[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[eod8989]

Social media makes me sick. I wish it never existed. Good thing i don't have an active instagram, but i still misc and have FB. It's all just too depressing.

[Smashiin]

Brother called the cops today and almost had me arrested. He's dead to me and no longer part of my life. I decided to start saving money so I can move out and get away from him and live my life with no worries. When the day comes where he passes away I won't be at his funeral. This fuker just wants to see me go down in flames. I'm not going to give him the satisfaction.

[StevieMe]

TFW you're ready to die and still in mid 20s, wtf.

[mattburley7]

I feel somewhat better I got to go on a vacation and clear my mind. We will see what happens when reality sets in the rest of the week.

[2RDEYE]

believe it or not i cold approached a girl this morning for the first time in my life and got ****ing shut down. feel like total chit. i'm in that don't give a **** cuz my life is chit anyways and i'm a fuking loser mode. but **** that rejection hurts to the point where i feel like crying cause i fantasized about it everyday. convinced i will be single my entire life. i talk like a ****ing desperate creep to girls. think i did it because i'm sort of a masochist. i'm gonna start drinking again, i think it'll actually help. but like a glass of wine a day. nothing too crazy.

[Smashiin]

believe it or not i cold approached a girl this morning for the first time in my life and got ****ing shut down. feel like total chit. i'm in that don't give a **** cuz my life is chit anyways and i'm a fuking loser mode. but **** that rejection hurts to the point where i feel like crying cause i fantasized about it everyday. convinced i will be single my entire life. i talk like a ****ing desperate creep to girls. think i did it because i'm sort of a masochist. i'm gonna start drinking again, i think it'll actually help. but like a glass of wine a day. nothing too crazy.

Rejection sucks. I know how you feel. I am going to start smoking weed again so I'm relaxed and not filled with anxiety and to keep my anger at bay so I actually don't get arrested like I almost did earlier today. This piece of chit thatt I have to live with is making my life a living hell. But, within the next year I'll be out on my own and I will never have to talk or see my "Brother" ever again. Karmas a bitch he will get his. What goes around comes around.

[KRANE]

Brother called the cops today and almost had me arrested. He's dead to me and no longer part of my life. I decided to start saving money so I can move out and get away from him and live my life with no worries. When the day comes where he passes away I won't be at his funeral. This fuker just wants to see me go down in flames. I'm not going to give him the satisfaction.

OK, stop. That attitude will destroy you much more than it will your brother. As much as you may hate to admit it he is family, so a part of him is also a part of you. You brother may influence your life, but he can't control it. You need to talk about your feelings and learn to control them. He won't be around you for the rest of your life.

That said, I understand somewhat since I experienced a similar feeling with my sister. I also know of an occasion where a former superior of mine had the exact same attitude as you do about his bother.

In the end, his brother suffered a torn up life, lost both his legs and finally died. Not the type of ending I'd ever want on my conscience.

I will agree you do need to get away (which is what I did) and eventually that feeling of contempt will fade. I'm very strong on forgiveness -- especially when it comes to family -- but that's a decision you'll have to make all on your own. My once superior, never did.

[Smashiin]

OK, stop. That attitude will destroy you much more than it will your brother. As much as you may hate to admit it he is family, so a part of him is also a part of you. You brother may influence your life, but he can't control it. You need to talk about your feelings and learn to control them. He won't be around you for the rest of your life.

That said, I understand somewhat since I experienced a similar feeling with my sister. I also know of an occasion where a former superior of mine had the exact same attitude as you do about his bother.

In the end, his brother suffered a torn up life, lost both his legs and finally died. Not the type of ending I'd ever want on my conscience.

I will agree you do need to get away (which is what I did) and eventually that feeling of contempt will fade. I'm very strong on forgiveness -- especially when it comes to family -- but that's a decision you'll have to make all on your own. My once superior, never did.

Easier said than done. If your brother beat on you everyday for 3 years and you became diagnosed with bi polar disorder and schizophrenia from all the trauma he put you through then you'd feel the same way.

[KRANE]

Easier said than done. If your brother beat on you everyday for 3 years and you became diagnosed with bi polar disorder and schizophrenia from all the trauma he put you through then you'd feel the same way.

You're probably right. In fact, I may not have been as strong as you. But as bad as things are, I'm better there are others out ther that have it ever worse. Hearing some of their horror stories are what got me through mine. Once I hear stories like yours, my issue don't seem so bad, after all.

[eod8989]

believe it or not i cold approached a girl this morning for the first time in my life and got ****ing shut down. feel like total chit. i'm in that don't give a **** cuz my life is chit anyways and i'm a fuking loser mode. but **** that rejection hurts to the point where i feel like crying cause i fantasized about it everyday. convinced i will be single my entire life. i talk like a ****ing desperate creep to girls. think i did it because i'm sort of a masochist. i'm gonna start drinking again, i think it'll actually help. but like a glass of wine a day. nothing too crazy.

Never been rejected but goddaamn It would destroy my confidence if I did. This is why cold approaching is bs. This is why girls don't do it. Misc can say what they want but people don't just randomly approach someone they think might give them a shot. And if they do they most likely get rejected. It's just the harsh reality. Not many 6/10 are single these days.

I was watching 2 broke girls last night and had to turn that **** off cuz all it talks about is sex. Literally just wanted to punch myself in the face

[2RDEYE]

Never been rejected but goddaamn It would destroy my confidence if I did. This is why cold approaching is bs. This is why girls don't do it. Misc can say what they want but people don't just randomly approach someone they think might give them a shot. And if they do they most likely get rejected. It's just the harsh reality. Not many 6/10 are single these days.

I was watching 2 broke girls last night and had to turn that **** off cuz all it talks about is sex. Literally just wanted to punch myself in the face

it fuked me and my day up pretty good. i felt nothing at first and then i felt really sad and depressed where i felt like tearing but then i just felt really pissed off. girls probably have someone lined up all the ****ing time, while guys have to try so hard. the response i got was like "uh i kind of want to know somebody for at least a year before going out with them." think she said something about me being creepy. don't know what i expected. i think i did it because a combination of masochism and misery. my mind's gone haywire, insane. desperate as fuk

Rejection sucks. I know how you feel. I am going to start smoking weed again so I'm relaxed and not filled with anxiety and to keep my anger at bay so I actually don't get arrested like I almost did earlier today. This piece of chit thatt I have to live with is making my life a living hell. But, within the next year I'll be out on my own and I will never have to talk or see my "Brother" ever again. Karmas a bitch he will get his. What goes around comes around.

yeah i think im gonna go alcohol for the same reason. need a stress relief of some sort. working out used to be my stress relief but it's only one hour a day for me and i don't enjoy it anymore, to be blunt.

[mattburley7]

I won't approach girls either out of fear of rejection. don't want to go through that ever.

[Smashiin]

I've never had a girlfriend and a FA virgin at 28yrs old. Pathetic right? Well, I've come to accept the fact that I'll never find my soulmate to share my life with. Fuk it.

[mattburley7]

I've never had a girlfriend and a FA virgin at 28yrs old. Pathetic right? Well, I've come to accept the fact that I'll never find my soulmate to share my life with. Fuk it.

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im 30 and still a virgin. I've had a few girlfriends though that didn't really go anywhere.

[BigTimePlayer]

Life fukin sucks man. Day in & day out of the same ****. Coincidentally everyone here is talking about women yet that's a part of what's pissing me off. I'm at the point now where anytime I see an attractive woman especially if they're with some other guy as a couple I just get really angry & pissed off feelings inside. I just am so tired of this **** man. I really don't know how these guys do it to get women to like them. It's hard enough getting a date yet there's people my age that are getting married, having kids, buying houses. It makes me feel like a huge loser. I just hate my life with a passion. I would find it hilarious if I got a better paying job than all of a sudden women would want to go out with me all of a sudden because of that yet not because of me as a person. I don't know how to get past the anger & bitterness feelings I get. Than when at my job women act nice to me because I have to help them out, sometimes I just want to tell them to fuk off. If I somehow asked them out than all of a sudden they would rather I not exist. Hate this stupid fuking life. I just don't know how I'm still alive at this point. It just is too much to keep going on like this everyday. It's just ridiculous how I feel I'm torturing myself to go on everyday.

[eod8989]

Do you guys think you act too beta/feminine in social settings? When i am around women i am usually really quiet because i don't want to piss any of them off (or sound disrespectful). When i'm around men i just feel like a boy compared to them because i have a quiet personality. ****ing sucks being around them because most men sound dominate and loud when they speak but i appear as a beta.

Not having any guy friends has really ****ed me over the last few years. I'm more feminine and moody than ever before.

[KRANE]

The above are not depression, rather, low self-esteem or lack of confidence. This is a subject easily cured and best discussed under Relationship rather than here. Depression, especially chronic depression, is debilitation condition and something that affects your entire life, not just one segment of it.

[eod8989]

The above are not depression, rather, low self-esteem or lack of confidence. This is a subject easily cured and best discussed under Relationship rather than here. Depression, especially chronic depression, is debilitation condition and something that affects your entire life, not just one segment of it.

yeah i definitely have no confidence or self esteem anymore. It was like one day i just woke up without any of it. Used to have quiet a bit a few years ago

[mattburley7]

Low self esteem here too. I’m also quiet around people

[2RDEYE]

I've never had a girlfriend and a FA virgin at 28yrs old. Pathetic right? Well, I've come to accept the fact that I'll never find my soulmate to share my life with. Fuk it.

i'll probably be right there with u bro. i'm 25, no girl experiences. well besides talking to them like very rarely. i think i went 4 years without talking to a girl. i actually have a hatred for girls, western girls at least. ****ing high and mighty sluts everywhere. there's probably only like 1% of young girls in the entire country that aren't into partying and getting drunk and ****ed by chad. girls that party/go clubbing get no respect from me ****ing sluts. no girl should have ****ed more than 2 guys in their entire life otherwise they're a ****ing slut bitch

[Smashiin]

i'll probably be right there with u bro. i'm 25, no girl experiences. well besides talking to them like very rarely. i think i went 4 years without talking to a girl. i actually have a hatred for girls, western girls at least. ****ing high and mighty sluts everywhere. there's probably only like 1% of young girls in the entire country that aren't into partying and getting drunk and ****ed by chad. girls that party/go clubbing get no respect from me ****ing sluts. no girl should have ****ed more than 2 guys in their entire life otherwise they're a ****ing slut bitch

Agreed. Sloots gon sloot

[mattburley7]

i might actually talk to a girl today for the first time in at least 2-3 years. she goes to my gym out of all places haha.

we went to college together and i happened to notice on her fb she posted she was at my gym. i wont get laid though she is average. i will still be a virgin. bummer.

[BigTimePlayer]

Man, how are you supposed to get over bitterness? At work today I just want to tell attractive women to fuk off. There was an attractive woman that was with some guy that was walking in my direction & looked at me & I was thinking like what the fuk are you looking at bitch. I seriously am so bitter to the point where I don’t think I can climb out of it at this point. I have too many problems at this point. I had thoughts of suicide before my shift at work today wondering how I can keep going on like this. It’s getting to be a bit too much now. I can’t go on like this. I don’t know what to do at this point. I sometimes literally scream out wishing that I would die already. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m at a loss for words really, anything I say doesn’t fix anything.

[Smashiin]

Man, how are you supposed to get over bitterness? At work today I just want to tell attractive women to fuk off. There was an attractive woman that was with some guy that was walking in my direction & looked at me & I was thinking like what the fuk are you looking at bitch. I seriously am so bitter to the point where I don’t think I can climb out of it at this point. I have too many problems at this point. I had thoughts of suicide before my shift at work today wondering how I can keep going on like this. It’s getting to be a bit too much now. I can’t go on like this. I don’t know what to do at this point. I sometimes literally scream out wishing that I would die already. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m at a loss for words really, anything I say doesn’t fix anything.

Maybe you should go see a therapist to get help with fixing your problems and sorting out your issues. Even if you have to be put on medication you'll feel better.

[eod8989]

Man, how are you supposed to get over bitterness? At work today I just want to tell attractive women to fuk off. There was an attractive woman that was with some guy that was walking in my direction & looked at me & I was thinking like what the fuk are you looking at bitch. I seriously am so bitter to the point where I don’t think I can climb out of it at this point. I have too many problems at this point. I had thoughts of suicide before my shift at work today wondering how I can keep going on like this. It’s getting to be a bit too much now. I can’t go on like this. I don’t know what to do at this point. I sometimes literally scream out wishing that I would die already. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m at a loss for words really, anything I say doesn’t fix anything.

I'm in the same boat man, and my neck injury doesn't help either. Yet i still get up at 4 am or early to lift almost every day and go straight to an 8 hour shift after. I have no energy left and when i get nervous my neck starts to hurt. No matter what i do i don't feel like i will ever be normal. I'm just so exhausted of this life man. At this point i almost have to just tell people that i have neck pain or something so they know why i am the way i am sometimes. If it isn't that it's something else, like just not knowing how to talk to people anymore and ****. It's just everything is hard now and it's hard to deal with it all

[BigTimePlayer]

I'm in the same boat man, and my neck injury doesn't help either. Yet i still get up at 4 am or early to lift almost every day and go straight to an 8 hour shift after. I have no energy left and when i get nervous my neck starts to hurt. No matter what i do i don't feel like i will ever be normal. I'm just so exhausted of this life man. At this point i almost have to just tell people that i have neck pain or something so they know why i am the way i am sometimes. If it isn't that it's something else, like just not knowing how to talk to people anymore and ****. It's just everything is hard now and it's hard to deal with it all

Do you think your neck pain has to do with depression in any way? Depression can cause neck pain & other aches in your body

[eod8989]

Do you think your neck pain has to do with depression in any way? Depression can cause neck pain & other aches in your body

Depression and loneliness makes it worse. Also all the frustration makes it worst. I could probably eliminate half of it just being happy honestly.

[BigTimePlayer]

Depression and loneliness makes it worse. Also all the frustration makes it worst. I could probably eliminate half of it just being happy honestly.

Yeah, these problems never go away for me either. This fuking burning in my head & ears just is constantly there most of the time. I'm seriously at a loss at this point. It's driving me crazy man. I can't live the rest of my life like this. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do at this point. My life is just flashing before my eyes with all these health problems. It just makes me that much more bitter. It's scary to think I want to just tell women to fuk off because no one would want to be with me in my condition so it's making me bitter towards them.

[eod8989]

Yeah, these problems never go away for me either. This fuking burning in my head & ears just is constantly there most of the time. I'm seriously at a loss at this point. It's driving me crazy man. I can't live the rest of my life like this. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do at this point. My life is just flashing before my eyes with all these health problems. It just makes me that much more bitter. It's scary to think I want to just tell women to fuk off because no one would want to be with me in my condition so it's making me bitter towards them.

It's at least 1000x harder to cope in this hyper sexual society and social media. It's just insane man. LITERALLY EVERYTHING is about sex and going out these days

[BigTimePlayer]

It's at least 1000x harder to cope in this hyper sexual society and social media. It's just insane man. LITERALLY EVERYTHING is about sex and going out these days

Yeah, almost any show you watch these days it's all about sex. I get triggered bad by it where it just makes me feel like I'm missing out & it fuks my mood up. My mood got fuked up today bad when I saw this attractive woman with some guy. She's the one that looked at me when she was walking back towards my direction. It just pisses me the fuk off. I just don't know how these guys are able to do it while I'm stuck in this fuked up position. I sometimes literally scream like a fuking madman in my house when I'm alone wondering how the fuk my life has come to this & how I'm all alone. I even scare myself sometimes by the **** I start screaming. But it sometimes feels good to just scream **** when I'm angry. Being alone your entire life really can fuk your mind up. People that have had relationships & a regular sex life don't understand what it can do to you.