The weights never lie. My natural high. Do this sh*t till I f*cking die.

[mtnmama]

Then I did 50 reps of the bar on bench to get bloodflow for recovery on hand. Wrist finally feeling a lil better.

now that is GOOD news 👍👍👍👍👍👍

[charlievanriper]

Tested my vertical yesterday with one of my clients. Keep in mind I haven't been in the gym much at all for the past 6ish weeks, haven't been able to squat much for a year. Knee got a lil sore should have prepped more. Anyways my vert came to 24" @ 6ft 200 pounds....feels chitty cuz I thought it would be at least 30". Back when my squat was 500ish and I was split squatting 225 for reps + no left knee injury it would have been much higher I bet.

Used a basketball hoop backboard and tape (ghetto way to measure). Now its time to make one or buy a real vert tester. Cuz I'm pretty sure I'll automatically get an inch or two higher when I don't feel like any obstructions are in my way. Felt like the backboard of the basketball hoop was in my way preventing me from putting the tape higher. I tried dunking on regulation height and that was no problem at least.

Then I did 50 reps of the bar on bench to get bloodflow for recovery on hand. Wrist finally feeling a lil better.

still not bad at this point my friend, Good news being able to do something

[dopamine72]

^ Thanks you two

Tough day today, but that's life

[dopamine72]

So yeah....I tore my eso****us...

Woke up @ maybe around 3am on Nov 20th and puked up what seemed to be about a gallon of blood, I drove myself to ER and after bloodwork/xray they saw the tear and said I was on the line of needing a blood transfusion. I got emergency surgery and spent a week in the hospital not allowed to drink or eat anything the first few days, then I was allowed water, then after a week I got to eat solids.

I'm down to 185 pounds, I look skinny this is crazy. I got allot to say but I'll just leave it like this for now. I'm fuking grateful to be alive, this whole ordeal gave me yet again a new perspective on life. Stay safe everyone, much love.

[charlievanriper]

So yeah....I tore my eso****us...

Woke up @ maybe around 3am on Nov 20th and puked up what seemed to be about a gallon of blood, I drove myself to ER and after bloodwork/xray they saw the tear and said I was on the line of needing a blood transfusion. I got emergency surgery and spent a week in the hospital not allowed to drink or eat anything the first few days, then I was allowed water, then after a week I got to eat solids.

I'm down to 185 pounds, I look skinny this is crazy. I got allot to say but I'll just leave it like this for now. I'm fuking grateful to be alive, this whole ordeal gave me yet again a new perspective on life. Stay safe everyone, much love.

oh no, praying for you my friend

[dopamine72]

^ Thanks brother

I got down to 179 body weight at my lowest...Now I'm back up to 186 fasted in the morning.

I've been lifting / exercising the past week plus slowly getting back into the groove. Still have a long road ahead of me to get back to where I want to be, but I am GRATEFUL I am alive and have my health. I'll be honest I've never been more terrified in my life...Not knowing if you're internally bleeding is a mindfuk. I've thought I was going to die before but not like this. Every night for the past 3 weeks I go to sleep thinking I may not wake up in the morning... ded srs.

This whole new year I will be taking care of my health in all aspects. I won't even take advil anymore because that causes stomach acid. My life has now permanently changed.

To anyone else reading out there, be smart about your health and stay safe. There was a point where I thought I may have to stop the heavy lifting in order to live...And I would if I had to...I'd much rather be alive and experience life than lift heavy and die lol...So yeah looks like I've changed a bit. When I went back to the ER I specifically said do not give me any opioids...And I never said that before. This whole ordeal has put things in a better perspective for me. I want to be myself, be sober, enjoy life/family etc. and get as healthy as I can get. I'd also like to find a good wife and have kids at some point (just lol @ marriage in 2021...But I'm srs now). Yep, my goals and life have completely changed...wut the fuk...Crazyyyy

[charlievanriper]

^ Thanks brother

I got down to 179 body weight at my lowest...Now I'm back up to 186 fasted in the morning.

I've been lifting / exercising the past week plus slowly getting back into the groove. Still have a long road ahead of me to get back to where I want to be, but I am GRATEFUL I am alive and have my health. I'll be honest I've never been more terrified in my life...Not knowing if you're internally bleeding is a mindfuk. I've thought I was going to die before but not like this. Every night for the past 3 weeks I go to sleep thinking I may not wake up in the morning... ded srs.

This whole new year I will be taking care of my health in all aspects. I won't even take advil anymore because that causes stomach acid. My life has now permanently changed.

To anyone else reading out there, be smart about your health and stay safe. There was a point where I thought I may have to stop the heavy lifting in order to live...And I would if I had to...I'd much rather be alive and experience life than lift heavy and die lol...So yeah looks like I've changed a bit. When I went back to the ER I specifically said do not give me any opioids...And I never said that before. This whole ordeal has put things in a better perspective for me. I want to be myself, be sober, enjoy life/family etc. and get as healthy as I can get. I'd also like to find a good wife and have kids at some point (just lol @ marriage in 2021...But I'm srs now). Yep, my goals and life have completely changed...wut the fuk...Crazyyyy

That type of positive outlook is half the battle, just remember you have many friends behind you

[dopamine72]

That type of positive outlook is half the battle, just remember you have many friends behind you

Thank you brother, I'm finally back to about 90% of where I was almost 3 months ago before all this sh*t happened.

Been lifting consistently for about 4 weeks now and gains are coming back strong. Also been completely sober the past 28 days. Things are looking good again and I'm grateful.

[EthanHun]

Thank you brother, I'm finally back to about 90% of where I was almost 3 months ago before all this sh*t happened.

Been lifting consistently for about 4 weeks now and gains are coming back strong. Also been completely sober the past 28 days. Things are looking good again and I'm grateful.

Glad you survive the accident mate. You be back full strength before you know it!

[charlievanriper]

Thank you brother, I'm finally back to about 90% of where I was almost 3 months ago before all this sh*t happened.

Been lifting consistently for about 4 weeks now and gains are coming back strong. Also been completely sober the past 28 days. Things are looking good again and I'm grateful.

Awesome news, Hoping you had a great Christmas brother, Wishing you a vary awesome New years.. Some good news my hip pain is getting better now and soon I'll be back slammin and bangin again, Just no more heavy deadlifts anymore brother

[dopamine72]

Awesome news, Hoping you had a great Christmas brother, Wishing you a vary awesome New years.. Some good news my hip pain is getting better now and soon I'll be back slammin and bangin again, Just no more heavy deadlifts anymore brother

Thanks brother and glad to hear! Let the slammin and bangin begin! lol

You going to physical therapy?

I got it scheduled next year for my hand, shoulder, back and knee. My doctor spent an hour with me last time I went given the circumstances and we came up with a game plan. I'm already feeling much better anyways. Even though I didn't lift for over two months and lost 20+ pounds my lifts are still:

Squat - 315+
Bench - 300 +
Deadlift - 405x2 with more in the tank

So as long as no pain and I'm healthy I plan to build those up again all while keeping my mile time under 9:30 (hopefully much better soon) @ 205 body weight

[charlievanriper]

Thanks brother and glad to hear! Let the slammin and bangin begin! lol

You going to physical therapy?

I got it scheduled next year for my hand, shoulder, back and knee. My doctor spent an hour with me last time I went given the circumstances and we came up with a game plan. I'm already feeling much better anyways. Even though I didn't lift for over two months and lost 20+ pounds my lifts are still:

Squat - 315+
Bench - 300 +
Deadlift - 405x2 with more in the tank

So as long as no pain and I'm healthy I plan to build those up again all while keeping my mile time under 9:30 (hopefully much better soon) @ 205 body weight

No I don't feel its needed at this point everything seems to be healing although somewhat slowly, guess understandably considering my age lol. Anyway Awesome to here your heading back just please be careful on deadlifts brother those are dangerous giving the low overall benefit you get from going heavy. I used to feel going max was beneficial but thats really only in strength gains, I guess thats okay in your youth but think about the long term. Anyway glad to here you have a plan.

[dopamine72]

1-11-22

Body weight: 208

- 45 minutes stretching / foam rolling / mobility / stationary bike

Back Squats
Bar x 30
95x15
135x10
185x10
215x5
225x5
225x7
225x8
235x8 for 3 sets

Band Assisted Nordic Curls (40 pound band)
BW x 5
BW x 5
BW x 5
BW x 5
BW x 5

Split Squats w/ Kettle Bells
BW + 80 pounds x 10
BW + 80 pounds x 10
BW + 80 pounds x 15
BW + 80 pounds x 15

Jump Rope
500 rounds

- Feeling better, healthier, squats felt easy peezy just gotta take it slow on the weight and be safe. Split Squats feel so much safer than barbell back squats too, just overall much easier w/ form and almost a 2nd nature movement. My hammies are lit! The nordic curls definitely help with the knee and I'm excited to see my vert get higher again.

[dopamine72]

No I don't feel its needed at this point everything seems to be healing although somewhat slowly, guess understandably considering my age lol. Anyway Awesome to here your heading back just please be careful on deadlifts brother those are dangerous giving the low overall benefit you get from going heavy. I used to feel going max was beneficial but thats really only in strength gains, I guess thats okay in your youth but think about the long term. Anyway glad to here you have a plan.

Appreciate the advice brother yes I'm slowly easing into the heavy weights to be safe. I have an issue not doing deadlifts because they're so much fun lol. I also enjoy heavy squats/deadlifts because of the neurotransmitter response I get after doing them so I'm trying to figure out a way to still be able to do squats without injury and so far its been lighter weight, not even close to failure and split squats cuz they simply don't hurt me at all. I think those combined with heavy rows will keep my deadlift strength up without even doing them, although I'll still do them just not as much or as heavy (most likely).

[dopamine72]

1-14-22

Body Weight: 205

- Warmups/Shoulder Dislocations 50 reps w/ band

Bench
Bar x 30
95 x 15
135x10
185x10
215x5
225x5
225x6
225x6
225x6

Pullups
BW x 10-12 for 5 sets

Curls
5 sets 10-20 reps

Tricep Ext
3 sets 10-20 reps

Strict Overhead press
Bar x 15
95 x 10
135x5
135x7
155x5

- Probably forgot to list some chit, good workout, great pump

[dopamine72]

1-20-22

Body weight: 205

- 45 min stationary bike

Super Set of everything below:

Bench
Bar x 25
95x15
135x10
185x10
215x7
225x7
245x5

Nordic Curls w/ Band Assist
BW x 10,10, 10, 5, 5, 5

Pullups
BW x 10, 10, 10, 10, 10, 10

Split Squats
BW x 10, 10
BW + 75 x 10, 10, 10, 10

^ All of that superseted, it was an endurance challenge for sure with no rest

Finished off with 4 sets of single leg calve raises

Going to get back down to 195 now cuz blood pressure too high, working more on cardio and low sodium diet too

[dopamine72]

1-21-22

Body Weight: 201

- 1 mile fast walk treadmill, 1 mile full incline treadmill (3.5mph)
- Stationary bike: 30 min

Tricep Cable Ext
45 x 20
60 x 15
60 x 15

DB Curls
25's x 30

EZ Bar Curls
85x12

Barbell Curls
95x12

Slant Board Full Stretch Hold
BW for 2 min
BW for 2 min

Back Ext
BW x 30
BW x 20
Sideway Ext - BW x 10, 15

- Feels so good, less back pain and all the key support areas are pumped/holding things together

Dead Hang Holds
BW for 1 min
BW for 1 min

Trap Bar Farmers Walks
155 for two laps
235 for one lap

-Laps done on pathway around grass in backyard (50ish yards per lap)

Hurdle Hops
Lost count after 35ish reps and went more so definitely 50+ Hops

Looks like this:



- Left knee held up...Amazing

[dopamine72]

1-27-22

Body Weight: 204

Super Set/Circuit training below

Split Sqauts
Bw x 10
BW + 50 x 10
BW + 75 x 10
BW + 105 x 10
BW + 135 x 7

Pullups
BW x 10 for 5 sets

Assisted Nordic Curls
BW x 10 for 5 sets

- 45 min Stationary bike

Physical therapy yesterday found I have lateral pelvic tilt, pretty much what I suspected from putting all weight on left side for years after right knee injury. Doing a FUKTON of corrective exercises and just like I thought...my right QL muscle is TIGHT AF, so time to do work.

[dopamine72]

Thought this was a good / informative video too:

[dopamine72]

1-28-22

Body Weight: 205

Stretching/warmups/mobility work/treadmill half mile

Bench
Bar x 30
95x15
135x10
185x6
215x5
225x5 for 6 sets

DB Rows
65x10
115x7
95x10 for 3 sets

Tricep Cable Ext One Arm
25x20
25x15
25x12
25x10

EZ Bar Curls
85x12 for 2 sets

Trap Bar Farmers Walks
145 for 4 laps non stop PR

- Each lap about 50 yards so long way

Hurdle Hops
20 Hops

- Did some other random chit like curls and dips, then played basketball for a half hour and found out I can dunk, it doesn't look pretty but I can dunk! LOL

[Jrahe42]

Glad you’re ok bro and working legs while strengthening your knees. You ever **** with the weighted sled or have access to one? Don’t rush the good wife part, you’re way too motivated to settle and if you did you’d be disappointed lol

[dopamine72]

Glad you’re ok bro and working legs while strengthening your knees. You ever **** with the weighted sled or have access to one? Don’t rush the good wife part, you’re way too motivated to settle and if you did you’d be disappointed lol

Yooooo!!!!!!!!!

Glad to see ya brother and thanks! How ya been? Hope you've been well!

A sled is on the list along with much more to add to the home gym. As far as sled work is concerned I have a tire I'm using for light sled drags and or I'll walk backward on my treadmill turned off which mimics a sled pull, very VERY good for knee rehab indeed. Also good for knee warmup before squats, etc.

Oh hell no I will never rush anything with females again, already made that mistake a few times lol. We really do seem to be living in clown world now, every single girl I've hung out with past couple years is either: unemployed, broke, has a kid, no drivers license, no car, no ambition/hobbies/goals, thinks her p*ssy is all she needs to provide/be equal, whiny, entitled, annoying, negative, a social media wh0re, etc etc etc. Its usually a mix of that list.

Its disgusting and I blame it on education/society/parenting/social media etc. And its not just females, its males too. I stay away from all people like that because the laziness and lack of accountability is contagious. That movie idiocracy was spot on.

I know there are still high value females out there so I'll keep my options open hopefully / eventually finding one but I'm not holding my breath lol.

[dopamine72]

Worked out for 4+ hours today prob about 3 hours of lifting/calisthenics and 1 hour cardio

Body weight: 208

Because I'm strength training again my weight is going up way too easy...I'm supposed to be losing weight here. Very very hungry.

- Two miles on treadmill fast walk (3mph) incline 1 mile holding light dumbbells / Jogging second mile
- Shoulder mobility exercises
- Hip mobility / stretching everywhere
- Strict overhead press 7 sets up to 155 for 7
- 6 Sets of Pullups 10-12 reps
- 5 Sets of Tri cable ext
- 5 Sets of Curl Variations
- 3 Sets of Facepulls
- 4 Sets DB Lateral Raises
- 3 Sets Light Fascia Stretch Flat bench DB Flies combined with pressing 30-40 reps slow controlled (huge chest pump/stretch)
- 15 minutes stationary bike
- 50 Yards of BW Lunges
- 50 Yards of Side Kicks (opens up hips)
- 20 Walking Hurdles (hips)
- ATG Split Squats, BW x 10 3 sets
- Knee on Bench Split squats BWx10ish 3 sets
- Barbell Split squats 7 Sets with 135 for 5-10 reps (huge pump in legs)
- Assisted Nordic curls / Half ROM unassisted 5 sets
- Hurdle Hops (40ish total) Fast from 24" all the way up to 33" Keeping feet together
- 15 minutes stationary bike
- Exercise ball core work
- Ab Wheel, last set standing

Can't remember what else prob forgot some stuff, had to train a client towards the end so just kept going. The Nordic curls have made the hurdle hops much easier its clear as day now after doing enough of them. I will have to test my vert again now I suspect its much higher.

[EthanHun]

Wow great workout! 4 hours is nuts- How do you do brother. Your volume is insane keep it up!

[dopamine72]

Wow great workout! 4 hours is nuts- How do you do brother. Your volume is insane keep it up!

Sup brah, thank you!

I didn't workout for a few consecutive days so my workload can be abused when that happens. Somewhat sore today mainly glutes, delts.

Forgot I hit a top set of 165x3 on Strict overhead press also took a 45 pound plate above my head for 25 overhead extensions and 30 presses in a row (random ADD chit).

[EthanHun]

Sup brah, thank you!

I didn't workout for a few consecutive days so my workload can be abused when that happens. Somewhat sore today mainly glutes, delts.

Forgot I hit a top set of 165x3 on Strict overhead press also took a 45 pound plate above my head for 25 overhead extensions and 30 presses in a row (random ADD chit).

Wow that is incredible! Great work homie- keep it up

[dopamine72]

2-3-22

Body Weight: 208

Dynamic Stretching, Warmups, half mile on treadmill 3mph

Everything Below supersetted into circuit training:

-Dumbbell Rows - 65's x 10 / 85's x 10 for 3 sets
-Single Leg Calve Raises - BW x 10 / BW + 35 x 10 for 3 sets
-Barbell Rows - 135x15 / 185x10 / 225x6 for 4 sets
-Assisted Nordic Curls - 5 sets of 10

*Done with the circuit*

- A few sets of curls
- Few sets DB lateral raises
- Ab Wheel from knees for 50 reps strait
- Back extensions - BWx10 2 sets / BW + 35 x 10 / BW + 25 x 10 for 3 sets (Weight was behind head and absolutely BRUTAL)

50 minutes Stationary Bike

- Prob did more can't remember, gotta get my barbell row weight much stronger fasho

Wow that is incredible! Great work homie- keep it up

Much appreciated brother!

[ardee2124]

Good to see you're trucking along bro. Can't believe this log has been maintained for 10+ years lol. Still remember you giving me advice in my early stages of lifting 6-7 years ago. I'm not sure how old you are now but I think I'm actually older now than you were when I started following this log which is just insane to me haha.

I don't really use this website anymore (still lift, that's never gonna stop, and mainly just post updates on IG if that) but I pop by here and there and when I log in yours is always one of the few threads I check from my subs because you always had a great vibe and were motivational af.

I changed my lifting style too after covid. I kind of realized I wasn't genetically blessed to hit crazy maxes... 365 squat and 405 deadlift was good enough for me. Pushing further would've continued giving me random injuries and I wasn't really interested in that further. Focusing mainly on hypertrophy, like you, still squatting but now doing DBs for chest and RDLs instead of deadlifts and nothing lower than 5 reps on anything. Plus a lot of bodybuilding work that I never really put the right amount of effort into when I was obsessed with numbers.

We're still young bro, let's be jacked and healthy (physically and mentally!) for as long as we can!

Again, glad to see you're doing well. The world is really crazy as hell, can't believe how much has changed since I first started following your log, but the iron remains our constant!

[dopamine72]

2-4-22

Body weight: 209

Warmups, Rotator cuff work, shoulder mobility work

Bench
Bar x 30
95x15
135x10
185x7
215x5
225x5
235x6

- Pretty easy keeping volume/intensity lower I think my bench is about to explode, felt like a rock today very pumped

CGBP
185x10

Single Arm Tricep Cable Ext
25 x 15
25 x 12
25 x 10

More Curls
35's x 15 for 3 sets

- Some stretching and cardio, whole body sore now time to rest/eat/enjoy weekend. Have a great weekend everyone.

Good to see you're trucking along bro. Can't believe this log has been maintained for 10+ years lol. Still remember you giving me advice in my early stages of lifting 6-7 years ago. I'm not sure how old you are now but I think I'm actually older now than you were when I started following this log which is just insane to me haha.
I don't really use this website anymore (still lift, that's never gonna stop, and mainly just post updates on IG if that) but I pop by here and there and when I log in yours is always one of the few threads I check from my subs because you always had a great vibe and were motivational af.
I changed my lifting style too after covid. I kind of realized I wasn't genetically blessed to hit crazy maxes... 365 squat and 405 deadlift was good enough for me. Pushing further would've continued giving me random injuries and I wasn't really interested in that further. Focusing mainly on hypertrophy, like you, still squatting but now doing DBs for chest and RDLs instead of deadlifts and nothing lower than 5 reps on anything. Plus a lot of bodybuilding work that I never really put the right amount of effort into when I was obsessed with numbers.
We're still young bro, let's be jacked and healthy (physically and mentally!) for as long as we can!
Again, glad to see you're doing well. The world is really crazy as hell, can't believe how much has changed since I first started following your log, but the iron remains our constant!

LOL!!!! I'm 33 now and yeah its been a while! Glad to see a post from you in here brother, I hope you've been well it sure seems like you have. Great job on the 365 squat and 405 deadlift!

Totally agree with never stopping and that's part of the reason this journal has gone on for so long. Lets keep going and stay in shape/be strong/healthy. Allot of my peers etc are already having health issues so its a definite wake up call.

Yes, the weights never lie! Thanks you very much my friend! Pm me or hit up my journal whenever, I'll be here.

[dopamine72]

45 min trial ride yesterday, finally got back on the horse (my regular mountain bike, e-bike will have to be repaired from crash).

Was awesome, best day I've had since my injuries. Wearing a full face helmet now and wasn't even phased at all...probably hit a lil over 40mph downhill. Was a blast!