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    update, so after a month or so without doing any weightlifting (just walking). i kinda feel almost the same tbh. i will start tomorrow because i have become lazy. i got a question thought. i have been doing greyskull lp which is a full body routine and i'm tired of it. is there any other recommendations for beginners that you guys have tried?
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    Guys I have a story to tell you about myself that no one really knows . I'm not sure if anyone will read this. But no one in the world really knows about this.

    No one really knows about this but this is true. Growing up I was a normal kid with a bit of social anxiety. I loved playing soccer and never cared about gym or what i ate. I was always a skinny kid but never really thought about my weight. I just ate what i wanted and played soccer all the time.


    When I was 18, i had a bad knee incident and stopped playing soccer. I also became aware of Zyzz and was inspired so got into weight lifting. I always thought of myself as ugly so was really inspired to become aesthetic.

    I lifted weights for about 6 months but didn't notice much difference. Then i found out about Kinobody and fasting. (Even though i was never overweight to begin with) So i started fasting.

    I became super shredded and noticed that women seemed really attracted (for the first time in my life) so i became obsessed with maintaining my "physique" and maintaining how I look. Unfortunately this consumed me. Everyday, for years, i fasted and hardly ate. . I went though University 4 years of my life pretty much only studying because i had no energy to do anything else. THe funniest part - i didn't even get girls. My T levels were probably so incredibly low i didn't even have the energy or motivation to peruse girls despite getting SIGNIFICANT attention . Literally there would be times where every second girl would walk passed me and eye me off and play with their hair. I remember going to class and noticing 3-4 girls constantly staring at me, playing with their hair around me. I became so obsessed i thought finally i'm attractive but the funny part is i had absolutely 0 T levels so i didn't even get girls! I also didnt' work, didn't travel or do anything except study.



    I got through my studies but due to my trashed hormone levels I never excelled and ended up working at a terrible place after University. At the time, i continued my effort to "fast" and not eat and ended up doing terribly at my job and becoming extremely depressed , this lead to more problems as i started gambling and visiting brothels to make myself feel better.

    I eventually got fired after a year. A few months later i got a job at a very good place. During this time i started dating and finally managed to have sex with a girl. But the same problems existed, i hardly ate and as a result lost my job after 6 months. I also met a girl online and this girl was all over me and really into me, she became my first girlfriend. When i was with her i was unemployed and continued to hardly eat. I thought - if i eat normally she will leave me. So i continued fasting and hardly eating. And continued having super low T levels and feeling ****ed all the time. I acted incredibly weak around her as my hormones were messed up. I couldn't act like a man or anything. Our relationship lasted for 7 months before she cheated on me. It was after this that i realised how much i had destroyed my life and nearly committed suicide. I had pretty much fasted and destroyed my T levels because i thought i needed to so i could be physically attracted for females which i eventually did only to have a women i love cheat on me.

    Since then, i've been eating more and been making good progress in gym and life. I'm probably the strongest and fittest i've ever been in my life.
    But at the same time I still get depressed about the past..

    As you can see i pretty much destroyed my life. The problem is when you severely under eat it destroys your hormones/serotonin etc so you end up becoming more depressed/anxious/obsessive.


    I could of worked for a great place, I could of dated girls i actually wanted to date, I could of done so much with my life but i pretty much wasted the last 4-5 years of doing nothing because i hardly ate.


    I would pretty much eat less than 1k cals a day.



    I never travelled, never dated differetn girls, worked etc. I had to play catch up.

    Anyway, that's my story.


    It's pathetic, it's sad, it's messed up. it is what it is. thanks for listening though.

    I guess for me right now it's trying to accept how I look being higher body fat and being able to feel attractive.
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    Originally Posted by Omni View Post
    Started reading Adam's nutrition / workout log and found this thread mentioned a few times. Found a lot of symptoms/side effects of a eating disorder referenced from Adam's thread that match some of my current issues.

    Little back story on me, I was overweight most of my life but lifted and dieted pretty heavily through my senior year of high school/first year or two of college. I've always been well informed on nutrition but just chose to make poor food decisions, play video games and avoid exercise through my early 20's. It all started in January of 2016. I was 26 and I woke up one morning and decided it was time to make a lifestyle change. I started exercising and limiting my sugar intake. I started the journey weighing 230 pounds at 5'9".

    I've been working a summer seasonal hard construction/labor intensive job for the last six years while making drastic changes to my diet. I pretty much just followed a low carb (50-75g a day), high protein diet. Around March of this year, I weighed approximately 135 pounds and felt great physically and mentally. I started working again in April and was probably eating between 1200-1500 calories a day while doing extreme vigorous exercise and walking up to 14 miles a day. My wife noticed my libido had pretty much became non existent and I was always agitated. On top of this, I had lost all motivation and drive in life that I have had previously.

    Fast forward to August of this year and I was weighing 122-125 pounds. I ended up going to the doctor to try and see what I had zero libido and drive thinking I just had low testosterone. The doctor was very blunt and pretty much told me I had done all of this to myself and I had a borderline eating disorder. We ended up doing blood work and the results came back with low white blood cell count which the doctor told me was probably from undernourishment. He told me to just go eat cheeseburgers and other comfort foods i.e. increase my caloric intake and see if my white blood cell count returns to normal. I immediately joined a gym and started tracking my food on MFP. I read through all of the TDEE and came up with a caloric number of 2400 to try and gain 1/lb a week. I returned to the doctor exactly one month later for a follow up and had the same results. I weighed exactly the same and still had low white blood cell count. He has referred me to a blood specialist which I have my initial appointment coming up this week.

    Anyways, here is where I am at right now. Obviously I did not gain much weight since the first of August even while tracking my food and attending the gym 5-6 days a week. Over the last week I have increased my caloric intake to 2800 and the scale has finally started to go up. I am averaging 129 on the scale for the last week. On to my side effects I believe that are related to a potential eating disorder. I have extremely low libido which is creating a major problem in my relationship. Obviously everyone recovers differently but what is the average recovery time on the libido factor? I already feel a lot better mentally with a lot less brain fog and finally starting to get my motivation and drive back. I still get insane food cravings but nothing like they were back in August when I first started eating 2400 calories. I am literally having to force feed myself carbs which is hard to get through mentally.

    Sorry for the wall of text, I've never reached out or told anyone beside my wife any of this and just looking for some simple answers. I really enjoy reading all of Adam's responses and his answers to just eat more and eat whatever you want! Thanks for the motivation man.
    Well folks I have been putting off posting this for about 4 weeks now since I found out the news. Let me first start off by giving a little background on my situation. I originally posted in this thread back in late October / early November about my suffering health problems. To sum it all up, I lost around 100 pounds over three years, lost all of my libido and my energy levels were low, went to the doctor at the beginning of August 2019 and found out I was anemic (low wbc). I was referred to a hematologist and had my first appointment around November of 2019. My WBC was at 2.3, RBC was 4.08 and my testosterone came back at 169. He wanted me to return in two months for a follow up.

    Flash forward to 1/8/2020 and my WBC was 3.4 and RBC was 3.97 and I weighed in at 138 – up from 128 in August. The doctor wasn’t too concerned with the lowering of the RBC since we had improvement on the WBC. His options were do a bone marrow test to rule out leukemia, get referred to an endocrinologist to dig deeper into possible hormone issues or wait another three months and return for a follow up while attempting to gain weight/heal naturally. I opted for the former option.

    I’ve been going really hard in the gym and have been seeing great gains across the board during this time. My bench was up to 155x5, squat 205x5, deadlift 245x5 at 5’8 138lbs. Been eating around 2700-3000 calories a day which is an absolute STRUGGLE. This has been due to extreme bloating, stomach pains and constipation.

    Forward to 1/25/2020 and I was experiencing some groin pain that I was figuring was a hernia. I typically never go to the doctor for things like this but I was flying out to Cancun in three days and played it safe. They did an ultrasound and ruled out a hernia but noticed some fluid roaming around that they called concerning. I was scheduled for an abdominal cat scan the next day. The following morning the results were posted on my health app at 7am. The results noted I had a large mass (10.5x6 cm – about the size of your fist) attached to the tail end of my pancreas and they called it suspectable pancreatic lymphoma. Talk about drop to your knees reading this news at 7am! We had to wait until 9am to call the Doctors office to ask WTF is going on. They told me to come in immediately with my significant other and that they were severely sorry I had to read the results on the app and that they didn’t relay the information in person. They broke the news that they were certain it was cancer and they were fairly certain it was lymphoma (which is the more treatable cancer) but could not rule out carcinoma. My whole entire life was turned upside down. Since I was already dealing with a hematologist/oncologist he called me immediately when he saw the results roll across the desk. I had to cancel our Cancun plans and I was referred to a gastroenterologist to figure out what is going on with this mass.

    I was then scheduled for a upper endoscopic biopsy where they would attempt to get a sample of the mass. The surgery was unsuccessful and the surgeon said she was not able to see the mass. She blamed it on shadowing and/or calcium build up surrounding the mass. The surgeon also noticed my stomach and throat were extremely inflamed and took samples of both for testing. They tested the samples for Celiacs disease which came back negative. I was consuming large amounts of dairy leading up to this in preparation of possible chemotherapy. I was attempting to put on as much weight as possible in as little time as possible. I was then referred to a new surgeon that specializes in minimally invasive surgery and was scheduled for a laparoscopy which was yesterday (2/24). They were to install a chemo port at the same time to prepare for upcoming treatments.

    In the meantime, it had been almost a month that I had been under the assumption I had cancer. The surgery yesterday was successful in the sense that they were able to open me up and have a look inside. The results were shocking – they said they have NEVER seen this happen before during this kind of surgery. They were not able to find this fist sized mass anywhere. It was nonexistent. It just wasn’t there. What the surgeon did find was balled up intestines and bile ducts that had fallen down. These appeared as a large mass on the cat scan. The surgeon was able to push them back up. I am now on six weeks of recovery and can not lift anything over 10 pounds due to the risk of a hernia.

    I am now diagnosed with severe anorexia. There is literally no fat or tissue holding my organs together. It was literally just clear membrane, which again the surgeon noted she had never seen before. When I originally started attempting to gain weight to heal myself back in August, I began a regular gym routine. Pushing myself hard 5-6 days a week in the gym while eating 3000+ calories a day. Yes, I gained a good amount of muscle, all of my lifts improved and I put on a little weight. What didn’t happen was my bodies ability to heal from all the damage that was previously done. Instead I believe my body devoted all of its energy to recovery from the gym and not my organs (this is my theory – take it with a grain of salt).

    Well now you’re probably wondering where I go from here. I will still be seeing my hematologist soon for a bone marrow test to still rule out leukemia. I will also be referred to an endocrinologist for a brain MRI to rule out any other hormonal issues that have prevented substantial weight gain. I will be deleting MFP and destroying my food scale. I have also previously read Tabitha Farrar’s book “Rehabilitate, Rewire, Recover!” and will be following her advice. You will find me living a sedentary life on my sofa, eating large amounts of happy foods and allowing my body to heal. I will not be attending the gym or doing any vigorous exercise until my blood work is in good standing and I have gained a good amount of weight/fat. I know I am forgetting a lot of little details but you get the main idea behind this post. We really are damaging our bodies with restrictive eating and if you keep at it long enough, you’ll end up in the hospital.

    TLDR: Eat food or you’ll end up in the hospital. Happy Fat Tuesday Y’all!
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    Originally Posted by Omni View Post
    Well folks I have been putting off posting this for about 4 weeks now since I found out the news. Let me first start off by giving a little background on my situation. I originally posted in this thread back in late October / early November about my suffering health problems. To sum it all up, I lost around 100 pounds over three years, lost all of my libido and my energy levels were low, went to the doctor at the beginning of August 2019 and found out I was anemic (low wbc). I was referred to a hematologist and had my first appointment around November of 2019. My WBC was at 2.3, RBC was 4.08 and my testosterone came back at 169. He wanted me to return in two months for a follow up.

    Flash forward to 1/8/2020 and my WBC was 3.4 and RBC was 3.97 and I weighed in at 138 – up from 128 in August. The doctor wasn’t too concerned with the lowering of the RBC since we had improvement on the WBC. His options were do a bone marrow test to rule out leukemia, get referred to an endocrinologist to dig deeper into possible hormone issues or wait another three months and return for a follow up while attempting to gain weight/heal naturally. I opted for the former option.

    I’ve been going really hard in the gym and have been seeing great gains across the board during this time. My bench was up to 155x5, squat 205x5, deadlift 245x5 at 5’8 138lbs. Been eating around 2700-3000 calories a day which is an absolute STRUGGLE. This has been due to extreme bloating, stomach pains and constipation.

    Forward to 1/25/2020 and I was experiencing some groin pain that I was figuring was a hernia. I typically never go to the doctor for things like this but I was flying out to Cancun in three days and played it safe. They did an ultrasound and ruled out a hernia but noticed some fluid roaming around that they called concerning. I was scheduled for an abdominal cat scan the next day. The following morning the results were posted on my health app at 7am. The results noted I had a large mass (10.5x6 cm – about the size of your fist) attached to the tail end of my pancreas and they called it suspectable pancreatic lymphoma. Talk about drop to your knees reading this news at 7am! We had to wait until 9am to call the Doctors office to ask WTF is going on. They told me to come in immediately with my significant other and that they were severely sorry I had to read the results on the app and that they didn’t relay the information in person. They broke the news that they were certain it was cancer and they were fairly certain it was lymphoma (which is the more treatable cancer) but could not rule out carcinoma. My whole entire life was turned upside down. Since I was already dealing with a hematologist/oncologist he called me immediately when he saw the results roll across the desk. I had to cancel our Cancun plans and I was referred to a gastroenterologist to figure out what is going on with this mass.

    I was then scheduled for a upper endoscopic biopsy where they would attempt to get a sample of the mass. The surgery was unsuccessful and the surgeon said she was not able to see the mass. She blamed it on shadowing and/or calcium build up surrounding the mass. The surgeon also noticed my stomach and throat were extremely inflamed and took samples of both for testing. They tested the samples for Celiacs disease which came back negative. I was consuming large amounts of dairy leading up to this in preparation of possible chemotherapy. I was attempting to put on as much weight as possible in as little time as possible. I was then referred to a new surgeon that specializes in minimally invasive surgery and was scheduled for a laparoscopy which was yesterday (2/24). They were to install a chemo port at the same time to prepare for upcoming treatments.

    In the meantime, it had been almost a month that I had been under the assumption I had cancer. The surgery yesterday was successful in the sense that they were able to open me up and have a look inside. The results were shocking – they said they have NEVER seen this happen before during this kind of surgery. They were not able to find this fist sized mass anywhere. It was nonexistent. It just wasn’t there. What the surgeon did find was balled up intestines and bile ducts that had fallen down. These appeared as a large mass on the cat scan. The surgeon was able to push them back up. I am now on six weeks of recovery and can not lift anything over 10 pounds due to the risk of a hernia.

    I am now diagnosed with severe anorexia. There is literally no fat or tissue holding my organs together. It was literally just clear membrane, which again the surgeon noted she had never seen before. When I originally started attempting to gain weight to heal myself back in August, I began a regular gym routine. Pushing myself hard 5-6 days a week in the gym while eating 3000+ calories a day. Yes, I gained a good amount of muscle, all of my lifts improved and I put on a little weight. What didn’t happen was my bodies ability to heal from all the damage that was previously done. Instead I believe my body devoted all of its energy to recovery from the gym and not my organs (this is my theory – take it with a grain of salt).

    Well now you’re probably wondering where I go from here. I will still be seeing my hematologist soon for a bone marrow test to still rule out leukemia. I will also be referred to an endocrinologist for a brain MRI to rule out any other hormonal issues that have prevented substantial weight gain. I will be deleting MFP and destroying my food scale. I have also previously read Tabitha Farrar’s book “Rehabilitate, Rewire, Recover!” and will be following her advice. You will find me living a sedentary life on my sofa, eating large amounts of happy foods and allowing my body to heal. I will not be attending the gym or doing any vigorous exercise until my blood work is in good standing and I have gained a good amount of weight/fat. I know I am forgetting a lot of little details but you get the main idea behind this post. We really are damaging our bodies with restrictive eating and if you keep at it long enough, you’ll end up in the hospital.

    TLDR: Eat food or you’ll end up in the hospital. Happy Fat Tuesday Y’all!

    Dude...

    I don't know what to say other than thank you for sharing and I wish you the best. I can hardly believe this crazy story... wow....
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    Originally Posted by AdamWW View Post
    Dude...

    I don't know what to say other than thank you for sharing and I wish you the best. I can hardly believe this crazy story... wow....
    You're telling me man! I'm still in complete disbelief. Imagine waking up tomorrow morning and reading this: https://i.imgur.com/D6CybTu.png

    To then going and meeting with the doctor and being shown your mass: https://i.imgur.com/03MzN3R.jpg

    To waking up from surgery yesterday morning and being shown your pancreas without a tumor/mass attached to the tail: https://i.imgur.com/nLnHWRx.jpg

    According to the surgeon, the pancreas should have a nice fatty layer on it and you should not be able to see the veins. I'm just looking forward to finally moving on and letting my body heal.
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    Originally Posted by Omni View Post
    You're telling me man! I'm still in complete disbelief. Imagine waking up tomorrow morning and reading this: https://i.imgur.com/D6CybTu.png

    To then going and meeting with the doctor and being shown your mass: https://i.imgur.com/03MzN3R.jpg

    To waking up from surgery yesterday morning and being shown your pancreas without a tumor/mass attached to the tail: https://i.imgur.com/nLnHWRx.jpg

    According to the surgeon, the pancreas should have a nice fatty layer on it and you should not be able to see the veins. I'm just looking forward to finally moving on and letting my body heal.
    Really happy for you man...

    Must feel like you have a new lease on life.

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    Originally Posted by Omni View Post
    Well folks I have been putting off posting this for about 4 weeks now since I found out the news. Let me first start off by giving a little background on my situation. I originally posted in this thread back in late October / early November about my suffering health problems. To sum it all up, I lost around 100 pounds over three years, lost all of my libido and my energy levels were low, went to the doctor at the beginning of August 2019 and found out I was anemic (low wbc). I was referred to a hematologist and had my first appointment around November of 2019. My WBC was at 2.3, RBC was 4.08 and my testosterone came back at 169. He wanted me to return in two months for a follow up.

    Flash forward to 1/8/2020 and my WBC was 3.4 and RBC was 3.97 and I weighed in at 138 – up from 128 in August. The doctor wasn’t too concerned with the lowering of the RBC since we had improvement on the WBC. His options were do a bone marrow test to rule out leukemia, get referred to an endocrinologist to dig deeper into possible hormone issues or wait another three months and return for a follow up while attempting to gain weight/heal naturally. I opted for the former option.

    I’ve been going really hard in the gym and have been seeing great gains across the board during this time. My bench was up to 155x5, squat 205x5, deadlift 245x5 at 5’8 138lbs. Been eating around 2700-3000 calories a day which is an absolute STRUGGLE. This has been due to extreme bloating, stomach pains and constipation.

    Forward to 1/25/2020 and I was experiencing some groin pain that I was figuring was a hernia. I typically never go to the doctor for things like this but I was flying out to Cancun in three days and played it safe. They did an ultrasound and ruled out a hernia but noticed some fluid roaming around that they called concerning. I was scheduled for an abdominal cat scan the next day. The following morning the results were posted on my health app at 7am. The results noted I had a large mass (10.5x6 cm – about the size of your fist) attached to the tail end of my pancreas and they called it suspectable pancreatic lymphoma. Talk about drop to your knees reading this news at 7am! We had to wait until 9am to call the Doctors office to ask WTF is going on. They told me to come in immediately with my significant other and that they were severely sorry I had to read the results on the app and that they didn’t relay the information in person. They broke the news that they were certain it was cancer and they were fairly certain it was lymphoma (which is the more treatable cancer) but could not rule out carcinoma. My whole entire life was turned upside down. Since I was already dealing with a hematologist/oncologist he called me immediately when he saw the results roll across the desk. I had to cancel our Cancun plans and I was referred to a gastroenterologist to figure out what is going on with this mass.

    I was then scheduled for a upper endoscopic biopsy where they would attempt to get a sample of the mass. The surgery was unsuccessful and the surgeon said she was not able to see the mass. She blamed it on shadowing and/or calcium build up surrounding the mass. The surgeon also noticed my stomach and throat were extremely inflamed and took samples of both for testing. They tested the samples for Celiacs disease which came back negative. I was consuming large amounts of dairy leading up to this in preparation of possible chemotherapy. I was attempting to put on as much weight as possible in as little time as possible. I was then referred to a new surgeon that specializes in minimally invasive surgery and was scheduled for a laparoscopy which was yesterday (2/24). They were to install a chemo port at the same time to prepare for upcoming treatments.

    In the meantime, it had been almost a month that I had been under the assumption I had cancer. The surgery yesterday was successful in the sense that they were able to open me up and have a look inside. The results were shocking – they said they have NEVER seen this happen before during this kind of surgery. They were not able to find this fist sized mass anywhere. It was nonexistent. It just wasn’t there. What the surgeon did find was balled up intestines and bile ducts that had fallen down. These appeared as a large mass on the cat scan. The surgeon was able to push them back up. I am now on six weeks of recovery and can not lift anything over 10 pounds due to the risk of a hernia.

    I am now diagnosed with severe anorexia. There is literally no fat or tissue holding my organs together. It was literally just clear membrane, which again the surgeon noted she had never seen before. When I originally started attempting to gain weight to heal myself back in August, I began a regular gym routine. Pushing myself hard 5-6 days a week in the gym while eating 3000+ calories a day. Yes, I gained a good amount of muscle, all of my lifts improved and I put on a little weight. What didn’t happen was my bodies ability to heal from all the damage that was previously done. Instead I believe my body devoted all of its energy to recovery from the gym and not my organs (this is my theory – take it with a grain of salt).

    Well now you’re probably wondering where I go from here. I will still be seeing my hematologist soon for a bone marrow test to still rule out leukemia. I will also be referred to an endocrinologist for a brain MRI to rule out any other hormonal issues that have prevented substantial weight gain. I will be deleting MFP and destroying my food scale. I have also previously read Tabitha Farrar’s book “Rehabilitate, Rewire, Recover!” and will be following her advice. You will find me living a sedentary life on my sofa, eating large amounts of happy foods and allowing my body to heal. I will not be attending the gym or doing any vigorous exercise until my blood work is in good standing and I have gained a good amount of weight/fat. I know I am forgetting a lot of little details but you get the main idea behind this post. We really are damaging our bodies with restrictive eating and if you keep at it long enough, you’ll end up in the hospital.

    TLDR: Eat food or you’ll end up in the hospital. Happy Fat Tuesday Y’all!
    That is actually crazy man. I am 17 years old and have been fighting an eating disorder for close to 3 years now. I was a big kid and lost 12kg in about 6 months when i was 15 and weighted 48kg.

    I have recently got a blood test and found out I have low Testorstrone levels.

    However, recently i have gained 10kg in 5 months. I now weight 61kg and feel good. However, I still track calories which I know I need to stop badly, and I still continue to have binges at least 2 times a week.

    I have seen 3 different professionals but it just didn't help. I don't know what to do. I still obsess over food and then restrict binge cycle.

    I just want to be so called 'normal' again. But I don't know how to approach it. Any tips?
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    That is actually crazy man. I am 17 years old and have been fighting an eating disorder for close to 3 years now. I was a big kid and lost 12kg in about 6 months when i was 15 and weighted 48kg.

    I have recently got a blood test and found out I have low Testorstrone levels.

    However, recently i have gained 10kg in 5 months. I now weight 61kg and feel good. However, I still track calories which I know I need to stop badly, and I still continue to have binges at least 2 times a week.

    I have seen 3 different professionals but it just didn't help. I don't know what to do. I still obsess over food and then restrict binge cycle.

    I just want to be so called 'normal' again. But I don't know how to approach it. Any tips?
    Find a better professional... honestly...

    You need to just stop all the nonsense.
    The power of carbs compels me!
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    so guys after 1 month and some days off from lifting weights, i decided to come back. its been around one month and i increase almost 10-11 pounds (from 144 something to 155 today)! im freaking out. i decided to just not go to bed hungry and eat eat eat, but wow! i think i might actually watch what i eat? i started around one month with some mental meds so maybe that bloats me. i do feel much better, but i feel like my lower abs pop out and that freaks me out.

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    Originally Posted by letsallmakeit View Post
    so guys after 1 month and some days off from lifting weights, i decided to come back. its been around one month and i increase almost 10-11 pounds (from 144 something to 155 today)! im freaking out. i decided to just not go to bed hungry and eat eat eat, but wow! i think i might actually watch what i eat? i started around one month with some mental meds so maybe that bloats me. i do feel much better, but i feel like my lower abs pop out and that freaks me out.

    im 6’
    You already know the answer.

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    Originally Posted by AdamWW View Post
    You already know the answer.

    What do YOU think you should do?
    my brain says to lower calories and i feel lost tbh :/
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    Originally Posted by letsallmakeit View Post
    my brain says to lower calories and i feel lost tbh :/
    You already know you can’t trust your brain... do you not remember all the advice you’ve been given here?
    The power of carbs compels me!
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    You already know you can’t trust your brain... do you not remember all the advice you’ve been given here?
    thanks a lot for replying!
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