[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[imbored21]

The only thing I enjoy is hanging out with my prostitute crush but a few hours every couple weeks isn't enough anymore and I am spending way more money than I make on her. I can't do this forever and even if I could, it's not even enough.

[imbored21]

Girls will match with me and message me first and then they match with a Chad and stop responding to me. It's unavoidable because even ugly fat girls can get Chads with ease.

[imbored21]

No one wants to hang out with you unless you have a Twat. And I can't blame them because I don't wanna hang out with a bunch of sausages either.

[imbored21]

i don't have fun unless I'm doing romantic **** with a pretty girl.

[imbored21]

i get extreme frustration when people arent constantly replying to my posts

[imbored21]

just spend my entire day posting on the misc because i have no one to talk to in person. the problem is i hate talking to people unless theyre hot girls. only ugly girls and men want to hang out with me. that's so boring though

[imbored21]

people dont take my problems seriously but it's legit tearing me up inside. im "entitled" for wanting to hang out with pretty girls. okay

[buwbs]

check ya cp srs

[imbored21]

check ya cp srs

thanks bro. i sont want hookers though. i want a gf and a family.

[imbored21]

i just dont have fun unless im
hanging out with a girl

[eod8989]

Just feel lonely and bored all of the time

I don't relate to anyone at all anymore

It gets worse the older I get too

[frankfrank3630]

I wish I knew what caused this lonely, bored, depressed feeling

I wish you knew, too. You've gotten rid of some of the "obvious" causes now, and yet your depression persists. As I see it, being nothing more than an observer, your sphere of interests has shrunk to something rather small, enough so that it's very hard to intersect with by throwing (figurative) darts at it from fifteen feet away. I wasn't here yet, at all, back before 2016 or 2015 when you were reasonably happy...and probably NOT posting in this thread yet. Thusly, I don't know if you know how to revisit your former, larger group of interests and go-to stuff, perhaps also finding a way to re-engage, but that would be great. Was there some event in your life that triggered you to withdraw into a smaller group of interests? You clearly did at one time have such, which allowed you to "hang with the guys" and have fun conversations when doing so. I wish for you to be able to find that grand castle again. I wish likewise (tailored to what others may currently be missing, or having trouble finding) for everybody else in here. You know you can PM me anytime.

I found the misc based on internet legends and just decided to try it out. I saw this was the main thread on the whole forum, and this was really concerning. I thought to myself that I should lend some helpful words. I'm not depressed but I've been much worse and I made it through alright.

**SAME HERE, Bean. (Is your Clovis the New Mexico one or, more likely, the California one?) You're right, this thread is obviously a few years old and still going - because depression is timeless, because it will always exist somewhere. My overall comment about this post is HEAR, HEAR!**

First off, life's a bitch. Nothing of true worth is handed to you. Whether it's making gains or finding meaning in life, you have to work for it. Material things are fickle, they will come and go in a flash, but it is the intangible that cannot be bought or stolen. Meaning, self-worth, peace, happiness, respect, stability, hope, pride, and those sorts of things. You have to work for those things, they won't just be handed to you while waiting around and bemoaning your lack of them.

**WOW**

Second off, being loved will make you content with life. Love is never easy, but it's worth more than anything material. It can come from family, friends, yourself, your religion, community, relationships, and from many sources. If you have it, it's not hard to appreciate life. My personal policy is to love everybody. So, at the very least, you can know that I love you.

**Made me cry, man, thank you. BULLS-EYE! I've tried to say the same thing here in the past, but you put it together perfectly in so few words. You have put one of my pillars of life into words.**

Finally, the answers to your inner problems aren't going to come from the outside. Maybe I can help you a bit with these words, but you have to look within. Be fair and practical when you reflect: What are the roots of your troubles? What can you do to address them? Nothing is beyond helping, but you need some sort of hope and fire for living to approach them in a practical way.

Many men will just do something self-destructive when **** hits the fan, just to cope with reality. This is weakness, and it just leaves you worse off. They'll abuse substances, beat their family, buy a hoe, etc. Find something healthy to do that doesn't involve self-destruction. For me, that's usually music or lifting weights.

If you've got the discipline to lift, you've got the discipline to sort out your chit. Don't give up on life and don't harm yourself, stay strong.

Bean, this may be the best post I've ever seen on the internet! So wonderful that I may even copy it, and blow it up, and FRAME IT onto the wall. Guys, he's really got something going on good in his "bean," and these are great words to live by. (I think what I said to eod8989 above, about finding a way to have a more-expansive group of interests, also applies.) This definitely warrants repeating for those who may not have been reading this earlier in the weekend. This is an excellent post, and so much of it rings true, because so much of what you say is UNIVERSAL to humanity.

Like you, Bean, I have seen some very dark places in the past, so much that I was in an institution for 380 days during my time of puberty, dealing with Aspergers somewhere between moderate and strong. I do know a few people who have spent some time in mental hospitals, but I only know two (one of them myself) who would write a good review on Yelp or something. That institution (part of a massive university hospital) no longer exists. It was gone before most of you were born. I feel fortunate for ending up in a TEACHING hospital.

This forum sucks man its like 95% negative stuff

Wish I had a community so I could socialize im tired of being on the internet it sucks now srs

I do try hard to be part of the other 5% on here, because that's, simply-put, what I am. All of you should know that I read ABSOLUTELY EVERY POST in here, always. I don't disparage anybody here, for any reason. As Bean said above, y'all may want to know there are at least two people here who care about you.

misc is the armpit of the internet srs...you are misc

Good poem, buwbs! Obviously geared toward those who have been here for a long time, and/or those who participate in other misc topics, because I don't recognize the usernames and therefore they could be either or both. I don't NEED to know anything about the names you quote, for it to be relevant, and you didn't mention others of the many more triumphs which have showcased in this thread, but you didn't need to. You gave a pretty good idea in your post.

just spend my entire day posting on the misc because i have no one to talk to in person. the problem is i hate talking to people unless theyre hot girls. only ugly girls and men want to hang out with me. that's so boring though

imbored21, try to remember that "hot girls" aren't the only people who can have ideas and thoughts that can intersect with your interests...or, perhaps, even find and renew those interests that have submerged from your view.

People I know and hang with and (yes) love in real life, with love coming in as many different forms as the number of people I know, range from hot girls to gay men to straight married couples and families, from atheists to Jews (MANY!) to Pentecostals, from homeless to wealthy, from MAGA to communists, from "WASP"s to Native Americans to Arabs, various "colors" of people, and more. These people, all have something of value...even the group of Aborigines that I hung out with for a half hour a few years ago (and I'll surely never see again...such interactions are rather unusual in Australia, let alone me most likely never being there again). I have, and nurture, an innate curiosity about the world out there, which of course is a YMMV thing, but that's not the only reason that expanding horizons can be a lot of fun. It's up to you to have your own reasons. In real life, I would be a friend of "pretty much anybody" in this entire thread.

Aloha, shalom, salaam, and love to you.

[imbored21]

paid for Tinder again. It's a trap. Just got land hippos on my jock. **** this ****.

[imbored21]

really don't want to hurt my parents but it all seems so hopeless

[iOse]

really don't want to hurt my parents but it all seems so hopeless

Posts getting an Elliot Rodger vibe, if you're serious try to get help bro. Male suicide epidemic is a real problem.
Also on dutasteride, if you're still using that can 100% make depression worse for people prone to mental illness. I was already chronically depressed before finasteride and it made my symptoms even worse, I was making legit plans to take my life, not good man.

[eod8989]

I just don't know what to say to people boys. There's just nothing to talk about. But I don't like being anti social all day either. I'm just always either bored or can't find happiness and my only way to socialize is at work anyways and I'm always just bored or annoyed here.

[eod8989]

And the only thing that really seems fun is cuddling with a girl and watching movies and stuff like that but no girls like me

[imbored21]

coworker was talking to me and i was just sitting there nodding giving 1 word monotone answers. i looked like a zombie. i just get no dopamine from talking to people.

[eod8989]

Some dude at work yelled at me when i said i don't want to go to the diversity meeting tomorrow. It's just another reason i don't talk to people anymore. What's the point if people act like this? It just isn't fun being around older people. Need to find some like minded people my age but it's impossible.

[buwbs]

tbh ive had enough everything is easy apart from health

just dont feel healthy anymore every other week some allergy or chest pain makes me think is it worth it, yet nobody believes me because on paper i look healthy

Acute level of self awareness

Every doctor i visit seems to be controlled neurologically to politely tell me to **** off

Some contaminated whey isolate has just wrecked my head allergic reaction deteriorated eye sight, cloudy brain now i'm sensitive to any food yet nobody believes me

ffs was looking forward to spending some travelling now this

It all happens for a reason eh

I'm 8/10 as well pretty sure some rich kunt reptilian is going to steal my cloned identity upon suicide sounds mad but we are witnessing clown world

can consciousness be swapped i think yes with surgery and elite money

is lapland daemon entity real i think yes i've witnessed it on numerous occasions is it bill & co i think yes

Is T.I targeted individual a thing? i think yes to mind **** & depress certain demographic of people into suicide through lack of mental stimulation social-isolation & boredom

I'm the sort of person that buys everyone at the bar drinks all night yet never get a call to have a pint lol? it doesn't make sense

Tbh though i've had a somewhat good life until 27 years old until the awakening now its good yet boring but the health aspect is the kicker

health is everything if the romans didn't eat it don't buy it

[imbored21]

going crazy because i dont look forward to anything anymore not even hot girls. idk what to do

[eod8989]

I just don't know what people do all day. I don't find going out to bars or restaurants and stuff like that fun. It does nothing for me. Sometimes i think i'm just screwed because i'm a recovering alcoholic and don't drink or smoke. Everything was fun when i did that stuff.

[imbored21]

I just don't know what people do all day. I don't find going out to bars or restaurants and stuff like that fun. It does nothing for me. Sometimes i think i'm just screwed because i'm a recovering alcoholic and don't drink or smoke. Everything was fun when i did that stuff.

i don't either. I don't get it. It's fun if you have friends that you can be yourself around and joke around with but I can't get that because I'm too boring and weird.

[eod8989]

i don't either. I don't get it. It's fun if you have friends that you can be yourself around and joke around with but I can't get that because I'm too boring and weird.

Yeah i'm too quiet and people think i'm weird for not talking. But legit i don't know what people talk about all day i can be fine one sec and then just be super bored the next and not want to talk to anyone. At work people have the most awkward convos or it's just some random small talk that i can't do. I just want to be myself but it's like nobody lets me. I don't get it anymore.

I don't even meet any of those cool people i used to meet either. Everyone is so serious or PC. It's weird man.

[DustinTheHuss]

Some dude at work yelled at me when i said i don't want to go to the diversity meeting tomorrow. It's just another reason i don't talk to people anymore. What's the point if people act like this? It just isn't fun being around older people. Need to find some like minded people my age but it's impossible.

Diversity meeting? Strong clown world. Did he really yell at you for not wanting to go or did he just raise his voice slightly?

[imbored21]

Yeah i'm too quiet and people think i'm weird for not talking. But legit i don't know what people talk about all day i can be fine one sec and then just be super bored the next and not want to talk to anyone. At work people have the most awkward convos or it's just some random small talk that i can't do. I just want to be myself but it's like nobody lets me. I don't get it anymore.

I don't even meet any of those cool people i used to meet either. Everyone is so serious or PC. It's weird man.

my coworker keeps asking me if I saw the new cafeteria and I'm just like so uninterested in talking about. Like yeah I saw it. It was just a cafeteria with food in it and tables?? like okay??

[eod8989]

Diversity meeting? Strong clown world. Did he really yell at you for not wanting to go or did he just raise his voice slightly?

He raised his voice quiet a bit, this dude has asbergers and you can't argue with him so i just let it go. But it pissed me off. Yeah it really is a clown world though, i feel like i am in a groundhog day clown world and i don't understand how other people aren't seeing this stuff. As far as i know a lot of places are doing this diversity training stuff. I can see it at other places i go to but it just recently got bad where i work. Wish i could just take a video of all of the people with crayon hair and chit lol.

[eod8989]

my coworker keeps asking me if I saw the new cafeteria and I'm just like so uninterested in talking about. Like yeah I saw it. It was just a cafeteria with food in it and tables?? like okay??

See this stuff wouldn't bother me if i actually liked my coworkers. But i don't connect with them at all. I can talk to one of the guys at work but he does stuff that annoys me all the time. I'm never interested in what people at work talk about man. One dude talks about prosthetic legs and Smash Mouth and the other people talk about Marvel heroes and chit. I just can't get into it at all.

[eod8989]

All i know is the key to improving your life is being positive and getting off social media and interacting irl

Social media sucks now days. I wouldn't be on here much at all if i had a good work life/social life because i wouldn't think about it. Back in 2013-2015 i was barely online at all and my life improved tremendously.

[manletstrength]

I'm so lost in my life. I dont even know who I am anymore. All I've ever known is pain and suffering. I honestly wish that I wouldn't have woken up the next day after attempting suicide 8 years ago. I have nothing to live for. I don't even love myself anymore. My mind is consumed by dark thoughts and these dark thoughts are consuming me. My life was taken away from me a long time ago and I just don't want to be here any longer. I wish I could just dissappear and never come back. This world is nothing but pain and suffering and torment from what I can see of it. I have no self esteem and I have no confidence in myself. Im having violent nightmares every time I close my eyes and go to sleep at night because I'm so fuked up in the head from all the trauma I was put through growing up. I no longer have sympathy for other people and tbh I don't care if they are dead or alive. All in all I'm just throwing in the towel and saying fuk it. I got dealt a bad hand in life. Fuk this clown world.