Anyone ever just feel like it’s over

[iTunesBrah]

bro i used to watch you cut water bottles up back in the day

find another passion and occupy yourself

[gbullock32]

I haven’t taken a single dose of addy in like 2 weeks bro I’m saving it for when my job starts

I’m only in training today and next week

I’m saving it for when I need it

Bet you didn’t expect that? I took the addy for several days and then stopped. I can take it whenever I want, and stop whenever I want, and when I took it I felt fine


The addy is my last resort to help improve my behavior and level of function. It could be a godsend for me. Like a diabetic requiring insulin. My brain lacks prefrontal cortex activity and dopamine production.

I mean I have partners who function at the level of a toddler and somehow manage, you should be fine.

[legbroke]

Feelz brah. My health is just getting worse and worse, and it's killing me to wait so many weeks between fruitless doctor's visits. Dunno what to do after work. Feels like I'm relegated to consumptive hobbies since everything else kinda fuks me up, and I'm sick of it.

Did have a phone screen for a new job today. Wold be pretty hard to make it, but who knows, maybe we both get new jobs and that helps us out.

[Maestro]

I haven’t taken a single dose of addy in like 2 weeks bro I’m saving it for when my job starts

Is that something you absolutely have to have to function? I'd wager your extreme feelings of depression are from the artificial highs from that drug and the lows not taking it.

[Trillical]

Did you see a doctor for the blood in stool?

[DolphinPilot]

The princess of England just got cancer, maybe I also have cancer too.

Holy **** is that how cancer works!? You can get it via the internet!?

[AdvancedDreamer]

i keep living in the hopes that one day i will truly be happy. werent you going to start using ******** again? hows that going?

[GaryRidgway]

Holy **** is that how cancer works!? You can get it via the internet!?

You get it from 5G

[Dontoewsmebro]

Come on now, don't talk like this. You are worth more you are not chit. This is really important to understand.

No homo

I think I'm in the twilight zone.

[Omnivium]

Go to the doctor dude

[Ausaric]

Is that something you absolutely have to have to function? I'd wager your extreme feelings of depression are from the artificial highs from that drug and the lows not taking it.

Bro I took it for 4 days, the lowest dose possible. It’s not like I have been taking a high dose for years.

[Godfrd824]

I feel like it's just beginning.

[Reserrection]

Relax

[DustinTheHuss]

Are you going to AA meetings? Those could really help as you seem really depressed.

To sober up like you have is an huge inspiration for every one of us.

Also seek professional help for the bleeding and your depression .

[Maestro]

Bro I took it for 4 days, the lowest dose possible. It’s not like I have been taking a high dose for years.

Why do you have a prescription for it in the first place....or are you getting it illegally?

[wigwogzigzog]

Go to doctor weighted vest brah

[8PointBuck]

i prefer the alpha version of OP that does olympic lifts while drinking milk

[thursdayParty1]

90% of life is your reaction to it. You're focused way too much on yourself. Just live in the present and quit stressing over pointless bullchit. We're all gonna be worm food in a few yrs regardless

Also drinking makes everything better. Drink more

[Sevenlionz]

I love you mane srs

[blueberryboy]

90% of life is your reaction to it. You're focused way too much on yourself. Just live in the present and quit stressing over pointless bullchit. We're all gonna be worm food in a few yrs regardless

Also drinking makes everything better. Drink more

This op mind state ain't it

Let it go op

Believe in yourselves always

[PushupBrah]

Bright red blood bro

And yes I’m starting a new job and I’m chitting blood and I’m feeling overwhelmed and stressed

And my life has not gone too well the past 5-10 years

I am just expecting that things will keep getting worse

This happened to me 4 years ago and I had polyps in my colon. Go get a colonoscopy and you’ll be fine srs

[fate0311]

Why do you have a prescription for it in the first place....or are you getting it illegally?

Fed

[Ausaric]

Why do you have a prescription for it in the first place....or are you getting it illegally?

Yes I have it legally obviously

I was prescribed it 5mg for only 45 pills in one month which is like nothing

I also am changing jobs and different insurance so I am in a situation of turmoil

I didn’t want to take it and run out so please save ur fukin judgement for me

Yes I got it from a doctor and no I have not taken more than the prescribed dose

I wouldn’t even know how to get drugs if I wanted to and they’d be way more expensive than I could afford anyway you fukin twat

This happened to me 4 years ago and I had polyps in my colon. Go get a colonoscopy and you’ll be fine srs

I’ve actually though about this…

If I was EVER to get terminal cancer it would be at a point in my life as soon as things started turning around, or I got a handle on things, or I had a lot of hope for the future, etc. only THEN would I suddenly get terminal cancer.

I wouldn’t just get cancer from the universe while I’m miserable. The universe wants me to suffer, not to end my suffering

[ectobruh]

Go to the fukking doctor you idiot

[Ausaric]

Go to the fukking doctor you idiot

LOL do you think doing to the doctor is like a walk in thing? Oh brb driving to doctors office to get seen

Also I have a new insurance so I have to make sure that’s all squared away

Plus I already messaged them on the patient portal and they said to schedule a colonoscopy and that’s gonna take weeks to have done. I also have to get a CBC done which won’t show anything and even if it did, what are they gonna do?

What am I supposed to do, go to the ER and tell them I’m chitting blood?


Real life isn’t like the movies, bro. Real life isn’t as simple as you make it seem

[fate0311]

Masterbate to Emma hix

[uhohspaghetteos]

LOL do you think doing to the doctor is like a walk in thing? Oh brb driving to doctors office to get seen

Also I have a new insurance so I have to make sure that’s all squared away

Plus I already messaged them on the patient portal and they said to schedule a colonoscopy and that’s gonna take weeks to have done. I also have to get a CBC done which won’t show anything and even if it did, what are they gonna do?

What am I supposed to do, go to the ER and tell them I’m chitting blood?


Real life isn’t like the movies, bro. Real life isn’t as simple as you make it seem

You have hemmeroids
You don't need a colonoscopy lol

[Ausaric]

You have hemmeroids
You don't need a colonoscopy lol

It’s not just hemhorroids I think there’s something seriously wrong with me


My gastroenterologist says I have to get an expedited colonoscopy


So I have to fukin call and schedule this thing and then take off work and then go and have a camera shoved up my b-hole


And then I get to find out wtf is wrong with me

[4ea]

Already lost confidence in self 10x, already failed, no zeal for life, nothing to live for except to minimize suffering, hate my appearance, hate my personality, hate how I talk, how I move, how I do everything, hate everything about myself.

Probably dying, have been chitting blood for days randomly and not sure why. Prolly have turbo cancer. Maybe this is the gift the universe is finally sending me to put me down. I don’t have to keep doing this.

The princess of England just got cancer, maybe I also have cancer too.


Just started a new job, I have 0% confidence in my ability to succeed. Have no energy, can’t concentrate, get overwhelmed and stressed too fast. Just want to lay in the dark in bed, that’s all I’m good for.

Fukup loser POS, what a cruel world this is.


It’s over, I mean it’s really over. Maybe if I have cancer I can go on hospice or something.

telling yourself these things will only reinforce them in your mind. why would you want to completely sabotage your life like this?

if you were to instead tell yourself that life is an opportunity to succeed and that every thing you do is about incremental self improvement you can dramatically change your own self perception.

[thursdayParty1]

telling yourself these things will only reinforce them in your mind. why would you want to completely sabotage your life like this?

if you were to instead tell yourself that life is an opportunity to succeed and that every thing you do is about incremental self improvement you can dramatically change your own self perception.

People don't want to hear that their own thought patterns are the problem, cause it attacks the ego

How you choose to perceive things becomes your reality