Analysis Paralysis

[SophieM]

Sorry about the pup. It's so hard being a pet owner.

[tina722]

^^Agree

Hope the weekend trip was good.

[HARRYBEAST]

Its only when I see posts like these, that I am thankful we don't have a dog right now. Hope whatever you decide that your little buddy is as comfortable as possible. Prayers for your pup.

[gobbles23]

Aww poor puppy So sorry to hear about that. So sad when stuff like that happens to them! Hope it all works out <3

[Artemis00]

While I was typing it, our Vet called with recommendations from the oncologist. Her suggestion was to restage him (check the lymph nodes and get a chest x-ray to make sure he's still clear, and if all is well, to do another surgery and then start him on chemo. ****. I don't know where to draw the line yet. I don't think I want (or can afford) to do chemo realistically. So so I then get him staged? Do I put him through another surgery? We're going out of town this weekend, thankfully taking them with us. I want to cancel our next trip now though. I'm a fukking mess, so much snot right now.

OMG. Sorry about the pup. This sucks so much. I can so much relate right now that I'm tearing up thinking about it (for obvious reasons). I know you'll make the best decision for your pup.

[anandagirl]

Woooo! Nice deadlift, yo, that's an impressive weight to throw around. Mirin.

(Also mirin front squats; I'm always terrified to go heavy on those for fear of hurting my back).

ETA: I have no pets so I dunno what to say but sorry about the dog.

Thanks! I test deadlifts this week It's much harder for me to keep a straight back on front squats, probably because I'm always a little rounded to get my elbows up

Way to go on the PRs.

Sorry to hear about your pup though. It's never easy to deal with these kinds of decisions.

Thanks Luna, hugs to you

Sorry to hear about your pooch, Ananda. I hate having to make these sorts of decisions. Give yourself time to think. Sending positive vibes xx

Thanks Jo, I didn't think about it at all this weekend, and started to research last night.

So sorry to hear about your dog. Yeah those are some tough decisions. Any time I've been conflicted about that I've asked my regular vet for her opinion. The big hospital where you can get stuff like cancer treatments and blood transfusions always wants to try and fix everything, that's what they do, but I feel like I can get a more personal answer from my main vet. It depends on so many different things, but I always try to be reasonable for the pet and make sure I'm doing it for them and not just for me. I've heard animals handle cancer treatments way easier than people so I'd probably try it once for a pet who had a good chance with that, but if you've already done a bunch of serious procedures it may be worse to keep going.

Yes, that's what the vet said, that it didn't bother them as much. I don't want it to be a financial decision, but it will likely be one. I just can't afford another $5-10K in cancer treatment after spending ~$4K 6 months ago, and to get what - maybe an additional 6 months to a year? Plus, I can't imagine Oscar wants to be fuked with, when all is said and done. BUT if I don't make a decision soon, one will be made for me.

Sorry about the pup. It's so hard being a pet owner.

Seriously. You've had a rough time lately too ((HUGS))

^^Agree

Hope the weekend trip was good.

Weekend trip was good, I enjoyed as much as I could

Its only when I see posts like these, that I am thankful we don't have a dog right now. Hope whatever you decide that your little buddy is as comfortable as possible. Prayers for your pup.

Thanks Harry, yes being a pet owner can really suck sometimes

Aww poor puppy So sorry to hear about that. So sad when stuff like that happens to them! Hope it all works out <3

Thanks lady!

OMG. Sorry about the pup. This sucks so much. I can so much relate right now that I'm tearing up thinking about it (for obvious reasons). I know you'll make the best decision for your pup.

Oh, I know you know. Time to spoil the fuk out of them.

[anandagirl]

Bench 10/25
PR's:
120x1 10/2/17
110x6 10/9/17

Paused Bench
112x3 10/17/17
120x1 10/2/17

Flat Bench, Medium Grip
45x10
55x5
75x3
95x1

Paused
105x1
116x1 - not too paused
121x1 - PR Better pause, but not by much.

Touch and Go
95x6
100x6



Bench was rough today. Back is a bit jacked from sleeping in four different beds since Friday. That's one of the issues with traveling, you never know how the bed is going to be, and then I got home and I feel like my back slowly got used to other beds, and now mine wasn't completely comfortable. No worries, I'll be better soon.

Dumbbell Bench Press
12.5's x35
2x22.5's x 25

Dumbbell Shrug
3x50's x12

Close Grip lat pulldown
3x95x12

Rear Delt Cable row
3x60x12

Pallof Press
3x60x20

Ab Wheel
1x5

Weighted Crunch
10x3

Felt a bit of a muscle pull/cramp in my abs on the ab wheel and then the weighted crunch bugged as well.

Hammer Curls
3x20's x12

Did these at the end to give my arms a rest

One of our destinations had a hotel with a fitness center so I thought I might do some accessories, but it was all cardio, no dumbbells. So I rested instead. I really did nothing, and ate and drank everything as documented on IG. Part of me wants to still be on vacation, but most of me feels out of sorts because my routine is off so I want to be back 100% and have life as normal. We still have reservations to go out of town the first weekend in November, but I think we're going to cancel. Mostly because we're just so busy, but I'm not sad because it's just another obstacle in my routine. I'm ballooned up on this trip too - I'm sure it's just bloat and water weight but I'm UNCOMFORTABLE. Feel fat and gross. Also, supposed to switch from old gym to new gym on November 1 and would only get 1-2 workouts in and then be gone for 5 days which isn't ideal. Maybe we can get away for a couple days. I really just want to get out of town and do some shopping before winter really hits, but maybe it would be more fun after Thanksgiving so I can do holiday shopping

[Artemis00]

Congrats on the bench PR.

Ab cramps suck balls. Hopefully it didn't go full cramp on you.


I know what you mean about vacations. Love having the time off and being away but after a couple days I'm ready to get back to my routine...hate having my routine off.

[anandagirl]

Congrats on the bench PR.

Ab cramps suck balls. Hopefully it didn't go full cramp on you.


I know what you mean about vacations. Love having the time off and being away but after a couple days I'm ready to get back to my routine...hate having my routine off.

Thanks! It didn't, mostly because I didn't push it. It almost felt like I pulled an ab muscle but hindsight I was probably being a wimp and just cramping. Back to the routine. although I wish my routine was sleeping in, cuddling dogs, drinking wine and eating all the things.

[thebigzakbowski]

congrats on the pr!
I get ab cramps and when I do it is always the same ab (middle one on my left side) hurts so bad I have to stand and stretch for like 5 minutes

[Artemis00]

Thanks! It didn't, mostly because I didn't push it. It almost felt like I pulled an ab muscle but hindsight I was probably being a wimp and just cramping. Back to the routine. although I wish my routine was sleeping in, cuddling dogs, drinking wine and eating all the things.

I don't blame you...first time I ever had the start of an ab cramp was when I was deadlifting. It didn't go full cramp on me, but I was definitely concerned that I pulled something serious.

Okay, I'll swap wine for a bit of aerial...and that would be a perfect day for me

I get ab cramps and when I do it is always the same ab (middle one on my left side) hurts so bad I have to stand and stretch for like 5 minutes

I don't get that...why it is always the same ab. For me it is left side, second row. Looks really freaky in the mirror when it cramps up. For me, I prefer to lay on my back, not move and try to figure out how to breath again. They hurt like a bastard...I can work thru leg cramps...but not ab cramps.

[anandagirl]

congrats on the pr!
I get ab cramps and when I do it is always the same ab (middle one on my left side) hurts so bad I have to stand and stretch for like 5 minutes

Thanks! Ouch!

I don't blame you...first time I ever had the start of an ab cramp was when I was deadlifting. It didn't go full cramp on me, but I was definitely concerned that I pulled something serious.

I don't get that...why it is always the same ab. For me it is left side, second row. Looks really freaky in the mirror when it cramps up. For me, I prefer to lay on my back, not move and try to figure out how to breath again. They hurt like a bastard...I can work thru leg cramps...but not ab cramps.

This was a first. It actually hurt all day and night too. Is this an excuse to get out of abs? LOL

I'm still not in my routine. I'm tired AF. I not only silenced my alarm for the gym, I also silenced my alarm for work and was late. I just wanted to cuddle the pups. I'm also letting a lot of things slide. Not meal planning, not packing my lunch, not taking my vitamins and supplements, generally not being disciplined. I'm going to change that today. Not sure if I will get to the gym today for squats since I missed my morning workout, but I did take my vitamins. Will be sure to take my creatine and glutamine tonight and work on planning meals for the next 10 days.

[FallenAngel80]

Whoop for the PR!

[Artemis00]

This was a first. It actually hurt all day and night too. Is this an excuse to get out of abs? LOL

I'm still not in my routine. I'm tired AF. I not only silenced my alarm for the gym, I also silenced my alarm for work and was late. I just wanted to cuddle the pups. I'm also letting a lot of things slide. Not meal planning, not packing my lunch, not taking my vitamins and supplements, generally not being disciplined. I'm going to change that today. Not sure if I will get to the gym today for squats since I missed my morning workout, but I did take my vitamins. Will be sure to take my creatine and glutamine tonight and work on planning meals for the next 10 days.

Yeah, the first is always the worse and I think the discomfort is very mental because you are really worried about if you did some serious damage. After you've dealt with your 10th ab cramp...you just wait for the pain to blow over and then go right back to what you were doing before...which is more abs. LOL

Hate being so out of sorts with the routine. I remember when just missing a day would throw off my entire week. Now with everything that is going on...I figure screw it. Some things are more important right now and need more focus. Still try to keep to the routine as best as I can, but I just don't beat myself up over it as much.

And meal planning...that for me is figuring out what my Red is willing to eat that day. Last couple days have been pretty good...which usually means that I don't get to eat what I was planning on eating because he ate it. LOL

[thehobbes]

Yeah you gotta jump back into the overall health routine ASAP! I try to think of everything healthy I do as earning bonus points for myself - taking my vitamins, running, each time I eat fruits and veggies, squat day, getting 8 hrs sleep. Try to hit as many of those little things as possible a day and you'll do very well for your health and fitness. Screw all that chit with trying to get likes on ******** or upvotes on reddit and put your effort towards something that really matters! If you have a bad day and don't hit any of those things, it's ok, start again and keep going. Try to hit as many bonus points as possible and you'll be far better off than most people out there.

Be aggressive and be relentless, you got dis chit man!

[gobbles23]

Yes gotta get back in the groove again!! I feel so good when I have meals cooked and am on top of my vitamins and training lol. Makes me feel accomplished or something haha. Like I'm doing good for my body I's hard to get back into the swing of things but the sooner you get back to it the easier it'll be Ham is 100% right!

[SophieM]

I'm off my routine also. Each week I tell myself "this week" and "this week" turns in to "next week." We'll get it together eventually. I hate when life gets in the way of taking care of yourself, but it seems to happen quite regularly.

[LunaLifts]

Yeah you gotta jump back into the overall health routine ASAP! I try to think of everything healthy I do as earning bonus points for myself - taking my vitamins, running, each time I eat fruits and veggies, squat day, getting 8 hrs sleep. Try to hit as many of those little things as possible a day and you'll do very well for your health and fitness. Screw all that chit with trying to get likes on ******** or upvotes on reddit and put your effort towards something that really matters! If you have a bad day and don't hit any of those things, it's ok, start again and keep going. Try to hit as many bonus points as possible and you'll be far better off than most people out there.

Be aggressive and be relentless, you got dis chit man!

I love the idea of a points system. I'd make it an actual "game" of sorts if I could stay consistent with tracking it. Not a game that would make you feel bad if you didn't get a lot of points, just collecting the points for fun, and if you get less some days you just try to beat it the next day. You're always starting fresh each day, no losing, all winning.

[bigwade800]

these are the moments you learn how bad you really want to achieve or do something

Anyone can do easy and there are no redeeming qualities with just doing easy. When it's hard, that's when you find out what you are made...choose to embrace this and make it happen for you, don't wait for it to happen to you

[anandagirl]

Whoop for the PR!

Thanks woman!

Yeah, the first is always the worse and I think the discomfort is very mental because you are really worried about if you did some serious damage. After you've dealt with your 10th ab cramp...you just wait for the pain to blow over and then go right back to what you were doing before...which is more abs. LOL

Hate being so out of sorts with the routine. I remember when just missing a day would throw off my entire week. Now with everything that is going on...I figure screw it. Some things are more important right now and need more focus. Still try to keep to the routine as best as I can, but I just don't beat myself up over it as much.

And meal planning...that for me is figuring out what my Red is willing to eat that day. Last couple days have been pretty good...which usually means that I don't get to eat what I was planning on eating because he ate it. LOL

Loved dog <3

Yeah you gotta jump back into the overall health routine ASAP! I try to think of everything healthy I do as earning bonus points for myself - taking my vitamins, running, each time I eat fruits and veggies, squat day, getting 8 hrs sleep. Try to hit as many of those little things as possible a day and you'll do very well for your health and fitness. Screw all that chit with trying to get likes on ******** or upvotes on reddit and put your effort towards something that really matters! If you have a bad day and don't hit any of those things, it's ok, start again and keep going. Try to hit as many bonus points as possible and you'll be far better off than most people out there.

Be aggressive and be relentless, you got dis chit man!

Hammy Ham pep talk!

Yes gotta get back in the groove again!! I feel so good when I have meals cooked and am on top of my vitamins and training lol. Makes me feel accomplished or something haha. Like I'm doing good for my body I's hard to get back into the swing of things but the sooner you get back to it the easier it'll be Ham is 100% right!

Today is Friday, I WILL get to the gym, and work is a little slower today so I should have time to put together a meal plan and a shopping list and get that done tomorrow.

I'm off my routine also. Each week I tell myself "this week" and "this week" turns in to "next week." We'll get it together eventually. I hate when life gets in the way of taking care of yourself, but it seems to happen quite regularly.

I'm rooting for us both xoxo

I love the idea of a points system. I'd make it an actual "game" of sorts if I could stay consistent with tracking it. Not a game that would make you feel bad if you didn't get a lot of points, just collecting the points for fun, and if you get less some days you just try to beat it the next day. You're always starting fresh each day, no losing, all winning.

these are the moments you learn how bad you really want to achieve or do something

Anyone can do easy and there are no redeeming qualities with just doing easy. When it's hard, that's when you find out what you are made...choose to embrace this and make it happen for you, don't wait for it to happen to you

WWW! Much needed.

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Met with the Vet in person yesterday. I'm at peace with my decision to not pursue further treatment and even have a little hope. Basically, we talked about what's been done and the options going forward. Funny enough, chemo for him (because he's so small) is only like $125 a month BUT melanoma doesn't really respond to any treatments, including the vaccine (wish I had that $2K back ) and all they do is buy you more time. She agreed that staging him or even putting him through surgery to get it removed was pretty much unnecessary at this point. She did warn that the location would likely continue to grow and start to impair his eating, maybe get chewed, bleed and get infected, so when that happens we might want to remove it, or at least reduce the size. She said it could metastasize into his brain, lymph nodes or bones, but sometimes these tumors don't metastasize at all and are just annoying and in the way. So the plan is, to spoil the crap out of him. He's still pretty healthy, active, eats great, hasn't lost an ounce. If he's still healthy enough to get hid teeth cleaned at his annual appointment in February, then we will remove whatever can be removed. If he stays healthy for another year, maybe that will be our annual thing. If he goes downhill, we will assess. It actually feels good to have a semi-plan in place, and I'm glad I still have time to enjoy his company. Especially during winter when we'll cuddle on the couch every night

[Artemis00]

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Met with the Vet in person yesterday. I'm at peace with my decision to not pursue further treatment and even have a little hope. Basically, we talked about what's been done and the options going forward. Funny enough, chemo for him (because he's so small) is only like $125 a month BUT melanoma doesn't really respond to any treatments, including the vaccine (wish I had that $2K back ) and all they do is buy you more time. She agreed that staging him or even putting him through surgery to get it removed was pretty much unnecessary at this point. She did warn that the location would likely continue to grow and start to impair his eating, maybe get chewed, bleed and get infected, so when that happens we might want to remove it, or at least reduce the size. She said it could metastasize into his brain, lymph nodes or bones, but sometimes these tumors don't metastasize at all and are just annoying and in the way. So the plan is, to spoil the crap out of him. He's still pretty healthy, active, eats great, hasn't lost an ounce. If he's still healthy enough to get hid teeth cleaned at his annual appointment in February, then we will remove whatever can be removed. If he stays healthy for another year, maybe that will be our annual thing. If he goes downhill, we will assess. It actually feels good to have a semi-plan in place, and I'm glad I still have time to enjoy his company. Especially during winter when we'll cuddle on the couch every night

Sounds like some promising news...especially when you can think about stuff as potentially being in terms of years. And after all, vets don't have a clue regarding what the outcome or longevity will be in all of these situations. Nobody knows. Hell my little guy is 6 weeks past the vet's expiration date for him and still going as strong as he was before he even went to that vet.

[anandagirl]

Sounds like some promising news...especially when you can think about stuff as potentially being in terms of years. And after all, vets don't have a clue regarding what the outcome or longevity will be in all of these situations. Nobody knows. Hell my little guy is 6 weeks past the vet's expiration date for him and still going as strong as he was before he even went to that vet.

Agreed 100%. I'm not counting on years, but I have a plan and a bit of hope and a shot of realism as well. That's the other reason I thought staging him was unnecessary. Sometimes you don't need to know, and even if you did know, you don't know because nobody knows for sure!

[FallenAngel80]

Sounds like you have a good plan

When Charlie was going through all his tests it was such a stressful time. Actually, when we found out that the options had run out and "all" we could do was spoil him and let him enjoy his life, it felt so much better. I guess the trick is, savour the times you have and you'll work with whatever happens, when it happens. Because, that is all any of us can do xx

[SophieM]

Glad there's a plan in place. Everything feels better with a plan for some reason.

[LunaLifts]

Good to hear there's a plan moving forward, and that you'll have time with him without any unnecessary medical stresses. Fingers crossed he continues to do well, and you get to spoil him for a long time.

[penny0527]

That sounds like promising news for your baby

[anandagirl]

Sounds like you have a good plan

When Charlie was going through all his tests it was such a stressful time. Actually, when we found out that the options had run out and "all" we could do was spoil him and let him enjoy his life, it felt so much better. I guess the trick is, savour the times you have and you'll work with whatever happens, when it happens. Because, that is all any of us can do xx

Truth. Sometimes it takes these moments to make us remember that nothing is certain and we do what we need to do.

Glad there's a plan in place. Everything feels better with a plan for some reason.

Isn't that the truth?

Good to hear there's a plan moving forward, and that you'll have time with him without any unnecessary medical stresses. Fingers crossed he continues to do well, and you get to spoil him for a long time.

Fingers crossed for sure.

That sounds like promising news for your baby

I'm hopeful but will take it one day at a time. I feel fortunate to have so many answers and so much time, even if it's only a month. When you realize the time is limited (I think we often forget) then you take the time to enjoy it

[thehobbes]

Sounds like pretty good news for your pup all things considered. Even another year is a lonnnng time for a pet. Enjoy your little guy and go HAM on the cuddles and belly rubs this winter. <3

[gobbles23]

That's awesome news girl Echoing the others with hopes of a longer than expected life and that you get to enjoy his company for as long as possible <3

[anandagirl]

Sounds like pretty good news for your pup all things considered. Even another year is a lonnnng time for a pet. Enjoy your little guy and go HAM on the cuddles and belly rubs this winter. <3

That's awesome news girl Echoing the others with hopes of a longer than expected life and that you get to enjoy his company for as long as possible <3

Thanks ladies! I was lazy yesterday and had a Netflix binge with both dogs laying all over me