I get back from my cruise on March 2nd and hope that it's warmer by then. We did have a snowstorm in March last year that was bad enough to cancel the first day of orientation at my job. I'm so sick of snow.
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Today was spent mostly sleeping. A 16 hour shift is tiring. Also going back and forth to the bathroom. Definitely not empty but not much I can do about that now. Maybe an Exlax tonight, but I doubt it. I just need to focus on eating whole foods, less processed foods, and go from there. Granted, the stuffed crust pizza I bought tonight, and ate half of, probably doesn't fit in the "whole foods" category. Oops.
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02-13-2016, 06:28 PM #121Me vs. Me: Lifting with UCTD: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=170084343
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02-15-2016, 02:12 AM #122
Week 6 Wrap Up
These weeks just aren't going as planned. I slept a TON this weekend and I'm not really sure why. GI system issues seemed to get better when I cut out a lot of carbs, and then I had a ton of carbs. So, issues to be had there again. I never got very empty this weekend either, though I was 2 lbs lighter Saturday. Really need to work on not eating as many carbs. Not nearly as easy as it sounds
Week 7 Preview - It's going to be a crazy week. Work has already called asking me to do yet another double Saturday. Not happening. Goal workout wise is to just try to get them all in somehow. Tuesday I'll probably come home and just go to bed. Hopefully I can get enough rest so I can workout Wednesday after work.
Monday - Work 0700-2330
Tuesday - Work 0700-1530
Wednesday - Work 0700-1530
Thursday - Dr. appointment + Dance + workout?
Friday - Work 0700-1530 + workout?
Saturday - Work 0700-1530
Sunday - Workout? + weigh/measure+ CRUISE!!!Me vs. Me: Lifting with UCTD: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=170084343
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02-15-2016, 04:31 AM #123
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Yeah, I think I would wither up and die if I had to drop my carbs. But if it helps your GI tract, I guess you don't have much of a choice. Besides, I don't know if there is anything that you could take to help keep you regular if general fiber isn't working. Hell, I tried psyllium husks the one time and it worked, but one of those things where you don't want to be away from a bathroom 3 days later plus it wasn't pleasant.
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02-15-2016, 04:56 AM #124
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I'm not sure what it is about carbs, or if it's just processed carbs. I'll have to experiment. I know I'm "regular" in ketosis. I just need to figure out what carb level, or type of carbs, I can eat and still be regular. I'm assuming it has something to do with inflammation caused by something in carbs, or something. I don't know. Apparently common enough that my rheumatologist is on board with low carb/ketosis.
Thanks! Definitely the plan.
Definitely needed the extra sleep it seems. Need the cruise also.
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I ended up spending the night at work Monday. The ice was just too bad to try to get home an then to work this morning. To say I was exhausted all day is an understatement. Working short and the day being crazy helped keep me awake. Came home, ate, went to bed. Now need to go back to sleep for work tomorrow.
Sunday is getting closer though!Me vs. Me: Lifting with UCTD: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=170084343
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Damn, sounds like a tough night. Glad you didn't risk it with the ice, but sucks you can't be home at night.
Hope Sunday comes quickWorkout Log / Chat thread...Embrace the Dragon: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=169711903
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02-17-2016, 07:46 PM #130
Sophie, I just wanted to stop by and say I've got a crazy amount of respect for all the hard work you put in, especially given your health issues. I had some years of poor health myself before my own autoimmune diagnosis some time ago, and remember vividly how darned difficult it could be just to get through the day-to-day stuff sometimes. So yes, tons of respect for you. You're a very strong lady in more ways than one!
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02-19-2016, 04:35 AM #131
Thanks for this. Most people don't "get it" and I honestly think that they figure I'm just lazy.
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I'm just going to come out and say it, I'm a rather blunt person. My dad died this morning. No, he wasn't sick. This was very sudden. I'm still in shock. Probably won't be around much for a while.Me vs. Me: Lifting with UCTD: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=170084343
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Thanks everyone.
I made it through the first night and day thanks to my amazing coworkers. I pathetically asked on ******** if someone would go to the store with me and someone did. Then i went to her house for hours and took a walk (~2 miles). Then when I got home, another coworker stopped by for a couple hours. Tomorrow two coworkers are picking me up and taking me somewhere. Not sure where, probably to eat though. I finally had some soup today after not having anything since Thursday.
One day at a time.Me vs. Me: Lifting with UCTD: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=170084343
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Nothing you mentioned above is pathetic. Sometimes having someone there as a distraction makes things a little bit easier. And it is great that you have friends/coworkers that can be there for you at this time.
Stay strong and if you need anything...even at this distance, let me know.Workout Log / Chat thread...Embrace the Dragon: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=169711903
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I'm really sorry to hear Sophie thinking of you.
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02-24-2016, 07:52 PM #142
Talking to people/being around people makes things so much better. I hate being in the house alone. I hate the silence.
Thanks.
Food just isn't high on my list of things. I don't think I ate today. I had some cookies and Reese's, but don't think I had any food. Maybe tomorrow.
I just wonder if I'm trying to run from it by keeping busy. Oh well. Just gotta get through the days.
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Can't even imagine what it is like to go thru what you are going thru.
Don't know...maybe a radio or TV on for some background noise can help a bit, but I'm sure it isn't an adequate substitute.
And maybe you are trying to run away from it by keeping busy...but that may also be what you need right now until you are ready to deal with it. The best thing you can do right now is be kind to yourself.
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Seriously gotta eat something substantial for your own health and energy. Don't make me bring you a feast of Papa Johns pizzas, wings, and the big cookie. If you see those green peppers on the ground you know I'm near.
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I have the radio on or YouTube 24/7. I even sleep with music, but I did that when he was alive also. It's meditative so it's nice to sleep with. I can't stand the silence. It creeps me out.
I don't know what I'd do without them. The only times I've eaten has been when someone has gotten me out of the house. I do need to make sure I am at least getting in more fluids.
Yeah, but I have a tendency to hold things in and self destruct. I've allowed myself to cry but not as much as I feel like I should. I guess I'm just not an emotional person and I feel like I should be.
I can only imagine how my stomach would respond to that type of food after subsisting on basically soup for almost a week now.
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It's getting better. I still wake up feeling like I'm having a mini-panic attack, dry heaving, crying, etc. But it's not as intense as it was. I can't believe tomorrow will be a week. Damn time has flown by.
I'm down almost 10 lbs. I was 130.6 lbs this morning. I really need to make it a goal to eat tomorrow in between the things I plan on doing. I was told the death certificate should be available tomorrow, so that needs to be done. Then I can really start moving on this financial stuff. It will be nice to actually get some stuff started.
Hoping to make the drive to Ohio this weekend to be with aunt. I hate that she's so far away and I hate even more I know that one day I'll be going through the same thing with herMe vs. Me: Lifting with UCTD: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=170084343
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No, please don't feel like you *should* be more emotional, or that you *should* cry. My high school best friend died when I was 18, and my mom told me that "I should cry." She said the same thing when each of my grandparents died..."Let it out and cry." So I felt like there was something wrong with me that I didn't want to cry...maybe I wasn't sad enough, or didn't care enough, or whatever. I felt like a terrible person because maybe I didn't care that all these people died, and that just made me feel worse. But in reality, I just grieved differently than my mom. If you grieve by holding things in, and that's how you have to deal with things, then do that. I don't buy all the people who say "Holding things in is unhealthy," because sometimes it's the only way to make it through the day.
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I've had some fairly self destructive coping mechanisms in the past. I guess "holding it in" makes me worried I'll go back to unhealthy coping mechanisms. I seem to be doing okay right now. Just staying busy and crying when it happens. I do tend to make myself stop crying, but it's a work in progress.
I'm trying. It was nice to get away for a few days. Back to reality now though.
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Back from Ohio. It was a nice visit. I hope I'm able to go more regularly. Even though I felt like I was eating more, I still lost more weight. Not sure what the damage was, but I weighed the same partially dressed as I did before I left. My stomach just does NOT want food right now. I wake up super anxious, dry heaving, etc. and it takes a few hours to calm down. Even when I eat, it goes right through me. (TMI, I know).
Having lunch with my supervisor tomorrow. I swear Panera Bread is going to know me by the and of all of this!Me vs. Me: Lifting with UCTD: http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=170084343
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