[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[2011change]

imbored and EOD, hows netflix?

[imbored21]

i think i just have too much love. I get attached so easily and it hurts so bad when I have to let go.

[imbored21]

crying over a girl from 2 years ago. she was my first love. she got me out of a dark hole but then she ended up burrying me rven deeper

[imbored21]

i still love her so much

[imbored21]

and it hurts that people will just call me creepy over it. i dont want to be creepy i just want to love her

[eod8989]

Used to feel a part of so many communities but they are all gone now. Just nothing to do or talk about anymore.

[imbored21]

Used to feel a part of so many communities but they are all gone now. Just nothing to do or talk about anymore.

same. im at home but dont feel at home anymore. what the ****

[eod8989]

same. im at home but dont feel at home anymore. what the ****

Even at home i feel alone unless i post on the internet. Just nothing is clicking anymore and i feel like i don't connect with anyone since 2015-2016. I need something to give me purpose in life.

[lostallhope0]

The last decade for me has come and gone at lightning speed... I don't understand how this happened, it was just so fast. Like a blur really. I haven't grown in any way, I used to keep journals until a while ago when things got really bad and it's the same, 2011 entries read the same as 2014 which is the same to 2016, I mean, my mind hasn't changed AT ALL. I have the EXACT same thought processes, the same exact fears and troubles. Time wasted

2016 to 2020 has passed exceptionally fast. Truly, I've no idea how I'm here. I have no friends, I never was a social butterfly, but jesus christ this degree of isolation is inconcievable. Back in 2010 I had some friends in school, in 2012 I even made new friends in college, but I dropped out because of my sick mind, and then I stayed shut in like a hermit for almost two years, a burden to my parents, only left the house a few times in that entire period, less than ten times.


That was the last nail in the coffin. To become a hermit for two years in the age of the smartphone, I might as well have been locked in a cell for 50 years. Things were never the same. I haven't HAD A REAL CONVERSATION IN THE LAST FOUR YEARS, I CANNOT COMMUNICATE TO ANYONE REMOTELY IN MY AGE BRACKET, I CAN'T, I SIMPLY CANNOT CONNECT.
All my interactions for the last five years have been shallow like talking (mumbling) to a cashier or to an elderly person in the bus stop. About 80% of
times I get weird looks from them, like I did something wrong, but I'm out of touch so I can't possibly know what it is, and there's no one to teach me. Nobody pities a grown man, you are a nuisance, maybe even dangerous, something to be removed.

I wish I could go back a decade, I'd make all social media accounts and just give in and play the ****ing social game. Just bite the bullet and accept being the uncool guy with what 23 acquantainces while everyone has 500+, just take a ****ing picture, stop trying to be different, stop trying to do your own thing. That was only inconvenient, you could have played along. Now I can become homeless, I can go to jail, I can be institutionalized, or I can rope or jump.

Things would get so much worse, you had no idea, you had it easy back then. Today everyone from back then has finished their degree, is now busy with their careers, some have moved in with their partners, not to mention the ****ing politics, it's like everyone has gone mad, delusional, enraged and it's seeped to every possible aspect of human interaction, always some freak hating on you for no reason. All they do is talk through those damn stickers and use homosexual slangs


I have nothing. Every place I knew is gone. I go on the internet and I can't relate to anything they say, people are so unnatural, with all their affectations. I was planning on going to meetings before covid, anonymous meetings in my city, but the quarantine came and gave me an excuse to be here for another six months.
Lately, the only places in which I have felt like I understand the other person was lurking on anonymous boards. It really says something if the most reasonable and relatable people I can find are other rejects like me.

I remembered this forum existed, but I don't know if I can get help here. I just wanted to vent.

[SoapKing]

Lostallhope your friends are losers they are only happy because they haven’t realized that their wives are whores and their daughters are destined to sell their bodies on the internet.

[otisthebat]

Even at home i feel alone unless i post on the internet. Just nothing is clicking anymore and i feel like i don't connect with anyone since 2015-2016. I need something to give me purpose in life.

Do you ever wonder if it’s because you talk about the same shiit over and over?

Oh and nice new avi you queer.

[imbored21]

Hung out with a really hot girl. We got food. We came back to my place and smashed. I have a crush on her but it was still boring. I was kinda autistic the whole time and was just responded to her with one word answers. Hate to say it but I didn't have fun and all I wanted all my life was the hang out with hot girls but it's just not fun anymore. IDK why. And nothing else is even close to fun of course. :/

[imbored21]

i just really hate how I interact with people and how adults interact in general. It's just not fun and games anymore. It's boring. I miss being a kid because I could just be myself.

[eod8989]

I don't know how you older brahs cope. I dont have the attention span to listen to people small talk about TV shows and food all day. I try to talk to people some days but its just so boring talking about this stuff. I need to start dipping tobacco again

[kovalchuk71]

Has anyone ever lost their sense of purpose or self-worth? Things have been spiraling downward over the past 6 months and I don’t see things improving anytime soon. I honestly can’t remember the last time I was in a good place mentally.

[2RDEYE]

Has anyone ever lost their sense of purpose or self-worth? Things have been spiraling downward over the past 6 months and I don’t see things improving anytime soon. I honestly can’t remember the last time I was in a good place mentally.

everytime im unemployed like right now

[kovalchuk71]

everytime im unemployed like right now

I hear ya. I finally felt like I had my life in order. Now I don’t know what the fuk to do. I feel terrified and worthless.

[Pterodactyl314]

I'm considering driving an hour and half to bang a 4/10 chubby sloot. What has my life become

Beats jerkin off then crying yourself to sleep. Have fun with it.

[otisthebat]

I don't know how you older brahs cope. I dont have the attention span to listen to people small talk about TV shows and food all day. I try to talk to people some days but its just so boring talking about this stuff. I need to start dipping tobacco again

Again, it's probably because you talk about the same shiit over and over and over. If it annoys the fuk out of people IRL as much as it annoys everyone here, it's no wonder you can't make any friends. No one wants to hang out with a guy who says the same five sentences over and over.

We get it dude, liberals are authoritarian, everything has changed since 2014, all people talk about is Netflix and food, and you can't talk to people at work because they are LGBT and will go to HR, and liberals give off a dark nihilistic energy.

We fukking get it. You've posted all of that a thousand times. Try talking about something different for fuks sake. Jesus christ.

[imbored21]

Again, it's probably because you talk about the same shiit over and over and over. If it annoys the fuk out of people IRL as much as it annoys everyone here, it's no wonder you can't make any friends. No one wants to hang out with a guy who says the same five sentences over and over.

We get it dude, liberals are authoritarian, everything has changed since 2014, all people talk about is Netflix and food, and you can't talk to people at work because they are LGBT and will go to HR, and liberals give off a dark nihilistic energy.

We fukking get it. You've posted all of that a thousand times. Try talking about something different for fuks sake. Jesus christ.

like what? All people talk about is food and tv shows.

[imbored21]

And I'm not meming. It's literally 90% of conversations.

[eod8989]

And I'm not meming. It's literally 90% of conversations.

And ppl sound so bored when they are talking now days too like its all just forced and fake. I used to try to be a part of conversations but its just too boring and predictable. Only people under 25 seem to enjoy life. I don't even like talking to older people much but its all I have at work.

[ShakeBrah]

Struggling to make friends

[eod8989]

Coworkers talked about food all day to day. Is this really it bros?

[jeshelton]

And ppl sound so bored when they are talking now days too like its all just forced and fake. I used to try to be a part of conversations but its just too boring and predictable. Only people under 25 seem to enjoy life. I don't even like talking to older people much but its all I have at work.

People over 25 must think you're special or something.

Most people that I know over that age, who have an IQ above 35, are really interested in their hobbies, family, children (if they have them) and career.

You probably don't fit in well because you are polar to most of those realms.

[otisthebat]

Coworkers talked about food all day to day. Is this really it bros?

Jesus christ man. I'm really not surprised that you have zero friends. Why do you even post in this thread if you aren't going to take anyone's advice?

You have been told a thousand times that YOU have to start a conversation.

[manletstrength]

I helped someone out that I know and I got fuked over by them big time. Im done with this person and I will no longer associate myself with him or have anything to do with this pathetic loser ever again. Its time to take out the trash and move on with my life.

[eod8989]

At work and my coworkers just come in standing around talking netflix again. Like how many times can you talk about a netflix show?

[otisthebat]

At work and my coworkers just come in standing around talking netflix again. Like how many times can you talk about a netflix show?

So change the fukking subject you moron.

Jesus christ.

[imbored21]

the misc is depressing sometimes. grown men crying about tattoos who want virgin wives who are obsessed with money and aesthetics and domination and slaying. this place is really cringeworthy. all the incel hate too. People dont act like this in real life. most people are respectful and normal but this place attracts the most insecure people on the planet. im not sure i want to associate with these people anymore but i have no where else to go and no identity elsewhere.