[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[imbored21]

i dont understand why but i have zero confidence anymore. I can't even **** a girl anymore without feeling worthless. Like I don't deserve to **** them. All I want to do is mope around and be sad and bring others down with me. I don't know what's wrong with me.

[imbored21]

im a low value male. Zero confidence. Laughably small frame. Below average face/height. It sucks that this is the life I was given.

[sduego]

I think I’m going crazy. The walls are closing in as they say

[sduego]

Anyone out there?

[imbored21]

infusion #4 coming up tomorrow. can't wait to get high as **** tbh. Wish it lasted longer than 45 minutes.

[sduego]

My life sucks. I barely make any money because I take entry level customer service jobs and I get stressed because I don’t have the energy to make real change. It’s a vicious cycle that’s been going on my entire life. I think my brain hates me

[DizzySmalls]

infusion #4 coming up tomorrow. can't wait to get high as **** tbh. Wish it lasted longer than 45 minutes.

Lol shameless clinics are shameless. So much money and they aren't doing anything for you other than attaching you to a needle and administering $5 of material

[2RDEYE]

Lol shameless clinics are shameless. So much money and they aren't doing anything for you other than attaching you to a needle and administering $5 of material

u should see the costs of my needed help... after a head injury. i'm probably gonna be $10,000 down once i get the help i needed.

the consultation fees for the clinic i need to go to are $500.

[sduego]

Lol shameless clinics are shameless. So much money and they aren't doing anything for you other than attaching you to a needle and administering $5 of material

This. They prey on the weak and desperate. I went to a men’s clinic because I was convinced my low T levels were due to “underling issues”. I barely move from the couch and eat like chit. They didn’t take that into account. Easy money for them

[imbored21]

dont do drugs kids. the truth isn't pretty.

[imbored21]

nothing is real but loves blinds us from that. Seek love because you don't want to see the truth.

[imbored21]

you dont want to know what you really are

[DizzySmalls]

Lol'd hard. All a matter of perspective, but yeah you don't exist and nothing is consequential. Suffering is forever, to no particular end or goal.

That's why you gotta slam kunt, buy nice sheets, and eat ribeyes. And try to make experience better for yourself and others, since it all has to be endured, but lol at that chit.

[imbored21]

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[sduego]

Today I realized that I’ve been taking the easy way out in life. I refused to take any responsibility for my own misery. I’ve tried supplements and all sorts of meds. Nothing really make a profound change.I went to all sorts of doctors to see if they could fix me. Always looking for an excuse. I guess I need to suck it up and start exercising and practice more self care.

[2RDEYE]

if u guys can get ur hand on cbd worth a try. it's the only thing that made a difference in my life. u don't get like super dizzy like u do from thc. so i used it everyday every morning before work when i was working warehousing and i went from a SUPER socially anxious guy, to being a warehouse supervisor of multiple teams of people. used it every morning for 2 years. i can't afford it now, but if i had a job it's definitely what i would be using right now.

my dosage was only like 5mg a day. get the edible or the pills, as long as it's oil form. i don't think dosing with vaping it is the same. needs to be ingested i think. so it's like goes throughout ur body.

[sduego]

if u guys can get ur hand on cbd worth a try. it's the only thing that made a difference in my life. u don't get like super dizzy like u do from thc. so i used it everyday every morning before work when i was working warehousing and i went from a SUPER socially anxious guy, to being a warehouse supervisor of multiple teams of people. used it every morning for 2 years. i can't afford it now, but if i had a job it's definitely what i would be using right now.

my dosage was only like 5mg a day. get the edible or the pills, as long as it's oil form. i don't think dosing with vaping it is the same. needs to be ingested i think. so it's like goes throughout ur body.

How did you become a supervisor ? I have chronic stress and anxiety that I’m just now coming to terms with. I’ve neglected these issues for years

[2RDEYE]

How did you become a supervisor ? I have chronic stress and anxiety that I’m just now coming to terms with. I’ve neglected these issues for years

i became incredibly good with people. aside from having perfect work ethic and productivity. but mainly it was my personality cbd helped so much

[imbored21]

what are you supposed to do if you're depressed and you tried everything???

[sduego]

I came off all meds last year and started taking hormone shots as an alternative. Well that screwed me up even further and now I’m at rock bottom. I’m more insecure and anxious than I’ve ever been and I have no idea how to get out of it. I’m tired of going to therapy and talking about feelings when nothing changes. Most of the therapists are complete SJWs anyways. I’m trying to exercise more but my left side of the body still has sustained injuries from high school that haven’t fully healed. They don’t hurt but they’re definitely tense from daily activity

[DizzySmalls]

I came off all meds last year and started taking hormone shots as an alternative. Well that screwed me up even further and now I’m at rock bottom. I’m more insecure and anxious than I’ve ever been and I have no idea how to get out of it. I’m tired of going to therapy and talking about feelings when nothing changes. Most of the therapists are complete SJWs anyways. I’m trying to exercise more but my left side of the body still has sustained injuries from high school that haven’t fully healed. They don’t hurt but they’re definitely tense from daily activity

If you want to live well and be happy, I can't help you, obviously.

But if you just want to be content and not feel extreme negative emotion, focus on the futility of everything and life as a sort of art form. You can't truly do anything wrong or fail, and you can't win either. It's all just for chits and giggles.

[imbored21]

Wish i had a supportive girlfriend. My whole life i was pushed away from my passions by parents, family members, and bullies at school untii had none left. i wish i had someone who would encourage and support me in the things i wanted to do but now im too depressed and defeated to want anything.

[DizzySmalls]

Wish i had a supportive girlfriend. My whole life i was pushed away from my passions by parents, family members, and bullies at school untii had none left. i wish i had someone who would encourage and support me in the things i wanted to do but now im too depressed and defeated to want anything.

Kind of lame. I think the only thing that would actually start to fix you if you are real is to get severely hazed. You need to get the chit kicked out of you or get locked in an ice bath or something. It would be good for you to stop obsessing about and eternally demanding comfort above all else. It's ok to be uncomfortable.

[sduego]

How long does it take for your natural serotonin levels to return after prolonged med use? I spent roughly 10 years on all sorts of meds and quit cold turkey about 1.5 years due to libido and weight issues.

[imbored21]

i have my 5th infusion today. i am going into it with a good mood for once so maybe that will work better. so far i have felt more depressed after my infusions though.

i am in a good mood because im kinda falling in love with my crush. had a good time with her on Friday and have been thinking about her nonstop.

[sduego]

I fired my psychiatrist and therapist today. I might hire a life coach this week. We’ll see. I want someone to keep me accountable while helping to clarify my purpose and goals in life.

[imbored21]

the only thing that stays constant no matter what is the fear of death

[sduego]

the only thing that stays constant no matter what is the fear of death

What about the fear of life? I’m afraid to live on my terms

[imbored21]

What about the fear of life? I’m afraid to live on my terms

i dont know anything anymore man. I understand everything when I'm on K but I still can't comprehend nonexistence or having a loving gf. It's crazy.

[mrjolly2323]

I always put too much hope into online sloots and it never works out. Feels badman.