[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[imbored21]

I know I can be happy but I don't believe I can???

[imbored21]

Things that are bothering me: sabotaging my relationship with my family, not having a girl in my life, my mental health. Social anxiety is really bad. Especially as a man. I get jealous of girls because they can have social anxiety and still get relationships easily. I'm super bitter. I want a girlfriend so bad but it's impossible and then a girl with my same personality can get a boyfriend like ordering a pizza. I'm soo ****ing bitter. It's unfair.

[imbored21]

i had so much in common with that chick. can't believe she ghosted me. i did not see it coming at all. I thought we would be friends forever and had a special bond.

[imbored21]

got called quiet at work today. Feels terrible. Feel like I'm too boring and I'm holding people back. If it was anyone but me they'd have a fun conversation at work but they have to be bored with me.

[eod8989]

There's no sense of community anymore. I remember i used to be the cool guy irl and i always had the misc FA crew to talk to back in the day but all i feel is loneliness now. I don't fit in anywhere.

[CarlyRaeJepsen]

9 more days til I see a doc and hopefully get some Seroquel or Abilify. Probablybipolar.jpg.

[hidingwithmusic]

On day 5 of maoi parnate and I feel as if a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. This is the best I've felt in a while! 4-6 weeks till full effect.

[imbored21]

all i think about is my crush and our memories and fantasies for the future.

i want to take a bath with her

i want to have a romantic picnic in the park with her

i want to take her to an amusement park

i have extreme desires for this. i cant afford this b!tch. im so ****ed. Everyday i fall behind my peers financially because im being drained by succubi.

so stressed out

[imbored21]

my fantasy is to be a loving boyfriend but it's just not realistic these days.

[ScottTil]

Well I gotta tell ya I wasn't happy with my job up north so in September I moved to texas and unfortunately I don't think it's gonna work out.
Got me pretty stressed out these days. Doesn't help CHristmas sucked since I spent it alone skyping my parents and my mom crying I couldn't be home.
JFL at this year

I guess you just have to embrace clown world and laugh it off.

[imbored21]

no interest in anything. feel too attached to my parents to rope. Stuck at a wall.

[hidingwithmusic]

It felt like forever but I've finally reached one week on parnate. I feel improvement. I've had many tell me theyve become 100% in two weeks. It would mean so much to be happy again. I've been depressed since the second grade. The pill is no joke. Last night I ate a pepperoni hot pocket and I had a serious headache... so many side effects, drug, and food interactions. I'll do anything to feel like myself again..... I'll keep updating for those interested.

[pissbag]

9 more days til I see a doc and hopefully get some Seroquel or Abilify. Probablybipolar.jpg.

I take seroquel. It’s changed my life but I was never bipolar lol

Let me know if you have any questions brah

Happy to help

[davik]

im back. havent felt so down in a long time, probably ever. cant see anything new that will convince me out of this, ive heard it all

[MatthewChav]

im back. havent felt so down in a long time, probably ever. cant see anything new that will convince me out of this, ive heard it all

Let's talk Grey Joggs hey Davik pal

[lmwithChad]

im back. havent felt so down in a long time, probably ever. cant see anything new that will convince me out of this, ive heard it all

try no-caffeine.

[ISmokeTooMuch]

You ever get baked and realize just how much chit you're doing wrong in all aspects of life?

[JoocyMane13]

i lost my brother last week. He was my best friend and idol.

Depression took him from us after a horror 2 months for him. I pray he has found the peace he was looking for. Funeral is this weekend - where we will find the strength im not sure to be honest, but i know we will.

[2RDEYE]

i lost my brother last week. He was my best friend and idol.

Depression took him from us after a horror 2 months for him. I pray he has found the peace he was looking for. Funeral is this weekend - where we will find the strength im not sure to be honest, but i know we will.

hope you're doing ok man. if u can find it in you to really cry. it would help a lot. like a release

[Mogambo]

i lost my brother last week. He was my best friend and idol.

Depression took him from us after a horror 2 months for him. I pray he has found the peace he was looking for. Funeral is this weekend - where we will find the strength im not sure to be honest, but i know we will.

man that is rough. Sorry to hear that. Your question about where to find the strength is fascinating. I'm generally a misanthrope but it always amazes me at the amount of strength and resilience human beings display in trying times. I get my strength from witnessing bravery in others.

[CarlyRaeJepsen]

I take seroquel. It’s changed my life but I was never bipolar lol

Let me know if you have any questions brah

Happy to help

Thanks, cuz. Met with a GP (HBB) who suspected Bipolar 2 (thanks, Zoloft) and referred me to a Psychiatrist with whom I am scheduled to meet next week.

[kovalchuk71]

Lately I’ve been getting to the point where I’m struggling to find reasons to live. My feeling of purpose/self-worth is just about gone. My morale is terrible and I feel like I’m just about to hit rock bottom. I haven’t had a single “win” in almost a year. Any self confidence I had is long gone. I’m so lost.

The scary thing is that if my Mom wasn’t alive, I’m not sure if I would be here anymore. I love her way too much to put her through that though, so it’s not going to happen. She loves me so much and I feel like I keep letting her down.

Happy New Year, everyone. Here’s to a better year (it probably won’t be much better).

[Actonspur]

Anxiety and depression crew.

Was having a very 'what's the point in anything' episode a few weeks ago. You know where you try and do things to occupy your time but stop after 5 minutes thinking, why am I even doing this, everything is completely pointless and joyless.

2 things that always/have helped.

1) working out.

2) making money from investing. I don't even want the money. It's just like a real life video game where seeing your high score go up but it is actually tangible as opposed to some nebulous number.

Has helped a bit for me. Hope you guys can get there.

[lmwithChad]

You ever get baked and realize just how much chit you're doing wrong in all aspects of life?

MJ gives me serious anxiety

[eod8989]

Life lacks purpose and i don't know how to change that. I try to talk to people but nothing happens. I can't meet anyone my age that shares similar interests/views.

[Ironface]

Is anyone else just completely fuking exhausted? Srs living with anxiety 24/7 feeling like my chest is going to explode out of my mouth. I know life lacks purpose and I'm just doing my best to enjoy the time I have on this planet but I'm just so goddamn tired of fighting my mind all day everyday 365 days a year.

[severagee]

Is anyone else just completely fuking exhausted? Srs living with anxiety 24/7 feeling like my chest is going to explode out of my mouth. I know life lacks purpose and I'm just doing my best to enjoy the time I have on this planet but I'm just so goddamn tired of fighting my mind all day everyday 365 days a year.

Are you on any medications? SSRIs/TCAs/MAOIs can help massively with constant anxiety. Look into kratom, it's cheap and legal (in my state) and helps massively with anxiety, just don't go off the rails with it.

Normally I wouldn't immediately suggest medication but it seems like your anxiety is debilitating and the first thing you need to control before you can move on. I used to have the worst social anxiety imaginable, couldn't even order fast food without stuttering and getting red in the face, and now I'm a conversational student doctor treating patients. Chit can get so, so much better, believe me.

[2RDEYE]

anxiety is hard. it could just be your environment too. which is a huge issue if you can't move.

caffeine could be the issue too

[Ironface]

Are you on any medications? SSRIs/TCAs/MAOIs can help massively with constant anxiety. Look into kratom, it's cheap and legal (in my state) and helps massively with anxiety, just don't go off the rails with it.

Normally I wouldn't immediately suggest medication but it seems like your anxiety is debilitating and the first thing you need to control before you can move on. I used to have the worst social anxiety imaginable, couldn't even order fast food without stuttering and getting red in the face, and now I'm a conversational student doctor treating patients. Chit can get so, so much better, believe me.

I work as a casino dealer which means I’m not allowed to take meds that cause drowsiness or affect concentration.

I’ve felt this way for years as a result of childhood trauma and I’m just so exhausted of dealing with it

Brb a normal person’s “slightly anxious” is my 24/7 state. Imagine how I start to feel when real stress comes into the picture. Tired of fighting a battle inside my mind everyday of my life

[Ironface]

are casinos opened atm? hows being a dealer, it sucks they dont get to talk to the players

Yes they are open, just restricted. And yes we get to talk to the players - the idea that we don’t is a myth