Here's my story. Just got out of 1 yr 7 months relationship this is the first long term relationship for the both of us we are almost living together. I'm 26 she's 21. This girl had a huge crush on me before and I'm not even interested in her but don't get me wrong she's so pretty and she's the prettiest girl that I'd been with. So like most of the guys here I also thought that she's the one. She kept texting and calling me before in 2014 ignored her most of the time. Then one night in 2016 I'm bored looking for someone to talk to online then I saw her chat her for a while she kept on flirting with me and next thing I know where already a couple that night. Ex cheated on me emotionally then dumped me last month september 2017 for the guy she caught feelings for. Didn't see it coming but I feel it deep inside my guts that she might be seeing someone else. (Should've listen to my guts. It just that there is no proof.) This dude had a live in partner got caught cheating with my ex then got dumped by his girl he's 29 and a major cheater. My ex and I broke up without any begging, pleading and crying I just agreed that we should go our separate ways but still beta as chit cause I'm still so nice to her after what she's done and promised that I'll still accept her in the future when things didn't workout with her new bf. Later that night we still hangout she slept at my house then I asked her for sex she agreed but cried later cause she thinks I'm just using her for sex. Told me it would be the last time that we would see each other.
Next day got a message from her asking if she could still sleep at my house I agreed. Ask her for sex again this time she enjoyed it.
Next day got a message from her again asking if I could come over her house and if I stay for the night I agreed didn't ask her for sex but had sex.
Next day is my off. She didn't go to work to hang with me. Ex is super clingy, sweet and jealous this time. She thought I'm already seeing someone else. Enjoying every moment with me then cry asking me to take her back. I refuse. Told me I didn't fight for her and I'm like what? (But I want her so bad. I want to take her back but I want to have the control in the relationship when I take her back. I'm working to take her back at this moment but I want it not because her new found guy might not work but because she realize that I'm the only one she's gonna love.) I'm so stupid at this moment. We had sex the whole day.
Next day I got super beta. While we are eating I ask her that we should work things out. That maybe this is all I need to change my ways. (I thought I'm the one that did her wrong and pushed her to someone else's arms. I didn't know much at this point. I didn't realize that I didn't do anything wrong at this moment. I'm still blaming myself for everything that happened.) She begun acting so bitchy. Still sleeping at my house for a couple of days bang her one more time. Then one day I got super drunk. I saw her outside my house talking to her new bf on the phone I got pissed and sang really loud she got pissed and told me i was being disrespectful. I got so mad because of everything the confusion the anger the hurting inside went out and I lashed out on her. Called her names and stuff threatened her that I would tell her new bf that I'm still ****ing her and after I told her new bf I would beat him till his last breath then she cries I calmed down when she cried cause I feel sorry for her. (But I shouldn't feel sorry for her cause she deserve it.) She still sleep at my house. I told her that we should stop seeing each other cause it's so confusing to me, she agreed and I thank her for understanding.
I guess this is my wake up call or so I thought.
I went NC and just after a couple of days I'm starting to feel good about the break up. I didn't want her anymore or so I thought. I didn't think much of her. I don't give a chit about her anymore. One day she's missing, her uncle was asking me about her and I told her uncle that she may be at her friends house cause she sleep over at her friend's when sunday cause the next day would be her day off. (She just started sleeping at her friend's house when things are going rough between us or when she starts cheating on me. That's when I notice that she's backing away from me. I can't get rid of this girl before I let her control my ****ing social life which is a mistake on my part). After a week of NC I received a lot of calls from her and a text message telling me to pick up my stuff at her house but I know that she just wants to see me. I ignored all of it and the next day ignored all her calls again. The 3rd day she calls me again this time she text me begging me to answer the call just once telling me she missed me so much. I'm at work. I answer the call I act like I wast really busy when the truth is I'm just reading all the stuff in this thread, then when I look in front of me she's standing there looking like a lost puppy craving for my attention I was really happy I act really indifferent acting like everything is so cool with my life. We ate together and while we were eating she saying a lot of indirect stuff on getting back together or check if I'm still willing to accept her. She ask if she could hang out with me I told her to go home and take a bath. She did and came back I told her she can't hangout cause I'm busy and came back again then I told her I will check on her later .That night. I hang with her at her house we kissed and stuff she's ready to have sex with me ask me to sleep there. I refused cause I'm hanging out with my friends. Which I regret later. LOL. (She's weighing her decisions this time. To get back with me or stay with her new bf. She's thinking of breaking up with him.)
Next day she came to my work again she ask if she could hang out with me I let her stay cause I missed her and f*** I'm starting to get beta. We hang out the whole day. Keep on giving me hints that she want us back together and saying asking if I would still accept her. Of course I said that I won't. I sleep at her house now I'm the one who insist cause I want to bang her she let me. We almost had sex. Didn't have sex which sucks. I'm back to acting really indifferent again. (I ask her if she and her new bf had sex already she denied it cause she knows that's my rule I'm only gonna accept her if they didn't have sex yet. Which I found out today that they already have sex. Man she's such a liar.)
Next day she came to my work again I let her stay again which is a f******* mistake. Someone saw us the other night together eating at mcdonalds and told her new bf about it. She thinks I'm the one that told her bf. She's not mad about it. They're fighting about it. New bf is super jealous of me. She tells me that she's gonna break up with his new bf for real this time. And I'm starting to get desperate now I'm having the idea of us getting back together. Chit it sucks. She's breaking up with her new bf and new bf is super beta begging her not to break up with him. That night I checked up on her when she saw me she started crying I don't know what's going on but she and her new bf are having a fight. I left because I don't want to be her emotional tampon plus it's my sister's b-day and we will go out. Didn't hear from her for a day.
Then the next day she came to my work again. Insisting that I'm the one who told her bf about us. We argued a lil bit then told her to go away if that's the only thing she's gonna say. Didn't hear from her again.
The next day I went to check up if they already broke up which is phucking super mistake on my part. She's gonna meet up with her new bf I went nuts and want to create more drama. I told her not to go and hang out with me so that they'll gonna have something to fight with. Because I know that new bf is super beta. She declined and I got desperate beg her not to go and annoyed the chit out of her. And it left me so phucking defeated for a couple of days. Until I saw it on a positive light.
Now my question. Is it possible for her to cheat on him with me again in the near future I just want the other guy to look more ridiculous. I don't want her back I just want to keep phucking her while I'm looking for a new girl.
BTW while typing all of this s*** she came and see me to verify if I wore a condom when we had sex last month after we broke up. Cause her monthly visitor is delayed. I told her yes I do and didn't believe it for a second then I told her to f*** off cause if there is something in there I know it wasn't mine. She go away and text me later saying she was sorry for still bothering me her period came.. oh well.
When we talk last week she said that she still feeling guilty when she hang out with her new guy especially when she's doing something special for him that she haven't done to me. She kept thinking about me all the time they were together. What does it mean?
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