Because of that, i sometimes still feel like an FA, stands for Forever Alone in case you didn't know.
while yes i have dated before, but i've never been in a serious long-term relationship, just 4 months, and i feel i kinda settled for it, but to raise my self-esteem, i repeat to myself that it was better than nothing, i did it for the reference experience, thats another way i look at it, and another thing, we never dated or were never together during critical times of the year, such as Valentines Day or during the Holidays, never traveled together, and we never introduced each other to our friends or families. Because by the time i met her, Valentines Day had already passed and we had already broken up long before the holidays started.
I did that mainly because i wanted to finally break, snap the single streak, finally cross that hurdle of no longer being single, i didn't want to have to mental stigma attached to me that i was single throughout my 20s.
I thought to myself, gaining experience with an average or slightly below average girl is better than ending up as a 30 or 40-year old virgin.
Another thing, due to being perpetually single or never dating anyone before her, my urge to experience the emotional and companionship part of a relationship, was stronger than the urge for the sexual/intimate part.
I wouldn't describe her as being horrendous, just kinda chubby, a little fat but not overly obese, i had the mindset of liking a girl just for who she is as a person, personality, the emotional/companionship part, a part of me feels that was a maturity awakening in me. I feel just liking and loving a woman just for who she is, personality, as a person, is an awesome and admirable trait, quality to have.
Anyway, who else has done this?
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