Here goes nothing...

[jaim91]

Alright, I'm gonna try this journalling. But please don't be mad if I don't get a chance to post every day. I'm definitely going to try my best, because I see the progress in other people's journals, and how everyone is so supprotive of each other. It's an awesome atmosphere, and very conducive to people fulfilling their goals.

Background:

Since last year, I've been in 9 bodybuilding competitions. I am in love with it. Competing. The feeling of being on stage, posing, strutting your stuff, showing off the fruits of your labour. Unfortunately (or fortunately), I've won 7 of 9 because there was no one else in my category (junior women isn't so popular in Canada). The other two, I placed last in the Novice Women's category. Why?.....

Present:

MASS! MASS MASS MASS MASS. I lack it. I guess you could say, I'm "petite", and at 5"7, a female bodybuilder shouldn't be "petite". Thus begins my Mass quest. I have gained 6 lbs since my last competition, Fame 2006, but I think I still have a ways to go. I'm not scared of gaining, it's just that for me, it's a very slow process.

I have hyperthyroidism ("Because the body's metabolism is increased, patients often feel hotter than those around them and can slowly lose weight even though they may be eating more" - http://www.endocrineweb.com/hyper1.html) and a form of type I diabetes whereby all the simple carbs I eat are "eaten" by my brain for fuel before they get a chance to fuel the rest of my body. ("In people with type 1 diabetes, glucose isn't moved into the cells because insulin is not available. When glucose builds up in the blood instead of going into cells, the body's cells starve for nutrients and other systems in the body must provide energy for many important bodily functions. Side effects: Weight loss - http://www.webmd.com/content/article/59/66847). My endocronologists (politely, lol) told me I "gave this to myself" by trying the SuperSize Me diet for a month. I overloaded my body with too much sugar at one time, and essentially, screwed myself over.

Future:

So now you know where I've been and where I'm at. Where I'd like to get to? Well, as you can see, it's going to be a long haul before I gain the weight I want to. I would like to be 10 lbs heavier before I compete again, but I try not to get caught up in numbers.

I'm sure I've put most of you to sleep by now, so I'll just stop until I have more to add. I'll post my diet at the end of the day. By the way, I'm on the keto diet, and work out about 3 - 4 times a week doing resistance training.

[jaim91]

I should also mention I'm 19 and in second year university studying kinesiology. So I'll probably rant a whole lot about school stuff, readings, profs, mid terms...If any of you want to vent/rant/empathize/sympathize with me, please feel free to do so I could use the help

[terracotta]

hi!

btw, what should we call you, is your name Jaim or Jaimie or.. ??

[twinnett]

Hi! So glad to see you started a journal! Congratulations on the 6 lb gain! That's great news! I know you'll achieve your goals and really appreciate them b/c you have to work so hard! What does your weight routine look like?

[jaim91]

hi!

btw, what should we call you, is your name Jaim or Jaimie or.. ??

Thanks for the welcome girls!

Jaime or Jaim, either one. I spell my name "J - m e", pronounced jaimeeee, but have yet to legally change it

I work out 4 days a week (not neccesarily in a row, just whenever i get a chance), and have separate days for back/shoulders, legs, chest and arms.

I do about 5 exercises per body part, 3 sets per exercise, 8 reps per set. i go pretty heavy

[jaim91]

I don't really weigh my food, so these are just rough estimates for the day.

Meal 1) Sylvester Stallone protein pudding, 4 slices jalapeno cheese, 100 g chicken
Meal 2) Protein shake, 200 g corned beef, 4 cups broccoli and cauliflower w/ 1/4 cup salad dressing
Meal 3) Protein shake, 300 g chicken, 250 g turkey, 3 Babybel cheeses
Meal 4) 1/2 meatloaf (about 350 g. ground beef), 200 g turkey, 5 cups of salad w/ 1/4 cup salad dressing

Ah...it was a good day. Family dinner for a Jewish holiday, and after I took the meatloaf, my sister was like, "You're going to eat that WHOLE thing by yourself?!?!"....hells ya!

Oh ya, I found out the diabetes website - http://diabetes.niddk.nih.gov/dm/pub...emia/index.htm - "occurs when your blood glucose (blood sugar) level drops too low to provide enough energy for your body's activities."

[jaim91]

Had leftovers from last night's dinner for breakfast: Turkey, salmon and meatloaf. Not cool! Ground beef w/ onions don't sit too well in one's stomach at 7 am. I should have waited...ugh....

Big day today: I'm moving out of my parents house! For the first time in 19 years, I will NOT be living at home. I figure that now that I'm adjusted to univeristy and university life, I can more or less manage on my own pretty independently from my parents. It's a huge step as I've always been dependent on them for everything. But it's time for a change

I'm nervous because I don't know where the $900 a month in rent is going to come (certainly not from my grocery money), so I give myself 4 months before I'm evicted, lol.

Will update soon to let y'all know how the move went. SOOOOOO NERVOUS!!!

Just put in yesterday's food on fitday:
Totals 2707
125g fat
22 g. carb (11 g fibre)
359g. protein (whoa...)

[twinnett]

Wow that's a lot of protein!! Good luck on the move. I know it can be scary, but it's liberating too!

[daYDreAmErX]

Hey !!

I think you need more fat Add 1-2 tbsp of natural PB. Are you at 65/30/5 ?

I'm happy to read you here, good bulk !!

Keep it up !!!

[jaim91]

Hey !!

I think you need more fat Add 1-2 tbsp of natural PB. Are you at 65/30/5 ?

I'm happy to read you here, good bulk !!

Keep it up !!!

PB isn't reccomended so much on keto, it's the butter highest in carbs. I have cashew butter sometimes, but I'd rather get my fats from steak and salmon (and mayo).

I am doing my own little keto thing using 50/45/5...i lift heavy so i think the extra protein is beneficial (and i still remain in ketosis)

What worries me about the move is that right now, I use my laptop as my main communication device/access to the internet, and I'm hooked up wirelessly to my mom's PC. But I don't know if I'll be able to steal internet wirelessly from any of my neighbours, lol shh....

[SNSTerp79]

Hey, I am not knowledgable about the Keto deal, but I will do some research till next time, but I definitely wanted to stop in a say hello. I've seen you posting a bit around the boards.
Wow, woman, I will definitely support your bulking idea. You're quite thin. Do you think you can mentally handle the weight gain necessary to fill out? Sometimes that seems to be an issue with bulkers.
So FAME 2006, huh?! Did you meet Maggie Diubaldo? She's my idol. As a taller, brunette, I look up to her in this sport.
Hope your weekend is going well! Also, an FYI, about 5 of us are meeting in Ohio to see a competition and hang out together if you would be interested. You can refer to my journal for more details.

[imperfectly_lou]

Just wanted to say hi and welcome to the journal section

[jaim91]

Lou - Thanks, I'm looking forward to sharing stuff with you guys and getting feedback

SNS - I don't have a lot lot of $$ at my disposal...especially now that I have to pay for rent and groceries, but what are the details (you can pm if you want). It sounds like fun. I am going to be in Ohio for the Arnold this year though! Hells ya!

So the ex calls me up tonight...after 4 weeks apart, he wants to get back together. We really had a good thing going - we went out from aug 4 - sept 7. He dumped me on Msn...not cool. He goes to uni in kitchener, and i go to school in Toronto, so the long distance is an issue. I'm sure if we tried, we could make it work...but I don't know. He didn't call the first 4 days he was there, and the 4 days after his quick visit home (it was on the 4th day that he dumped me).

Advice? I mean, he did use the "L" word while we were together, and I know he genuinely means it. But he did dump me...

Food:
Total 2500
Fat 103
Carb 18
Protein 362

Darn...I really overdid the protein. Like, REALLY overdid. It's just that i'm constantly muching on beef jerky, or salmon, chicken breasts or cheese...so I guess it adds up. But i'm still in ketosis...soooo weird.

[twinnett]

How do you feel about him? Maybe you could start back out slow? Drew broke up with me for a while back in college and then realized how wonderful I am! lol...if you really care about him and think you can (and want) to make it work, then I say dive in!

[SNSTerp79]

We're meeting October 14th in Struthers, OH near Youngstown to see BuffyCat (aka Joan) compete in a competition. At least me and BabyGotBack (aka Sarah) are staying overnight splitting a room if you would want to get in on the deal. It's $100 / night total. Twinnett (aka Tara) and AgeRage (aka ?) are also making appearances.

[jaim91]

Twin - He hurt me really badly. He dumped me over the internet without so much as a valid explanation. He said (tonight) that he was drunk that he did it, and really regrets it. I believe him, but don't know if I can trust him again. It was really awesome while it lasted though. And I was his first real "Love"

Sns - On Oct 14 I signed up to volunteer at a food expo here in Toronto - http://www.hostexshow.com/. Darn! It would have been fun though. I know there are lots of women/girls who compete on these boards, so I'm sure it won't be my last opportunity, right? Maybe y'all will come down and cheer me on one day Have a great time though

[leen]

Hey Jaim, I know you, not sure if you know me but I competed in Canadian Classic last fall and Toronto Classic in the spring. I can say that you did manage to put some size on you over the 6 months and it was nice to see your Mom there being supportive. Glad that she has accepted your life a bit more. I remember being there when you were telling MJ about your struggles and its great that you have overcome obsticules!!!
Look forward to reading your journey!!!

[jaim91]

Hey Jaim, I know you, not sure if you know me but I competed in Canadian Classic last fall and Toronto Classic in the spring. I can say that you did manage to put some size on you over the 6 months and it was nice to see your Mom there being supportive. Glad that she has accepted your life a bit more. I remember being there when you were telling MJ about your struggles and its great that you have overcome obsticules!!!
Look forward to reading your journey!!!

Leen, wow...if you're who I'm thinking of, it is soooo awesome to speak to you. I can't believe you remembered me, that is flattering beyond belief. You look/looked unbelievable. I see your posts on Shaun's forums. My mom unfortunately didn't stay for either show. She came to put my tan on, and then left. So she's not 100% behind me yet...but in time, maybe...

Side note: Jay Cutler is my favourite bodybuilder. I actually have a shrine dedicated to him in my new apartment. A room that has nothing but pictures (27) of Jay and my protein supplements. Anyway, in February, I read in Flex that Jay wakes himself up in the middle of the night to eat. So, if Jay does it, J-ME does it. I did it from Feb - July. In July, my Gp (and parents) said it was absurd. Now, it's become like a habit. I naturally wake up at 1 and 3, eat, go back to bed, then wake up around 6 -7 for breakfast.

Do you guys think this is ok? Or should I just try and get back to bed?

[terracotta]

if you feel well rested, waking up and eating is fine.

[leen]

I wish I was the procard winner, grrr, oh well, this time round!! I have a journal on here with pics then you might remember me!
As far as the eating in the middle of the night I say do it, but then I also think that muscle milk would be a better choice in the middle of the night because it is easier to digest, geez I don't know, with your diabetes you have to be more careful. You have anyone to help you with diet?? I say eating in the middle of the night helps put on the weight, always feeding your body.
Better get better advice than mine though! LOL
Take care of you!

[LewieS]

Hey it's so great that you have a journal!

OMG I can't believe he called you up and said that! (mmm well I can believe it becuase your just that great!) Firecrotches are just ****ed! (sorry to any firecrotches reading this) Definite E-mail discussion.

Good job on the food! I want to see workouts in here as well! LOL I want to see what Jaime is lifting
Why not just keep some sort of shake besdie your bed .. that way if you wake up you can just sip that or drink the full thing quickly and then try and get to bed. (or can you not drink your mammoth2500 now that your doing ketosis?)

Just read your text msg .. sorry no e-mail tonight .. But I'll really try for tomorrow morning k? (around 8am your time).
Love ya!

[twinnett]

I think it's fine, especially for you, to eat in the middle of the night. Anything you can do to get in more calories!

[jaim91]

Hey it's so great that you have a journal!

OMG I can't believe he called you up and said that! (mmm well I can believe it becuase your just that great!) Firecrotches are just ****ed! (sorry to any firecrotches reading this) Definite E-mail discussion.

Good job on the food! I want to see workouts in here as well! LOL I want to see what Jaime is lifting
Why not just keep some sort of shake besdie your bed .. that way if you wake up you can just sip that or drink the full thing quickly and then try and get to bed. (or can you not drink your mammoth2500 now that your doing ketosis?)

Just read your text msg .. sorry no e-mail tonight .. But I'll really try for tomorrow morning k? (around 8am your time).
Love ya!

No mammoth on keto. I have to stick to whey breezer and whey gourmet by pvl, but they have tons and tons of flavours, so I don't get bored

[daYDreAmErX]

When I wake up in th emiddle of the night it's PB&J sandwich

[fish153]

Hey Jaim! I just want to say that I believe in you!

[jaim91]

When I wake up in th emiddle of the night it's PB&J sandwich

Mmm...sounds good. That would be nice...but...well, keto. I actually just boiled 5 eggs and made a protein shake with water to keep me at bay if/when i wake up in the middle of the night.

Thanks fish! It's a hard job (bulking), but somebody's gotta do it!

I also just had a babybel cheese circle and 2 slices of turkey (leftovers...for the melatonin *is that the sleep drug*)

[fish153]

are you thinking of tryptophan? the thing in turkey that makes everyone sleepy at thanksgiving?

[daYDreAmErX]

The hardest part for me on keto was that I don't eat eggs. That would have been helpful, really.

[Lynny]

Hey gal! just wanted to stop by and say you're doing great. I admire your dedication and determination. keep up the good work.

[jaim91]

are you thinking of tryptophan? the thing in turkey that makes everyone sleepy at thanksgiving?

YES! Tryptophan! Thank you... Melatonin is the pigment that makes your skin a certain colour, right? lol...I had myself all confused.

The move went really well yesterday. My place is exactly like I wanted it. My mom went a little overboard, and brought over way more furniture than I anticipated. I think she just wants to make sure that i feel at home. I also discovered that moving isn't a shot thing. It's a process. For example, since I started moving my stuff into the apartment last week, I've made at least 6 lists from things I forgot to take from home. It's usually on a per need basis. Like yesterday, I realized I need the blender, microwav and George Foreman grill. Tomorrow, I'll probably realize I need something else.

Oh ya, NONE of my neighbours has wireless internet. Well, one does, but it's encrypted (meany!). School today...I have a midterm in anatomy on Friday (must memorize all the bones, joint, ligaments and movements of the muscular system...) that's worth 17.5% of my mark. I'm stressing a little, though I started studying 2 weeks ago (NERD!)

Lynny - Thanks, that means a lot
DayDream - I wouldn't eat at least half the calories I do if it was for eggs!