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[health4life24]

Another thing you need to stay aware of, is surrounding yourself with depression.
Do you submerge yourself with depressing music, movies, thoughts, etc?
If so, that needs to stop.

Depression is hard. It's a chemical imbalance in the brain. It's a mental illness.

I advise professional help.

I actually do the complete opposite, I try to surround myself with positive things. There's this one song that I always listen to when I'm down, whether it helps it not

[apujols24]

The body that I have wanted , FRIENDS, work opportunities




But no matter what good comes about it means **** because I can't get happy and content with myself

Do you really wanna go back to giving your hard earned money to some worthless nig every day? Go back to needing something to get you out of bed in the morning ? Being dependent on something to get you through your daily activities or so you don't get sick? Needing it every day to eat or sleep? Think of all the negatives bro its not worth it. Your a few months clean and you think its hard now with cravings? I GUARANTEE you the day you slip up the cravings are gonna be a thousand times worse. Be proud of all the months you got clean man, think of the positives not the negatives. Yeah it'll make you feel happy and numb for a few hours, but then what? Your gonna end up pissed off a few hours later, and looking for money to spend to feel happy for another few hours. It's a brutal cycle thats only gonna end in 3 places man.. Death, prison or institutions. Your depression is just gonna get worse and worse, embrace the time that you have clean man. Short term satisfaction is just gonna lead to long term depression down the road.. You can't keep doing this forever brother. Make the right decision, keep your head up.

[Jalexander1994]

I actually do the complete opposite, I try to surround myself with positive things. There's this one song that I always listen to when I'm down, whether it helps it not

Lay it all out on the table man.
Can only help as much as we know.

[Jalexander1994]

Have def been considering getting back into it.
Not heroin though. Never back there.
But have had urges to smoke some bud, and maybe do some lines.


But pain killers seem the most appetizing to me right now.

Struggling a little bit boys. (A lot bit) But trying to hold on.

[ErikTheElectric]

Have def been considering getting back into it.
Not heroin though. Never back there.
But have had urges to smoke some bud, and maybe do some lines.


But pain killers seem the most appetizing to me right now.

Struggling a little bit boys. (A lot bit) But trying to hold on.

I can only say so much, we've only interacted a little bit over the forums. But I know just a bit about you and your story and it's tough to see that you're struggling. I can only say so much, I can't empathize with you because I've never been an addict... but I HAVE been near death countless times due to my disease, I've contemplated suicide knowing that my eating disorder was in full control, my health was in the gutter.. and I had nothing to live for.. other than to think about food, exercise for the entirity of my days.

What I have to say is that YOU are better than it, brother. YOU are in control of your life, every waking thought and emotion, in your life.. everything. You're young, you have an entire future ahead of you, an entire future full of fun.. wonder.. uncertainties.. Life is not going to get any better, any easier, etc. If you chose to use.

I've been to a few AA meetings, (Eating Disorders anonymous and Alcoholics Anonymous, are synonymous with alot of drug recovery programs). So I know a lot of people that are in recovery from aheads ALONG WITH chemical dependancy issues. I just want to offer up some encouragment and let you know that you've got a lot going for you, don't go back to the past..

Hold on my man, things can and WILL get better.

[Jalexander1994]

I can only say so much, we've only interacted a little bit over the forums. But I know just a bit about you and your story and it's tough to see that you're struggling. I can only say so much, I can't empathize with you because I've never been an addict... but I HAVE been near death countless times due to my disease, I've contemplated suicide knowing that my eating disorder was in full control, my health was in the gutter.. and I had nothing to live for.. other than to think about food, exercise for the entirity of my days.

What I have to say is that YOU are better than it, brother. YOU are in control of your life, every waking thought and emotion, in your life.. everything. You're young, you have an entire future ahead of you, an entire future full of fun.. wonder.. uncertainties.. Life is not going to get any better, any easier, etc. If you chose to use.

I've been to a few AA meetings, (Eating Disorders anonymous and Alcoholics Anonymous, are synonymous with alot of drug recovery programs). So I know a lot of people that are in recovery from aheads ALONG WITH chemical dependancy issues. I just want to offer up some encouragment and let you know that you've got a lot going for you, don't go back to the past..

Hold on my man, things can and WILL get better.

Thank you so much for the reply, Erik.
I'm just really not feeling good right now. Really not feelin good.

[Carvinge]

Well, didn't toke up today cause I promised myself I wasn't going to.. Now I'm feeling absolutely blank and careless. No idea what to write. Theres literally no thought process going through my brain.

[health4life24]

Well, didn't toke up today cause I promised myself I wasn't going to.. Now I'm feeling absolutely blank and careless. No idea what to write. Theres literally no thought process going through my brain.

Congrats on your decision, this is a huge step in dealing with your issues. It's normal to feel like you are right now, but the important thing is that you fight it and you stay strong. When I first stopped using, I felt kind of like you are right now, blank. But IT WILL get better, Try focusing on something positive, something that keeps your mind active and away from the thoughts of using. Stay strong bro, we are all here for you.

[Jalexander1994]

Well, didn't toke up today cause I promised myself I wasn't going to.. Now I'm feeling absolutely blank and careless. No idea what to write. Theres literally no thought process going through my brain.

Think of it as your brain restarting. It's okay bro.

[health4life24]

The temptations are there, and I feel they are getting stronger...

[Jalexander1994]

The temptations are there, and I feel they are getting stronger...

Same, we just need to keep fighting.
Because at this point I'm not doing it for myself, I'm doing it for others.

It always gets bad when my depression gets bad.

[ErikTheElectric]

Thank you so much for the reply, Erik.
I'm just really not feeling good right now. Really not feelin good.

Hope you're doing okay my man.

[health4life24]

Same, we just need to keep fighting.
Because at this point I'm not doing it for myself, I'm doing it for others.

It always gets bad when my depression gets bad.

Yeah that can happen. Are you talking to anyone about what you are going through, besides us?

[Jalexander1994]

Yeah that can happen. Are you talking to anyone about what you are going through, besides us?

I finished up therapy. And worked for a bit. But I'm depressed again.

[health4life24]

I finished up therapy. And worked for a bit. But I'm depressed again.

want to talk about it?

[Jalexander1994]

want to talk about it?

Just a lot going on really.
School, problems with the mrs, kinda overall hating myself and choices I made, addiction, disappointing all people I know (like literally lol). Just a lot really.

[health4life24]

Just a lot going on really.
School, problems with the mrs, kinda overall hating myself and choices I made, addiction, disappointing all people I know (like literally lol). Just a lot really.

You can't hate yourself for choices that you have made in the past, because you can't change it. What you can do is learn from your mistakes and makes better decisions in the here and now, and in the future.

[health4life24]

honestly I am real;y tired of these cycles, and I just want things to end. I gave in today. To add more to my stress, I am afraid and confused about what to eat for dinner and I am hungry. I feel like I cannot eat something that I will enjoy because I am stressed and thus should not look to enjoy food. Everyone acts like I am this wonderful person, yet in reality I am nothing more than this ****ed up piece of ****.

[Jalexander1994]

honestly I am real;y tired of these cycles, and I just want things to end. I gave in today. To add more to my stress, I am afraid and confused about what to eat for dinner and I am hungry. I feel like I cannot eat something that I will enjoy because I am stressed and thus should not look to enjoy food. Everyone acts like I am this wonderful person, yet in reality I am nothing more than this ****ed up piece of ****.

Oh my gosh dude.
You do the same thing?
Punish yourself? I do that all the time.. Except with other things..

You seem like a great guy. Got a cell phone? PM me your number if you do.

[health4life24]

Oh my gosh dude.
You do the same thing?
Punish yourself? I do that all the time.. Except with other things..

You seem like a great guy. Got a cell phone? PM me your number if you do.

I have been dealing with an ED for a while. I was doing real well with recovery, and I am not really restricting anymore so much like I used to, but when I get stressed ED thoughts kind of surface

[Carvinge]

Figured I'd post here. Caved in and smoked again today. =/

[health4life24]

Figured I'd post here. Caved in and smoked again today. =/

Don't let a relapse set you back. Identify what happened, and move forward.

[Acataleptic]

Sometimes I wonder if I am using the gym as a replacement. It is certainly better than relapsing but I don't want it to get out of hand either. I am getting very focused on my foods and workout and not wanting to take breaks. I don't want to end up with an ED just to keep myself distracted. I also look at photos from the party days and hate how much weight I have put on since stopping. It just reminds me of how easy it would to go back and lose that weight a quicker way.

[health4life24]

@Acateleptic

You have to remind yourself that when you are not using you are healthy, you are free, and you get to enjoy all aspects of life. When you are under the influence of a substance your thoughts and how you perceive things are altered. As far as the eating disorder part goes, I suggest you talk to a professional counselor about your feelings. He or she can help you sort things out, because becoming "obsessed" to the point that it control every aspect of your life is not healthy. There is nothing wrong with being focus on it, but you do not want to just be focused on healthy, fitness, and food because there are other important things in life like friends and family. I myself have had an eating disorder, and if you ever want to chat feel free to PM you. There is also and eating disorder support thread in the nutrition section, in case you are interested.

[Carvinge]

Going to a therapist today just to talk to somebody. None of my friends really understand that weed is my get-a-way drug from escaping the bad in my life.. Will update later. =/

[OneMA2011]

Sometimes I wonder if I am using the gym as a replacement. It is certainly better than relapsing but I don't want it to get out of hand either. I am getting very focused on my foods and workout and not wanting to take breaks. I don't want to end up with an ED just to keep myself distracted. I also look at photos from the party days and hate how much weight I have put on since stopping. It just reminds me of how easy it would to go back and lose that weight a quicker way.

Obviously you don't want to let anything get out of hand, but lifting is a far better crutch than most things

[health4life24]

Going to a therapist today just to talk to somebody. None of my friends really understand that weed is my get-a-way drug from escaping the bad in my life.. Will update later. =/

Talking can be very good for some people. One of the reasons I created this thread in the first place was to be able to create a safe, judge-free zone where people can come and jut vent. The past few days I have been struggling and have been talking to a friend about it, and even if it doesn't make it better I still feel good knowing that I have someone that cares.

My computer is acting funky and not letting me add to your reputation, but once it sorts itself out take some reps. I am proud of you for deciding to go get professional help, and it is important that you be honest with your therapist so that he or she really understands what you are going through.

[health4life24]

I'm falling apart at the seams. My focus is trying to get high now and not health or fitness or college. I have no desire to eat and I honestly don't care about anything.

[pmergs]

did some great service over the last couple days brahs
finally got one of my childhood friends that i grew up with, developed a drug habit with, and progressed with into treatment
so grateful right now to still be alive and that hes still alive after shooting a bundle a day for the last year
me and my dad made some calls to rehabs ive been to in the past and got him a $53k scholarship to spend 3 months at one of the best rehabs in the country
wow honestly helping others is such a good feeling
pray for him pls srs

[health4life24]

did some great service over the last couple days brahs
finally got one of my childhood friends that i grew up with, developed a drug habit with, and progressed with into treatment
so grateful right now to still be alive and that hes still alive after shooting a bundle a day for the last year
me and my dad made some calls to rehabs ive been to in the past and got him a $53k scholarship to spend 3 months at one of the best rehabs in the country
wow honestly helping others is such a good feeling
pray for him pls srs

I'm very proud of you! Srs