Old and little creaky, my accountability log, the journey continues

[phoenix4444]

Just a matter of too much more than anything.

High fat, rich foods are the problem for me. If I would have stuck with more carby foods it wouldn't be suffering. I am pretty sure the monstrous chili cheese dog on a hoagie was the worse offender yesterday. Just thinking that I used to feel this heartburn everyday when I was art my heaviest. Puts that reminder back in me how my life could be if I let myself go again.

[phoenix4444]

March 27th

So no real agenda today. The mission to go to work and do paperwork is not going happen. I will put that off yet again. I am going to relax my brain today instead, Do some gaming, lift, relax.

Very early morning poptarts so no breakfast. I do have to go out if I want to eat. I forgot to bring food last night. Its either that or macros will be off. Not a huge deal if I don't hit my protein numbers today. I am sure my body is still in digesting from my Thursday and Friday consumption. 50/50 whether or not I go to the store.

I haven't weighed myself since the 12th. 127.8 this morning. Now I am not bent out of shape about that number. I did not gain 5 pounds of fat in 15 days. But holy hell the bloat and sodium from my excess is real. I am fairly certain I did pick up a pound during the last four weeks though. I am ok with one step back as long as I go two steps forward.

[doievenlifttho]

I am ok with one step back as long as I go two steps forward.

I love that you wrote that
Also, happy Easter!

[phoenix4444]

I love that you wrote that
Also, happy Easter!

You have a good day as well. We are going to make it.

[phoenix4444]

calories 1657
macros 77p-197c-63f, fiber 13 grams

supps
fish oil
black cohosh
glucosamine chondroitin split dose am/pm
ashwagandha split dose am/pm
multi
5-htp before bed

meals
1-poptarts, milk at 12am
487 calories, macros 487, macros 10-p79c-14f

2-two egg sandwich on white with miracle whip
279 calories, macros17p-24c-12f

3-oats with chocolate protein, truvia, banana, greek yogurt
379 calories, macros 24p-64c-4f

4-Italian sausage sandwich on white
474 calories, macros 24p-27c-30f

4 cups coffee with milk-27 calories



Those midnight poptarts bit me in the arse hard to today. That and poverty fiber and protein. Was super lazy today too.


Took me an hour to write that little bit, watching Walking Dead, during commercials

[phoenix4444]

March 28th

Could not get comfortable last night, either too cold or av sweaty mess so I woke up several times. Didn't help that I was hungry. So a I had one of my usual breakfasts when cutting high in fiber and protein. Haven't figured the calories yet but comes in around 600.



Fiber will be important today as my body has grown accustomed to all the food over the past 11 days. So shooting for 40 grams today. High fiber wraps, beans, and oats will be my friends. Protein will be sacrificed for fiber if need be.

Short work day so there will be lifting. Squat day and starting my new cycle with increased weight. May or may not get in some cardio. I slacked off hard last week with zero. Depends on how many squat sets I do.

Weeks goals are three lifting days and 60 minutes cardio with calories falling in the 1600-1650 range every day.


Day goals
*1600-1650 calories
*40 grams of fiber

[NoCarbsNoSugar]

Good morning.
It's a new week.
It'll be a good one for all of us.

[phoenix4444]

^^^
A new week filled with new possibilities.



Hormonal as all hell today. Irritable as fuk and presently sweating through my shirt. Taking everything that I have not to rage today.
Beware the perimenopausal woman.

[NoCarbsNoSugar]

Go watch a movie
Srs.

I am taking my family to see "My Big Fat Greek Wedding II"
If you haven't seen the first one, you should.
Just a silly, fun movie to watch.

Tomorrow everyone's going back to school/work.

[shesprints]

Damnnn that wrap made me hungry, that's amazing-looking. You're right about fiber; there's a point of diminishing returns beyond which it simply causes pain, but it is really helpful. Something that they do here at this health spa where I'm staying is serve a whole bunch of salad before the main course. Loading up on a salad course can really help eating--actually eating two plates instead of 1, but the first just mostly raw vegetables, puts a serious damper on my appetite even when I'm working out a ton. I know you're often too busy for that, though. But seriously, just having even like, celery and carrot sticks or (lately) a vinegar cole slaw as a side dish are helping me out a tooon. I just wish I had your vegetable-julienning skills.

[phoenix4444]

Go watch a movie
Srs.

I am taking my family to see "My Big Fat Greek Wedding II"
If you haven't seen the first one, you should.
Just a silly, fun movie to watch.

I am going to put heavy ass weight on my back and raging all the while. Then switch over for some game play where I can blow off heads with an overpowered sniper rifle Should be a good times.

Not much of a movie girl. Unless there is sci fi or fantasy stuff.

Damnnn that wrap made me hungry, that's amazing-looking. You're right about fiber; there's a point of diminishing returns beyond which it simply causes pain, but it is really helpful. Something that they do here at this health spa where I'm staying is serve a whole bunch of salad before the main course. Loading up on a salad course can really help eating--actually eating two plates instead of 1, but the first just mostly raw vegetables, puts a serious damper on my appetite even when I'm working out a ton. I know you're often too busy for that, though. But seriously, just having even like, celery and carrot sticks or (lately) a vinegar cole slaw as a side dish are helping me out a tooon. I just wish I had your vegetable-julienning skills.

Yeah fiber wins for me every time. Protein just does not do it for me. I am pretty safe up to 50 grams as long as it is grains and legumes. Raw veggies will wreck me.

How nice is it being away from the world at a spa? I can imagine the relaxation you are feeling.

And I have twenty five plus years at veggie prep, so I do have quite an unfair advantage. And I still have all my fingers

[doievenlifttho]

Go watch a movie
I am taking my family to see "My Big Fat Greek Wedding II"

I guess I live under a rock bc I had no idea the second one was out lol, but even the first one never gets old...
"what do you mean he don't eat meat?" :O
"that's okay, I make lamb"

lmao

March 28th
Fiber will be important today as my body has grown accustomed to all the food over the past 11 days. So shooting for 40 grams today. High fiber wraps, beans, and oats will be my friends. Protein will be sacrificed for fiber if need be.

have you ever tried chia seeds? (just curious)...they're super high in fiber and if you mix them in milk or water they look like tapioca pearls tricked my bro into thinking I was drinking amazonian baby chia bugs and he believed me...

they look pretty cool...

the wrap looks delicious as usual..I don't think I would even be able to buy something that looks that good anywhere near me

[NoCarbsNoSugar]

I guess I live under a rock bc I had no idea the second one was out lol, but even the first one never gets old...
"what do you mean he don't eat meat?" :O
"that's okay, I make lamb"

It helps the heart to laugh a little.
A really goofy movie.

I think the new one came out on Friday.

[phoenix4444]

have you ever tried chia seeds? (just curious)...they're super high in fiber and if you mix them in milk or water they look like tapioca pearls tricked my bro into thinking I was drinking amazonian baby chia bugs and he believed me...

they look pretty cool...

the wrap looks delicious as usual..I don't think I would even be able to buy something that looks that good anywhere near me

I put chia seeds sometimes in my overnight oats for some thickening. Funny what you told your brother.

Wrap goodness. Love those high fiber tortilla's. At 100 calories per + 8 grams of fiber, so much win.

[NoCarbsNoSugar]

Phoenix, chillin' out while playing video games is pretty much the same thing as watching a silly movie

Whatever helps you chill out.
Enjoy!

[phoenix4444]

Phoenix, chillin' out while playing video games is pretty much the same thing as watching a silly movie

Whatever helps you chill out.
Enjoy!

True that dude. Enjoy the movie with the fam

[phoenix4444]

Lifting, legs

superset with squat warm-ups-body weight back extensions, hip rotations and leg swings

squats
15 lbs 1x10
30 lbs 1x10
47.5 lbs 1x5
65 lbs 1x5
80 lbs 1x3
95 lbs 1x3
working sets 5/5/5
105 lbs 1x5
120 lbs 1x5
135 lbs 1x5

Accessories
front squats 65 lbs 2x10
snatch grip deads 115 lbs 2x8
ab roller from knees 2x15



Strength today was good but stamina absolutely sucked. And mind willing body was not today. Fell on icy steps last week and landed on my left arm on the step above with most of my body weight. Was tight and sore for a few but thought I was fine, nope. That back arm position on my back squats was pretty uncomfortable. Did not realize how tight and wrong that whole left upper quadrant is. Anything over five reps was a no go so no AMRAP set or paused squats today. We will see how it feels next week. If still uncomfortable I swill sub them out for belt squats.

So instead of paused squats I did some high rep front squats. I have a love/hate relationship with high rep front squats in particular. So good but so hard, even with low weight. Hits those quads and core so nice. I super set these with my abs.

Finished up with some snatch grip deads. It has been a while since I have done them. Forgotten how much I love them.

[phoenix4444]

calories 1661
macros 109p-201c-54f, fiber 41 grams

50 generic calories not in macros

supps
creatine
fish oil
black cohosh
ashwagandha split dosw am/pm
glucosamine chondroitin split dose am/pm
multi
5-htp pm
ec stack+L-Tyrosine+l-phenylalanine

meals
1-two high fiber wraps with ground beef, sweet peppers, onion, scallion, spinach, salas, avocado, iceberg, greek yogurt
634 calories, macros 59p-64c-29f, fiber 22 grams

2-baked beans with hot turkey sausage
292 calories, macros 19p-48c-6f, fiber 9 grams

3-cold oats with chocolate protein, banana, cinnamon, greek yogurt, truvia, walden farms syrup, milk
480 calories, macros 26p-70c-12f, fiber 8 grams

snack-reese's egg-170 calories

3 cups coffee with milk-24 calories



A tad high for the day, the banana was a bigger than I guessed. Hit my fiber number. I was satisfied all day. Going to bed hungry, but that is better than being hungry while I am at work. It is the lifting. Even though the session was fairly low key, it still stoked up my appetite something fierce.

Lost about a pound of the excess water that I am holding. It will take a few weeks for me to come back down to normal, baring any large calorie or sodium intake.

[NoCarbsNoSugar]

good job on the calories, Phoenix!

the banana got you, huh?

I promise I'm going to do a IIFYM type of a thing, where I won't eat for like two days, just so I can fit 12 bananas in there... Not now though. I am on a cut that is going really good.

[LunaLifts]

Sorry for not checking in in awhile. Way to go on those squats, never heard anyone refer to a front squat as an accessory, lol.

[shesprints]

@nocarbs, you ever tried cutting up bananas and freezing them? Takes a lot longer to eat. Or you can make 'banana ice cream,' aka a thick smoothie.
Also, in terms of Walden Farms, I can'I deal with the aftertaste! Is there one that doesn't hae that, phoenix? I just use plain unsweetened cocoa powder for chocolate (minimal cals) when I want the flavor. But IDK, a lot of people like the syrups and whatnot.

Nice lifting there btw. I'm impressed that you can get it done at night like that and still sleep at all. If I don't have some food to look forward to directly after my workout, I am a sad puppy. But you work really long hours and somehow also get that done... wow.

[phoenix4444]

good job on the calories, Phoenix!

the banana got you, huh?

I promise I'm going to do a IIFYM type of a thing, where I won't eat for like two days, just so I can fit 12 bananas in there... Not now though. I am on a cut that is going really good.

My mind lied to me. My man is also a great lover of bananas. Though he like his mostly green and starchy, gross. I get get them when they start to turn.

Its funny that you lose all control with bananas. There are worse things to crave.

Sorry for not checking in in awhile. Way to go on those squats, never heard anyone refer to a front squat as an accessory, lol.

No worries, I am already on page four with a week and a half in, who has time for that.

I was a bit distracted and irritated by the discomfort but got them done. Might move those front squats as my main for a bit. Five reps sits with me much better the ten.

@nocarbs, you ever tried cutting up bananas and freezing them? Takes a lot longer to eat. Or you can make 'banana ice cream,' aka a thick smoothie.
Also, in terms of Walden Farms, I can'I deal with the aftertaste! Is there one that doesn't hae that, phoenix? I just use plain unsweetened cocoa powder for chocolate (minimal cals) when I want the flavor. But IDK, a lot of people like the syrups and whatnot.

Nice lifting there btw. I'm impressed that you can get it done at night like that and still sleep at all. If I don't have some food to look forward to directly after my workout, I am a sad puppy. But you work really long hours and somehow also get that done... wow.

Making ice cream out of bananas is awesome. NoCarbs you need to try that one when you are back on the banana train.

I only ever had the waldens farms pancake syrup. It doesn't really have much of an after taste to me. Its not real maple syrup but I find that it is an adequate sub. The sugar free chocolate syrup though scares me and seems so wrong.

I was a bit sad with my meager oats after lifting it wasn't enough. I front load my calories, hungry woman in the am. And I need to keep myself full or I will snack at work. But Going to bed hungry sucks.

Long work days is why I fail at hitting my three day a week lifting goal. Damn work always gets in the way. Sometimes I just don't have the energy. I need to be retired.

[phoenix4444]

March 29th

Better time sleeping last night. Woke up a bit groggy. And hello crazy ass bloat. Lord do I feel fluffy today. Its the kind of day where you don't want to wear pants.

Super hungry devoured two burgers.



Well not not much burger to them, mostly I wanted the bread and avocado. Pushing 700 calories. I will have to be cautious the rest of the day not to get out of control. feeling nicely full. Let the food settle and I should good until three or so. I will work to get my protein higher today. Not a huge biggie if I don't but my recovery will suffer a bit. I am really craving bread today so we will see.

goals]
*120 grams protein
*hydrate
*stay in control

[the15thdoctor]

My man is also a great lover of bananas. Though he like his mostly green and starchy, gross. I get get them when they start to turn.

LOL my BF is exactly the same..which is why I never eat bananas. All the ones in the house are green and hard. Guess it's an easy way to avoid overeating them :P

Glad to see you're staying on track and still eating delicious looking food!! That wrap is making me salivate.
Sucks about the hot/cold sweats. I've heard horrible things about what it feels like
Btw what's your calcium intake like? I'm guessing you're getting enough through your diet, but you might want to consider adding a supplement as you go through menopause b/c the requirement increases a bit!

[bbowsh54]

March 29th

Better time sleeping last night. Woke up a bit groggy. And hello crazy ass bloat. Lord do I feel fluffy today. Its the kind of day where you don't want to wear pants.

Super hungry devoured two burgers.



Well not not much burger to them, mostly I wanted the bread and avocado. Pushing 700 calories. I will have to be cautious the rest of the day not to get out of control. feeling nicely full. Let the food settle and I should good until three or so. I will work to get my protein higher today. Not a huge biggie if I don't but my recovery will suffer a bit. I am really craving bread today so we will see.

goals]
*120 grams protein
*hydrate
*stay in control

Those burgers look delicious.

Great notes on your cravings.

Glad you got slightly better sleep last night. That's always a battle for me. Take care! Keep up the great work!

[phoenix4444]

Sucks about the hot/cold sweats. I've heard horrible things about what it feels like
Btw what's your calcium intake like? I'm guessing you're getting enough through your diet, but you might want to consider adding a supplement as you go through menopause b/c the requirement increases a bit!

Its like pms x10. Always thought my aunts were exaggerating, boy was I wrong.

I do take extra calcium when I remember, which lately is 50% of the time.

Great notes on your cravings.

Glad you got slightly better sleep last night. That's always a battle for me. Take care! Keep up the great work!

Thanks for stopping in guy!

[phoenix4444]

calories 1789
macros 88p-203c-75f

Abridged version tonight as it is late.

Had to estimate some as calories info unavailable for a danish and beef vegetable soup. Had to give a guess so totals could have been higher or lower. I am going to go with higher. kettle chips got me tonight and had one serving. the small overage will be easy enough to make up during the week. A banana I just had will be added to tomorrow's totals.

[phoenix4444]

March 30th

Not a good morning. Super stressed, just trying to hold myself together.

[NoCarbsNoSugar]

Sorry Phoenix

[bbowsh54]

March 30th

Not a good morning. Super stressed, just trying to hold myself together.

Sorry, Phoenix!!

A few deep breathes....

Remember, YOU'RE AWESOME!!!! Sending some positive energy your way....