Where to go from here???

Almost 40, desk job for nearly 20 years, use to be 185lbs and manage a gym. Now I'm 235lbs feel like crap, losing muscle, packing on lbs, and starting to forget what it even feels like and quite frankly looks like to be me. I know I will have more energy, better brain power, higher functionality in many ways if I get healthy but I'm tired ALL the time, stressed out far too often, and even though I know I should be motivated by my current situation and where it's heading if things continue... I have almost no motivation and am disturbed and frustrated about where I am and how I feel. I'm not the kind of person who asks for help. To be honest, while I know I have so very little figured out, I find myself way to prideful and never motivated about my health because, right or wrong...I feel like I know at a very basic level ways to make significant improvements but continually fail to do so. I never use to feel guilty about what I eat, but it's gotten to that point because on the one hand I want to experience change and on the other I just feel like I'm completely failing. I've got a wife and 5 wonderful kids that I don't want to fail or embarrass but, my Dad was fat and I know it created limitations in our lives growing up that he regretted. I don't want to regret doing nothing about this

A good start would be to read the "basics" sticky thread regarding fat loss in the Fat Loss forum. Then go to Workout Programs and look at the Fierce 5 sticky thread.

Keep it simple - count calories, check your protein and fat intake, follow a program without messing with it. Make it a habit.

If you have any more specific questions after doing that reading, post them in the relevant forum, they are more active than this one is.