[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[eod8989]

Fuk man every time I go outside for breaks or In the atrium i get anxiety because everyone is in small groups

[2RDEYE]

After work this is all i want to do. Long gone are the days of me wanting to work/lift and then go somewhere. Not enough time for that especially since i don't have friends.

i think if i had friends growing up like really close friends i'd be so much more successful in life. that support makes a huge difference i think. but at the same time i feel like it would be annoying as ****. maybe i've just been a loner for far too long to want close friends.

[BigTimePlayer]

Do you feel weird going everywhere alone these days? I swear i am getting more insecure and aware of chit because i am like the only person alone if i go somewhere. It's just a weird feeling always being alone in public. It even makes me feel uncomfortable at the gym because i go so much and people probably think i'm weird. Most people have friends to go places with at least sometimes.

Yeah, it gets to be depressing at times & I feel like an outcast of sorts when I see others together. That’s why I don’t go anywhere much since there’s no where to go alone & I don’t want to be depressed seeing everyone together in groups or with their gfs/bfs. It’s ruined pretty much every Summer for the past like 7 years or so since I rarely have anywhere to go when I’m by myself. The thing that sucks is like no one even cares since everyone is focused on their own lives & I guess it’s human nature not to give a **** about people they don’t know. It’s like people don’t care about anything or anyone unless it affects them personally.

[eod8989]

Yeah, it gets to be depressing at times & I feel like an outcast of sorts when I see others together. That’s why I don’t go anywhere much since there’s no where to go alone & I don’t want to be depressed seeing everyone together in groups or with their gfs/bfs. It’s ruined pretty much every Summer for the past like 7 years or so since I rarely have anywhere to go when I’m by myself. The thing that sucks is like no one even cares since everyone is focused on their own lives & I guess it’s human nature not to give a **** about people they don’t know. It’s like people don’t care about anything or anyone unless it affects them personally.

Yeah i just don't know what to do. People really don't care or want to be around people that are by themselves and i am always isolated at work so i have no chance to meet anyone. I put myself around people all day when i can on breaks but nothing ever happens. I tried going to the gym in the evenings and it is way too busy i went at like 715 last week and there were a bunch of groups.

[eod8989]

i think if i had friends growing up like really close friends i'd be so much more successful in life. that support makes a huge difference i think. but at the same time i feel like it would be annoying as ****. maybe i've just been a loner for far too long to want close friends.

Same here i'm getting to that point where i just want to be left alone most of the time because i'm so used to it. My mood and energy levels are just too low most days to care. Takes a lot of socializing and being around people to make those levels return to normal when you've been isolated this long

[2RDEYE]

Same here i'm getting to that point where i just want to be left alone most of the time because i'm so used to it. My mood and energy levels are just too low most days to care. Takes a lot of socializing and being around people to make those levels return to normal when you've been isolated this long

lost my ****ing voice brah lol i can't even talk to my 5 year old little sister alone in my room. it's pretty bad.

[Scooty56]

Well, I (mostly) sobered up recently (haven't stopped a couple of drinks on Friday/Saturday nights, but holding strong in terms of moderation). It had been years since I had gone a day sober. Im doing this in an attempt to better my life, get out of my dead end job, ETC. However, in doing so I now remember why I started staying altered in the first place. I am not a happy person. Im constantly anxious and I constantly feel like I'm failing my own intellect by underachieving. I feel like a failure. I've also recently come to terms with the fact that I (believe I) am in love with a girl who's been my friend for 14 years. I'm so terrified that she doesn't feel the same. On top of all of this my mom's recently been diagnosed with breast cancer and I feel so bad for her and what she's going through with her treatment. I'm having a hard time seeing these things working out for the best (girl issue, getting a better job, and mom getting better). I've started isolating myself from my best friend (who's also my roommate) and the family I'm close to because I just feel like I'm too much of a bummer.

[eod8989]

lost my ****ing voice brah lol i can't even talk to my 5 year old little sister alone in my room. it's pretty bad.

Yeah I lose my voice sometimes too lol. Just nothing comes out. Need to exercise my vocal chords more but there arent many people to talk to at work

[2RDEYE]

sort of thinking about asking for a permaban and see how much my life changes. i think it'd turn out pretty bad or more of the same. just instead of miscing i'd be like fulltime on reddit. misc is definitely much more negative than reddit though. it used to be a positive influence for me, cause i learned so many things in the beginning but now it's like a lot of comments piss me off so much.

[eod8989]

Officially the strongest i've been since 2012. Benched 200x10 today which is around a 265 max. Starting to get some confidence and feel pretty good but the problem still remains i can't find anyone to talk to.

[eod8989]

sort of thinking about asking for a permaban and see how much my life changes. i think it'd turn out pretty bad or more of the same. just instead of miscing i'd be like fulltime on reddit. misc is definitely much more negative than reddit though. it used to be a positive influence for me, cause i learned so many things in the beginning but now it's like a lot of comments piss me off so much.

Don't do that bro you can still lurk when banned. Just remember half the people here are trolling lol.

[tehfinkster]

I consider myself a bit more sad than I am happy, but not as depressed as some of the posts I've seen on here.

I just want to say that I stumbled upon a ketogenic diet and I've been sticking to it for roughly 3 months now. My dandruff, runny nose, and heartburn is gone completely. Like, I can't even believe it.

Little did I know I've had a carb intolerance my entire life (all of the symptoms I've had since elementary school). I can go long amounts of time without eating or feeling tired. Next, I'm going to consider dropping caffeine to half the amount and also drop my ******** prescription substantially (used to have to take it to not fall asleep).

I'm not trying to sound like some diet guru or promote keto because I am not. I obviously had an issue and was trying keto anyways. I never knew it was going to have any positive side effects.

My mood is a bit better now, but I still need to work on changing my mindset to a more positive foundation.

Hope you guys have a great day.

[VAPump]

sort of thinking about asking for a permaban and see how much my life changes. i think it'd turn out pretty bad or more of the same. just instead of miscing i'd be like fulltime on reddit. misc is definitely much more negative than reddit though. it used to be a positive influence for me, cause i learned so many things in the beginning but now it's like a lot of comments piss me off so much.

So this turned out to be a novel and I apologize for that, but I am sincere and serious about everything I wrote. I'm not gonna do a TLDR because I think it takes away from the impact of my points, and if you or anyone else won't read it because of that then I totally understand.
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Homie the grass aint greener, I'll tell you right now.

Whenever I make my once or twice a year appearance on the misc I get a bunch of people asking where I went because for a while I practically lived on here, especially when I was a mod.

The biggest reason was a trip to afghanistan and I just didn't have the time, plus internet sucked. But after a while I realized how much the negativity here got to me. It made me more negative and I was just sick of all the stupid played out jokes and crap (like in the few days I've spent back on here this year I'm already so sick of 'soyboy' and the LTC/HTC sht despite not even knowing wtf any of it means).

After a while I said lemme check out this reddit crap. The only thing I knew about it up until then was that the misc made fun of it. So of course I would never go.

Now reddit can be a great place. With so many different communities you can find a group for any damn interest you can think of, and it's vibrant and active, unlike the misc which feels dead as fuk (at least compared to 'the old days).
But you know what else? There are a lot of diks on reddit. Like holy sht a lot. I seriously feel like everyone there wants to argue. I'm now to the point where I am weaning myself of it as well because it can actually put me in a bad attitude. Like, you can't even go into a thread where someone is trying to get advice, and give them honest advice that's based on knowledge and experience without 8 mf'ers coming out of the woodwork to argue with you because they read a wikipedia article once, and then downvote you for the hell of it. It's seroiusly everywhere.

Then I realized something. I've got like 50,000 or so karma on there in the last year, and most of that comes from my negative posts. Like when I get baited into an argument and wreck someone, or when I just feel the need to make a dik comment unsolicited. The community there has been rewarding me for being a dick. I look at people who are always polite and nice, always give good responses, have been there for 5+ years, and are still under 10,000 karma because the community there does not value it.

So don't get me wrong, I've only browsed through modern day misc briefly, and it seems to still be a cesspool, but the thing that people have traditionally hated here (overly strict rules and heavy handed moderation) are one of the few things that stops this place from becoming the dump that is the majority of reddit.


It's social media in general. "Experts" (whoever they are) are right when they say it often provides more negative than positive for us. I got rid of ******** over a year ago and it was one of the best things ever. Consciously I never compared myself to others and their situations, but I think I was doing that subconsciously. You see others doing better than you and it gets you down. Or hell sometimes you see others going through hard times and it also brings you down because you're too busy concentrating on them and not yourself.

Social media in general is just bad for the human ego and spirit. Everyone competing with each other, everyone jealous of others when they should't be, just a bunch of haters in general.


But hey, that's just one man's perspective of it all.

[snailbruh69]

Well, I (mostly) sobered up recently (haven't stopped a couple of drinks on Friday/Saturday nights, but holding strong in terms of moderation). It had been years since I had gone a day sober. Im doing this in an attempt to better my life, get out of my dead end job, ETC. However, in doing so I now remember why I started staying altered in the first place. I am not a happy person. Im constantly anxious and I constantly feel like I'm failing my own intellect by underachieving. I feel like a failure. I've also recently come to terms with the fact that I (believe I) am in love with a girl who's been my friend for 14 years. I'm so terrified that she doesn't feel the same. On top of all of this my mom's recently been diagnosed with breast cancer and I feel so bad for her and what she's going through with her treatment. I'm having a hard time seeing these things working out for the best (girl issue, getting a better job, and mom getting better). I've started isolating myself from my best friend (who's also my roommate) and the family I'm close to because I just feel like I'm too much of a bummer.

Ask that girl out bro. I'm serious. Take it from someone who has experienced this. If you don't ask her out, the regret will eat at you years from now when you look back on your youth. Don't make excuses just do it. Sorry to hear about your mom.

[runningbrah92]

hey brahs hope your all doing well, ive had depression and OCD and panic attacks (few other issues too) all my life since i was a kid, its pretty much in my family, i have been clean from heavy drugs three years now (meth, ghb,coke) i have found running/fitness to be really good for me, my girlfriend broke up with me last year that almost sent me down on another spiral but i kept it together thanks to my new found passion for fitness,anyone ever want to PM to talk to me about any issues or if they are suffering from drug abuse as a way to cope dont hesitate to send me a P.M much love my brahs

[eod8989]

So this turned out to be a novel and I apologize for that, but I am sincere and serious about everything I wrote. I'm not gonna do a TLDR because I think it takes away from the impact of my points, and if you or anyone else won't read it because of that then I totally understand.
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Homie the grass aint greener, I'll tell you right now.

Whenever I make my once or twice a year appearance on the misc I get a bunch of people asking where I went because for a while I practically lived on here, especially when I was a mod.

The biggest reason was a trip to afghanistan and I just didn't have the time, plus internet sucked. But after a while I realized how much the negativity here got to me. It made me more negative and I was just sick of all the stupid played out jokes and crap (like in the few days I've spent back on here this year I'm already so sick of 'soyboy' and the LTC/HTC sht despite not even knowing wtf any of it means).

After a while I said lemme check out this reddit crap. The only thing I knew about it up until then was that the misc made fun of it. So of course I would never go.

Now reddit can be a great place. With so many different communities you can find a group for any damn interest you can think of, and it's vibrant and active, unlike the misc which feels dead as fuk (at least compared to 'the old days).
But you know what else? There are a lot of diks on reddit. Like holy sht a lot. I seriously feel like everyone there wants to argue. I'm now to the point where I am weaning myself of it as well because it can actually put me in a bad attitude. Like, you can't even go into a thread where someone is trying to get advice, and give them honest advice that's based on knowledge and experience without 8 mf'ers coming out of the woodwork to argue with you because they read a wikipedia article once, and then downvote you for the hell of it. It's seroiusly everywhere.

Then I realized something. I've got like 50,000 or so karma on there in the last year, and most of that comes from my negative posts. Like when I get baited into an argument and wreck someone, or when I just feel the need to make a dik comment unsolicited. The community there has been rewarding me for being a dick. I look at people who are always polite and nice, always give good responses, have been there for 5+ years, and are still under 10,000 karma because the community there does not value it.

So don't get me wrong, I've only browsed through modern day misc briefly, and it seems to still be a cesspool, but the thing that people have traditionally hated here (overly strict rules and heavy handed moderation) are one of the few things that stops this place from becoming the dump that is the majority of reddit.


It's social media in general. "Experts" (whoever they are) are right when they say it often provides more negative than positive for us. I got rid of ******** over a year ago and it was one of the best things ever. Consciously I never compared myself to others and their situations, but I think I was doing that subconsciously. You see others doing better than you and it gets you down. Or hell sometimes you see others going through hard times and it also brings you down because you're too busy concentrating on them and not yourself.

Social media in general is just bad for the human ego and spirit. Everyone competing with each other, everyone jealous of others when they should't be, just a bunch of haters in general.


But hey, that's just one man's perspective of it all.

People have always been entitled on forums but then it started happening on FB and IG and other social medias. And now everyone is entitled and competitive IRL. IRL has basically turned into what people have been arguing about on forums like the misc (and modern day FB). It's just sad the world is like this now no matter where you go people are being rude, competitive, talking about each other, being entitled or just having zero empathy for anyone. Social media is going to destroy us eventually unless we can somehow neutralize it.

[eod8989]

I need to take action and get out of this rut. I just don't know what to do every time i go somewhere people are in fuking groups and i can't make conversation. Sick of this chit. I'm getting back pain from always sitting on the PC.

[runningbrah92]

I need to take action and get out of this rut. I just don't know what to do every time i go somewhere people are in fuking groups and i can't make conversation. Sick of this chit. I'm getting back pain from always sitting on the PC.

do you suffer social anxiety? have you tried any sporting clubs too meet people? even strike up a random conversation if you can at the gym with a regular you see there just small talk if you can

[eod8989]

do you suffer social anxiety? have you tried any sporting clubs too meet people? even strike up a random conversation if you can at the gym with a regular you see there just small talk if you can

I've tried everything. I have nothing to talk about with anyone. I do have social anxiety but that isn't what causes me to not be able to talk to people.

[NFPhysicsGG]

I'm not sure how helpful this will be but here it goes:

I've been abstaining from pornography and I'm feeling way happier . I used to watch it like once a day and it's often times a very overlooked addiction, addictions in general will f you up and lead you to a vicious cycle where you do it because you're depressed and it makes you even more depressed.

Also excessive videogames and internet have the same effect, call a friend, meet up with an old family member just get out of your house.

Stay strong everyone.

[snailbruh69]

I'm not sure how helpful this will be but here it goes:

I've been abstaining from pornography and I'm feeling way happier . I used to watch it like once a day and it's often times a very overlooked addiction, addictions in general will f you up and lead you to a vicious cycle where you do it because you're depressed and it makes you even more depressed.

Also excessive videogames and internet have the same effect, call a friend, meet up with an old family member just get out of your house.

Stay strong everyone.

I've tried to stop watching it many many times, but I always fail. Any tips?

[BigTimePlayer]

Just feel like ****. I’ve been going to the gym again lately & it’s just a temporary fix where I maybe feel decent for a little while than I just crash down all over again. I hate that low energy depressive feeling inside me. I don’t know how to get rid of it.

[runningbrah92]

Just feel like ****. I’ve been going to the gym again lately & it’s just a temporary fix where I maybe feel decent for a little while than I just crash down all over again. I hate that low energy depressive feeling inside me. I don’t know how to get rid of it.

small steps at a time, its good you made the effort too even go to the gym, dont focus on how good the session was just remember at least you made it to the gym

[eod8989]

Just feel like ****. I’ve been going to the gym again lately & it’s just a temporary fix where I maybe feel decent for a little while than I just crash down all over again. I hate that low energy depressive feeling inside me. I don’t know how to get rid of it.

Bruh i just went to the store after doing some weighted pullups and was struck with the same feel. It's to the point now where any time i go into public i just don't feel right. The feeling of going places alone all the time is horrible i just don't feel right at all being around groups of people. I've been doing this too long.

[NFPhysicsGG]

I've tried to stop watching it many many times, but I always fail. Any tips?

For me it was really hard and still is. There's a discord server for quitting porn support, I can hook y'all up.

[BigTimePlayer]

Feeling so low in mood & energy again currently. It sucks that this will never end.

[ButcherSir]

basicly the last 2 months.

[eod8989]

Even when i'm positive nothing changes there is no way to meet anyone it takes an average of 40-60 hours to make a friend and i can't even find one person that i want to talk to or wants to talk to me, or shares the same interest. I really don't know how people make friends in this world later in life.

[Scooty56]

Ask that girl out bro. I'm serious. Take it from someone who has experienced this. If you don't ask her out, the regret will eat at you years from now when you look back on your youth. Don't make excuses just do it. Sorry to hear about your mom.

So I told her my feelings and it turns out they were reciprocated. Im not looking at moving back home (which is closer to the girl), so I can be there for my mom & will have a better shot at getting a job on the force. Hopefully things work out. We'll see, only time will tell

[2RDEYE]

i ****ed myself over again. i got hooked on video games again. been playing literally like 18 hours nonstop. and my eyes are so ****ed now. been getting 5 hours of sleep a night. feel so dizzy and derealization hitting hard. skipped the gym twice already. such a ****ty experience. my eyes are so messed up right now it can't tell reality anymore. i've been an hardcore alcoholic but i think video game addiction is so much worse. haven't left my room for more than an hour in the past 4 days or something.