[QUOTE=arrentz;1594343991]sorry i worded it confusingly, i meant a flat (fat free) belly. i know i'm not there yet so there's no point trying to convince me otherwise.
although i know that i've been cutting now for like almost a year, come a long way but still do not have that flat belly look that i used to have. so i guess i will try maintenance for a month and see if things improve, all i really want is a fat free belly and that would make me content with myself.
[b]i haven't been weight training consistently for the past month because of addiction to sedatives, but i'm getting off those now again so that i can go back to lifting with more intensity. although i always tend to relapse at day 30-40 during my frequent withdrawals, it's like i have a month on and a month off constantly. i have a pathological fear of sleep and OCD/GAD which keeps me hooked.[/b][/QUOTE]
I would get help for this problem first before worry about a little belly fat. I am afraid I am not medically trained to offer further advice into these mental health issues therefore speaking to a professional would be advise (if you are well done and hopefully progress will be made). Likewise it might be useful to discuss issues of body image with a professional as well they may offer better individual advice.
Good luck.