vadsie's journal v.2.0

[vadsie]

Will do bro!

[vadsie]

Hello, I didn't realize that I lost 3 pounds since last Monday, I am 356.0 right now, that makes me happy. The goal of the week is less carbs, not low or none, just less. I will try to eat around 2500. Sugar was 9 this morning.

[vadsie]

Woke up to being 354.2! I met next weeks goal already, but I've decided to try to reach the week after that's goal 352.

[Imp81318]

Awesome progress Vadsie! Keep it up!

[vadsie]

Hello, my weight is up to 359.8 as of this morning. I hope some of that is water weight. I ate around 2578 calories today so I just have to sleep without eating and I'm golden. Good night!

[anandagirl]

Hello, my weight is up to 359.8 as of this morning. I hope some of that is water weight. I ate around 2578 calories today so I just have to sleep without eating and I'm golden. Good night!

That's what I do when I'm out of calories and hungry! Go to sleep LOL

[vadsie]

What's up? Today I was 361. Just haven't been motivated to try to keep losing cause work combined with my schizophrenia is difficult to manage. Can't sleep without being forced to eat by my voices so I say eff it. I can't make it to night time without my daily allowance so the save calories for when it's time to sleep method doesn't work. And my voices are starting to force me to eat during the day now. I am getting stronger by the day so it may go my way soon. I deal with life stuff with eating now. Not good. But I know for a fact my alcohol addiction is gone forever. I'm gonna try again tomorrow cause I feel able to sleep without eating. Today I wasn't sure how I would manage my illness and a diet so I didn't count. Well imma drink something cause I'm thirsty but not for water. I'll see you all tomorrow.

[vadsie]

two sandwiches, a chocolate bar, 1 710ml can of iced tea, and a plate of shepards pie with 3 slices of rye bread. this is what i ate today, i didnt weigh myself today, almost quit work yesterday due to my illness but woke up today feeling pretty awesome so i went back to work and it was an awesome (by my standards) day. im happy i went to work. voices didnt force me to eat today so i will see tonight if i will be able to sleep without eating. hope so , if i do eat it'll be alright. i just gotta chug along. if u read my journal im grateful you care enough to follow along with the disappointments. seems thats all my journals are are disappointments. but im doing good. cya tomorrow.

[anandagirl]

You're doing awesome! It's hard to keep going when things aren't going your way, but you're not letting it get the best of you Glad you had a good day at work yesterday!

[vadsie]

Ty ananda 🙂 Things are looking up, I went to bed last night and I didn't eat! So I woke up at 358.8. Not too worrisome. We'll see how today goes.

[vadsie]

I had a good day at work, and I ate around 2500-2750 calories just guessing. Had a couple of toast with butter and jam with a juice box of apple juice. A can of chicken noodle soup with like 10 crackers and a couple of slices of toast. And ended the day with roast beef and gravy with mashed potatoes, peas, and 3 slices of bread. Had a long day again cause of class after work so I'm getting fatigued. Gonna nap after survivor tonight. Hope y'all have a good evening.

[vadsie]

Hola señors and señoritas! Just an update on my situation, work is on ez mode now, it's almost therapeutic but I know next school year won't be as easy. But it won't be as hard as it was earlier. Food situation, I've decided that eating all that junk wasn't necessary anymore, I used it to cope and now I feel good with myself so I can enjoy healthier meals. I bought a hoagie for lunch and decided to not eat it so I had a pbnj sandwich instead. I'm not overeating which is good, I feel happy for the majority of the day if not the whole day. Take care and keep on truckin!

[vadsie]

Heyy, I was 358.2 after a couple of cookies at 10:00am this morning. My life has been up and down over the last week or so. But I'm going to bed and sleeping with minimal damage. I'll hopefully get the ball rolling again, I'm truly happy with where I am in life, just gotta get the weight loss ball rolling. Ttyl guys. 🤓

[vadsie]

Hello ppl, hope everyone is doing well. I'm around 360 as of this morning. I will not weigh myself for two weeks. And over the next two weeks I will log the next days meals one day before hand. My calorie goal is 2623. Take care and catch y'all tomorrow

[anandagirl]

Hello ppl, hope everyone is doing well. I'm around 360 as of this morning. I will not weigh myself for two weeks. And over the next two weeks I will log the next days meals one day before hand. My calorie goal is 2623. Take care and catch y'all tomorrow

You can do this! The scale is not always the best indication. I need to take measurements when the scale doesn't budge

[vadsie]

Tnx ananda 🙂 Yea I should go by measuring too. Last night I didn't eat even when my voices wanted me to. So that's promising. I feel really good about this time around. I'm happy I planned today's meals yesterday, helped big time. Take care 😇

[vadsie]

Hola! Weighed myself this morning and was 360.0. So my goal for the 24th is 358.0.

[vadsie]

Hello! This morning I was 358.8, which means I should be around 358.0 by Saturday. And I'm gonna try take advantage of this journal more rather than something I do once and awhile. Things like logging meals, activity, and my Coach.me app's daily goals met. I dunno if I'll say what my daily goals are but I'll say how many of them I met. Might as well start today.

Food: egg and bologna sandwich, dqp w/cheese and a hash brown from McDonald's, one hamburger patty with gravy on it, some battered mushrooms and fries with like 3 chicken wings, and some leftover Father's Day cake. Ended the day with 2 klik sandwiches. That's so far, if I eat again I'll put it here. Oh yea a bottle of iced tea

Activity: didn't wear my Fitbit today but plan to tomorrow and will try to get some steps in.

Coach.me: 5 out of 11 goals met.

Notes: I've always been scared to share my eating habits on here cuz i was always scared to get heck from you guys but I see others on here with the same problems and it's like going to the gym when you're out of shape, ppl are there to help and improve, I just hope I'm able to improve my eating habits and sedentary lifestyle. I'll be here tomorrow.

[vadsie]

Early morning update for June 20/17

Food: bowl of corn flakes, 3 chicken fingers w/ fries, 6 perogies and 6 slices of bacon, and finally 2 klik sandwiches.

Activity: wore my Fitbit for a bit and racked up 1k steps, just felt lazy.

Coach.me: 6 out of 11 goals met

Notes: as of June 21th I'm 359.0 at 5:30am, I'll probably have to drain the main vein later, hopefully I'll be 358.0 or less.

Edit: was 358.2 before I ate so .2 before my goal on Saturday

[vadsie]

Hey 👋 well as of this morning I am 357.4! Woot next weeks goal is 355.0.

[vadsie]

Hello, get right into it

Food: 2 chocolate bars, couple handfuls of chips, 2 slices of toast, 6 slices of pizza. Not too proud of today but eff it.

Activity: didn't wear my Fitbit

Coach.me: 7 out of 11 goals reached

Notes: woke up and was 356.8 at least my weight is going down

[vadsie]

hola!

Food: 2 egg sandwiches, 1 plate of noodles with 2 slices of toast, 1 plate of fried rice and some ribs
foodnotes: hope this is less than 2500 cals, i think it is. wasnt too bad, got talked out of eating a big bag of chips today, ty mom!

activity: didnt really do much, pretty much relying on food intake for the weight loss, gonna walk lots this weekend tho cuz im going to a country music festival!!!

coach.me: didnt try today, maybe tomorrow, things are moving slowly so maybe my motivation will be better moving forward

Notes: was 356.2 today, over half a pound but i dunno if ill reach 355 by saturday, i know i dont over eat anymore tho which is HUGE! i had to force myself to eat the rice and ribs too but i know it'll benefit me. anywho tnx for the reps critterbug yea things are slowly moving once i get going the train is hard to stop!

[anandagirl]

Great work! Maybe you will, but regardless that weight is going down!

[vadsie]

Hello! How is everyone? Awesome. I'm doing good, I'm pretty much recovered from cfest. I drank one night and it blew my world to smithereens but I'm back to feeling good and happy 😊. Today I weighed 359.0. I guess that's good. At least I'm still in the 350's hehe, time to sleep 😴

[vadsie]

Hola!

Food: some chicken nuggets and a slice of pie. Perogies and bacon.

Activity: lifted some weights. Felt good.

Notes: well things should move faster around here. I haven't lifted in awhile and it was good. Woke up to 358.4 pounds. Yay!

[vadsie]

Ahh the Glorious 1000th post! so many ppl id like to thank for the support over the years, i honestly wish i cud have hit my goal of 170 by now but thems the breaks. schizophrenia is definately the reason nothing gets done or takes its sweet ass time but i will continue to strive to become better. i dont know how much i weigh at the moment but one thing i will now add to my arsenal is the counting of macros good or bad. i would just count calories and itd make me lazy and just eye ball everything and thatd would be frustrating. ate lots today im prob gonna be 364 by tomorrow morning but some of that is water weight. things are tough tot get done when i have persuasive voices. i can say no and what not but im just a go with the flow kinda guy and eating at night to please them makes me and them feel good. i should take advantage of the time i can say no. if i fail again its aight cuz i tried. until tomorrow folks.

[vadsie]

Hola, I have been doing well. Reading alcohol books to educate myself on alcoholism. But I realized the problem wasn't totally me, it was my voices forcing me to drink at cfest. I would get tricked into getting drunk so they would have power over me. But the education of alcohol in those books helps me and my voices make better decisions regarding alcohol. In other news I'm at 357.8, my sugar when I checked it was 16 so I have to start taking my meds and eating healthier and drinking more water. Today I made a nutribullet drink that made me feel better. I wrote down on paper a goal, a goal of meeting all my coach.me app goals for one month starting today. Wish me luck and I'll see y'all tomorrow!

[vadsie]

Hii, yesterday I met all my goals, today looks like I'll be meeting all of them too. Took one off and added a couple on. It felt hard to do at first but it feels like this could be an everyday thing.

Food: as of 6:27pm I had a bowl of cereal, 2 hotdogs, a nutribullet smoothie, and a box of kraft dinner with a couple of wieners thrown in. I still have around 500 calories for the rest of the day.

Activity: not too much, driving a lot, I'll probably start lifting soon and some cardio when the ball starts rolling.

Notes: day 2 of the goals list has been a success. See ya tomorrow

[vadsie]

Hello! Today was loooong, glad it's over.

Food: one bowl of cereal, one mcchicken sandwich and fries, m&ms, 3 pieces of fried chicken, and 2 carrot muffins. Not a healthy day but I stayed in deficit.

Activity: same ol, was dead tired at the end of the day so no exercise

Coach.me: all goals met

Notes: well I made good on my month long goal so far, 3 days of meeting my Coach.me goals. I was 357.8 this morning but I'm not worried it's only been 3 days. It's been a hot frickin summer since cfest. Not much rain. Sugar was 9.0 when I woke up. Going down! I decided to list my calories and macro goals for the current time, cals: 2624 carbs: 295 fats: 102 protein: 131. Later!

[vadsie]

Hi, today was hot, so I'm just updating a simple way, was 357.0 this morning after updating this journal all my goals will be met. No air in the house so I'm battling heat at this weight also I feel strong enough to quit gambling and start saving money. Cya tomorrow