[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[BigTimePlayer]

Mate I completely understand the anxiety and stress that comes with dating,it's really bad when you have anxiety issues. But however if you genuinely desire to go on a date with this girl absolutely try your hardest to go,do not let It stop you if this is what you want. You can have a good time with her, Brazilian women are also really outgoing and do a good job at communicating with you.

It’s just so bad. I couldn’t even sleep well last night due to thinking about meeting her. That’s how bad it can be for me. Something so damn normal for most people makes me go into stress overdrive. She gave me her number before but it’s from an out of state zip code. A tad skeptical about that but don’t some people have out of state zipcodes on their cellphones?

[eod8989]

What are you supposed to do when every social situation is so competitive in public? If you try to talk to a cute girl, there will be dudes or even other chicks that try to cockkblock you. Talking to dudes is weird as they usually just stare at you or are in groups. Every place i go it's just packed full of groups of people and there's no way to get a word in.

[BigTimePlayer]

What are you supposed to do when every social situation is so competitive in public? If you try to talk to a cute girl, there will be dudes or even other chicks that try to cockkblock you. Talking to dudes is weird as they usually just stare at you or are in groups. Every place i go it's just packed full of groups of people and there's no way to get a word in.

Yeah, basically you’re just labeled the loner creep when you’re by yourself & everyone is in groups or with their bf/gf. Life just sucks man.

[eod8989]

Yeah, basically you’re just labeled the loner creep when you’re by yourself & everyone is in groups or with their bf/gf. Life just sucks man.

It sucks dude if you even get close to people they will just look at your like wtf are you doing here. Unless you go to the gym early morning and there's only like 8 people but who wants to talk at 430 in the morning? It's always the same 8 people which is awkward in itself. Nobody new ever comes to the gym. I'm already labeled the loner creep everywhere i go.

[BigTimePlayer]

lmao this girl through text knew I was a shy/quiet person without even fukin meeting me. This is just crazy man. Flat out asked if I was shy.

[BigTimePlayer]

It sucks dude if you even get close to people they will just look at your like wtf are you doing here. Unless you go to the gym early morning and there's only like 8 people but who wants to talk at 430 in the morning? It's always the same 8 people which is awkward in itself. Nobody new ever comes to the gym. I'm already labeled the loner creep everywhere i go.

Yeah, tell me about it. I’m just tired of it man. I plan on going to the gym tomorrow & I just know it’s going to be the same **** of no one saying **** to no one. I always say it but I feel like I’m in a damn Matrix.

[eod8989]

lmao this girl through text knew I was a shy/quiet person without even fukin meeting me. This is just crazy man. Flat out asked if I was shy.

Yep, i get this a lot from new people i meet. At work my coworker kept saying i am quiet for like 2 months. People just don't understand man. I don't see why it's such a sin to be quiet and humble. Do people not realize we do open up eventually it just takes a bit?

[BigTimePlayer]

Yep, i get this a lot from new people i meet. At work my coworker kept saying i am quiet for like 2 months. People just don't understand man. I don't see why it's such a sin to be quiet and humble. Do people not realize we do open up eventually it just takes a bit?

Yeah, it’s crazy how even without meeting them they notice it. I’m not even going to bother messaging her anymore. It’ll just be a waste since in her mind I’m already viewed as a weak person to her since women flat out dislike shy/quietness. Oh well.

[eod8989]

Yeah, it’s crazy how even without meeting them they notice it. I’m not even going to bother messaging her anymore. It’ll just be a waste since in her mind I’m already viewed as a weak person to her since women flat out dislike shy/quietness. Oh well.

I don't get why there is a script for socializing. If you aren't weird af i don't see why people care. I don't give a fuk if other people are quiet so idk why they care. It's just so odd and it really does feel like the matrix.

[ANIMALISTIKZ]

Yep, i get this a lot from new people i meet. At work my coworker kept saying i am quiet for like 2 months. People just don't understand man. I don't see why it's such a sin to be quiet and humble. Do people not realize we do open up eventually it just takes a bit?

Tbh when I'm my most unhealthy I am very talkative and people like me the most, not a good cycle to get into

[BigTimePlayer]

Man what a ****ed up day this has been. Been constantly depressed & almost laid in bed most of the day. What a life.

[manletstrength]

I'm done keeping my mouth shut like ive been doing for years when it comes to my grandmother treating my mother like dogchit. I'm going to cuss her out to pieces the next time she does it. I've had it with this old and bitter kunt. Grandmother or no grandmother I've had it with her chit talking and treating my mother like trash when all my mother does is go out of her way to take care of her and do things for her to be nice. I'm going to start a fuking war. Let her go tell my ******* uncle about how I'm going to tear into her and let him come to my house. Hes going.to get his chit split really fuking quick. **** all my relatives and my grandmother.

[manletstrength]

Been thinking a lot and it's time to make some major changes in my life and let go of things that have bothered me for so long and that have kept me down for so many years.

I'm cutting out all the people from my life who have been nothing but toxic to me and I'm going to start walking down the right path and get away from all the darkness that has shrouded me for so long. I'm no longer going to be held down and I'm no longer going to be chained up and tortured by demons that have made my life a living hell for so many years.

I'm doing what I have to do to be happy and no longer feeling like chit all the time. I'm not going to keep living like this and keep torturing myself over the mistakes I've made. I'm going to become strong inside and out and start my recovery TODAY!

I will always follow my own path and stay true to myself and my heart, to do what I think and feel is right.

I've come to a fork in the road. I'm taking the other direction of life and living and love. I'm going to walk a different path now that will lead me to happiness and success. I'm making the right choices for myself now.

I'm going to live for myself and whatever I do in life will be for me and no one else. It's time I look out for myself and stop worrying about others.

[eod8989]

****ing lol at this life. Labeled the creepy loner everywhere I go.

[BigTimePlayer]

Just feels so horrible knowing everyone else gets to enjoy their lives with being able to move forward. I’m stuck in the same damn position constantly due to so many health issues. It’s just destroying me that I can’t move forward in life & I’m stuck at a stand still. I can’t date, or get a better job since I can’t feel normal being like this. I’m really just at a loss at this point. So tired of this but I don’t know a way out of this if I’ve been to literally dozens of doctors & they can’t help me. I ask myself where do I go from here if doctors can’t help me?

[eod8989]

Just feels so horrible knowing everyone else gets to enjoy their lives with being able to move forward. I’m stuck in the same damn position constantly due to so many health issues. It’s just destroying me that I can’t move forward in life & I’m stuck at a stand still. I can’t date, or get a better job since I can’t feel normal being like this. I’m really just at a loss at this point. So tired of this but I don’t know a way out of this if I’ve been to literally dozens of doctors & they can’t help me. I ask myself where do I go from here if doctors can’t help me?

Exact same situation i have. I just don't know where to start. You absolutely cannot approach random people when you are alone (or are the creepy loner). Since nobody else shows interest i am just doomed forever. It used to not be like this but everything changed in 2012-2014.

[manletstrength]

I hate my grandmother. She is such a bitter and miserable bich who is two faced. I just cussed her out on the phone because she got nasty with my mother. I'm done keeping my mouth shut. Fuk her.

[300BLK]

Just feels so horrible knowing everyone else gets to enjoy their lives with being able to move forward. I’m stuck in the same damn position constantly due to so many health issues. It’s just destroying me that I can’t move forward in life & I’m stuck at a stand still. I can’t date, or get a better job since I can’t feel normal being like this. I’m really just at a loss at this point. So tired of this but I don’t know a way out of this if I’ve been to literally dozens of doctors & they can’t help me. I ask myself where do I go from here if doctors can’t help me?

Try mixing Vitamin E with an Amino Acid Complex and see what that does for you. Been trying that and I'm starting to feel great.

[eod8989]

My head always burns and my neck always hurts when I get lonely. Like the depression manifests into physical pain. It sucks not being normal

[BigTimePlayer]

I feel as everyday goes by the further I am from having a chance of getting better. This is just crazy at this point. How am I expected to live this quality of life?

[eod8989]

Thinking of going to the trail to jog but i know i will be alone there too. Thing is even if i lift or run i feel like chit an hour later again. I'm pretty much done going to the gym as it's the same cringe every time i go.

[eod8989]

Lol I've been driving around all day blaring music out of my system but still cany find a place to chill. Brb everyone is in groups. Literally everyone since its Friday and almost 70 degrees out. Like wtf am I supposed to do?

[BigTimePlayer]

Lol I've been driving around all day blaring music out of my system but still cany find a place to chill. Brb everyone is in groups. Literally everyone since its Friday and almost 70 degrees out. Like wtf am I supposed to do?

That’s why when I’m not at work I’m usually home 90% of the time. There’s just nothing to do when you’re alone. It’s so damn lame. I wish I made better friends in high school since the friends you have throughout your life are usually the best ones to have.

[eod8989]

That’s why when I’m not at work I’m usually home 90% of the time. There’s just nothing to do when you’re alone. It’s so damn lame. I wish I made better friends in high school since the friends you have throughout your life are usually the best ones to have.

I just came home after being out for like 6 hours. Got bored as hell. I agree i think it's impossible to make real friends when you get older. I'm 30 and i don't ever see it happening because it is illogical to think i will just somehow meet that special person when everyone is already getting older. Maybe that's why i'm so depressed is because i have no hope anymore.

[BigTimePlayer]

I just came home after being out for like 6 hours. Got bored as hell. I agree i think it's impossible to make real friends when you get older. I'm 30 and i don't ever see it happening because it is illogical to think i will just somehow meet that special person when everyone is already getting older. Maybe that's why i'm so depressed is because i have no hope anymore.

I feel only truly extroverted people make friends easily when they’re older. I just don’t get it anymore man. It’s like complaining about it doesn’t fix it but I don’t know what to do about anything anymore. I never want to go out anywhere since all it is is seeing the same **** constantly. I live like 30 minutes from the beach but never go in the Summer since I’d be more depressed going by myself than not at all.

[eod8989]

I feel only truly extroverted people make friends easily when they’re older. I just don’t get it anymore man. It’s like complaining about it doesn’t fix it but I don’t know what to do about anything anymore. I never want to go out anywhere since all it is is seeing the same **** constantly. I live like 30 minutes from the beach but never go in the Summer since I’d be more depressed going by myself than not at all.

We have to be living in the fuking matrix or something. All I know is around 2015 this chit started to get hard. That was right when I started to get older too. What I dont get is so many people here say just go out and be social bro but I am around people all day and all I see is people with their heads down not talking to anyone unless they are in groups. It is the exact same thing no matter where I go. Even when I go to different states it's the same chit I was just in kansas a few months ago and there were like 5 fas and none of them were talking. Yet people here say the opposite. It's the matrix dude.

[manletstrength]

I'm very sad right now. I really hope I dont have arthritis in my shoulder or my passion for the gym will be gone as I'll never be able to lift again. I hope its scar tissue that can get removed from surgery and maybe I'll have to do physical therapy, if anything. I pray to God that its nothing serious.

Trying to stay positive.

[eod8989]

I'm very sad right now. I really hope I dont have arthritis in my shoulder or my passion for the gym will be gone as I'll never be able to lift again. I hope its scar tissue that can get removed from surgery and maybe I'll have to do physical therapy, if anything. I pray to God that its nothing serious.

Trying to stay positive.

Stop doing barbell bench. I stopped a month ago and my shoulder is back to 100%.

[manletstrength]

Stop doing barbell bench. I stopped a month ago and my shoulder is back to 100%.

I haven't done bench in years. It just started hurting for no reason last week. Havent been to the gym in 2 weeks either. But, I tore my rotator cuff and shattered shoulder back 7 years ago. So, it hasn't been the same since. Hopefully the problem can be fixed and I wont be fuked from being able to lift.

[eod8989]

I know what causes me to not want to do anything. I'm leaving town to go chase storms later and i am actually excited as this is the first real chase of the season. Going with a buddy i've known for a long time. All of a sudden i have motivation to leave the house and go out into public. All because i am actually able to do something today. Makes me feel normal. If only i could have this feeling all the time. This is how normal people must feel all the time.