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    Originally Posted by billclintonnn View Post
    You need therapy.
    Possibly. Like I haven't cried or anything but I keep ruminating.

    Originally Posted by pondus_levo View Post
    Sounds like you also think it's normal for a healthy woman to take off her clothes and **** for money.
    No I dont. Never in a million years would I have thought Id normalize what she/we did together. I regret letting my feelings slip for her as much as I regret making videos and promoting her into this lifestyle.



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    In before your next post about how you noticed she did this or that and posted something you think is aimed at you.

    Seriously she probably hasn't even thought about you for 2 seconds. Wake up.
    Lmao could very well be. She unmatched me today on ig after 1 month of nc just a few hours after I posted a shirtless pic showing a 6-8 pack, so that was at least one of the two seconds. She would always compliment me on my body.

    Guy she's with now is skinny/fat out of shape. In the end I called it quits and she made me the bad guy so she could hate me and move on, but I know she's still thinking of me. I was engraved inside her head on various levels. Probably why she unmatched. So it will be easier for her to get me out of her head.
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    Originally Posted by spadelexus View Post
    Possibly. Like I haven't cried or anything but I keep ruminating.



    No I dont. Never in a million years would I have thought Id normalize what she/we did together. I regret letting my feelings slip for her as much as I regret making videos and promoting her into this lifestyle.





    Lmao could very well be. She unmatched me today on ig after 1 month of nc just a few hours after I posted a shirtless pic showing a 6-8 pack, so that was at least one of the two seconds. She would always compliment me on my body.

    Guy she's with now is skinny/fat out of shape. In the end I called it quits and she made me the bad guy so she could hate me and move on, but I know she's still thinking of me. I was engraved inside her head on various levels. Probably why she unmatched. So it will be easier for her to get me out of her head.
    Block her, stop stalking her social media status, and move on.
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    Self admitted divorced balding 40 year old with kids and still lingering around on Tinder all these years falling for and getting hurt by whores in their late teens and early 20's. You can't make this chit up.
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    Originally Posted by Kcrack View Post
    Self admitted divorced balding 40 year old with kids and still lingering around on Tinder all these years falling for and getting hurt by whores in their late teens and early 20's. You can't make this chit up.
    It's worse than that. He's gone full female with social media too. Getting pissy about being followed/unfollowed and trying to read between the lines for what every little social media activity means. It's the kind of thing women obsess about. It's not the kind of thing men should obsess about.
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    Bruh it's been proven time and time again that you can't turn a hoe into a housewife. Should have rode the wave, pumped, and dumped. NEVER CATCH FEELINGS for a hoe.
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    Originally Posted by CrimsonSteel View Post
    Block her, stop stalking her social media status, and move on.
    Unfollowed her when I woke up. Moving on.


    Originally Posted by Kcrack View Post
    Self admitted divorced balding 40 year old with kids and still lingering around on Tinder all these years falling for and getting hurt by whores in their late teens and early 20's. You can't make this chit up.
    Part true. I lost count of the number of women I've dated/slept with since I separated and tbh if I started to count Id get sick. The past 1.5-2 years I have been transitioning away from the hookup lifestyle. I've done it, just alot less. Only 3 girls I really fell for since my ex wife. 1 was a 30 yo a few years ago, I split with bc I just separated and wasn't ready to commit. The 2nd was a 20yo Brazilian two summers ago which I was a fool for. She didn't give me any real signs she wanted something serious. 3rd was this girl. Main difference with her is she gave me all the signs, I just ignored the red flags after a certain point (I went into it thinking she's just gonna be a fling).

    Countless other women, college aged, twenties, thirties etc...that I didn't think twice about after they didn't return my txt following 2-3-8 dates. Or women that I cut off and they ended up stalking me/my new gf's. One 25 yo just hit me up I was exclusive with last winter but dropped bc I realized she had a drinking problem. She said she's sober now and wanted to see me. I told her it's not a good idea.

    So you're hearing the two outlier stories.


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    Bruh it's been proven time and time again that you can't turn a hoe into a housewife. Should have rode the wave, pumped, and dumped. NEVER CATCH FEELINGS for a hoe.
    Was my intention in the beginning. I slipped.
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    Originally Posted by spadelexus View Post
    No I dont. Never in a million years would I have thought Id normalize what she/we did together. I regret letting my feelings slip for her as much as I regret making videos and promoting her into this lifestyle.
    LOL at thinking you are the reason. Your story is just one big red flag. You cannot be this retarded at 41.

    You got divorced and regressed back into a man child chasing women 20 years younger than you. You need to do some soul searching and get your head on straight. It's far too late for you to be acting like you are 20 again.

    Have you even considered how your "slip-ups" affect your children? How can you give them the attention they need and deserve if you are crying over a 22 year old sloot that played you? Ahem, you LET play you.
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    Originally Posted by pondus_levo View Post
    LOL at thinking you are the reason. Your story is just one big red flag. You cannot be this retarded at 41.
    I don't think that. She started camming on her own. I absolutely influenced her getting into porn, and I built her amatuer porn brand. I created her online/porn identity deciding everything from what she wore on camera, how she did her hair/makeup, what was in her bio's, scene plots, her logo/watermark, website, fetishes/kinks to target, content strategy, etc...

    Sure, I didn't force her to do anything. In fact I made sure she understood how going this route could have a negative impact later on in her life. She acknowledged the risks and went along with everything out of her own free will.

    Fast forward to today. I'm out of the picture but the amatuer porn identity I created for her remains pretty much the same. If I didn't show her the money so to speak in porn, she may have gotten into it on her own. But knowing her she would have burnt out after a couple months of camming. Creating the porn side of things, fueled the cam side, and vise versa. So I was directly responsible for promoting her into this lifestyle, and I do regret that.

    Edit to your edit: The only woman in my life I speak to my children about is their mother. And I only speak about her in the highest regards. They are too young to fully comprehend I see other women and don't know about any of them. And yes I think about them all the time and I cry about not seeing them every day. I haven't cried about not seeing this girl anymore. When my mind wanders and I get stuck thinking about her, I think of them and my mind gets back on track.
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    Originally Posted by spadelexus View Post
    I don't think that. She started camming on her own. I absolutely influenced her getting into porn, and I built her amatuer porn brand. I created her online/porn identity deciding everything from what she wore on camera, how she did her hair/makeup, what was in her bio's, scene plots, her logo/watermark, website, fetishes/kinks to target, content strategy, etc...

    Sure, I didn't force her to do anything. In fact I made sure she understood how going this route could have a negative impact later on in her life. She acknowledged the risks and went along with everything out of her own free will.

    Fast forward to today. I'm out of the picture but the amatuer porn identity I created for her remains pretty much the same. If I didn't show her the money so to speak in porn, she may have gotten into it on her own. But knowing her she would have burnt out after a couple months of camming. Creating the porn side of things, fueled the cam side, and vise versa. So I was directly responsible for promoting her into this lifestyle, and I do regret that.

    Edit to your edit: The only woman in my life I speak to my children about is their mother. And I only speak about her in the highest regards. They are too young to fully comprehend I see other women and don't know about any of them. And yes I think about them all the time and I cry about not seeing them every day. I haven't cried about not seeing this girl anymore. When my mind wanders and I get stuck thinking about her, I think of them and my mind gets back on track.
    Well if anything, you provided her the safest path that she was going down anyway.
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    Originally Posted by MiscInformed View Post
    It's worse than that. He's gone full female with social media too. Getting pissy about being followed/unfollowed and trying to read between the lines for what every little social media activity means. It's the kind of thing women obsess about. It's not the kind of thing men should obsess about.
    Nah it was refreshing when I realised she unfollowed me. Social media plays a part in relationships today but over analysing her posts is going over board. Never really did that with other women to this extent. I reached a new low in several aspects with her. None of it I'm proud about. Time to rebuild.


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    Originally Posted by spadelexus View Post
    Possibly. Like I haven't cried or anything but I keep ruminating.



    No I dont. Never in a million years would I have thought Id normalize what she/we did together. I regret letting my feelings slip for her as much as I regret making videos and promoting her into this lifestyle.





    Lmao could very well be. She unmatched me today on ig after 1 month of nc just a few hours after I posted a shirtless pic showing a 6-8 pack, so that was at least one of the two seconds. She would always compliment me on my body.

    Guy she's with now is skinny/fat out of shape. In the end I called it quits and she made me the bad guy so she could hate me and move on, but I know she's still thinking of me. I was engraved inside her head on various levels. Probably why she unmatched. So it will be easier for her to get me out of her head.
    Not therapy for crying, but because you want to be 20 years old when you're 40, and fall for these young chicks who are just flaky and full of nonsense.
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    Dude this types of girls... You should be simply banging, then keeping your distance.

    Keep her close enough to your bed.. And far enough so it never develops into anything like a relationship or dating.

    No nights out together
    No eating out together
    No sleep overs if that's possible
    Absolutely no form of affection, holding hands, cuddles etc.

    Avoid all talk about exclusivity.. Simply keep it sexual up until she drops off.

    Enjoy a few months with her, because that's how long this sex only relationships generally last.

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    Originally Posted by DustinTheHuss View Post
    Not therapy for crying, but because you want to be 20 years old when you're 40, and fall for these young chicks who are just flaky and full of nonsense.
    Bro. This is all kind of new to me. I was with the same woman for 15 yrs. When we split I guarded my heart and went on a tinder rampage for a few years. I chronicled alot of that period of my life in the tinder threads. Understand back in the day I actually had to approach women IRL to get their number, date, have sex etc...so when I re-entered the dating market it was like I just took a time machine to another world. "You can order women to your house to have sex without paying them, on an app. WTF??"

    That hookup phase is out of my system for the most part. I use to love the chase now I'm sick of it. So for the past year+ I've been making an effort to actually date women and focus on just one at a time instead of shuffling a constant rotation. So all these things considered, it sets the stage for heartbreak.

    I don't think the girls ages have much to do with it. I've had 21 yo's fall head over heels for me/try to lock me down, and have had 40yo's ghost me after sex.

    I think it more has to do with where I am in my life. Im basically re-learning how to date, how to get involved etc.. Was 20+ years ago I went through gf/dating "breakups" like this. The Brazilian last year wasn't even on the same level. I've dated 5-6 girls in between aged 21-25. The 25yo tried to lock me down and even pretended she was pregnant after I broke it off. Doesn't matter. None of them were marriage/baby momma material, and over the last few years Ive lost count of the number of "flaky" young women Ive dated/slept with etc..

    Only one I really fell for just coincidently had to be the one with the brightest red flags lol. It was blatantly obvious I should have avoided it but so were the other XX(X?) that I didn't fall for.

    So I'm re-learning this chit and needed to go through that for practice.
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    Hey guys I wanted say thanks for the replies and advice itt. I stopped checking her sm and pron accounts we shared and boy has that made a world of difference. Basically rebuilt my confidence about 80% which is enough that idgaf. Seeing things more clearly too. I don't have anything against her. She told me going into it she didn't want to be exclusive (and I said me neither) but as things escalated I kind of pressured her into it so I could invest my time on the biz. Doesn't excuse her actions. In the end she lost alot more than I did and in fact I gained my real life back after we split.

    I lined up my 2nd date since we split. Nice 21 yo girl I was seeing before the camwhore but she suddenly went nc on me back in july. I didn't double txt her back then. Hit her up a few weeks ago asking if she wanted to catch up. We made a plan and I flaked (I wasn't ready). So meeting her tomorrow for dinner. Objectively better looking than the camwhore too.

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    Hey guys I wanted say thanks for the replies and advice itt. I stopped checking her sm and pron accounts we shared and boy has that made a world of difference. Basically rebuilt my confidence about 80% which is enough that idgaf. Seeing things more clearly too. I don't have anything against her. She told me going into it she didn't want to be exclusive (and I said me neither) but as things escalated I kind of pressured her into it so I could invest my time on the biz. Doesn't excuse her actions. In the end she lost alot more than I did and in fact I gained my real life back after we split.

    I lined up my 2nd date since we split. Nice 21 yo girl I was seeing before the camwhore but she suddenly went nc on me back in july. I didn't double txt her back then. Hit her up a few weeks ago asking if she wanted to catch up. We made a plan and I flaked (I wasn't ready). So meeting her tomorrow for dinner. Objectively better looking than the camwhore too.

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    21. Since you haven't learned your lesson. Don't fall in love...
    Not falling in love. This chick wouldn't even sleep over after sex lol.

    Here's my problem. I get matches with decent looking older women on hinge but the convos usually die. Meanwhile on tinder there's plenty of college girls I can just uber over my house.

    not sending her a pic lol





    The prettier college girls I need to take out to dinner/drinks etc... which I don't mind doing.

    So my options are basically 1) become voluntarily celebate and wait for only serious relationship material...or 2) date/have sex with college aged women and just ride the wave.
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    So my options are basically 1) become voluntarily celebate and wait for only serious relationship material...or 2) date/have sex with college aged women and just ride the wave.
    Or go offline and join those clubs that go on adventures, join a volleyball league, go to bars, try to find someone IRL and get off of crappy online dating.
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    Phuck. me. bros. I just relapsed hard. Actually even worse.

    I was moving on and not stalking her pron/cam/social media pages for the past week or two. I've also been ramping up my dating pipeline, talking to new women, and not thinking the camwhore was the only woman on earth for me.

    Last night I couldn't stop thinking about how we were going to go on a vacation together this weekend. Early last month before we split I told her take this Saturday - Wednesday off, and we would decide where to go mid October. I was thinking somewhere in the Caribbean. We split before we booked anything.

    I wanted to go to some exotic place with her so phuckin bad and it was supposed to happen this weekend. So thinking Saturday is coming, and we both took off work through Wednesday, my mind just downward spiraled. And I creeped all her pages.

    But there's more.

    A few weeks ago I created a pronhub account as a viewer. I felt like leaving a negative comment on one of her vids with the new dude. But I didn't have it in me. I couldn't do anything to hurt her.

    So last night I logged into pronhub with the anonymous user account I made and messaged her on pronhub. Very little chance she knew it was me. She'd get dozens of messages/day on pronhub. All the most random weird chit youve ever heard in your life. Now heres the thing. She still has gifs on her page with me in them. Not sure how I feel about that tbh bc she was supposed to take everything with me in it down. Anyways the gifs have a link at the bottom to the video they were made from. Her top viewed gif is from one of our top viewed vids. You can still view the gif. But when you click the link on the gif page a new page opens that says "this video has been removed." .

    So I messaged her on pronhub....

    Anonymous pronhub user (me):
    Hey I really like your page. Watching you squirt in a bowl was super hot. Is the video this gif was made from on a different site? Link.www.gifofmephuckinghermissionary.com

    Her: Oh boy that gif...Lol the guy I made the video with left me so he made me take the video down (tear eyed emoji x 3)

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    JFC. You can't see your kids for months and even on a holiday but can take a whore to the Caribbean. I can't even.
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    Bro. This is all kind of new to me. I was with the same woman for 15 yrs. When we split I guarded my heart and went on a tinder rampage for a few years.
    It is the tinder rampage that puts you in this spot. I, too, had a terrible breakup many years ago and one of my best friends suggested that I 'fu*k other women' to 'get over it'. I had dozens of sex partners over a span of a few years and of course it was exciting. I remember one girl approaching me at a bar saying something like 'what are you doing here tonight?' and I said 'being a gentleman at the bar instead of taking you back to your place and savaging you' and she just (seriously) took my hand and led me back to her place (it was walking distance) and I fuc*ed her so hard. I smashed her against her closet and broke it...I dominated her completely. That was 9 years ago and she still sends me e-mails to this day (I don't reply).

    The thing that brings people like that together though is a kind of 'misery' - don't you see it yet? I know that fuc*king 21 year olds is so 'sweet'. Like you said - unblemished skin, so tight, so 'lively'. But what about after the fuc*ing? Please don't tell me that there's any serious bond there.

    Your addiction to 'drowning yourself in a sea of puss' has turned into a value system for you and you're lost in your addiction. Believe me - I know - it took me years to realize it, and I was pulling women left and right in person. At my peak a woman working on a radio show asked me to come fuc* her on the air - she was a friend of this woman I savaged. I was being passed around like a sex toy and I reveled in it. Until I realized that this 'peak' was actually one of the lowest points of my life.

    This was a long time ago but you're on this downward spiral and I've posted this in your threads before just never in this amount of detail. Take a step back before it is too late.
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    JFC. You can't see your kids for months and even on a holiday but can take a whore to the Caribbean. I can't even.
    Yea I think you should go spend some time with your kids ASAP and hopefully it will put things in perspective for you and make you want to spend your time doing things that will make you a strong role model they can be proud of rather than obsessing over women who don't have anything positive to offer you.
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    JFC. You can't see your kids for months and even on a holiday but can take a whore to the Caribbean. I can't even.
    This. Go see your kids and seek professional help ASAP. This is unhealthy behavior.
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    It is the tinder rampage that puts you in this spot. I, too, had a terrible breakup many years ago and one of my best friends suggested that I 'fu*k other women' to 'get over it'. I had dozens of sex partners over a span of a few years and of course it was exciting. I remember one girl approaching me at a bar saying something like 'what are you doing here tonight?' and I said 'being a gentleman at the bar instead of taking you back to your place and savaging you' and she just (seriously) took my hand and led me back to her place (it was walking distance) and I fuc*ed her so hard. I smashed her against her closet and broke it...I dominated her completely. That was 9 years ago and she still sends me e-mails to this day (I don't reply).

    The thing that brings people like that together though is a kind of 'misery' - don't you see it yet? I know that fuc*king 21 year olds is so 'sweet'. Like you said - unblemished skin, so tight, so 'lively'. But what about after the fuc*ing? Please don't tell me that there's any serious bond there.
    Yes it’s to fill a void. The feeling of emptiness/loneliness. To get Instant gratification. Validation. And to “feel” loved and cared for. Those were the reasons I went on a tinder rampage.

    And no, I didn’t have a feeling of any real connection or bond with really any of the 18-25yo girls except for the camwhore.

    Your addiction to 'drowning yourself in a sea of puss' has turned into a value system for you and you're lost in your addiction. Believe me - I know - it took me years to realize it, and I was pulling women left and right in person. At my peak a woman working on a radio show asked me to come fuc* her on the air - she was a friend of this woman I savaged. I was being passed around like a sex toy and I reveled in it. Until I realized that this 'peak' was actually one of the lowest points of my life.
    It could very well be that since we had the most amazing sexual chemistry I have ever had, that created an illusion to where I thought I loved her but it was just the pleasure she gave me I loved.

    But I truly feel we connected in other ways too and I don’t just miss the sex. I miss talking to her. Like after sex we would eat or watch a movie. We’d hang out. Pretty much every other girl I’d tune out with after sex.


    This was a long time ago but you're on this downward spiral and I've posted this in your threads before just never in this amount of detail. Take a step back before it is too late.
    I’ve scaled back considerably with random hookups. It’s not what I want. I turned down a few for this weekend but will probably end up having one. I need to get my mind off the camwhore and the only way I know how is with other women.

    I just wished she’d phuckin txt me that she wants to reconcile. I enjoyed being with her so much I’d probably take her back on my terms or to a lesser extent. I just can’t contact her bc if she’s moved on fully and doesn’t want to talk I’ll feel destroyed. Trying to read into the message she sent on ph to my phony account. Might try to develop the convo to see what she’s thinking that she’d tell a stranger. But this is complete and utter craziness. Wtf am I doing.

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    Edit: and I already addressed the false accusations that Id be sacrificing time/money I spend on my kids for her. Directly to legz. On the previous page. It’s a complicated situation but my kids always come first.
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    Edit: and I already addressed the false accusations that Id be sacrificing time/money I spend on my kids for her. Directly to legz. On the previous page. It’s a complicated situation but my kids always come first.
    False accusation? You said yourself you haven't seen them in months. Fuk that shiz. Nothing would keep me away from my son for months. NOTHING. I would fukking walk across the country if I had to. Kids need their parents in their lives, they need them there with them, not just money thrown at them. Stop chasing whores and get to your kids.
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    False accusation? You said yourself you haven't seen them in months. Fuk that shiz. Nothing would keep me away from my son for months. NOTHING. I would fukking walk across the country if I had to. Kids need their parents in their lives, they need them there with them, not just money thrown at them. Stop chasing whores and get to your kids.
    Would take you longer to walk from NY to LA than it took me to wait till everyone's schedules aligned and flew. And listen I'm intentionally leaving out a lot of personal details like; what I do for a living, terms of the separation agreement with my ex, my kids activity schedule, and so on...so if you can't respect that, and comprehend that other people might be in different situations than you are in, than I really dgaf.

    You are also assuming that I'm not in my kids lives. I Skype, whatsapp video, email, talk to them, etc...just about every day. I just taught my eldest son how compound interest works and had him send me an excel file where he ran various scenarios showing me how much $100 earning 3% will be in 10 years. How much it will be if he added $10/month every month over the course of 20 years. How much it will be earning 5%, 8%, adding an additional $20/month after 5 years, etc... I told him I will match dollar for dollar every dollar he saves if he completed this exercise.

    Now I'm going to teach him about the time value of money, inflation, etc... He just turned 11. So I don't just "throw money" at my kids.

    The most complicated part to all this is I need to relocate in order to see them more often, but I'm in a great position at my current firm and need a little more seniority before they would approve relocating. And it's not like I can just "find another job closer" because I have a very specialized skill set and experience level so there's not many companies with similar roles that would pay me what I make now. I could take a pay cut. Than I wont be able to afford my ex's rent in the neighborhood they live in now, and/or kids will probably need to go to public school, daughter will have to choose between violin or ballet lessons (she takes both now) etc...

    So when I say its complicated, I mean it. I cry all the time because I can't see my kids more often.

    But look. It's crazy for me to read what I just wrote and wake up to the reality I put myself in with the camwhore. I snap out of it. So thanks for digging deep (srs). Im literally filling a void of love and affection I received from my ex, my kids, and I gave them daily with undeserving women. So I can do better. I can do more. It's just really phuckin hard to be alone, and stay woke, when I have women literally asking me to have sex with them before we even meet.

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    Would take you longer to walk from NY to LA than it took me to wait till everyone's schedules aligned and flew. And listen I'm intentionally leaving out a lot of personal details like; what I do for a living, terms of the separation agreement with my ex, my kids activity schedule, and so on...so if you can't respect that, and comprehend that other people might be in different situations than you are in, than I really dgaf.

    You are also assuming that I'm not in my kids lives. I Skype, whatsapp video, email, talk to them, etc...just about every day. I just taught my eldest son how compound interest works and had him send me an excel file where he ran various scenarios showing me how much $100 earning 3% will be in 10 years. How much it will be if he added $10/month every month over the course of 20 years. How much it will be earning 5%, 8%, adding an additional $20/month after 5 years, etc... I told him I will match dollar for dollar every dollar he saves if he completed this exercise.

    Now I'm going to teach him about the time value of money, inflation, etc... He just turned 11. So I don't just "throw money" at my kids.

    The most complicated part to all this is I need to relocate in order to see them more often, but I'm in a great position at my current firm and need a little more seniority before they would approve relocating. And it's not like I can just "find another job closer" because I have a very specialized skill set and experience level so there's not many companies with similar roles that would pay me what I make now. I could take a pay cut. Than I wont be able to afford my ex's rent in the neighborhood they live in now, and/or kids will probably need to go to public school, daughter will have to choose between violin or ballet lessons (she takes both now) etc...

    So when I say its complicated, I mean it. I cry all the time because I can't see my kids more often.

    But look. It's crazy for me to read what I just wrote and wake up to the reality I put myself in with the camwhore. I snap out of it. So thanks for digging deep (srs). Im literally filling a void of love and affection I received from my ex, my kids, and I gave them daily with undeserving women. So I can do better. I can do more. It's just really phuckin hard to be alone, and stay woke, when I have women literally asking me to have sex with them before we even meet.

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    Don't get it twisted. You are asking them.

    Do you have in your bio that you are a divorced father estranged from your kids? I bet you leave that out and pretend to want kids while you are at it. You **** them and THEN tell them you are not interested in something serious using your current situation as the catalyst. You use these women to fill a void, self-admitting it's not actually filling any void at all, yet you still do it. You are a joke, dude.

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    Don't get it twisted. You are asking them.

    Do you have in your bio that you are a divorced father estranged from your kids? I bet you leave that out and pretend to want kids while you are at it. You **** them and THEN tell them you are not interested in something serious using your current situation as the catalyst. You use these women to fill a void, self-admitting it's not actually filling any void at all, yet you still do it. You are a joke, dude.

    You are the male version of DeadliftBrah.
    No I don't. I have my ig linked and put it my bio and there's plenty of pics of me and my kids.

    And I'd take your money. I'm always upfront with women. I let them know all of that before sex. I don't have to lead women on for sex. This one basically insinuated she'd make the trip to get phucked on date 1. I have multiple examples where women literally open to me with something sexual so I'm not twisting anything.

    And yeah it's not what I want so I may or may not go forward with it. If you've read my other posts you would know this was the lifestyle I had and have been transitioning out of it. The problem is Im transitioning from hookups to essentially 2-3 month short term relationships/long term flings with the wrong women, thus this thread.

    And save me this holier than thou bullchit we are all posting in this subforum for basically the same reason. We are just coming from different experiences and situations.
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    Originally Posted by spadelexus View Post
    Would take you longer to walk from NY to LA than it took me to wait till everyone's schedules aligned and flew. And listen I'm intentionally leaving out a lot of personal details like; what I do for a living, terms of the separation agreement with my ex, my kids activity schedule, and so on...so if you can't respect that, and comprehend that other people might be in different situations than you are in, than I really dgaf.

    You are also assuming that I'm not in my kids lives. I Skype, whatsapp video, email, talk to them, etc...just about every day. I just taught my eldest son how compound interest works and had him send me an excel file where he ran various scenarios showing me how much $100 earning 3% will be in 10 years. How much it will be if he added $10/month every month over the course of 20 years. How much it will be earning 5%, 8%, adding an additional $20/month after 5 years, etc... I told him I will match dollar for dollar every dollar he saves if he completed this exercise.

    Now I'm going to teach him about the time value of money, inflation, etc... He just turned 11. So I don't just "throw money" at my kids.

    The most complicated part to all this is I need to relocate in order to see them more often, but I'm in a great position at my current firm and need a little more seniority before they would approve relocating. And it's not like I can just "find another job closer" because I have a very specialized skill set and experience level so there's not many companies with similar roles that would pay me what I make now. I could take a pay cut. Than I wont be able to afford my ex's rent in the neighborhood they live in now, and/or kids will probably need to go to public school, daughter will have to choose between violin or ballet lessons (she takes both now) etc...

    So when I say its complicated, I mean it. I cry all the time because I can't see my kids more often.

    But look. It's crazy for me to read what I just wrote and wake up to the reality I put myself in with the camwhore. I snap out of it. So thanks for digging deep (srs). Im literally filling a void of love and affection I received from my ex, my kids, and I gave them daily with undeserving women. So I can do better. I can do more. It's just really phuckin hard to be alone, and stay woke, when I have women literally asking me to have sex with them before we even meet.
    Well I'll just say that kids don't need a big fancy house in an expensive neighborhood. Not saying that they should live in the slums but they would be just fine living in a modest house in a safe neighborhood. They also don't need to be enrolled in tons of activities. They'd rather have their dad there close to them so that they can see you and not just Skype with you. You really should be concentrating on finding a way to move closer rather than obsessing over complete sloots. You can also stop with the boo-hooing "oh noes girls off me sex before we meet, that means I must smash them" It's called self control.
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    Originally Posted by Legz422 View Post
    Well I'll just say that kids don't need a big fancy house in an expensive neighborhood. Not saying that they should live in the slums but they would be just fine living in a modest house in a safe neighborhood. They also don't need to be enrolled in tons of activities. They'd rather have their dad there close to them so that they can see you and not just Skype with you. You really should be concentrating on finding a way to move closer rather than obsessing over complete sloots. You can also stop with the boo-hooing "oh noes girls off me sex before we meet, that means I must smash them" It's called self control.
    Yeah I know all this but thanks for reminding me. I’m literally in the middle of building something big that will put my kids kids in a nice neighborhood. So it’s hard for me to quit rn. But I can’t let another couple years pass without being closer to them so I will have to make the move in the not so distant future. It’s eating me alive having to Skype the little ones a bedtime story and not being able to tuck them in. I have tears running down my cheeks as I type this.

    I know I need to control myself in the women category. The hookup game was pretty much an addiction for me. I didn’t care about the sex as much. It was more the attraction/seduction game. Then I got disgusted with it. It became meaningless. Empty. I started to focus on dating 1 woman at a time about 1.5yrs ago (with a few hookups in between). But what I’ve been doing is basically selecting the prettiest girl/girl I vibed with most, that I ran hookup game on and continuing to date just them, for as long as it will last. Since they are <25yo they only last 2-3 months at most.

    The problem is that’s the only game I know. So I need to reengineer my entire approach with women. But I’m so lonely and love having someone to cuddle it’s hard to control while I figure out how to approach the right women for an LTR.

    Edit: Like how does this work on a girl I´d just hookup with:


    Spoiler!


    But this not work on a girl Id impregnate?



    Can someone explain this? I don't understand. Is it that the higher quality girls have more guys date pitching them? Or was I too aggressive? Or both.
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