyone else hella bored at work? Nothing to do here most of the day but sit on the chitter

[eod8989]

Idk what i did but nobody likes me anymore. I'm a nice guy but people just use me. I try to stand up for myself finally after like 6 years and nobody believes what i say. If someone does something wrong then the blame is never on them they just gaslight me and say i'm the problem. I don't fit in anywhere anymore and this wasn't the case before. I always had a community at work, the gym or in sports or something but nobody likes me anymore.

[IronFeta]

fuark manes

Depression just keeps worsening year after year

lol this is a joke. It might be over

[eod8989]

Man there is literally just nothing to do

[SoulBlazer470]

Man there is literally just nothing to do

Have you ever gone to a metal concert?

[eod8989]

Another day of staring at a wall all day and listening to marvel convos lol

[jizzfarmer]

Slept for phuking 14 hours today. I swear dude Toronto is just the worst phuking city ever. You work hard and tell the truth and you will get taken advantage of and abused/treated like sht. While the phuking sloots and ****g0ts kiss ass and lie through their teeth and they all get rewarded. If you're a scamming piece of sht then come to Toronto srs, you will have great success. I can't take this sht anymore man.