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01-23-2023, 05:34 AM #361
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01-23-2023, 05:36 AM #362
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01-23-2023, 05:37 AM #363
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01-23-2023, 05:38 AM #364
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01-23-2023, 05:39 AM #365
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01-23-2023, 03:02 PM #366
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01-23-2023, 06:40 PM #367
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01-23-2023, 07:20 PM #368
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01-24-2023, 02:32 PM #369
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01-24-2023, 05:11 PM #370
Unfortunately, he did not. Super ****ing ****ty.
I won't tell you how to live your life, but I agree with the others have said. It would be a good idea to go in sooner than later. Regardless of what you do, I wish you great success and I hope to see you continue posting here to update us on your treatment and recovery!!Miscer in recovery: clean date 03/30/22
“The opposite of addiction isn't sobriety, it is connection" - Johann Hari
My Youtube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCy1OyYHH6uYzP8FqHGaP-eg
YT Gaming Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmL9RZ6hY9L9jFwb1jOKn1w
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01-25-2023, 01:50 AM #371
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01-30-2023, 11:00 PM #372
Hope all is going well everyone. Failed another weekend of staying sober, even though during the week my biggest trigger is work related stress, I still manage not drinking during the week. Once the weekend starts on Friday I feel like I "deserve" the time off work and having a drink, even though I don't feel the "need" to drink as much as I do during the week.
Feels like that rational thinking side of me disappears and I just go fk all.“Peace does not mean an absence of conflicts; differences will always be there. Peace means solving these differences through peaceful means; through dialogue, education, knowledge; and through humane ways.”
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01-31-2023, 09:40 AM #373
Thank you, I appreciate it. I think the thing that is ****ing me up the most is seeing him slowly die on our couch. He was a great brother in sobriety and it hurts to have lost him.
I've been doing okay. I'm sorry to hear about your weekend, but I feel that you didn't fail, you just had a set back. I don't believe someone truly fails until they fully give up and stop trying. I also believe it is important to keep this in mind and practice grace and forgiveness for one's self. It sounds like you are making great progress by not drinking during the week and you are working out ways to keep that during the weekend!! What have you been doing for self care/work related stress?? It seems like addressing and handling that would help benefit your efforts!Miscer in recovery: clean date 03/30/22
“The opposite of addiction isn't sobriety, it is connection" - Johann Hari
My Youtube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCy1OyYHH6uYzP8FqHGaP-eg
YT Gaming Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmL9RZ6hY9L9jFwb1jOKn1w
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02-03-2023, 12:52 AM #374
Hope your buddy is in a better place now, I can't imagine the feeling of watching someone close to you die
As for recovery, I picked up going to the gym prtty much on a daily basis, and going out for evening runs. This weeks been bad though, only managed two sober days. Gathering my strength to keep it sober this weekend...“Peace does not mean an absence of conflicts; differences will always be there. Peace means solving these differences through peaceful means; through dialogue, education, knowledge; and through humane ways.”
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02-03-2023, 09:17 AM #375
I know he is! Nice work on the consistency with the gym and runs! I know it's hard to, but look at your week as you accomplished two sober days, instead of "only" managed. It's amazing how much our self talk can effect us although it sometimes is hard to notice and/or change. I'm glad you had two days and I wish you success for this weekend!
I've been doing really solidly this week and I have been doing my best to utilize the momentum as best as I can. Worked out twice this week and plan to in a few hours, before my MH appt. I have been eating much better and been doing an inadvertent fast as I have had GI issues and not been hungry. I took on a fourth peer to be working with as a recovery coach and the first meeting went well. I am so stoked and so grateful that I can support other peers in their journey of recovery!Miscer in recovery: clean date 03/30/22
“The opposite of addiction isn't sobriety, it is connection" - Johann Hari
My Youtube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCy1OyYHH6uYzP8FqHGaP-eg
YT Gaming Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmL9RZ6hY9L9jFwb1jOKn1w
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02-05-2023, 10:29 AM #376
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02-05-2023, 02:04 PM #377
Welcome! It depends; going cold turkey off of gabanergics, like alcohol or benzodiazepines can be fatal while withdrawal off most else is not fatal/dangerous, but can be extremely unpleasant. And if withdrawing from alcohol/benzos, it depends on how much you were using, for how long, etc. Tapering can make withdrawal easier for a lot of substances, but it can be difficult to adhere to a self administered tapering schedule. I always advocate for medically assisted benzo/alcohol detox, but recommend it for any detox especially when inpatient and/or outpatient treatment services follow detox.
Miscer in recovery: clean date 03/30/22
“The opposite of addiction isn't sobriety, it is connection" - Johann Hari
My Youtube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCy1OyYHH6uYzP8FqHGaP-eg
YT Gaming Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmL9RZ6hY9L9jFwb1jOKn1w
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02-05-2023, 05:58 PM #378
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02-05-2023, 05:59 PM #379
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02-05-2023, 06:02 PM #380
That's super cool, definitely a thoughtful gift! I know that prayer is kind of cliche, but it is such a good attitude to take in life. While it seems so simple to just accept that oftentimes you can't change ****, it is so hard to put in practice. I hope you have been well brah and that your recovery is going well! I've been doing really good and this has been a well needed fantastic week. I've done a lot of introspection after our housemate's death and I want to do so much better for myself. Life is way to short and precious to not enjoy every moment and to take steps to better yourself. I can't help others as well if I am not doing as well as I can!
Miscer in recovery: clean date 03/30/22
“The opposite of addiction isn't sobriety, it is connection" - Johann Hari
My Youtube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCy1OyYHH6uYzP8FqHGaP-eg
YT Gaming Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmL9RZ6hY9L9jFwb1jOKn1w
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02-05-2023, 09:32 PM #381
I have done 3 months of nonstop study to determine the best supplement stack for someone with a dead liver and brain damage after years and years of alcohol abuse.
Now I finally believe I have the best combination available of OTC supplements.
Pharmaceuticals mostly remain unbeknownst to me, but there are a couple so far that are interesting.
I am about 80% asymptomatic now after 3 months of not drinking.
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02-05-2023, 09:47 PM #382
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02-06-2023, 07:24 PM #383
I don’t use NAC at the moment.
TUDCA
Cissus Quadrangularis megadose
Cordyceps Sinensis megadose
Astragalus megadose
Apigenin megadose
Phoephatidylserine megadose
CDP-Choline
Magnesium L-Threonate
Magnesium Lysinate-Glycinate megadose
Zinc Picolinate
Vitamin B-100
Vitamin D
Vitamin C megadose
Melatonin 50mg/night
Other classic liver supps I don’t take:
Dihydromirycetin (must explore this one more)
Silymarin
SAM-ELast edited by Ausaric; 02-06-2023 at 07:30 PM.
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02-06-2023, 07:25 PM #384
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02-06-2023, 07:38 PM #385
Oh, interesting on the cordyceps. I knew it was good for endurance/stamina (improves the vO2 max?? or something like that lol). It's an interesting fungus in its lifecycle, crazy how it zombifies insects and mindcontrols them! Also, I don't know the exact science, but I have heard that melatonin is more effective at lower doses. That mag glycine is hella good ****!
I am wishing/praying that you have good results! Better to know it's bad then not know at all. Although, ignore is bliss lol.Miscer in recovery: clean date 03/30/22
“The opposite of addiction isn't sobriety, it is connection" - Johann Hari
My Youtube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCy1OyYHH6uYzP8FqHGaP-eg
YT Gaming Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmL9RZ6hY9L9jFwb1jOKn1w
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02-06-2023, 08:52 PM #386
Yeah I’m only doing it because my parents keep nagging me to. Otherwise I wouldn’t go.
I already know there’s no point in living anymore, my life is over and I have no more potential or ability to make anything out of my life. It’s all over and gone and done with. I figure I have about 5% of my soul/spirit/life left in me. Kind of like a video game character that lost all my hit points but 1 and have 5 debuffs and poisoning going on constantly.
The way the world works, I’ll probably just keep living long enough to suffer as long as possible and endure more and more mental anguish, knowing I’m a complete and utter failure and worthless loser.
What’s even worse is being a hideously stupid freak of nature, like what kind of pathetic worm drinks themself practically to death by age 34?
There are literal retards out there that live long happy lives and get married and have kids and find meaning in life. Im the lowest scum of humanity imaginable. Worst genetics possible.
Hate myself more than anyone or anything.
I definitely 1000% don’t deserve happiness or to feel love or friendship or anything good. Srs
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02-06-2023, 09:01 PM #387
You definitely belong in this thread lol. Yes you do, I know me saying that won't change your mind..only time will. But you pick up enough white chips, set through enough step 1 meetings, go through enough indocs, ect, you learn eventually that you DO deserve happiness. And whether you like it or not, I love ya and consider you a friend. So eat your own ass (lovingly). We're gonna make it bro..you may not be who you wanna be yet, but you ain't who you used to be either..and that's something to be proud of. That goes for every one of you itt too.
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02-06-2023, 09:11 PM #388
I am never gonna go to AA meetings. If they work for other people that’s great. I’m not sitting through meetings every goddamn day where everyone talks about alcohol all the time.
I spent a month in rehab and I heard 10 lifetimes worth of that chit. Went to a couple meetings and I’d rather stab myself in the throat instead of ever going to another one.
Nobody liked me at the meetings and I felt invisible. I was also the least popular and most pathetic person in rehab.
You don’t understand, regular people drink and do drugs and are still able to have relationships and basically be normal and cool and whatever. I’m like a scab that needs to be removed and everyone knows it.
For me, going to those meetings would be to subject myself to needless misery and pain. I wouldn’t even be able to get a sponsor or anything, they probably wouldn’t even offer me any coffee or anything.
I already went to some meetings and it was a huge waste of time.
Again, I can see why they would work for someone who isn’t like me. Isn’t that pathetic, being the ugliest, most depressed, most worthless, dumbest loser at rehab and you’re only 27. Then years later you’re basically a zombified corpse with a live human appearance…like a rotted meat corpse walking around pretending to be human.
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02-06-2023, 09:48 PM #389
I respect what you wrote, but I disagree with what you wrote. The fact that you're still going with 1 hit point, 5 debuffs, and posioning shows tremendous spirit!!! And you absolutely deserve happiness, friendship, and love! But I know what it feels like to be at such a low point in your life. It's like, why go on with this horrible anguish? I really do believe there is always a light, albeit very dim, if you look hard enough! I appreciate you posting in this thread, being vulnerable and sharing your pain!
Miscer in recovery: clean date 03/30/22
“The opposite of addiction isn't sobriety, it is connection" - Johann Hari
My Youtube Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCy1OyYHH6uYzP8FqHGaP-eg
YT Gaming Channel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmL9RZ6hY9L9jFwb1jOKn1w
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02-06-2023, 09:52 PM #390
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