[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[davik]

It doesnt make sense man. And when you look at how messed up capitalism is it really doesn't make sense. How anyone can stay happy doing the same thing over and over for stagnant wages. Just none of it makes sense it just feels like a total Clown world at this point.

I'm so bored at work I cry srs. Plus my mind is just dull from doing thr same thing day in day out for 40 hours per week

watch keith woods

[Baylorballs]

Exactly man. Teenagers and up to college age are the only ones who give a fuk about anything. And I'm 31 so not going to hang around 22 year olds. I dont think miscers are living in reality dude all the advice on here sounds like some advice I would hear from a 20 year old. Just go the gym or bar and be social bro!

Also my attention span is walk now days. I feel like I need to isolate all the time so I can recharge especially on days after work. My mind is just getting dull.

I've never had a great memory. and I never really drank or smoked the green until maybe 4-5 yrs ago.

Do you read much ? I feel more satisfied after a good 30-60 min read. Better w/ a physical book as well vs. a Kindle or computer screen.

[jecer]

Bored and depressed every day. You can't socialize in your 20s anymore.I agree teens are the only ones doing it.Money won't help either.It's a band aid.

[ManletofSteel1]

Bored and depressed every day. You can't socialize in your 20s anymore.I agree teens are the only ones doing it.Money won't help either.It's a band aid.

I am gonna be rotting at home the whole weekend again. Such a fun life.

[alltrapbrah]

I was just flicking through 'A guide to rational living' by Albert Ellis, and I figured i'd mention the book in this thread because a lot of the posts here suggest irrational thinking, thus this book might help you 'think better', which in-turn might help you feel better.

I've copied below an exert that made me think of EOD:

People who lead a lazy, passive existence and who keep saying that "nothing really interests me" frequently are warding off irrational fears, especially fears of failure. Viewing failure with horror, they avoid activities they would really like to try, and after sufficient avoidance, they "sincerely" conclude that they have "no interest" in these activities. They may cut off one piece of their life space after another and end up disinterested in "everything". These apathetic and bored individuals feel even more unhappy than do actively anxious and hostile people who at least get absorbed in their fears and hatreds.

[eod8989]

Bored and depressed every day. You can't socialize in your 20s anymore.I agree teens are the only ones doing it.Money won't help either.It's a band aid.

It seems like it stops around 24/25 or so when the brain fully develops. People just go autopilot. There are some very social people out there but they just talk about their families or kids and I can't relate. But legit it seems like the vast majority are just on autopilot now days with no real interest or work ethic and don't want to do anything outside of their 2 or 3 interests lol

[eod8989]

I was just flicking through 'A guide to rational living' by Albert Ellis, and I figured i'd mention the book in this thread because a lot of the posts here suggest irrational thinking, thus this book might help you 'think better', which in-turn might help you feel better.

I've copied below an exert that made me think of EOD:

This doesnt apply to me. I can't find ANYONE that i relate to at all. Whatsoever. That is the problem. There isn't one person i've met since at least 2016 that i even wanted to talk to.

[StoneColdMarko7]

Im kinda getting there with depression if you would call it because I dont really have friends. If you ask me who would send me a message or call I can name one guy so I guess I have one but Its ****ed up when you realize you dont have someone to talk to and ask you how are u but thats how world is nowadays. I dont want to be soft I have to be hard and emotionless and concentrate on myself and my career. **** everyone nobody cares about me and I sure wont care about them either. It is what it is. Onto the next day, life is good. Nas. Illmatic.

[DahStoryTella]

I really should post in this thread more often. My mental health issues were already a handful prior to this pandemic, but I've been in a pretty dark place since late April - thoughts of suicide and violence on a daily basis, very low self-esteem, little to no motivation, etc.

I'm in my late twenties and I feel like a senior citizen near the end of my life. I felt the same in my late teens and early twenties. Meh, I brought this upon myself. I'm a toxic person, undeserving of love and care. I'm only able to make this post because I botched my suicide attempt in 2018. I should've died October 29, 2018, at 26 years of age. Hopefully I'm dead before my mid thirties.

[alltrapbrah]

This doesnt apply to me. I can't find ANYONE that i relate to at all. Whatsoever. That is the problem. There isn't one person i've met since at least 2016 that i even wanted to talk to.

Right.

This one definitely does:

Upsetting yourself about other people and events will usually sidetrack you from your main concern - the way you behave, the things you do. If you control your own destiny, by properly cultivating your own emotional garden, you will not agitate yourself too much over bad things and you may even help change them for the better. But if you unduly upset yourself over outside events, you will consume so much time and energy that you will have little left for your own goals.

[eod8989]

Just went out again and got deoressed. Mall is empty with stupid social distancing and 90% of people wearing masks. There really is just nothing to do. Idk how people find going places and consuming fun. I already have everything anyways. But I just see people finding entertainment in consuming or the most mundane things like going to restaurants

[2RDEYE]

Just went out again and got deoressed. Mall is empty with stupid social distancing and 90% of people wearing masks. There really is just nothing to do. Idk how people find going places and consuming fun. I already have everything anyways. But I just see people finding entertainment in consuming or the most mundane things like going to restaurants

i haven't talked to anyone except my 6 year old sister in like 3 weeks. u should hear me talk man it's like a whisper and like i forgot how to talk lol. ****in embarassing. went into a store to buy something... ahh uhh uhhh i was uhhh wondering if u guys had this uhh cant remember the name in stock uhh... super socially awkward now

[eod8989]

i haven't talked to anyone except my 6 year old sister in like 3 weeks. u should hear me talk man it's like a whisper and like i forgot how to talk lol. ****in embarassing. went into a store to buy something... ahh uhh uhhh i was uhhh wondering if u guys had this uhh cant remember the name in stock uhh... super socially awkward now

I'm the same way a lot of times man. Depression messed up my social and cognitive abilities. I'm like retarded now.

[BigTimePlayer]

Not really sure at this point what I can do to feel happier. Things just feel stagnant at this point & not sure what the point of anything is anymore. I just feel like I’m going through the motions everyday. Just tired of the low moods knocking the wind out of me where I just want to lie in bed. I feel like I need an accumulation of multiple things to happen for me to have a chance to not feel awful.

[BigTimePlayer]

So my job is reopening in 2 weeks & I’ll be making a lot less money just for going back. So awesome. This life is such a joke. lol how much is one supposed to take & accept with how boring & ****ty life is.

[eod8989]

So my job is reopening in 2 weeks & I’ll be making a lot less money just for going back. So awesome. This life is such a joke. lol how much is one supposed to take & accept with how boring & ****ty life is.

Theres nothing you can do when you get older and get a real job man. Everyone becomes boring and selfish and retarded and we are just stuck going through the motions. Its bull****

[eod8989]

Even when i talk to people they just start chit or don't care about anything really, or act like they know everything. It's pointless. How can one stay positive when all they get is negative results?

What do you guys do to get out of this mess?

[GrinDaddy]

Loneliness is truly the most debilitating thing one can endure. The great English poet John Donne hit the nail on the head in the 17th century when he said "No man is an island". I've always suffered from anxiety since my early teenage years, and surprisingly to myself I've managed it fairly well. However, my girlfriend of 4 years blindsided me worse than a block that would garner a $100k plus fine in the NFL six months ago. I made the mistake of putting all my eggs in one basket with our relationship, and lost the minimal friends I had in the process. She was everything to me and my loyalty turned out to be my downfall. I am completely broken now and my anxiety has compounded ten fold due to having literally nobody in my life. Everyday is the same with no interaction since I work from home now. Not that I had any friends at work, but at least there was some forced face to face functions which was apparently good for me now that I'm looking back. I simply wake up depressed/anxious these days, work, and end the day how I started. A broken man just begging for it to end.

My depression really hit me like a ton of bricks a few weeks ago though when I turned 28, and with over 300 "friends" on ********, I received one - literally one - post on my wall and no texts. It was from my aunt who lives halfway across the country. I realized then if I were to fall off the face of the Earth, so few people would miss a beat. My insignificance to anyone, even an animal, is utterly pathetic. I have nobody, and when you feel that day after day, it just bruises you a little more. Death by a thousand cuts I suppose. Sorry for the ramble, just wanted you all to know I read these posts and in a strange way it helps a lot, so maybe mine will return the favor.

[sandman2019]

Loneliness is truly the most debilitating thing one can endure. The great English poet John Donne hit the nail on the head in the 17th century when he said "No man is an island". I've always suffered from anxiety since my early teenage years, and surprisingly to myself I've managed it fairly well. However, my girlfriend of 4 years blindsided me worse than a block that would garner a $100k plus fine in the NFL six months ago. I made the mistake of putting all my eggs in one basket with our relationship, and lost the minimal friends I had in the process. She was everything to me and my loyalty turned out to be my downfall. I am completely broken now and my anxiety has compounded ten fold due to having literally nobody in my life. Everyday is the same with no interaction since I work from home now. Not that I had any friends at work, but at least there was some forced face to face functions which was apparently good for me now that I'm looking back. I simply wake up depressed/anxious these days, work, and end the day how I started. A broken man just begging for it to end.

My depression really hit me like a ton of bricks a few weeks ago though when I turned 28, and with over 300 "friends" on ********, I received one - literally one - post on my wall and no texts. It was from my aunt who lives halfway across the country. I realized then if I were to fall off the face of the Earth, so few people would miss a beat. My insignificance to anyone, even an animal, is utterly pathetic. I have nobody, and when you feel that day after day, it just bruises you a little more. Death by a thousand cuts I suppose. Sorry for the ramble, just wanted you all to know I read these posts and in a strange way it helps a lot, so maybe mine will return the favor.

I know how you feel man, I can't imagine what it's like hell I had a 7 month relationship.. I still think of her every single day and post about her on the misc. Everyone hates me for doing it but little do they understand how lonely I've been my entire life.
****ing sucks. I feel like my brain has rotted from lack of interaction over the last several years. id kill to have my gf back. just someone to talk to, hang out with someone that actually cares bout me.

[BigTimePlayer]

Anyone else feel like they always have to force themselves to do things without really even wanting to do them due to feeling like ****? A lot of the time even if I put on a movie or game I feel like I force myself to do it just to try to keep busy than I just lose interest & wind up back doing nothing again. It sucks feeling like I have nothing to look forward to or just never feeling right.

[eod8989]

Anyone else feel like they always have to force themselves to do things without really even wanting to do them due to feeling like ****? A lot of the time even if I put on a movie or game I feel like I force myself to do it just to try to keep busy than I just lose interest & wind up back doing nothing again. It sucks feeling like I have nothing to look forward to or just never feeling right.

Yes I get bored of everything that involves socializing and just want to do my hobbies or sit on the pc or something. Or lift. Theres nothing else to do man.

When i get around people I get bored quick. I would have to really connect with someone to hang out with them. And thats only been a few people in my life.

[BigTimePlayer]

Yes I get bored of everything that involves socializing and just want to do my hobbies or sit on the pc or something. Or lift. Theres nothing else to do man.

When i get around people I get bored quick. I would have to really connect with someone to hang out with them. And thats only been a few people in my life.

I’m just tired of not feeling well. It’s just annoying not being able to do what I want when I want due to the change in moods & other ****. And yeah there’s no one to talk to anymore without being bored. The conversations are always about boring stuff where I don’t know how people talk for hours about nothing.

[eod8989]

I’m just tired of not feeling well. It’s just annoying not being able to do what I want when I want due to the change in moods & other ****. And yeah there’s no one to talk to anymore without being bored. The conversations are always about boring stuff where I don’t know how people talk for hours about nothing.

See the thing is i just get annoyed with little things people do or don't relate to them at all so for me there is really no way out of this unless i just get lucky. Idk about you. I'm not a social person so talking about a bunch of boring stuff or stuff i'm not interested isn't going to work. I avoid people and conversations i don't want to be in. Which is like 99.999999999% of them. I can be perfectly happy just having a little bit of social time where other people seem to need it almost 24/7.

Some times people will be talking and i will all of a sudden just want to talk but that is rare. I just don't connect with anyone anymore. I'm just a loner at heart. Maybe you are too.

[BigTimePlayer]

See the thing is i just get annoyed with little things people do or don't relate to them at all so for me there is really no way out of this unless i just get lucky. Idk about you. I'm not a social person so talking about a bunch of boring stuff or stuff i'm not interested isn't going to work. I avoid people and conversations i don't want to be in. Which is like 99.999999999% of them. I can be perfectly happy just having a little bit of social time where other people seem to need it almost 24/7.

Some times people will be talking and i will all of a sudden just want to talk but that is rare. I just don't connect with anyone anymore. I'm just a loner at heart. Maybe you are too.

I’m a bit of a loner but I still want to be able to hang out with people from time to time. I don’t want to be stuck by myself 363 days a year which is pretty much my life. If I’m lucky I hang out with someone once or twice a year than the rest of my days it’s either spent at home, the gym or at work. The things I would like to do & try I need a social circle. I’m not going to travel to California by myself on a vacation for instance or go skiing or to the beach alone. I get bored doing things like that by myself & it just makes me more depressed knowing I have no one to go with.

[eod8989]

I’m a bit of a loner but I still want to be able to hang out with people from time to time. I don’t want to be stuck by myself 363 days a year which is pretty much my life. If I’m lucky I hang out with someone once or twice a year than the rest of my days it’s either spent at home, the gym or at work. The things I would like to do & try I need a social circle. I’m not going to travel to California by myself on a vacation for instance or go skiing or to the beach alone. I get bored doing things like that by myself & it just makes me more depressed knowing I have no one to go with.

See i want this too but i don't ever meet anyone who i enjoy talking to. I don't get it man. It's just a general vibe type of thing. I just feel like it's extremely hard to make friends these days. You can socialize but you basically have to like normie stuff and not be an introvert. You sound like an extreme introvert in your posts.

[2RDEYE]

do u guys get disassociation/derealization. i've been severely detached like visually and perception-wise since my injury, but the concussion doctor and the neuro-psychologist said it's actually my anxiety or depression that is leaking into physical symptoms like dissociative feeling and vision. i thought it was my eyes that are bad but a lot of it is probably my anxiety.

[eod8989]

do u guys get disassociation/derealization. i've been severely detached like visually and perception-wise since my injury, but the concussion doctor and the neuro-psychologist said it's actually my anxiety or depression that is leaking into physical symptoms like dissociative feeling and vision. i thought it was my eyes that are bad but a lot of it is probably my anxiety.

Yes man quiet often. If you have bad anxiety or depression i imagine you'd experience it to some degree. I think caffeine increases mine. But i need caffeine to function these days.

[eod8989]

I just dont understand what you're supposed to do if you are t social and dont know anyone. I cant keep up with other people socially. I don't relate with them at all.

Like I said everyone my age that I see socializing talks non stop and I can't do that

[BigTimePlayer]

do u guys get disassociation/derealization. i've been severely detached like visually and perception-wise since my injury, but the concussion doctor and the neuro-psychologist said it's actually my anxiety or depression that is leaking into physical symptoms like dissociative feeling and vision. i thought it was my eyes that are bad but a lot of it is probably my anxiety.

I used to get that a lot but not lately from what I remember. I did have bad heart palpitations yesterday night out of nowhere. **** made me nervous since you forget what it is after not happening much & it lasted for awhile. I guess maybe I was more stressed yesterday than I realized.

[BigTimePlayer]

I just dont understand what you're supposed to do if you are t social and dont know anyone. I cant keep up with other people socially. I don't relate with them at all.

Like I said everyone my age that I see socializing talks non stop and I can't do that

Because a lot of people can just talk nonsense about any subject. You can mention that you ate pizza today to someone than some people can literally go on & on about food for an hour. I mean to each their own but I don’t give a **** about conversations like that. I don’t know how they get excited over the most boring & pointless conversations.