[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[PapaPrime]

I think you are on to something with looking for contentment (maybe even acceptance) instead of always looking to be happy. Emotions come and go, but being content and having acceptance last through the emotions.

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGJbqArYt/

[PapaPrime]

I’m at a point where I simply don’t care anymore with being unliked by damn near everyone I work with or engage with in a social conversation. I try to be as objective as possible when I analyze how I come across with people, so that I can work on improving social etiquette.

Not sure what I have to do anymore. I used to be “too quiet and shy.” Now, people get offended by freaking banter (when I obviously mean nothing with intent when it comes to banter).

I can’t tell if I have a genuine problem with how I act around people that has resulted in no friends, or if people are just so fooking weird in todays world that they’re so easily offended by everything. Frankly, I don’t care like I used to anyways. Just a bit of a rant here.

You might do well as a tradie bredda..

Sorry for the triple post.

[PapaPrime]

Thanks for the addition, you're absolutely right! I agree that the takeaway can be separated from the prayer and higher power. The idea of distinguishing between things we can and can't control combined with the acceptance of that fact is a very powerful tool/mindset. It's so easy to get angry, depressed, anxious, and etc when we perseverate over things that are out of our control. And not focusing on and prioritizing the things we can change can lead to stagnation and little growth.

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGJbqVYDa/

[DadBodGod]

My life fell apart a few years ago and have never really recovered. I lost my job, my marriage, my home and was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis (MS).

The past few years I’ve felt like I was on autopilot. I stopped going out and distanced myself from everyone.

I spent a lot of time bottling up these emotions thinking I was ok. In truth they began to manifest inside of me. In February this year I thought I was having a heart attack one day. The same thing kept happening over this year. Doctors said they were panic attacks. I’ve never felt anything quite like it.

I smoked and drank to mask the pain. This is a viscous cycle as it just made me more anxious. My physical health declining causing my mental health to break even more.

I never truly understood just wait stress and anxiety could do to an individual and how it could become physical pain. Doctors put me on Medication for the anxiety which has helped but not completely solved the issue.

Low self confidence and aging really playing a big part in everything.

I turn 30 this October and scared that it’s getting later and later for myself to start a family that I can be happy and take care of.

I deleted all my social media as seeing everyone else having children, getting married, buying houses would make me panic - that my life wasn’t on track like there’s appear to be.

Here’s to standing up to those issues and feelings and making the changes I need instead of running away from my emotions.

One day at a time, one step in the right direction I can say that I’ve started on my road to recovery.

[frankfrank3630]

Daddy's back bby, I really miss smashing ur poosy

I kept thinking about you, too. You have people out here wishing you well.

By the way, I saw somebody posting videos a couple weeks ago, but I've never seen a way to do it. How does that work?

[MrDevereaux]

My life fell apart a few years ago and have never really recovered. I lost my job, my marriage, my home and was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis (MS).

The past few years I’ve felt like I was on autopilot. I stopped going out and distanced myself from everyone.

I spent a lot of time bottling up these emotions thinking I was ok. In truth they began to manifest inside of me. In February this year I thought I was having a heart attack one day. The same thing kept happening over this year. Doctors said they were panic attacks. I’ve never felt anything quite like it.

I smoked and drank to mask the pain. This is a viscous cycle as it just made me more anxious. My physical health declining causing my mental health to break even more.

I never truly understood just wait stress and anxiety could do to an individual and how it could become physical pain. Doctors put me on Medication for the anxiety which has helped but not completely solved the issue.

Low self confidence and aging really playing a big part in everything.

I turn 30 this October and scared that it’s getting later and later for myself to start a family that I can be happy and take care of.

I deleted all my social media as seeing everyone else having children, getting married, buying houses would make me panic - that my life wasn’t on track like there’s appear to be.

Here’s to standing up to those issues and feelings and making the changes I need instead of running away from my emotions.

One day at a time, one step in the right direction I can say that I’ve started on my road to recovery.

I'm really sorry, that's super rough and, although you recognise the coping behvaviours were maladaptive, they're also perfectly understandable. I've suffered from panic attacks too and tey're terrifying. It's one of those things that's impossible to understand until you've experienced it.

You're still very young and by no means is it too late to achieve/acquire the things that you want to.

Very best of luck on that road to recovery.

[FakeHistory]

Well seems this thread is a bit quiet but I thought I may as well post my recent experience - more so with anxiety than depression but the two are pretty closely linked.

I have been under work stress for the past 12 months or so, because of various changes and restructures in the company I work for. It left me with more responsibility and pressure and less help, so I was doing a lot of the admin type work as well as the higher level stuff. I was getting frustrated with things but was hanging in there, even though I was stressed it was all within the usual range of emotions and though it made me somewhat 'unhappy' I just dealt with it.

I had also been seeing a girl for a few months which is a good thing, but I am a pretty big introvert and found that it also added a bit of stress to my life in the usual sense of planning things to do, making time for her etc.

Anyway about 6 weeks ago now, on a Sunday, I felt nauseous, had a tension in my arms, felt really cold during the day - thought I was coming down with a virus or something. That night at 3am I woke up in a severe panic/anxious episode that lasted about 5 days, then I was slowly recovering before having yet another anxious episode that lasted several days again.

I basically haven't been the same since. I've learned that these are called 'anxiety attacks' and are different to regular panic attacks that are more intense but only last maybe 15 minutes. These 'episodes' of mine lasted for days. I lost like 25 pounds in 3 weeks.

Almost 3 weeks ago I started taking an antidepressant which also likely increased my anxiety and gave me similar symptoms - but those have quietened a bit and compared to where I was even 10 days ago in being unable to eat and do anything apart from lie in bed agitated/exhausted while being unable to feel any joy or positive emotions, I do feel like I'm on the path to recovery but it's slow.

Really just venting and telling my story and will update the thread with how I'm going. I wanted to share the story because I didn't know my mind was capable of having such a meltdown - it shows what a prolonged period of stress can do to your brain. Even though I may have a 'panic disorder' of sorts, the truth is that my brain was telling me there was a problem with the way I was living my life which was true. I hadn't been 'happy' with my life for a long time and was either going through the motions at best but spent a lot of time stressed and frustrated.

When you start seeing the signs of burnout or are working a job you hate, it's important to reflect and change something in your life. I will definitely be making changes to my life after this experience.

[Getter_done]

Bump

[GaryRidgway]

[monster0ultra]

[FakeHistory]

So about a month on from my previous post above but I may as well give an update with nothing else to do right now, don't want to turn this thread into my personal diary but am sure there are some other miscers struggling so may as well post in this serious thread in case there's anyone else.

So cliffs of where I was at previously:

- extreme anxiety attack that lasted a few weeks
- luckily no psych ward but pretty much on edge/insanely nervous for a few weeks afterwards
- brain chemistry completely off, cortisol through the roof and felt sick from all the adrenalin etc.

So I moved back in with my parents which is an embarrassing thing to do at my age but I was pretty shaken by all the events and knew that I probably wouldn't be thinking straight for a while.

Since my post above I have been doing a lot better and GRADUALLY have been getting back to my baseline over the past month or so. Little things like going on car rides, going to the gym, catching a train - all that stuff would have made me quite nervous a month ago but now I'm mostly fine, and have also gone back to work which I'm also actually happy about even though it's on a part-time basis (I'm still getting paid in full because my company is understanding that work stress almost killed me - they have been good about things and it's a perk of working for a big company I suppose).

So slowly getting back on my feet but I'm selling my old house which is adding some stress, and also living with older parents is a struggle as well. Things I took for granted like just being able to leave the house whenever I wanted without telling anyone where I was going now feels like a luxury. But you have to take the good with the bad and they were there when I needed them most so I can't really complain.

I haven't found therapy to help much/at all, the things that have helped the most are:

1. Me learning about anxiety and myself, and what stressed me out and my response etc.
2. Me trying my best to 'get back into the world' - like I said catching trains/buses, visiting places, just very gradually going out of my comfort zone
3. Medication. Without a doubt the SSRI helped a lot and calmed me down and even though my anxiety spiked a bit initially it quickly dropped off and has helped me get back to my baseline.

Hard to know which was the most helpful of these things because I've been doing them all at the same time, but I think they're all important.

Hope to keep moving forward over the next few months and get back to my best.

[imbored21]

Ill be honest. You guys just need to ask for Nardil. It destroys depression/anxiety.

I took all the ssris and tons of other antiaxiety/antidepression drugs. I even did Ketamine infusions. They simply don't work. I got on Nardil and even at the lowest dose 15mg (the officially theraputic dose is 60mg), I was able to do things I never did before. I got my first free shag 2 weeks later. after being a hopeless incel for 27 years. It's the wonder drug. TBh I don't even want to share this because I want to keep this secret waepon all to myself. I don't even take it anymroe because I was able to turn my life around to the point where I have nothing left to be depressed about. My social anxiety is reduced from all the "exposure therapy" I got when I had no inhibitions on Nardil. I no longer need Nardil but can confidently say, it's what made the turn around.

https://www.askapatient.com/viewrati...09&name=NARDIL

You will not find a drug with close to these reviews. It's shame doctors don't prescribe it more.

[FakeHistory]

Ill be honest. You guys just need to ask for Nardil. It destroys depression/anxiety.

I took all the ssris and tons of other antiaxiety/antidepression drugs. I even did Ketamine infusions. They simply don't work. I got on Nardil and even at the lowest dose 15mg (the officially theraputic dose is 60mg), I was able to do things I never did before. I got my first free shag 2 weeks later. after being a hopeless incel for 27 years. It's the wonder drug. TBh I don't even want to share this because I want to keep this secret waepon all to myself. I don't even take it anymroe because I was able to turn my life around to the point where I have nothing left to be depressed about. My social anxiety is reduced from all the "exposure therapy" I got when I had no inhibitions on Nardil. I no longer need Nardil but can confidently say, it's what made the turn around.

https://www.askapatient.com/viewrati...09&name=NARDIL

You will not find a drug with close to these reviews. It's shame doctors don't prescribe it more.

After looking into it a bit, it does seem to have really solid reviews.

The problem is that everyone seems to have different reactions to all medication, the science of understanding anxiety/depression is very limited and even SSRIs were basically discovered by chance and no-one really understands how they work. So this may be the perfect drug for you but might not work at all for others.

But I agree that doctor's seem to just prescribe the SSRI of the day probably because of kickbacks they receive, certain drugs seem to go out of trend for no real reason.

Glad it worked for you, I've found the SSRI I'm on has nuked most of my anxiety (never really suffered from depression, only anxiety). Some side effects but nothing too bad.

[7empest]

anyone else that deals with depression, dark thoughts etc - I really take my hat off

it ****ing sucks. that it all.

peace out

[FakeHistory]

anyone else that deals with depression, dark thoughts etc - I really take my hat off

it ****ing sucks. that it all.

peace out

Luckily for me I mostly had issues with anxiety, but after my severe anxious episode I can see how anxiety and depression are linked.

Being so anxious really messed with my brain chemicals and made me almost bi-polar at times - almost crying tears of joy in some moments while feeling really down some days/nights.

I completely agree though, after experiencing it myself I feel so much more empathy than I did before, it truly is like having a disease that you can never fully appreciate until you experience it yourself.

[swordplay76]

Well seems this thread is a bit quiet but I thought I may as well post my recent experience - more so with anxiety than depression but the two are pretty closely linked.

I have been under work stress for the past 12 months or so, because of various changes and restructures in the company I work for. It left me with more responsibility and pressure and less help, so I was doing a lot of the admin type work as well as the higher level stuff. I was getting frustrated with things but was hanging in there, even though I was stressed it was all within the usual range of emotions and though it made me somewhat 'unhappy' I just dealt with it.

I had also been seeing a girl for a few months which is a good thing, but I am a pretty big introvert and found that it also added a bit of stress to my life in the usual sense of planning things to do, making time for her etc.

Anyway about 6 weeks ago now, on a Sunday, I felt nauseous, had a tension in my arms, felt really cold during the day - thought I was coming down with a virus or something. That night at 3am I woke up in a severe panic/anxious episode that lasted about 5 days, then I was slowly recovering before having yet another anxious episode that lasted several days again.

I basically haven't been the same since. I've learned that these are called 'anxiety attacks' and are different to regular panic attacks that are more intense but only last maybe 15 minutes. These 'episodes' of mine lasted for days. I lost like 25 pounds in 3 weeks.

Almost 3 weeks ago I started taking an antidepressant which also likely increased my anxiety and gave me similar symptoms - but those have quietened a bit and compared to where I was even 10 days ago in being unable to eat and do anything apart from lie in bed agitated/exhausted while being unable to feel any joy or positive emotions, I do feel like I'm on the path to recovery but it's slow.

Really just venting and telling my story and will update the thread with how I'm going. I wanted to share the story because I didn't know my mind was capable of having such a meltdown - it shows what a prolonged period of stress can do to your brain. Even though I may have a 'panic disorder' of sorts, the truth is that my brain was telling me there was a problem with the way I was living my life which was true. I hadn't been 'happy' with my life for a long time and was either going through the motions at best but spent a lot of time stressed and frustrated.

When you start seeing the signs of burnout or are working a job you hate, it's important to reflect and change something in your life. I will definitely be making changes to my life after this experience.

I stopped working, for the most part, when I was 20. I just laid in bed most of my twenties, depressed, and I'd get anxious if I went out too much. Sucks, man.

[MarkoKing]

This is inspiring, thank you!

[imbored21]

Got back on Nardil so I can ask out my crush. Been on for less than a week and cannot feel a negative emotion taking the lowest dose. I can't believe people are still prescribing ssris instead of this stuff lmao.

[Joeyw88]

Got back on Nardil so I can ask out my crush. Been on for less than a week and cannot feel a negative emotion taking the lowest dose. I can't believe people are still prescribing ssris instead of this stuff lmao.

I can imagine that the traits of that and other MAOIs, like dietary restrictions, make it less popular. Also, everyone has a different genetics and neurochemistry, so one medication might work well for someone and not work well for another.

[imbored21]

I can imagine that the traits of that and other MAOIs, like dietary restrictions, make it less popular. Also, everyone has a different genetics and neurochemistry, so one medication might work well for someone and not work well for another.

diet restrictions are a sham. A few people died in the 60s for eating 30 ounces of cheese in 1 sitting. You gotta be a fat piece of **** to eat that much cheese and food processing is a lot cleaner nowadays so there shouldn't be that much Tyramine (chemical from bacteria) in food anyways. MAOIs are godly. Can't believe anyone takes **** like Zoloft.

And I've been on SSRIs and they had way more side effects.

This dude debunks all the Nardil myths

[skeetzer]

tired of this dog **** life, and 9-5. im always ****ing tired, i took a sick day today and just slept all day. I've got some chronic health issues makes every day even more ****ed. Life is ****ing pointless just work and be tired all the time, you get 2 days of weekend to breathe and then your thrown right back into it.

[GaryCarnivals]

get your vitamin D levels checked ASAP!!

low vitamin d = depression/anxiety/inability to focus etc