Another year of FA in the books
It's been a while since I've been on Misc. and, honestly, I can't say I've really missed it, but I stick my head in every now and then to see what's going on. With it being the end of the year, I thought I'd share what I've been up to on the relationship front.
I made a big, BIG push to be more social and jumpstart my love life this past year. Basically, I took the textbook Misc. advice - go to activities, join groups, dress well (not that I've ever dressed poorly), smell nice, continuously improve yourself, exude positive energy, etc. etc. And, of course, I've maintained my rigorous workout regimen.
I've had great times this year and it was all worth it if only for the fact it was better than the alternative. But here's the thing - none of it had any impact. In fact, I'm going to end this year very much the FA I was at the beginning of it.
It's hard to keep your chin up in the face of no progress. I don't feel any more confident, I'm no less shy, and I also see guys more confident and better-looking than me struggle, which makes me wonder what value I really have. I had a few glimmers of hope here and there, but nothing's ever come of it.
I'm not really sure where to go from here. I'm already 32; the hill only gets steeper from this point forward. If I can't figure it out now, I don't know if I ever will. Getting into relationships, having sex, etc., shouldn't be [i]this[/i] difficult, but for some people, it is, apparently. It's very difficult to hold out any hope of change.