Flacko Flacko Beats Anorexia Vol. 2 (West Coast Edition)

[flackoflacko]

I'm back. I hope you all have been well! For those of you who remember my last log, you already know my history with anorexia nervosa. After suffering a relapse, getting put in the mental hospital again, and finally moving to Las Vegas I'm back at it (lifting, that is). Unfortunately I've had to sacrifice a lot of things with this move (including seeing my gf and friends everyday which is really hurting me, but I'm determined to get healthy), but I need to get my life back together before I can enrich anyone else's. So I'll keep it short. Here's the cliffs:
-Stopped counting calories after battling with intake/over exercise compulsions.
-Wasn't eating enough now though.
-Lost size and strength (~130 lbs down to <120)
-Had mental breakdown due to depression.
-Was hospitalized and realized that the environment I was in was not conducive to my recovery.
-Moved across the country in with my Mom and her boyfriend.
-Will continue quest for a happy life, stability, and strength.

Goals:
Get my head right.
Get strong as fuark.
Maintain long distance relationship with gf.
Make some new friends on the West Coast.
Become a man.

I'm following Mike Matthew's Bigger, Leaner, Stronger routine as it's what my Mom's bf (also a personal trainer and race director) does. I'll be lifting with him as well. for work I'll also be helping time the races and may eventually get back into running 5k's once I can handle cardio without overdoing it. Food intake will be experimented with, but basically supervised since I'm not always able to hold myself accountable. Food pr0n will be posted intermittently, lifts monday through friday. I'll also be doing some traveling on account of working the races and stuff so I'll post some little life/travel updates from time to time. Let's DO the damn thing.

[SuperHippo]

inn.

[flackoflacko]

Ok let's start this! Took all my measurements yesterday. My Mom will be weighing me in once a week to make sure I don't backslide again. Came in at 116.6 lbs. 2-3% BF (Calipers, but not sure I trust this...). Weigh ins will be once a week on Sundays.
Bench
Warm Ups:
65 x 12
65 x 10
95 x 4
Working Sets:
115 x 4
115 x 4
115 x 4

Incline Bench
100 x 5
100 x 6
100 x 5

Dips
BW x 8
BW x 8
BW x 9

+Ab Accessories

Notes: Today's workout felt solid. Upped my incline bench from last week (95 x 6 x 3). Was out till late last night since I had to work a 5k down on the strip and then we went out to a bar after to get dinner and drinks. Best fish and chips I've ever had in my life. Race went well. This wasn't actually one of our races, we just had to time it. There was only about 100 runners which is pretty small so it wasn't a huge deal. Some of the races we put on have 500 + runners and are electronically timed. Anyway, heading out for the day to run some errands etc. Have a good week!

@SH- Thanks for the follow Did you ever start a log??

-griff

[sonnydfrizzy]

In flacko. Let's stay on course. Hindsight is 20/20. The only way now is forward.

[flackoflacko]

In flacko. Let's stay on course. Hindsight is 20/20. The only way now is forward.

Amen brotha. Let's do the damn thing.

[Flagaba]

New log? You bet I'm in!

Thank you for sharing what happened with us. I trust you'll be able to learn from that relapse and keep moving forward to a healthier version of yourself, you have all my support!

[DJDBB]

In and subscribed OP. Just looking at your avi you have some nice genetics, excited to see how far you go with everything.

[flackoflacko]

In and subscribed OP. Just looking at your avi you have some nice genetics, excited to see how far you go with everything.

Thanks man! unfortunately that pic is from October before I started backsliding. Lost a good deal of mass, but it's ok. I got up there once, I can get back up there and even farther now!

New log? You bet I'm in!

Thank you for sharing what happened with us. I trust you'll be able to learn from that relapse and keep moving forward to a healthier version of yourself, you have all my support!

Great to have you along again, carl! Hope you're doing well.

[flackoflacko]

Deadlift
Warm Up:
135 x 12
135 x 10
155 x 4
Working Sets:
170 x 6
170 x 6
170 x 6

One-Arm Dumbbell Row
50 x 5
50 x 5
50 x 5

Close-Grip Lat Pulldown
120 x 6
120 x 6
120 x 6

Standing Calf Raise
180 x 12 x 6

Notes: Got back from the gym a little while ago. Pr'd on Deadlift today. Last week was 165 for reps. The way that this program runs is that you do 3 working sets with 4-6 reps on the main lift. Once you hit 6 reps for all 3 sets, you boost the weight up. I used to pull sumo when I ran ICF, so being able to pull 170 conventional is pretty decent for me right now. Headed to the park now with my Mom to do some HIIT intervals. Probably going to the movies or some bullshyt tonight. It's been a chill few days with nothing much on my schedule. it's nice to be just focusing on enjoying life and stuff. Have a good tuesday guys.
-griff

[Flagaba]

Went to Conventional's? I'm disappoint...I thought you were my Sumo friend and all...

Notsrs, good session today buddy! It's nice to see you're enjoying some gym/exercise time with your mother and her boyfriend, surely it makes it enjoyable. Have fun tonight!

[flackoflacko]

Went to Conventional's? I'm disappoint...I thought you were my Sumo friend and all...

Notsrs, good session today buddy! It's nice to see you're enjoying some gym/exercise time with your mother and her boyfriend, surely it makes it enjoyable. Have fun tonight!

Thanks man! Yeah, I miss me some sumos, but they both pull conventional so I figured i'd join the club. Strangely enough, conventionals seem to be hitting my quads harder than the sumos were! Worth trying out some time for sure. And yes it's great to be lifting with others again!

[ErikTheElectric]

In. Good to see you back, lets get things moving!

[themonkay]

In!
Hope to see you progress well ITT.

[flackoflacko]

OHP
Warm Up:
45 x 12
45 x 10
65 x 4
Working Sets:
80 x 4
80 x 5 (PR)
80 x 4

Lateral Raises
20 x 6 (PR)
17.5 x 6
17.5 x 6

Bent Over Rear Delt Raises
10 x 6
10 x 6
10 x 6

Shrugs
205 x 6
205 x 6
205 x 6

Notes: Good morning all! Movies were fun last night. Was going to see Interstellar, but it wasn't playing when we got to the Casino so we ended up just seeing Night at the Museum (lol). Then went to the library and picked up some manga from the graphic novel section (inb4 nerd for life). Headed back there today to get my own library card so I don't have to poach off my Mom's anymore. Also snagging a haircut today since I'm starting to look homeless again. 7.5/10 session today. I feel like I'll definitely be able to get 80 x 6 for all 3 sets next week for OHP. Boosted it from 75 x 6 last week. I've also been doing HIIT circuits Sunday through Wednesday since that is when the program allows cardio. my endurance has been going waaaaay up as opposed to my ICF days. Haven't posted any food yet, but will probably start saturday since that's when my Mom's boyfriend gets back from the convention that he's been at this week and we'll probably be eating some actually interesting things (sushi, Hawaiian, etc.). Have a good day guys!
-griff

[ShyGuyXS]

In as well. Welcome back! Hoping that the new environment helps you get a kick-start in the right direction.

[ErikTheElectric]

Are you seeing a therapist/dietitian?

[flackoflacko]

Are you seeing a therapist/dietitian?

Waiting for my insurance to kick in (hopefully soon so my meds dont run out)\ my moms bf to get back from his conference on saturday, but i will be. Apparently the medical help out here is way better than where i recieved treatment from in ny so im excited. Im still in contact with my dietician from home though. For now my mom is doing a good job of enforcing my meals.

[sonnydfrizzy]

Waiting for my insurance to kick in (hopefully soon so my meds dont run out)\ my moms bf to get back from his conference on saturday, but i will be. Apparently the medical help out here is way better than where i recieved treatment from in ny so im excited. Im still in contact with my dietician from home though. For now my mom is doing a good job of enforcing my meals.

@Bolded,
Flacko, do not take this in a negative light, but you should not have to have your mom enforcing meals for you. In the end, recovery comes down to YOU taking control of your own thoughts and actions and ensuring that every day, you move one step closer to freedom from your ED. Nobody else can do it for you.

I think a team of doctor's and psychologists would do you well; however, it does not magically make you "better." You must commit to recovery and ask yourself if you TRULY want to get better and beat this thing.

Mom and her BF should be there for support, but not there to dictate what goes into your mouth. You are strong Flacko, now take accountability of your actions, and enjoy the process of getting healthy.

[flackoflacko]

Squat
Warm Up
65 x 12
65 x 10
95 x 4
Working Sets:
135 x 5
135 x 6
136 x 6

Leg Press
320 x 5 (PR)
320 x 4
270 x 6

Barbell Lunge
85 x 6 (PR)
85 x 6
85 x 6

Romanian Deadlift
165 x 6 (PR)
165 x 6
165 x 6

Notes: Fawk yes. PR's in everything today. Surprising considering I woke up feeling like **** and have been dealing with an upset gf all morning. Regardless, 8/10 session today. Will begin the search online for a local therapist today. Hopefully someone within walking distance, but Vegas is a relatively small city so I'm sure I'll find someone close-ish.

@Sonny- perhaps enforcing was the wrong choice of words. Really just meant to say "helping me cope with meals". Sometimes I take a bit of "debriefing" after eating when my anxiety skyrockets.

Hope you guys end your week on a good note!
-griff

[flackoflacko]

Alternating Dumbbell Curl
Warm Up:
12.5 x 12
12.5 x 10
20 x 4
Working Sets:
22.5 x 6
22.5 x 6
22.5 x 6

Tricep Pushdown
Warm Up:
45 x 12
45 x 10
70 x 4
Working Sets:
80 x 5
80 x 5
80 x 6

Barbell Curl
50 x 6
50 x 5
50 x 5

Skullcrusher
55 x 6
55 x 6
55 x 6

+ Ab Accessories

Notes: Workout went well yesterday. Nice arm pump and boosted up all the weight (still starting kinda light to accomodate for overload). Glutes and hamstrings still KILLING me from those romanians. One of my new favorite lifts for sure though. Got As Above So Below from the redbox yesterday and went out to u-swirl for frozen yogurt afterward. Pretty chill day alltogether. Mom's bf gets back today and has to train me on some new timing software for the races so that should be a BLAST (not srs). Hope you all are having an excellent weekend!
PB + Vanilla Yogurt w/ PB, White Chocolate Chips, Reeses', Snickers, & Strawberries:

-griff

[sonnydfrizzy]

Saw you did an arm day. And I was very sad.

Saw food pr0nz and immediately nutted onto the screen and forgot you have an arm day.

More food like that Griff. Great job buddy!

[XCRunner9]

In on this.

And dang, the food porn. That looks delish! Keep eating and get healthy!

[ErikTheElectric]

Nice job with the food. If you need any help searching for therapists (and dietitans) let me know.

[flackoflacko]

Nice job with the food. If you need any help searching for therapists (and dietitans) let me know.

A recommendation for both would be great. Text me?

[flackoflacko]

Saw you did an arm day. And I was very sad.

Saw food pr0nz and immediately nutted onto the screen and forgot you have an arm day.

More food like that Griff. Great job buddy!

I was sad when I heard it was included as well! haha but it's still fun

[flackoflacko]

Burpees x 30 sec.
Rest x 15 sec.
Battle Ropes x 30 sec.
Rest x 15 sec.
Jumping Jacks x 30 sec.
Rest x 15 sec.
Mountain Climbers x 30 sec.
Rest x 15 sec.
Squat Jumps x 30 sec.
Rest x 15 sec.
Grasshoppers x 30 sec.
Rest x 2 min.
(4 Sets)

Notes: Went out to the local park this morning to do some HIIT with Mom & Jimmy (Her BF) and take the dog to the dog park. Battle ropes are fun asf but make me feel like I'm going to vomit and shyt myself at the same time. Had a buddy Will over for dinner last night. Played Magic the Gathering, had some dinner and drinks as well. Most fun I've had socially in quite some time. Today we're going on some errands and out to dinner with Jimmy's daughter tonight. Should be a nice way to cap off the weekend. Have a good Sunday guys!
-griff

[flackoflacko]

Bench
Warm Up:
65 x 12
65 x 10
95 x 4
Working Sets:
115 x 5
115 x 5
115 x 4
(Two More Reps Than Last Time)

Incline Bench
105 x 4
105 x 5
105 x 5

Dips
BW x 10
BW x 10
BW x 9

+Ab Accessories

Notes: Slow but steady progress on the flat bench. Just remembering to be patient and keep going with the flow. Body Weight was up .2 lbs. from last week, which isn't fantastic, but better than falling below. Got all you can eat sushi for lunch. Was amazing. Here's some snapshots:

[ErikTheElectric]

Only two rolls at AYCE sushi?



Son..

[Flagaba]

Sushi? Das it mane, you have earned my reps forever...and ever!

Bench Press is moving forward, nice! Also, glad to read you have gained 2lbs, just keep going this way!

[flackoflacko]

Sushi? Das it mane, you have earned my reps forever...and ever!

Bench Press is moving forward, nice! Also, glad to read you have gained 2lbs, just keep going this way!

0.2* lol. 7000 cal surplus would be crazaaaay. Thanks for the kind words!

Only two rolls at AYCE sushi?



Son..

Those are just the ones I got pictures of before we demolished them . You think im some sorta sushi bych????? We also got this really good scallop one. Almost died from taste overload.