[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part II

[WanabeAesthetic]

Brahs ffs I dont feel anymore. Got rejected by Oneitis 5 years ago, probably last time I ever felt something. Now I dont even care about her anymore, prob a good thing I dunno.

God help me

Don't allow anyone that much control over your life brah. I broke up with my ex in September and I know her sociopathic ass has moved on already, it hurts me all the time and I hate to admit it but it's taken me a lot longer to get over than I thought it would.

I'm learning to see that if she can move on so easily, so can I... so can you. There's millions of them out there. And some advice I have had and really hold on to is;

"One day someone will come along and without you knowing they will heal the parts of you that she broke. You will be accepted for who you are and this person will link into your life better than anyone has before. At this time you won't even remember what your ex even looks like" :-)

[bongowongo]

It's getting harder and harder for me to put on my "happy" mask ... I've masked my issues extremely well for the past few years, and i go through phases where i'm down or incredibly content, but this entire year has been fukkin chit for me and especially so in the last few months, so it's just been one long phase of being down. I literally only have person in my life that i'm extremely close to, in the sense that I can talk to or properly talk to - who is a family member, but keeping up my appearances in front of that person is also incredibly hard now. She obviously knows I'm down, and wants me to talk/confide but I dont see the point of it anymore. Trying my best to push that person away because there's no reason for them to get caught up in my negative bubble, it'll do them better in the long run too ... Nobody should be around a person who is constantly down. Lol at me thinking that 2016 would be a good year for me.

Genuinely feel that some of us jsut aren't supposed to make it in this life.

[MrDevereaux]

Guys I don't know what to do. I posted above that I took some prescription stims a few days ago because I hadn't slept and couldn't face the day so exhausted. Well what a mistake. I think they have totally drained my dopamine (this has happened before - why do I always think it will be different?) and I feel like I'm in hell.

There's this big transaction at work with insane timing and all the complicated stuff is being left to me. But I can barely formulate a sentence at the moment let alone work out pretty technical concepts. I keep thinking of just quitting to avoid the stress but I know that I'll recover in a few days.

I brought this on myself, again. I can't believe I did this again. I've been in worse places before though with absolutely no drugs/alcohol involved but now any time I touch them this is guaranteed to happen.

[bongowongo]

Guys I don't know what to do. I posted above that I took some prescription stims a few days ago because I hadn't slept and couldn't face the day so exhausted. Well what a mistake. I think they have totally drained my dopamine (this has happened before - why do I always think it will be different?) and I feel like I'm in hell.

There's this big transaction at work with insane timing and all the complicated stuff is being left to me. But I can barely formulate a sentence at the moment let alone work out pretty technical concepts. I keep thinking of just quitting to avoid the stress but I know that I'll recover in a few days.

I brought this on myself, again. I can't believe I did this again. I've been in worse places before though with absolutely no drugs/alcohol involved but now any time I touch them this is guaranteed to happen.

"drains your dopamine" .. is that even possible. That sounds harsh as hell, why are you getting prescribed that and why would you take it. Dont quit your job, go to your doc and sort it out, maybe he has a pick me up to counter that chit you took lol.

[300BLK]

Guys I don't know what to do. I posted above that I took some prescription stims a few days ago because I hadn't slept and couldn't face the day so exhausted. Well what a mistake. I think they have totally drained my dopamine (this has happened before - why do I always think it will be different?) and I feel like I'm in hell.

There's this big transaction at work with insane timing and all the complicated stuff is being left to me. But I can barely formulate a sentence at the moment let alone work out pretty technical concepts. I keep thinking of just quitting to avoid the stress but I know that I'll recover in a few days.

I brought this on myself, again. I can't believe I did this again. I've been in worse places before though with absolutely no drugs/alcohol involved but now any time I touch them this is guaranteed to happen.

Try L-Tyrosine or L-Dopa to restore your dopamine

[SiberianExpress]

Don't allow anyone that much control over your life brah. I broke up with my ex in September and I know her sociopathic ass has moved on already, it hurts me all the time and I hate to admit it but it's taken me a lot longer to get over than I thought it would.

I'm learning to see that if she can move on so easily, so can I... so can you. There's millions of them out there. And some advice I have had and really hold on to is;

"One day someone will come along and without you knowing they will heal the parts of you that she broke. You will be accepted for who you are and this person will link into your life better than anyone has before. At this time you won't even remember what your ex even looks like" :-)

Fortune telling based on nothing. Sorry brah but I hate it when someone shares their pain and someone always chimes in with the "there's someone out there for everyone" line. Based on what evidence?

[bongowongo]

A week or so ago I had this on repeat and after a few beers I had a tear come to my ear, which is the first time I have cried in a long, long time (since my dog passed actually). It made me feel a lot better. Some of the words I found so powerful;



Gets me everytime.

Watching that vid has helped calm me down. One guy in particular stood out for me, Jocko Willink .. Searched him up and his videos seem pretty good, helped put some things into perspective. I think you brahs should take a listen


https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCkq...JgygCnA/videos





No matter how well made these videos are, they only help me for the time I watch. After I close it and the next day begins, everything that was said in the video goes through one ear and out the next lol, but they are comforting to listen to at that particular moment.



I also saw this on my fb https://www.betterhelp.com/ and i signed up to see what was up with it .. a place you can get matched up with a therapist, first week is free..... Might as well give it a shot as I nothing to lose lol.

[chapz]

On Monday night came home from the library in floods of tears. I Sat on my bed and got my laptop charger and tightened it around my neck. Im sure I knew I was not actually going to finish the job. Was a frightening as fuk experience nonetheless.

That event was the trigger for me to finally get off my ass and get some real help. Saw a mental health support worker followed by a councilor within the space of a day, changed my meds, arranged cbt and got a full time voluntary job for the next month while I am home from college, incidentally all of my January exams have allowed to have been rescheduled to June.

Today I am sitting here feeling the most hopeful I have in god knows how long that things will get better
Won't be plane sailing but I am now at least hopeful that one day I'm gonna make it.

[chapz]

lol at depression being a stickied thread on Misc. Not surprised

Clinical depression and Its impact on functioning and well-being has been compared to that of other chronic medical conditions such as diabetes- Wikipedia

I think the fact that depression still receives such stigma in some sectors of society is as big of an issue as racism is, personally.

[Whichiscool]

On Monday night came home from the library in floods of tears. I Sat on my bed and got my laptop charger and tightened it around my neck. Im sure I knew I was not actually going to finish the job. Was a frightening as fuk experience nonetheless.

That event was the trigger for me to finally get off my ass and get some real help. Saw a mental health support worker followed by a councilor within the space of a day, changed my meds, arranged cbt and got a full time voluntary job for the next month while I am home from college, incidentally all of my January exams have allowed to have been rescheduled to June.

Today I am sitting here feeling the most hopeful I have in god knows how long that things will get better
Won't be plane sailing but I am now at least hopeful that one day I'm gonna make it.

Try keep that positivity up man.

[Beauuu]

gonna blow my savings on escorts and then tour is over for me boyos. not a chance im making it until 2017

[2RDEYE]

well i'm back at it again. starting to use herb again. haven't used it since i was 18. just so fuking depressed and tired of dealing with chit people in my job and in this world in general. just using it at night or when i'm home, when i use it and i see people it significantly magnifies the chittiness of people that it just makes me depressed even more.

my day went horrible at work, i got a death threat for using a tool that was just sitting there (apparently someone was using it), i had some guy yell at me when i was trying to explain something to him, i had some guy steal my chit. i feel like i'm the only one who has this sort of chit happen to him.

[CrazySerbian]

I have two days left of studying. I don't think it's gonna be enough. I just want this stress to go away because it's making me miserable.

well i'm back at it again. starting to use herb again. haven't used it since i was 18. just so fuking depressed and tired of dealing with chit people in my job and in this world in general. just using it at night or when i'm home, when i use it and i see people it significantly magnifies the chittiness of people that it just makes me depressed even more.

my day went horrible at work, i got a death threat for using a tool that was just sitting there (apparently someone was using it), i had some guy yell at me when i was trying to explain something to him, i had some guy steal my chit. i feel like i'm the only one who has this sort of chit happen to him.

What kind of job do you do man? Why is it full of retards? Keep your head up man. It's not your fault people are retarded. They are probably venting their anger and frustration towards you because they are unhappy. **** them.

[2RDEYE]

What kind of job do you do man? Why is it full of retards? Keep your head up man. It's not your fault people are retarded. They are probably venting their anger and frustration towards you because they are unhappy. **** them.

i work in a warehouse like a deadbeat loser, surrounded by degenerates. everyone always judges me because i'm friendly and young, it's fuking retarded. i hate it. they think i'm stupid and inexperienced just because i'm young and look young. it's the same at every company i've worked for, i'm always surrounded people that think i'm working my first job or people that use me as a tool. makes me not want to work anymore.

[CrazySerbian]

i work in a warehouse like a deadbeat loser, surrounded by degenerates. everyone always judges me because i'm nice and young, it's fuking retarded. i hate it. they think i'm stupid and inexperienced just because i'm young. it's the same at every company i've worked for, i'm always surrounded people that think i'm working my first job or people that use me as a tool. makes me not want to work anymore.

Lol I know that feel. I work for a small courier company and I'm their youngest and newest employee. They give me the ****tiest routes and look down on me because I'm the new guy with a baby face. But I am the smartest, most educated and I work harder than any of them. I don't let it bother me because I know that when I'm done with my studies I will earn more.

Just keep your head up and work hard, you will get a better job. It's only temporary.

[bongowongo]

Spent half the night just crying in my bed before I finally went to sleep, wake up feeling the same. Absolutely no mood to do anything. Just hoping for time to go by sooner so that it becomes night time again I can go back to sleep and escape my mind. To make matters worse I'm having the worst feeling in the pit of my stomach and for some reason my heart feels heavy, kinda like it's on menthol or something lol, maybe due to only 4 hours of sleep.

[maplestreet]

Spent half the night just crying in my bed before I finally went to sleep, wake up feeling the same. Absolutely no mood to do anything. Just hoping for time to go by sooner so that it becomes night time again I can go back to sleep and escape my mind. To make matters worse I'm having the worst feeling in the pit of my stomach and for some reason my heart feels heavy, kinda like it's on menthol or something lol, maybe due to only 4 hours of sleep.

Thats the worst feeling in the world to me right there. I know it doesn't mean much but I'm sorry to hear that man. I accumulated about 4 months over the course of this year to depression where I was in bed until 4 pm every day (dropped out of school), and was flailing in bed in the evening due to my stresses. I first developed depression symptoms on my birthday in 2015, never would have expected it... man depression is the worst. I hope 2017 shapes up because I don't know if I can handle another year like this one.

[bongowongo]

Thats the worst feeling in the world to me right there. I know it doesn't mean much but I'm sorry to hear that man. I accumulated about 4 months over the course of this year to depression where I was in bed until 4 pm every day (dropped out of school), and was flailing in bed in the evening due to my stresses. I first developed depression symptoms on my birthday in 2015, never would have expected it... man depression is the worst. I hope 2017 shapes up because I don't know if I can handle another year like this one.

Yeah mine started last year as well before I went to docs and got prescribed ssri's (I got off them a few months ago because the weight gain was depressing me even more). In a way the crying at least felt good srs no homo, it was a release. Ever since I've got off the SSRI's for these months I've been unable to cry no matter how chitty I felt because I think they completely numbed my feelings. It's a chitty feeling to be crying though regardless, two sides of the same coin.

Know what you mean, I'm not looking forward to 2017 at all. Worst part is I'm completely self-aware about my depression and knowing that it wont get better if I dont make the steps to get better, but I'm just tired and I've accepted my fate. I dont have the motivation, will or fortitude to change all that so instead I just gotta remain feeling like chit until something happens.

[Jallalabadbad]

Watching that vid has helped calm me down. One guy in particular stood out for me, Jocko Willink .. Searched him up and his videos seem pretty good, helped put some things into perspective. I think you brahs should take a listen




I also saw this on my fb https://www.betterhelp.com/ and i signed up to see what was up with it .. a place you can get matched up with a therapist, first week is free..... Might as well give it a shot as I nothing to lose lol.

Look up London real podcast with jocko willink , really good interview.

I would also HIGHLY recommend the London real podcast with Philip Mckernan, sounds cheesy but discovering this guy was one of the only good things that happened to me in 2016 and it has changed my life for the better . Everyone in this thread should listen to this guy talk




http://www.patdivilly.com/ep9-philip-mckernan/
^ this one is more concise better one to start with

Seeing a therapist is a good idea , keeping everything bottled up never helps and someone who doesn't know you already can talk to you differently that someone who does as people will tell you what you want to hear sometime not really what you need

[johnlejeune]

Alright, some of you guys are really worrying me.

1) Stop jerking off. Seriously, I bet 99% of you do. And porn is poison. You're probably familiar with NoFap, or at least heard of it.

You're flooding your mind with the bodys most powerful drugs- the ones that keep us alive and will us along to reproduce- Oxytocin and Dopamine.

By seeking dopamine, you develop a tolerance and require more. Dopamine receptors are increased, and when you go back to normal life your body is only addressing the normal amount of receptors.

I've tried NoFap for 3 years. This past week, I felt like I've lost my girlfriend more than ever and I tried Reddit.com/NoFapChristians

If you've ever been to Church as a kid, made a promise to you Sunday school teacher about things you couldn't keep true into your current day, try this. I'm very weary to come across as a "Jesus Freak", because I know how that's received.

Go there, read some threads, and make a post.

2) Don't kill yourself dammit. Text me if you're too lazy to do #1. 13165500911 I'm in Syria trying to fight ISIS and I'll still respond.

[chapz]

Alright, some of you guys are really worrying me.

1) Stop jerking off. Seriously, I bet 99% of you do. And porn is poison. You're probably familiar with NoFap, or at least heard of it.

You're flooding your mind with the bodys most powerful drugs- the ones that keep us alive and will us along to reproduce- Oxytocin and Dopamine.

By seeking dopamine, you develop a tolerance and require more. Dopamine receptors are increased, and when you go back to normal life your body is only addressing the normal amount of receptors.

I've tried NoFap for 3 years. This past week, I felt like I've lost my girlfriend more than ever and I tried Reddit.com/NoFapChristians

If you've ever been to Church as a kid, made a promise to you Sunday school teacher about things you couldn't keep true into your current day, try this. I'm very weary to come across as a "Jesus Freak", because I know how that's received.

Go there, read some threads, and make a post.

2) Don't kill yourself dammit. Text me if you're too lazy to do #1. 13165500911 I'm in Syria trying to fight ISIS and I'll still respond.

Thing is depression has killed my sex drive, I don't have to try hard to go without fapping, I can just easily have no urge to for ages at a time.


Lol i went like a month without fapping not so long ago. Was on 0 medications at the time so I know it was not ssri's killing my sex drive.

[bongowongo]

Look up London real podcast with jocko willink , really good interview.

I would also HIGHLY recommend the London real podcast with Philip Mckernan, sounds cheesy but discovering this guy was one of the only good things that happened to me in 2016 and it has changed my life for the better . Everyone in this thread should listen to this guy talk




http://www.patdivilly.com/ep9-philip-mckernan/
^ this one is more concise better one to start with

Seeing a therapist is a good idea , keeping everything bottled up never helps and someone who doesn't know you already can talk to you differently that someone who does as people will tell you what you want to hear sometime not really what you need

Will give it a listen, thanks g.

Alright, some of you guys are really worrying me.

1) Stop jerking off. Seriously, I bet 99% of you do. And porn is poison. You're probably familiar with NoFap, or at least heard of it.

You're flooding your mind with the bodys most powerful drugs- the ones that keep us alive and will us along to reproduce- Oxytocin and Dopamine.

By seeking dopamine, you develop a tolerance and require more. Dopamine receptors are increased, and when you go back to normal life your body is only addressing the normal amount of receptors.

I've tried NoFap for 3 years. This past week, I felt like I've lost my girlfriend more than ever and I tried Reddit.com/NoFapChristians

If you've ever been to Church as a kid, made a promise to you Sunday school teacher about things you couldn't keep true into your current day, try this. I'm very weary to come across as a "Jesus Freak", because I know how that's received.

Go there, read some threads, and make a post.

2) Don't kill yourself dammit. Text me if you're too lazy to do #1. 13165500911 I'm in Syria trying to fight ISIS and I'll still respond.

Thing is depression has killed my sex drive, I don't have to try hard to go without fapping, I can just easily have no urge to for ages at a time.


Lol i went like a month without fapping not so long ago. Was on 0 medications at the time so I know it was not ssri's killing my sex drive.

Lol, I've gone fapping for a month didnt notice anything ... Fapped during good times and bad times, no difference. Even on SSRI's which were were supposed to kill my sex drive I was fine, kept getting bonrars, the only issue was it took me a bit longer to cum no homo.

[johnlejeune]

Brahs, 30 days is nothing. I just did around 50 and...I'm still depressed daily, especially at night.

The happiest, most Alpha- aethetic or NOT- guys I know don't jerk off ever.

Trust me, really asking you. You are in this thread for a listener, well listen to me.

I've had a lot of people pass through my life, good people and close people. I've been cucked. I've been in a bad bad drug induced hopelessness.

I'm not asking you to convert, or to read my blog, or watch a 30 minute youtube video.

I'm asking you to consider that you are not in control, and nothing is as it seems. Maybe reality itself. Have you seen the Truman Show?

I dont think I've ever posted a religious quote on an internet forum, but my best friend showed me this yesterday:


There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.


Come to reddit.com/r/NoFapChristians and do your 100 days. It's worth it it saves you from killing yourself.

If you absolutely will not do that, shoot me a message at 13165500911 about anything.

If you wont do THAT, I have more more solution.

[2RDEYE]

hey what do you guys suggest taking at school for someone who has no idea wtf he should do. i gotta get out of this chit warehouse environment. or else i'm going to be fuking 60 years old and still working in a warehouse and still virgin.

[johnlejeune]

Join your military. My friend gets 3K a month and $1200(300 grams) of free weed a month for disability and he never even saw combat. #CanadianMilitary

[2RDEYE]

Join your military. My friend gets 3K a month and $1200(300 grams) of free weed a month for disability and he never even saw combat. #CanadianMilitary

i tried. to be a military officer was my dream. a soldier is the one thing i thought i would be good at. because i never complain about being told what to do and always do my best and more. but i couldn't get in because i have still have active eczema, have had eczema since birth.

[bongowongo]

I also saw this on my fb https://www.betterhelp.com/ and i signed up to see what was up with it .. a place you can get matched up with a therapist, first week is free..... Might as well give it a shot as I nothing to lose lol.

^ Regarding that post I made - They got back to me and said that I'm not a suitable candidate for online therapy because my situation is more severe and therefore I'd do much better seeing a therapist in real life.



This is too damn funny, getting rejected by an online therapist lmao... my life i swaear. Whatever the powers that be has a sense of humor.

[Flexish]

I'm tired. Going to sleep and escaping everything.

[hidingwithmusic]

Girl i met from class has been texting with me. I really like her and all but she has a boyfriend. Shes asked me out to hangout and i see her in the next 2 weeks. I told her that im a screwup. Ive spent time homeless in the city, almost did a year in jail that might hurt my chance of becoming an RN, and she actually wants to start seeing me more and talking to me. I got my biggest secret to tell her that im diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. I dont know how to bring it up or when i should but shes an lpn so i know she knows the truth how mentally ill people arent all monsters.

Also this slut has a boyfriend.

[extendlol]

Can we talk about anxiety here