[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[Ironface]

Is anyone else just completely fuking exhausted? Srs living with anxiety 24/7 feeling like my chest is going to explode out of my mouth. I know life lacks purpose and I'm just doing my best to enjoy the time I have on this planet but I'm just so goddamn tired of fighting my mind all day everyday 365 days a year.

[severagee]

Is anyone else just completely fuking exhausted? Srs living with anxiety 24/7 feeling like my chest is going to explode out of my mouth. I know life lacks purpose and I'm just doing my best to enjoy the time I have on this planet but I'm just so goddamn tired of fighting my mind all day everyday 365 days a year.

Are you on any medications? SSRIs/TCAs/MAOIs can help massively with constant anxiety. Look into kratom, it's cheap and legal (in my state) and helps massively with anxiety, just don't go off the rails with it.

Normally I wouldn't immediately suggest medication but it seems like your anxiety is debilitating and the first thing you need to control before you can move on. I used to have the worst social anxiety imaginable, couldn't even order fast food without stuttering and getting red in the face, and now I'm a conversational student doctor treating patients. Chit can get so, so much better, believe me.

[2RDEYE]

anxiety is hard. it could just be your environment too. which is a huge issue if you can't move.

caffeine could be the issue too

[Ironface]

Are you on any medications? SSRIs/TCAs/MAOIs can help massively with constant anxiety. Look into kratom, it's cheap and legal (in my state) and helps massively with anxiety, just don't go off the rails with it.

Normally I wouldn't immediately suggest medication but it seems like your anxiety is debilitating and the first thing you need to control before you can move on. I used to have the worst social anxiety imaginable, couldn't even order fast food without stuttering and getting red in the face, and now I'm a conversational student doctor treating patients. Chit can get so, so much better, believe me.

I work as a casino dealer which means I’m not allowed to take meds that cause drowsiness or affect concentration.

I’ve felt this way for years as a result of childhood trauma and I’m just so exhausted of dealing with it

Brb a normal person’s “slightly anxious” is my 24/7 state. Imagine how I start to feel when real stress comes into the picture. Tired of fighting a battle inside my mind everyday of my life

[Sterilite]

I work as a casino dealer which means I’m not allowed to take meds that cause drowsiness or affect concentration.

I’ve felt this way for years as a result of childhood trauma and I’m just so exhausted of dealing with it

Brb a normal person’s “slightly anxious” is my 24/7 state. Imagine how I start to feel when real stress comes into the picture. Tired of fighting a battle inside my mind everyday of my life

are casinos opened atm? hows being a dealer, it sucks they dont get to talk to the players

[Ironface]

are casinos opened atm? hows being a dealer, it sucks they dont get to talk to the players

Yes they are open, just restricted. And yes we get to talk to the players - the idea that we don’t is a myth

[xfusion]

SSRI's don't significantly impact your drowziness/attention. You're thinking something along the lines of a benzo. SSRI's are seriously worth looking into

[Ironface]

SSRI's don't significantly impact your drowziness/attention. You're thinking something along the lines of a benzo. SSRI's are seriously worth looking into

Don’t SSRI’s work in a similar way to benzos?

Are there any particular ones you recommend that don’t affect concentration? Do you need a script for them?

[2RDEYE]

SSRI's don't significantly impact your drowziness/attention. You're thinking something along the lines of a benzo. SSRI's are seriously worth looking into

depends on the SSRI. some are way more anticholinergic than others. I personally don't recommend SSRI's.... I've tried so many, just doesn't make me feel normal. Zoloft made me have chronic migraines, and that never stopped.

I swear on low dose CBD gummy edibles for anxiety, I just can't afford them.

[xfusion]

Don’t SSRI’s work in a similar way to benzos?

Are there any particular ones you recommend that don’t affect concentration? Do you need a script for them?

Benzos work via GABA. SSRI's work by modulating serotonin. Not to say that it's impossible to have side effects but most of them are not related to concentration and are usually temporary resolving in a few weeks (delayed ejaculation/sexual side effects). Yea you do need a prescription but some are more stimulating than others, wouldn't take an SNRI though. Zoloft (sertraline) and citalopram are some of the most common ones.

depends on the SSRI. some are way more anticholinergic than others. I personally don't recommend SSRI's.... I've tried so many, just doesn't make me feel normal. Zoloft made me have chronic migraines, and that never stopped.

I swear on low dose CBD gummy edibles for anxiety, I just can't afford them.

I'm sorry to hear you had those effects, anticholinergic side effects are not particularly common with SSRIs and something usually associated with tricyclic antidepressants. Your experience is much more so the exception than the rule

[RealLifeAlpha]

Don’t SSRI’s work in a similar way to benzos?

Are there any particular ones you recommend that don’t affect concentration? Do you need a script for them?

I took something called Pristiq for two years, and thankfully I no longer take it, or any prescription meds for that matter.


I'd check it out -- it helped me through a tough time. I would not want to be on any medication "forever", though

[CarlyRaeJepsen]

New psychiatrist just added Effexor to my existing regimen of Remeron and Lamictal. Haven't responded well to a lot of antidepressants, but the angus is peppered.

[2RDEYE]

New psychiatrist just added Effexor to my existing regimen of Remeron and Lamictal. Haven't responded well to a lot of antidepressants, but the angus is peppered.

Been on that one, that's the first one I tried, 10 years ago. Felt like a zombie lol it worked for the depression but I felt like a zombie

[IronFeta]

Doctor prescribed me the cipralex SSRI, starting tomorrow. Going to be my first time using an antidepressant. Really hope it can help me out of this frikked mind rut I've been in for a few years. Anyone who has used it or something similar have issues with libido or energy afterward? He said it could potentially happen, but not likely

[2RDEYE]

Doctor prescribed me the cipralex SSRI, starting tomorrow. Going to be my first time using an antidepressant. Really hope it can help me out of this frikked mind rut I've been in for a few years. Anyone who has used it or something similar have issues with libido or energy afterward? He said it could potentially happen, but not likely

I tried that one but after my concussion so it would be different for you. But I've tried a lot of SSRIs, they don't really do anything to libido...not in the way you think. Like it would just be something like, you don't feel the need to masturbate because you're not stressed out or depressed. I've never have erectile dysfunction or horny issues because of antidepressants. However, I did know one guy who swore that Zoloft/Sertraline gave him permanent erectile dysfunction, but that's the only person i've ever heard it from.

[IronFeta]

I tried that one but after my concussion so it would be different for you. But I've tried a lot of SSRIs, they don't really do anything to libido...not in the way you think. Like it would just be something like, you don't feel the need to masturbate because you're not stressed out or depressed. I've never have erectile dysfunction or horny issues because of antidepressants. However, I did know one guy who swore that Zoloft/Sertraline gave him permanent erectile dysfunction, but that's the only person i've ever heard it from.

That's relieving. I wonder how long they'll take for their effect to (hopefully) positively kick in. Docs wants to follow up in a month too.

[2RDEYE]

That's relieving. I wonder how long they'll take for their effect to (hopefully) positively kick in. Docs wants to follow up in a month too.

Yeah unfortunately it's not instant lol. These things take time, I forgot the explanation, but it could take 3-6 weeks to notice a difference.

Doesn't work for everyone, it can be life-changing though, I had a friend years ago, he was in a bad place, he was always miserable, lost in life, unmotivated in college, then he started taking antidepressants...all that misery chat stopped, and now he's super focused on school, I think he ended up graduating from college.

[IronFeta]

Yeah unfortunately it's not instant lol. These things take time, I forgot the explanation, but it could take 3-6 weeks to notice a difference.

Doesn't work for everyone, it can be life-changing though, I had a friend years ago, he was in a bad place, he was always miserable, lost in life, unmotivated in college, then he started taking antidepressants...all that misery chat stopped, and now he's super focused on school, I think he ended up graduating from college.

Man that's the type of relief I need exactly. Even if it takes a while I just want to start getting out of this. If it doesn't work it doesn't but I'll try something else. Thanks for giving me a bit of hope brah

[eod8989]

I need to accept the fact that there is no way to meet anyone or make friends this late in life

I'm just stuck in the past

[ShooterMcGainin]

Haven't posted here in years but I'm in Ireland and we're in Covid lockdown with no end in sight - no shops, gyms, or restaurants open, working from home and my GF and me separated for the duration (still together but she was with her family when the lockdown started and decided to stay), had a new job lined up in Paris and now it's on hold. One positive is that I have been working out consistently and I have access to a good home gym. I don't get the usual good feeling after I train at least I'll have some gains in the summer when this is over. It's hard to see light at the end of the tunnel at the moment because our coward government only have one response to covid - full blown lockdowns where they pay people to sit at home and do nothing. The lockdowns have general public support from the people being paid turbo dole (welfare) to wank off at home.

I'm on low dose SSRI (Amitriptyline) and it doesn't seem to be doing anything, anyone else used it?

[hidingwithmusic]

You guys should give parnate a shot! I'm like 80 to 90 percent myself in just the third week! This stuff is worth it! I can now go back to school and I'm motivated now more than ever before to work hard!!! Friends, family, girls will get my attention again now life is going great!!! Think about it, guys!

[eod8989]

You guys should give parnate a shot! I'm like 80 to 90 percent myself in just the third week! This stuff is worth it! I can now go back to school and I'm motivated now more than ever before to work hard!!! Friends, family, girls will get my attention again now life is going great!!! Think about it, guys!

Good to hear brother. I might ask about it next time i am at the doctor. My meds made me feel a little better but i still have a lot of issues.

[2RDEYE]

started to take cbd pills again...not cheap.. 45 bucks for 30. but it definitely helps. 10mg cbd and 2.5mg thc per pill.

[tinysprinkle]

Being abused growing up has made me into a very weird person. I feel like a bizarre abnormal person who can't ever be normal. I'm very sensitive and emotional and really shy. I feel like my life is just passing by and I'm waiting for death but I'm too young to die naturally so it's a nightmare to live. Trying to numb myself and failing everyday. At this point I feel like I should just cry everyday and beg the universe to end my life somehow.

[DizzySmalls]

I feel like my life is just passing by and I'm waiting for death but I'm too young to die naturally so it's a nightmare to live. Trying to numb myself and failing everyday. At this point I feel like I should just cry everyday and beg the universe to end my life somehow.

Pretty much the same story here, but it's no longer a nightmare. Choose better numbing agents and distractions and it will all be over soon and you may even want to stick around longer than you can.

[CarlyRaeJepsen]

Day 5 on Effexor. Not sure if side effects or trending towards mania...

[tinysprinkle]

Pretty much the same story here, but it's no longer a nightmare. Choose better numbing agents and distractions and it will all be over soon and you may even want to stick around longer than you can.

I'm so sorry to know that you're going through that. Yeah I don't drink alcohol/drugs so I mostly depend on trying to shut my mind off to numb myself. Also someone negged me for this post lol... thought it's a srs thread

[frankfrank3630]

started to take cbd pills again...not cheap.. 45 bucks for 30. but it definitely helps. 10mg cbd and 2.5mg thc per pill.

That sounds like enough THC for...a mild high?? Doesn't matter one way or another, except for those who may not want to be high.

Good to read about PARNATE as an option (via hidingwithmusic two posts above yours). At worst, I may have mild depression at this time of year - probably a mild version of SAD, Seasonal Affective Disorder (due to short daylight days in Chicago). Nothing quite warranting meds, though I was perilously close to that last spring for a couple months due to the lockdowns and quarantines.

My freezer (part of the refrigerator, not a "deep freezer") is filled nearly to capacity again, as it was in early April last year. I'm going into a period of pretty serious quarantine for a few weeks, because COVID is making it pretty rocky out there.

And certainly good to read, eod8989, that you'll ask your Dr. about Parnate. Certainly you'll never know without trying it, and your Dr. knows your case-history and he/she should know if that med is indicated for you or not. I know nothing at all about it.

As usual I send out best wishes and aloha to all of you and, hey, all of you made it through 2020! That surely isn't a bad thing. (I actually had a neighbor over to shove 2020's sorry ass out the door, and I made sure I got drunk. Haven't done THAT since May 2010!)

[TheJimmyRustler]

Had an episode the other day and am back in feel-like-chit-city.

I'm in my late 20s, still live at home, no car, TFW no gf, keenly aware that I'm a fuk up and have had depressoin/anxiety since my teens. Seems to be that 3-4 years is the timeframe for reality to bite me in the ass as I had meltdowns in 2013/17 as well. I work a schitty job that I have no love for, basically a glorified call centre, although we're working from home thanks to the coof.

Just reading an email about something some kunt disagreed with and I went off. Picked stuff up and started smashing it against the floor, throwing against the wall etc. Totally emotionally exhausted afterwards, kind of cried (face screwed up and tears but no sobbing if that makes sense). Been thinking about suicide more and more the past few weeks and, unlike in prvious years, don't think I care if killing myself would hurt family and friends.

Am currently off work on sick leave, have contacted my doctor and a suicide prevention/depression awareness company to discuss, just fed up. I can't imagine myself moving on in life and I hate that I am where I've been for basically a decade. Yeah I went to uni since leaving school but it was in my hometown and it was worthless so I'm basically no further along in life. Just kepe thinking "I wanna rope myself" throughout the day and I'm so fcking tired.

[MaDeRgOs]

Had an episode the other day and am back in feel-like-chit-city.

I'm in my late 20s, still live at home, no car, TFW no gf, keenly aware that I'm a fuk up and have had depressoin/anxiety since my teens. Seems to be that 3-4 years is the timeframe for reality to bite me in the ass as I had meltdowns in 2013/17 as well. I work a schitty job that I have no love for, basically a glorified call centre, although we're working from home thanks to the coof.

Just reading an email about something some kunt disagreed with and I went off. Picked stuff up and started smashing it against the floor, throwing against the wall etc. Totally emotionally exhausted afterwards, kind of cried (face screwed up and tears but no sobbing if that makes sense). Been thinking about suicide more and more the past few weeks and, unlike in prvious years, don't think I care if killing myself would hurt family and friends.

Am currently off work on sick leave, have contacted my doctor and a suicide prevention/depression awareness company to discuss, just fed up. I can't imagine myself moving on in life and I hate that I am where I've been for basically a decade. Yeah I went to uni since leaving school but it was in my hometown and it was worthless so I'm basically no further along in life. Just kepe thinking "I wanna rope myself" throughout the day and I'm so fcking tired.

Please go to a hospital.