can't suicide but dont wanna live thread that somehow isn't beta

[genitalia]

I'm not going to suicide ever because my folks are well-intentioned people and that's a sh** thing to do.

But I don't want to live. I'm smarter than you most likely (hows that for making myself likable/sympathetic brah?), I have money, etc. etc.

I've done meds. I've read roughly everything one can read on mental health; psuedo intellectual guru sh**, psychiatry texts, went balls deep in regular ole' philosophy, etc.

I've come to the conclusion that life just isn't for everyone. I want out but I can't and will never do that. It's not an option.

So I have to keep going, soldiering on to spare my family.

I wish I was dumb enough to believe that my life mattered; that I could soldier on for an actual cause that was real. But nothing is real. Everyone is full of sh**.

And with that, I go to bed. Desperately wanting to die. The thought of my splattered brain literally making my dick rise (it's creepy). Knowing I can't do that. Another day of small talk with strangers, letting the dog out to piss, money stuff, and blah.

/life

Please feel free to use this thread as your own soapbox of similar self-pity, apathy, and general misery. Or troll if you prefer.

[Steele304vs]

fist yourself *******

[genitalia]

fist yourself *******

I don't even like a finger up there. Don't be groce.

[TheQod]

Vitamin D3.




Seriously, i was in the same boat as you and i started supplementing vit d3 and now i love life, except for all the sht that is going on

[LargeCase]

Go outside and enjoy life.

[GermanLifter]

keep hustlin cuz

[genitalia]

Vitamin D3.




Seriously, i was in the same boat as you and i started supplementing vit d3 and now i love life, except for all the sht that is going on

Calling bullsh** but will try and rep anyway. heh.

[Enharmonics]

I'm not going to suicide ever because my folks are well-intentioned people and that's a sh** thing to do.

But I don't want to live. I'm smarter than you most likely (hows that for making myself likable/sympathetic brah?), I have money, etc. etc.

I've done meds. I've read roughly everything one can read on mental health; psuedo intellectual guru sh**, psychiatry texts, went balls deep in regular ole' philosophy, etc.

I've come to the conclusion that life just isn't for everyone. I want out but I can't and will never do that. It's not an option.

So I have to keep going, soldiering on to spare my family.

I wish I was dumb enough to believe that my life mattered; that I could soldier on for an actual cause that was real. But nothing is real. Everyone is full of sh**.

And with that, I go to bed. Desperately wanting to die. The thought of my splattered brain literally making my dick rise (it's creepy). Knowing I can't do that. Another day of small talk with strangers, letting the dog out to piss, money stuff, and blah.

/life

Cliffs:






lol @ how OP is "most likely smarter" than us, but somehow can't spell "pseudo" properly.


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[godownfighting]

overdose on H op good way to go out

[MaximumCapacity]

watch fight club and then burn your house

[genitalia]

Go outside and enjoy life.

I've tried to turn myself into a sociopath living exclusively for carnal pleasures and materialism (dead serious). I know people for whom this works. But it doesn't work for me. I have a heart and a soul, no homo, and that *******ry is a burden.

Plus even if you have all the money in the world people still get the sh**s and vomit and so on.

Sayed Qutb (Google it peasants) was actually right in his critique of the material western world (no terrorist sympathy).

[TheAction]

You sound like a little girl, Enjoy your shiet life.



Take crack it will help in making you dumb srs.

[orangetide]

want to die? do some extreme stuff brah. bungie jumping. motocross. white water rafting. rock climb.

live on the edge mate. so much to experience out there.

[lestro]

sounds like you need some passion in your life

[genitalia]

Cliffs:



lol @ how OP is "most likely smarter" than us, but somehow can't spell "pseudo" properly.


coolstorybrah.jpg

It was a typo.

you are ugly.

you are dumb.

you are a peasant, a lower class nothing.

you live in a swamp of sh** and bugs and illiteracy.

a down syndrome version of me could ejaculate thoughts superior to your deepest moments.


die in a fire ugly scum.

[siyanur]

how old are you, may i ask ?

[Bizacko]

everyone gets like this OP
feeling it right about now as well

good days and bad days
just try have fun and smile everyday
the meaning to life is to enjoy it even the bad stuff.

[AgentLemon]

I'm not going to suicide ever because my folks are well-intentioned people and that's a sh** thing to do.

But I don't want to live. I'm smarter than you most likely (hows that for making myself likable/sympathetic brah?), I have money, etc. etc.

I've done meds. I've read roughly everything one can read on mental health; psuedo intellectual guru sh**, psychiatry texts, went balls deep in regular ole' philosophy, etc.

I've come to the conclusion that life just isn't for everyone. I want out but I can't and will never do that. It's not an option.

So I have to keep going, soldiering on to spare my family.

I wish I was dumb enough to believe that my life mattered; that I could soldier on for an actual cause that was real. But nothing is real. Everyone is full of sh**.

And with that, I go to bed. Desperately wanting to die. The thought of my splattered brain literally making my dick rise (it's creepy). Knowing I can't do that. Another day of small talk with strangers, letting the dog out to piss, money stuff, and blah.

/life

Get off the psychoactive drugs moron. The drug industry is not your friend. Your are probably on heavy psychoactive drugs. Once your off go get your micro nutrient levels checked since you already have soooo much money. Find a cause to care about and work on it.
http://www.spectracell.com/

[genitalia]

You sound like a little girl, Enjoy your shiet life.



Take crack it will help in making you dumb srs.

You have open season to verbally assault a person who comes out admitting his deepest flaws, and this is what you bring?

Jesus christ. You were a big fan of Rick Perry weren't you? I hope your father molests your future children and you live w/ the shame.

want to die? do some extreme stuff brah. bungie jumping. motocross. white water rafting. rock climb.

live on the edge mate. so much to experience out there.

I don't want to experience physical pain, I just want to be dead instantly. I never really enjoyed the rush of thrill seeking, I don't know why.

I think your advice may be worthwhile but more so in the narcotic realm.

[da2ricky]

Find yourself an asian hooker with epilepsy.

[-DJ-]

Sure sounds like you've tried a lot of ****.

Get 8 hours of sleep a day, eat 3 regular meals, find a hobby that actually requires you putting in effort, and get a girlfriend or get laid.

[Lastman13]

Lift.

It will give you direction and goals.

[Enharmonics]

It was a typo.

you are ugly.

you are dumb.

you are a peasant, a lower class nothing.

you live in a swamp of sh** and bugs and illiteracy.

a down syndrome version of me could ejaculate thoughts superior to your deepest moments.


die in a fire ugly scum.

[SecondsOut]

if you have time to dish out mess like that, you have time to go out and help people less fortunate than you, you selfish prick.

[TheQod]

I've tried to turn myself into a sociopath living exclusively for carnal pleasures and materialism (dead serious). I know people for whom this works. But it doesn't work for me. I have a heart and a soul, no homo, and that *******ry is a burden.

Plus even if you have all the money in the world people still get the sh**s and vomit and so on.

Sayed Qutb (Google it peasants) was actually right in his critique of the material western world (no terrorist sympathy).

Again im in the exact same boat OP. Same feels etc. I took vit d3 for about 3 months before i started feeling it bring me up. Now im happy and recognize all the bad in the world and just dissasociate from it and keep my mental self to myself. Basically being an actor 24/7 including friends loved ones etc.

[sixstarchlo]

you need some
vitamin D, Iodine, Vitamin C, and Potassium

[genitalia]

Get off the psychoactive drugs moron. The drug industry is not your friend. Your are probably on heavy psychoactive drugs. Once your off go get your micro nutrient levels checked since you already have soooo much money. Find a cause to care about and work on it.
http://www.spectracell.com/

i have been off meds for years. I actually found them relatively useful in terms of numbing everything.

[genitalia]

I was just kidding. I love you.

if you have time to dish out mess like that, you have time to go out and help people less fortunate than you, you selfish prick.

Everyone is selfish. Are you deadlifting in your avatar in order to motivate the children you delusional fck?

[BanjoBilly]

I've tried to turn myself into a sociopath living exclusively for carnal pleasures and materialism (dead serious). I know people for whom this works. But it doesn't work for me. I have a heart and a soul, no homo, and that *******ry is a burden.

Plus even if you have all the money in the world people still get the sh**s and vomit and so on.

Sayed Qutb (Google it peasants) was actually right in his critique of the material western world (no terrorist sympathy).

Sayyid*

[DizzySmalls]

Learn how to take **** less seriously. Life is a meaningless folly, so why are you acting like it's this big deal.