So I posted here for awhile a few years back. About 4 or so. The now ex-wife and I had really gotten into bodybuilding and were probably in that time the happiest we had ever been. The only down side was I had started drinking alot more. We had found financial freedom due to her career (psychologist-private practice) taking off and every weekend seemed to be a new party. Numerous vacations, weekend trips to vegas, miami, etc.etc. we were just rewarding ourselves big time for the years of sacrifice to get there. Then the drinking became a daily thing. Then I slowly over the course of a year started always feeling tired, not wanting to workout, sneaking vodka into my coke zero while coaching the kids baseball teams. Sneaking a pint into the bathroom to down in between glasses of whine for dinner.
I started gaining weight, stopped going to the gym, stopped doing much of anything. Then about 2 years ago she left. She was still riding the gym-healthy-life and I was a guy sneaking cigarrettes and vodka in all day long. She left after 17 years, for a "friend" of ours, a boxing coach at our gym.
Sent me into hell. For the next year and a half I basically tried to drink myself to death. Never sober. Isolated myself into a crummy apartment and just went to work (where i snuck drinks in) and came home and drank and cried, cussed at the walls and contemplated different ways to end it all...
Then 5 months ago I walked into the midwests toughest rehab center and got my butt kicked for 4 months in a halfway house. I could tell you stories for hours about the place but lets just say within a few hours of being there I had a new "yell". I had to sit on the floor and bang my fists on the ground screaming "wah wah wah life's not fair that's why i bang on my high chair!!"
It was exactly what I needed. Graduated after 4 months a few weeks ago, moved into a 3/4 house and am now back in the gym. Lost 30 pounds while in the halfway house. Going to be hanging around here some more getting my workout routine back together and looking for tips.
Looking forward to chatting with you.
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08-22-2018, 12:29 PM #1
Depression-Divorce-Alcoholism-Rehab-trying to get back
The surest way to corrupt a youth is to instruct him to hold in higher esteem those who think alike than those who think differently.
-Nietzsche
You better cut the pizza in four pieces because I'm not hungry enough to eat six.
-Yogi Berra
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08-22-2018, 12:50 PM #2
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08-22-2018, 05:40 PM #3
Well done and congratulations on getting sober. I too struggled with alcohol, and i wanted to change. It was hard, but for me, it was the right thing to do, and I am happy to say I'm approaching 15 years sober. The gym was never a part of my life back then, but for me now, it is a big positive thing in my life. Wish you well getting back into it.
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08-22-2018, 09:14 PM #4
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08-23-2018, 06:02 AM #6
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08-24-2018, 09:57 AM #11
A 4 day split. Basic old routine. Chest/tris - back biceps-shoulders-core & legs.. No squats or deadlifts as I tore my hamstring a few years back and for whatever reason it aches and shoots pain now. I can only imagine i reinjured it in my drunkeness the last couple years as I had gotten back to deadlifting without issue after the injury before the drinking.
Thanks brother!
Appreciate it brother!
Thank you!
It's huge for me. Gets me out of my head and helps get me a good nights sleep. Thanks!
I'd like to tell you a whole list of really cool ass things I did. I really just fell apart and drank myself into a stuper dreaming of what I wanted to do to him.
Thanks!
Very true!
Appreciated it!The surest way to corrupt a youth is to instruct him to hold in higher esteem those who think alike than those who think differently.
-Nietzsche
You better cut the pizza in four pieces because I'm not hungry enough to eat six.
-Yogi Berra
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08-24-2018, 02:02 PM #12
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08-24-2018, 02:13 PM #13
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08-25-2018, 01:23 AM #14
Before anything else - thanks for sharing and the best of luck to you.
Your story starts out so great and one thing I don't get is - how did the drinking become a daily thing? You guys would go wild in Vegas and then when you got back to daily life you missed the alcohol? That's why you started sneaking it into other functions?
My question is also - looking back - why? Were you actually happy given that you were doing this to yourself? I know it'll sound weird but in one sense it seems like you just weren't happy with the success you two were enjoying. I honestly hope you feel better about yourself now.
And great that you're back in the gym too. Keep strong.
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08-25-2018, 07:03 PM #15
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08-25-2018, 07:10 PM #16
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08-26-2018, 09:06 AM #17
addiction has a mental and physiological component to it
9/10 people can go out to bar together, have a couple drinks, socialize and at closing time they are perfectly content to go home and sleep
then there is that one in the crowd where alcohol actually ramps them up
they wanna go from one bar to another
call every one wimps for not being able to hold their liquor
they're bodies get this reaction that revs them up instead of slow down
their bodies react differently to the booze
yes, at one time
in the beginning, it was a choice
but then quickly went into addiction
they are not ignorant or unaware of the damage it is doing
to themselves, families, work, relationships
how could they not be?
it is not a matter of will power
it is a dependency on a substance
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08-26-2018, 12:29 PM #18
Good for you to find the strength to fight this disease. I have been where you ex wife was, it's not a happy place, but also losing someone to this disease is even worse You are alive and sober and even back in the gym, which is a gift many people do not get to experience. There are always ups and downs, but AA/NA is always there and so is the gym I found a world of competition, which gives me a goal and I channel my demons that way. I also met many people with the same addictive personality as me who are in the gym for the same reason That's how we live this life - one day at the time, sometimes one hour at the time, one minute, whatever - we are the lucky ones, as we are still alive
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08-26-2018, 12:44 PM #19
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