Depression Discussion and Support Thread [srs]

[Fang2]

I'm going to study 4 years at a good university next year to try to get an engineering degree afterwards...even though it's going to be hard as hell.

[KawRider]

I know this is going to be a bad question but would any of you recommend trying an anti-depressant one time in unsupervised manner, if you catch my drift.

1. I have no insurance
2. Broke college student living on my own, parents would help but I've already asked them for plenty, they'd probably ask me to move back in
3. Trustworthy longtime friend who is legit prescribed and wouldn't slip me a roofie lol

I am strongly anti-medication but I would give it a try if it helps.

[Jaypricemann]

I know this is going to be a bad question but would any of you recommend trying an anti-depressant one time in unsupervised manner, if you catch my drift.

1. I have no insurance
2. Broke college student living on my own, parents would help but I've already asked them for plenty, they'd probably ask me to move back in
3. Trustworthy longtime friend who is legit prescribed and wouldn't slip me a roofie lol

I am strongly anti-medication but I would give it a try if it helps.

You can't just take an SSRI like that, it's dangerous and it ratchets your seratonin levels in a way that shouldn't be done. I wouldn't recommend it but then again you're your own man, but take it from somebody who's been on these things for years.

[gangstamuzik]

i liked it thooooooo

[KawRider]

You can't just take an SSRI like that, it's dangerous and it ratchets your seratonin levels in a way that shouldn't be done. I wouldn't recommend it but then again you're your own man, but take it from somebody who's been on these things for years.

I'm not worried about abuse. I just cant afford a lot of doctors visits. I actually couldn't afford one right now period. I make just enough to not get assistance but not enough to pay on my own.

[Jaypricemann]

I'm not worried about abuse. I just cant afford a lot of doctors visits. I actually couldn't afford one right now period. I make just enough to not get assistance but not enough to pay on my own.

It's not so much abuse, it's more about just starting in on something in dosages not prescribed to you, especially something that alters brain chemistry like SSRIs do. I'm not going to tell you either way, I'd explore other options first.

[KawRider]

It's not so much abuse, it's more about just starting in on something in dosages not prescribed to you, especially something that alters brain chemistry like SSRIs do. I'm not going to tell you either way, I'd explore other options first.

I'm looking into Phenibut as well, but I've read problems with "coming off" and hangover like effects the next day.

[darkninja67]

morning people

Hope to have a day off to get some sleep tomorrow.
More rain here, really gloomy of late.
Still alive which is a good thing, not really down right now.

[latebloomingmom]

morning people

Hope to have a day off to get some sleep tomorrow.
More rain here, really gloomy of late.
Still alive which is a good thing, not really down right now.

Good Morning Dark Lord. glad you are not gloomy in the rain
spent yesterday and last night at my son's house
visted and cooked them dinner
I was ....happy

[darkninja67]

Good Morning Dark Lord. glad you are not gloomy in the rain
spent yesterday and last night at my son's house
visted and cooked them dinner
I was ....happy

morning lbm

so far it actually got sunny this morning, see how long that lasts.
Glad you had fun with the family. You seem a lot happier now, you knew this would be the result of the move though. Good for you and happy for you. You had a lot of hell to go through.

[latebloomingmom]

morning lbm

so far it actually got sunny this morning, see how long that lasts.
Glad you had fun with the family. You seem a lot happier now, you knew this would be the result of the move though. Good for you and happy for you. You had a lot of hell to go through.

I am calmer now..not so many panic attacks or nightmares.
I have my counseling appointment next week with a domestic violence counselor
gonna try to deal with my hostility and anger and hurt
dont wanna carry this around with me the rest of my life
soooo I am just gonna concentrate on
"little bit better"
whatever that might be

[darkninja67]

I am calmer now..not so many panic attacks or nightmares.
I have my counseling appointment next week with a domestic violence counselor
gonna try to deal with my hostility and anger and hurt
dont wanna carry this around with me the rest of my life
soooo I am just gonna concentrate on
"little bit better"
whatever that might be

I am sure it will all work out for the better in the long run for you lbm.

Posting late as I am back at work again. Life is starting to really drain me now. I am always working.

[latebloomingmom]

I am sure it will all work out for the better in the long run for you lbm.

Posting late as I am back at work again. Life is starting to really drain me now. I am always working.

chin up Dark Lord. you have pulled these double shifts before. You can do it again

[Dr_Dolan]

I'm going to study 4 years at a good university next year to try to get an engineering degree afterwards...even though it's going to be hard as hell.

It's worth it brotha. You definitely won't regret working hard. But you may regret not working hard enough, this I know too well

I know this is going to be a bad question but would any of you recommend trying an anti-depressant one time in unsupervised manner, if you catch my drift.

1. I have no insurance
2. Broke college student living on my own, parents would help but I've already asked them for plenty, they'd probably ask me to move back in
3. Trustworthy longtime friend who is legit prescribed and wouldn't slip me a roofie lol

I am strongly anti-medication but I would give it a try if it helps.

That's not how SSRI's work (at least my understanding of them) so I'm not sure what you are referring to taking. Does not sound like a safe idea though.

I am calmer now..not so many panic attacks or nightmares.
I have my counseling appointment next week with a domestic violence counselor
gonna try to deal with my hostility and anger and hurt
dont wanna carry this around with me the rest of my life
soooo I am just gonna concentrate on
"little bit better"
whatever that might be

great attitude to have - or as I always say "Baby steps"

I am sure it will all work out for the better in the long run for you lbm.

Posting late as I am back at work again. Life is starting to really drain me now. I am always working.

You do work very hard & long hours (from what I understand), keep up the hard work though - you've made it this far.

[darkninja67]

morning people.
It just never seems to end.
Gut feeling is I am working again tonight, then 8 off then on again. Don't know how much longer I can do this.

Hope you all are well.

[KawRider]

Hope everyones doing ok.

Been reminiscing about my ex, but I think this is mainly due to the dry spell I'm in haha.

About to start my last 8hr shift of the week. Got all my school work done. Got my lifting in. Doing the Savage Race tomorrow, I'm excited. Hoping for a good weekend. Gonna pull the bike out and ride Sunday if my body doesn't hate me. Church. Family time. Maybe some school work.

[tom626]

Been having a pretty tough time lately. No energy to do anything except exercise and work, and if I didn't exercise I don't think I'd have the energy to work. If I ever lost my job I don't know what I'd do, the thought of searching for another job seems like an insurmountable task. Social life nonexistent, recently made up a fake excuse why I can't attend my old high school friend's wedding. Lately I've even started avoiding things like lunch with co-workers and family gatherings...people always seem to take it personally, wish I could explain to them I'm not ditching them, I just don't have the energy to deal with social interaction anymore. Finally saw a new psychiatrist last week and will be changing meds soon, hopefully that will help.

[NicoOne]

My life is slowly improving. Was homeless even though i live in a country where its really hard to be so. Was so god damn alone. Finally took the courage to meet a social worker. That feel when they said enough is enough. You are not alone anymore. They got me an apartment and food in the fridge. Seeing a psychiatrist once a week. Have met nothing but nice, warm people who genuinely cares. It feels good.

[CrazySerbian]

Dat feel when you don't want to lift on this planet anymore.

[darkninja67]

Morning people
hope you all are doing alright.

Seems my weight has increased quite a bit, I think it is due to the stress that is bearing down on me right now. See what happens.

[Beace]

Dat feel when you don't want to lift on this planet anymore.

What is going on man?

Morning people
hope you all are doing alright.

Seems my weight has increased quite a bit, I think it is due to the stress that is bearing down on me right now. See what happens.

Know that feel... It is either pissed off or dreamer bulking my thoughts away.
I really want to break through that vicious circle but it is going to be hard..

[War Machine]

STILL stressing over buying the house.

I swear its the hardest thing I've ever done. I have no idea wtf people are making it so hard for.

We're still waiting on a 2nd and 3rd underwriter to say something. I never realized it was so hard to sign something.

Plus we have a plan D....a similar home was sold a few weeks ago...we contacted th bank that did its loan.

Bad news is they want 10% deposit.

Good news is they will waive that for a co-signer of the 10%....in other words if the home 0foreclosea (which it wont) they cosigner pays the 10K deposit.

edit: wife called our bank....they will do the loan but want $525 for ANOTHER appraisal.

I think we are going to see my parents tonight so we can see if they will sign for that one bank so we get a 10k waiver

[CrazySerbian]

What is going on man?

Just had one of those days when everyone and everything pisses you off and you just want to be left alone. I'm better now.

[darkninja67]

STILL stressing over buying the house.

I swear its the hardest thing I've ever done. I have no idea wtf people are making it so hard for.

We're still waiting on a 2nd and 3rd underwriter to say something. I never realized it was so hard to sign something.

Plus we have a plan D....a similar home was sold a few weeks ago...we contacted th bank that did its loan.

Bad news is they want 10% deposit.

Good news is they will waive that for a co-signer of the 10%....in other words if the home 0foreclosea (which it wont) they cosigner pays the 10K deposit.

edit: wife called our bank....they will do the loan but want $525 for ANOTHER appraisal.

I think we are going to see my parents tonight so we can see if they will sign for that one bank so we get a 10k waiver

jeez man when will it be over for you?

[War Machine]

jeez man when will it be over for you?

I hope soon.

When this all started we had 60 days notice and thought we had plenty of time. Now because the first underwriter sat on his ass 2+ weeks we lost a lot of time.

It was turned over to TWO other underwriters who we have waited a week for so far.

We already have dipped into July here....but I don't know how long to extend the lease because there is no idea how long we will be here.

Everthing is a go...we just need one person to sign the freaking name.

It's frustrating!!!!!

Especially considering the original timeline had us moving in in a week and 1/2. I should be packing now FFS.

[War Machine]

OK........

wife just called after being on the phone all day....

we are out of the running on the house.

No one will underwrite it because it's "unique".

So I am out $1000 and ruined my credit making sure the wife was paid up because everything was in her name pertaining to the home loan.

I am absolutely shattered atm....

all the dreams we have had the past 2 months are over.

I......

don't know what to do at the moment....

we did everything we were supposed to do, it's not anything about us....just the nature of the home being one of a kind to the area.

I guess the only way it can sell is if someone has 100K on hand.


damn I'm heartbroken.

[TheBestAthlete]

I started spending many hours at the gym. For about three days I spent around 9 hours at that gym. I hate being at home, it's too depressing, at least at the gym I get to talk to people and have company. then two days ago I sprained my ankle pretty bad playing basketball, so it's kept me out of the gym for a couple days. I've run out of this Mirtazipine I was taking, mostly because I was taking two a day instead of the one they prescribed to me. I was only supposed to take 15 mg at night, but i took one to start off the day usually too, because honestly it makes me not feel any emotions, and at this point that's a good thing. The bad part about it was that i was getting all kinds of acne and it made me sleep way too much, so hopefully that will go away in the meantime. Prescribing therapist is on vacation, so I can't get any refills right now. Last Friday I went to a kickback with these two ugly girls I met on ******** (lol), was pretty terrible honestly. Also started going to a church group on thursdays, a guy a know from the gym said I should come. Last week after our scripture readings for about 2 1/2 hours, we all went out to eat then saw Man of Steel premiere. I mean at least it's something to to one day out of the week I guess.

[War Machine]

I'm absolutely gutted.

I'm so down I am actually physically ill.

Whoever said good things happen to good people fukin lied.

[latebloomingmom]

OK........

wife just called after being on the phone all day....

we are out of the running on the house.

No one will underwrite it because it's "unique".

So I am out $1000 and ruined my credit making sure the wife was paid up because everything was in her name pertaining to the home loan.

I am absolutely shattered atm....

all the dreams we have had the past 2 months are over.

I......

don't know what to do at the moment....

we did everything we were supposed to do, it's not anything about us....just the nature of the home being one of a kind to the area.

I guess the only way it can sell is if someone has 100K on hand.


damn I'm heartbroken.

ok it is a process...I know this sucks and it means you have to start again and go looking at another house..my brother and sister in law were working with a realitor and it took three times of doing this before they actually got a house.
I know this sucks azz..I know it does but you still need a home right?

[War Machine]

As a final shot at the house I'm doing what I do best....think outside the box.

The garage would be my workshop....office inside the house.

Therefore we're applying for a small business loan.

Furthermore, I was thinking about building solar panels and wind turbines....therefore we fall in as a green company.

Finally, I'm having the wife apply.

1) she's half owner
2) she's a woman (special consideration)
3) she's British (immigrant)

Lets see how this goes....