and the scary thing is the female miscers act exactly the same as the male ones. it's scary that there are so many people this rude and insecure in this world
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10-07-2020, 12:19 PM #8251
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10-07-2020, 12:25 PM #8252
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10-07-2020, 12:42 PM #8253
Yeah this place sucks now. It used to be a positive board where people helped each other and joked around now it's just old guys trying to bring everyone else down.
I've been trying to talk more irl but i just don't connect at all. This is the only place where i can find people with the same interests to talk to. But too many people take it too serious or just want to insult posters.PC specs
i9 9900k/AMD RX 6800 16 GB/16 GB RAM/LG BX 65'' OLED/Gigabyte GS27QC 27''
OLED Master Race crew
1440p 120+ fps only crew
6'2 master race crew
Audiophile crew
Metal crew
Introvert/INTJ crew
German crew
If you aren't getting stronger you aren't getting bigger crew
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10-07-2020, 01:55 PM #8254
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10-07-2020, 03:08 PM #8255
There's just no communities anymore. All of the communities i used to know are chit now or don't exist
PC specs
i9 9900k/AMD RX 6800 16 GB/16 GB RAM/LG BX 65'' OLED/Gigabyte GS27QC 27''
OLED Master Race crew
1440p 120+ fps only crew
6'2 master race crew
Audiophile crew
Metal crew
Introvert/INTJ crew
German crew
If you aren't getting stronger you aren't getting bigger crew
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10-08-2020, 08:48 AM #8256
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10-08-2020, 12:30 PM #8257
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10-08-2020, 04:48 PM #8258
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10-08-2020, 07:15 PM #8259
"You must have a Peer Monitor present for your session and available for a quick overview of what to expect with you and your Clinician just prior to your session.
Your Peer Treatment Monitor can be a partner, family member, roommate, friend, or other trusted individual who will visually confirm that you’re “ok” every 15 minutes during your session. While this person will most likely be a passive observer, they should be someone you can rely on to provide emotional support or call for help if needed."
Wow. I just paid and now it tells me this. I don't have a single person in my life who I can ask to do this. :/
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10-08-2020, 07:20 PM #8260
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10-08-2020, 09:01 PM #8261
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10-09-2020, 03:40 AM #8262
I have no access to a therapist, and I'm not sure I'd be able to be completely honest talking to one, but yes it'd probably help.
I've developed crippling social anxiety the last 2 or 3 years. Last year I tried joining some classes but failed out of them when we had to work in groups and present something to the rest of the class. I almost fainted every single time I had to stand up there in front of people, I felt dizzy and my legs would feel numb. I was using the table in front of me as a crutch or 'holding' the wall behind me and it was very noticeable by the way, one time I crouched in the middle of the room like an actual insane person. And all this considering I didn't have to say anything (because I begged my classmates not to), all I had to do was stay there standing for 5 or 10 minutes while my colleagues presented their work.
A decade ago in high school, I was one of the best public speakers in my class, now this.
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10-09-2020, 03:50 AM #8263
I just dont relate to anyone anymore. I try talking to people at work but it isn't the same anymore. Just 6 years ago I was the guy everyone wanted to be around and had tons of friends and acquaintances now I'm just lost because I have no connections at all. There isn't a single person I've wanted to talk to since 2016 or maybe even 2014 tbh and I don't know why I'm in this place. I used to know so many people.
PC specs
i9 9900k/AMD RX 6800 16 GB/16 GB RAM/LG BX 65'' OLED/Gigabyte GS27QC 27''
OLED Master Race crew
1440p 120+ fps only crew
6'2 master race crew
Audiophile crew
Metal crew
Introvert/INTJ crew
German crew
If you aren't getting stronger you aren't getting bigger crew
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10-09-2020, 06:29 AM #8264
Wow man that's insane because I just dont relate to anyone anymore. I try talking to people at work but it isn't the same anymore. Just 6 years ago I was the guy everyone wanted to be around and had tons of friends and acquaintances now I'm just lost because I have no connections at all. There isn't a single person I've wanted to talk to since 2016 or maybe even 2014 tbh and I don't know why I'm in this place. I used to know so many people.
Hutrapper is my favorite miscbrah
President of the sloots gonna sloot crew
"I guess that's just what sloots do" - Eminem
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10-09-2020, 08:59 AM #8265
My body has put up a defense because I don't have anyone to talk to about anything. All anyone wants to talk about work is dolly Parton and netflix. Sick of this
PC specs
i9 9900k/AMD RX 6800 16 GB/16 GB RAM/LG BX 65'' OLED/Gigabyte GS27QC 27''
OLED Master Race crew
1440p 120+ fps only crew
6'2 master race crew
Audiophile crew
Metal crew
Introvert/INTJ crew
German crew
If you aren't getting stronger you aren't getting bigger crew
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10-09-2020, 09:53 AM #8266
im finally diagnosed with PTSD from my neuropsych. it's pretty ****in bad. i yelled at someone in public cause i thought he was harassing me. but he was just talking. feels ****in horrible. i apologized but i confronted him like he was gonna attack me. it's my concussion that started this
if anyone's got any tips. i'm all ears. neuropsych said find a therapist that specializes in PTSD but i don't really like talk therapyThere is only one Hell: the one we live in now.
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10-09-2020, 11:49 AM #8267
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10-09-2020, 11:55 AM #8268
no it's not lol. try having a brain injury, you will find all these neurological **** ups that u never thought was possible to experience u douche
if i slit your mother's throat and ****ed her dead body in front of you and chopped off her ****in ears and nose and fingers, you think you would be the same after that?
or if i cut off your cock and ****ed u in the ass and came inside and make u cry, run a ****in train on u. u would be traumatized for lifeLast edited by 2RDEYE; 10-09-2020 at 12:10 PM.
There is only one Hell: the one we live in now.
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10-09-2020, 02:08 PM #8269
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10-09-2020, 08:14 PM #8270
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10-11-2020, 08:19 PM #8271
i had a consultation with the k therapist and she said I was a perfect candidate but you need an adult present when you take it and I don't have a single person in my life. I waas going to ask a prostitute but then she's like they have to give their personal information and be on video chat. man wtf am i supposed to do. It's bullf*ck.
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10-11-2020, 08:35 PM #8272
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10-11-2020, 08:40 PM #8273
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10-11-2020, 08:43 PM #8274
No sir. I just thought it seemed like the most affordable and accessible way for you to do it. You really just need the product, nothing bad is going to happen to you. Get any adult. Throw an ad on craigslist if you have to. Come watch me get wonked, $20. Seems like a good way to get robbed, but fukkit just figure something out.
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10-11-2020, 09:13 PM #8275
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10-11-2020, 09:15 PM #8276
A lot. $500-800 total per session and you will probably be asked to do at least 4-6. Not that unapproachable considering your hooker habit, but a lot of money to pay for what they are doing, which is administering you a cheap generic drug that hasn't been on patent for decades and that has a very limited risk profile. The MindBloom should be like half the cost, only difference is less effective ROA
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10-11-2020, 09:22 PM #8277
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10-11-2020, 09:25 PM #8278
You are going to have to make some serious changes to make this worthwhile. Being not depressed will not make you automatically happy by replacement. It just puts you back into a more neutral place. You are going to need to make an attempt to stop being subhuman garbage if you go through with this.
I mean at worst, it should make your rotting more comfortable and palatable and you will be a bit more detached about your status in life. But if you really want to turn things around in a meaningful sense, it won't be just the drug. It should open the door for you.
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10-11-2020, 09:26 PM #8279
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10-11-2020, 09:30 PM #8280
That's part of the idea for sure. You can change automatic responses and feelings and thoughts to certain situations that otherwise would be extremely difficult to break free from. I was amazed after the first dose. I went for a walk afterwards and felt like I was in some strange version of the Upside Down from Stranger Things. Everything was so calm and quiet and you could hear every sound and smell every smell so vividly. It will make you experience things like with the novelty that a child does for a few hours at minimum.
And then all of the sudden the next day it was like the importance of my self-debasing had went away. I just couldn't be fukked with the process of mentally attacking myself and going through depressive thought loops. It was more like, I want to make espresso, I want to go for a bike ride, I kind of want to catch a movie. I can do more today than just sulk about and think about the same nonsense.
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