vadsie's journal v.2.0

[vadsie]

Hi hi! I've decided to make a new journal because the last one wasn't as successful as i'd have hoped it'd have been. So this one will have more success, I can feel it. currently i sit at 360.8.

Food (for march 14):5 eggrolls with plum sauce, 2 peanut butter sandwiches, 1 potato wedge, 1 pear, 2 cheese and crackers. this was cause i was at work all day and had evening classes after it. so after i got home i ate eggrolls and went to bed around 7:30pm

Exercise: 3271 steps on the fitbit

Notes: today seemed long due to work and school. I shall count my calories today, I think I will aim for 2500. past two days my illness was trying to sabotage me by making me eat at night but they haven't been able to, I dunno how long it will last but I'm optimistic. well welcome to the new journal glad to have you here, see you later on today. :>

[Feed2Grow]

Hi hi! I've decided to make a new journal because the last one wasn't as successful as i'd have hoped it'd have been. So this one will have more success, I can feel it. currently i sit at 360.8.

Food (for march 14):5 eggrolls with plum sauce, 2 peanut butter sandwiches, 1 potato wedge, 1 pear, 2 cheese and crackers. this was cause i was at work all day and had evening classes after it. so after i got home i ate eggrolls and went to bed around 7:30pm

Exercise: 3271 steps on the fitbit

Notes: today seemed long due to work and school. I shall count my calories today, I think I will aim for 2500. past two days my illness was trying to sabotage me by making me eat at night but they haven't been able to, I dunno how long it will last but I'm optimistic. well welcome to the new journal glad to have you here, see you later on today. :>

Good luck Vadsie!

[vadsie]

Feed2Grow, man you're looking awesome! you're ten years younger than me but look 10 times better ty for the encouragement

[Feed2Grow]

Feed2Grow, man you're looking awesome! you're ten years younger than me but look 10 times better ty for the encouragement

I appreciate that man, I've got a long way to go but I have enjoyed the journey so far. I'll be checking in and see how its coming, you got this!

[vadsie]

thank you F2G! in fitness news i have been able to control how much i eat but not what. in other words......

Food: 1 small pizza, 1 indian taco, 1 bowl of cereal

Exercise: 3k steps

Notes: i didnt eat PROBABLY over 2500 cals, so i just have to go to sleep and do my best to fight off the voices which I KNOW I will be able to do, so see ya'll tomorrow :>

[vadsie]

well everyone i owe everyone an update because otherwise its a huge cliffhanger that pisses everyone off that saw the last one.. lol not quite but you get the idea. im still learning how to control my calories, its not eating at night thats throwing it off its my voices are making me eat during the day when im more likely to listen to them. and when i do i say to myself, "today's fuked! might as well eat and try tomorrow". thats the tough one, so ive been eating a regular breaky, a medium sized lunch, and a bigger dinner all while trying to not eat at night, which was successful last night. its tough but doable. i will say i should try to count calories tomorrow but its tough when you dont know what the day will be like. last night i made it over the hump but i have doubts about it still. i was 360.4 this morning, thats almost half a pound. ive been reading that self help book and its been good getting over things that happened years ago. i think thats helping me with an addiction i didnt really know i had. food addiction. overeating and the like. i overate supper today and it felt bad. im in no hurry to lose weight. i have no deadline anymore (used to be a country music festival) and im alcohol free for life now. i prob wont even go to the fest, nothing but drinking and that puts me in an uncomfortable position. so when i do finally lose weight it wont be weight ive lost in this past lil while, it was shame i felt over things that happened years ago. i wont go into detail. if you made it this far i salute you, i will slowly improve my days ty for reading

[vadsie]

hello hello just a quick update, as of this morning i am 359.2 i will be estimating my calories, around 2500. i ate around 500 cals before work this morning so about 2000 more cals to eat today. thankfully ive worked it out with my illness to the point where i can eat how much i want (less) and not eat at night so i could lose weight. yay!

[vadsie]

hi everyone, not much to report other than i need to find motivation! i know i could lose but its not really important to me right now. maybe 2500 is too low. i should try 3000, and if that doesnt work ill go down to 2750. i gotta get going tho my life is slipping away ill be 40 by the time im done at this rate

[vadsie]

well its march 29 and i weigh 357.8 woot! i will continue to lose!

[Cubs68]

well its march 29 and i weigh 357.8 woot! i will continue to lose!

That's the attitude man! Just keep on keeping on, keep tracking even if you think today is a loss. It keeps you accountable.

Doing this 99% is hard, 100% is easy.

[scrossmaggard]

well its march 29 and i weigh 357.8 woot! i will continue to lose!

Awesome!

[vadsie]

Tnx guys! Sometimes a little encouragement goes a LONG way, I love when ppl stop by and say hi! Today was a little slack, ate garbage again. I think if I know I'm eating something that I don't know the calories of I just say ef et. I'll try to log all my meals for tomorrow tonight. Tnx guys take care!

[vadsie]

hello hello :> i started the day with breakfast at a restaurant, around 1000 cals, ate 2 hotdogs and a small amount of potato chips, prob around 600 cals, and a bowl of stew with 2 dinner buns that prob came up to 7-900 cals. i hope this is enough but i know its not when i dont know for sure. i also did some lifting today tnx to some motivation from a miscer. it lasted about 20 mins, maybe more. i know if i lift consistantly and more rigid with the calorie counting i will start dropping weight, i am stronger than my voices for sure so i aint worried about eating at night when im not supposed to. after all my calories have been accounted for. my daily calorie goals for now is 3000. lifting really felt good. well im out, happy opening day for all the baseball fans :>

[vadsie]

Hola! I woke up to 358.4. A little higher than my last weigh in here but it felt good cuz I was hovering over 360 for about a week, I'm taking my meds for diabetes and measuring my blood sugar lately. Things are getting better sobriety wise and illness wise. I'm praying more and days dealing with my illness are getting easier. I'm happy I'm getting this sorted out so I could do better at life. Cya folks later!

[scrossmaggard]

Good to hear Vadsie. I too had/have bouts with diabetes and alcohol. Deadly combination. Keep after it!

[vadsie]

Ty sir! My mom is a diabetic and her blood sugar (hope she forgives me) was 22 this morning so I feel I should take it more srs than I have been for myself and her. Diabetes is bad on my reserve, this morning on fb someone posted that their daughter's was in the thirties. Alcohol is up there with one of the worst things to happen to mankind imo! Good to hear you're a sober guy 🙂 Gn!

[vadsie]

I'm at a low, I'm strong enough to not eat whenever my voices tell me to, but whenever they tempt me it seems like a good idea. I've been down so long I forgot what it was like to be thin and happy. I took my blood sugar today but didn't take my meds for it. It was 9.1 btw. I've been hiding behind the iifym flexibility so much my voices don't think it's bad to eat junk. It doesn't hurt them so what do they care? It's time to be transparent, I will log my diet on here, I can't promise macros at first but I promise to post what I'm eating starting tonight.

Food= bologna sandwich for breakfast
Donair, corn chips, chocolate bar for lunch
Small pizza for supper
Slice of pizza and a piece of chicken for an evening snack

This isn't uncommon, I want to be healthier. I won't go full clean eating at every meal but things need to change especially since I have diabetes. Tomorrow for breakfast I will use the nutribullet and try to eat healthy from there. Thx for reading, and my God have mercy on my soul.

[Imp81318]

Good to hear you're continuing to battle Vadsie! If I may make a suggestion, it may be of better benefit to you to start out just making sure you meet your daily calorie goal, rather than immediately worrying about trying to eat "clean". You have a lot on your plate to battle right now between weight loss, diabetes, alcohol, and everything else going on in your life. As long as you restrict your calories to less than your TDEE you WILL lose fat. Once you get some of your other issues under control a bit better you may find it easier to make the switch to eating clean. I think that for a lot of us, one of our biggest mistakes is to try to do too much too quickly and make too many drastic changes. The change that lasts that we can stick with is the subtle change that we really don't notice as being all that difficult.

[vadsie]

Tnx man I will do that. Sound logic my friend! Full update tonight

[scrossmaggard]

Let the man up stairs take care of those voices Vadsie. Sorry to hear about your mother. My aunt lost her foot in December and that has flipped the switch for me, she since has lost her leg. Poor lady, just made poor decisions. Keep it up man. Remember, life is a marathon and not a sprint, just take your time and enjoy the process. GL2U

[Feed2Grow]

You've got this! Just try to take each day and even meal one step at a time.

[vadsie]

hi f2g hi scross today wasn't one im proud of but i am proud of the fact i ate around 2500 cals. and i plan to sleep tonight with that under my belt. for breakfast i ate a bowl of special k, for lunch i at 2 cookies, one 60g bag of chips and a chocolate bar, for a mid afternoon snack i had one filet o fish sandwich, for supper i had a medium sized pizza sub and a cheese burger. this is habitual. ive eaten this way for so long its a habit, time to build better habits. tnx for all the encouragement guys, makes me want to try harder and not let y'all down, <3

[vadsie]

hello hello, was 359.0 today, so by next monday i will strive to be 358.0. it just seems like the more i try to lose 2 pounds a week i try too hard and it gets no where. hopefully now that easter is over ill be able to count cals, was too hard this weekend with mom's cooking and a bajillion ppl in the house. is all good, cya folks later

[vadsie]

Hello all, well today I was 358.2. So I think what I should do is try to reach 357.0 by next Monday. But I won't put too much pressure on myself.

[vadsie]

Hi, this morning I weigh 357.4, woot!

[vadsie]

Hiii, today sucked. Not diet wise, but I woke up with tonsillitis. I should eat maintenance for this cold or fever to go away, I only ate around 2000, but it has to wait so I can get better. My sugar was 13, after my last meal, but good news is I should be able to eat healthy from now on cuz I know I can stop my voices from forcing me to overeat. Later!

[vadsie]

Hii I weighed myself this morning and I am at 356.4. Not too shabby. Sugar was 12 this morning before a meal, I am drinking more water today and making better choices. If I do eat junk it will be moderate.

[anandagirl]

Hii I weighed myself this morning and I am at 356.4. Not too shabby. Sugar was 12 this morning before a meal, I am drinking more water today and making better choices. If I do eat junk it will be moderate.

You're doing awesome! Hope you feel better soon though Being sick is no fun at all

[vadsie]

Thank you anandagirl! Yea my nose is plugged from mucus but is also runny. Have to constantly sniff, oh well.

[timbau]

Keep it on bro