Mental and Physical Recovery Log

[CBRIT89]

I've been in the gym 6 of the last 8 days, and feeling really good. Again, heavy cardio focus.

Did a hyrox simulation today, but skipped a couple of things (sled pull as no rope, and Burpees as no room). It all went to plan, but really puts the challenge into perspective.

Weighed in at 96.4 this morning, and it looks like I'll be 96.6/96.8 tomorrow based on my nightly weigh in. That's pretty frustrating as I was hoping to be below 96 by Christmas. Whilst still not impossible, I do need to keep eating given my fitness plans for the week.

[CBRIT89]

96.4kg today, so actually better than I'd expected.

It's still frustrating to have not seen any real loss from where I was 10 days ago, but at least it's not going up, and at least my binge eating has been under control for the most part.

Another good workout today, with rowing, ski-erg and speed walking included as part of my continued prep for Hyrox.

[CBRIT89]

96.2kg today.

Long break between posts. Pretty sure I have put on muscle recently - I'm lifting heavier than I was a month ago, and I've been beasting it in the gym.

I've also entered Hyrox in October, so I have 8 months to get fit enough for that...

The 125kg sled push is my biggest current concern.

[CBRIT89]

Update:

I have injured my MCL and Meniscus, which have severely limited my workout ability. I also broke my toe doing a burpee, and got very depressed over summer which led to a binge summer.

I had a rock bottom moment a month ago and I think I'm beyond binge eating. It was the worst moment of my life, and still brings me to the verge of tears now to relive in my mind.


Anyway. I'm 93kg, feeling strong, leaning out slowly, and well on my way to sub 90kg.

I have had to pull out of my October competition however due to my injuries, one of which I believe requires surgery.

Either way, it'll be fixed I'm sure and I'll be back stronger and fitter then ever.

I know I've written about beating binge eating before, but this time I really believe it is going to be a thing of the past.

Also 7 days into 75 Hard, which is going well so far.

[CBRIT89]

My ankle is officially FUBAR. There are no surgical options that will allow me to do impact exercise again.

If I do impact exercise, my talus will collapse. If it collapses, I don't have solid bone for the replacement join to adhere to.


In short, my physical peak was at 19, and that was the last time I had a fully functioning body. 15 ****ing years of trying to get around the chemo, then the hip replacements, then the knee issues, ankle issues, shoulder issues.

Nercosis is a mother****er, and I am absolutely gutted. Whenever I see people jogging and running I am finding it really hard to accept I will end up barely able to walk if I try that.

I won't be doing the Hyrox event I was working towards. I won't be doing any more triathlons. I am highly unlikely to walk a marathon as planned.