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05-21-2019, 02:35 AM #4201
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05-21-2019, 06:38 AM #4202
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05-21-2019, 11:06 AM #4203
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05-21-2019, 04:06 PM #4204
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05-22-2019, 03:39 AM #4205
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05-22-2019, 10:25 AM #4206
yeah I don't think I can do it. I feel like ****ing crying today so I skipped class, skipped yesterday too. depression hasn't hit me this hard in so long. 26 years old no job, no career prospects, i'm ugly as ****. ****ing i'm feeling legit suicidal right now
There is only one Hell: the one we live in now.
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05-22-2019, 11:39 AM #4207
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05-22-2019, 11:55 AM #4208
different country, different world man. my cousin was a mushroom farmer in saudia arabia for $2 a DAY.
my relatives in the phillppines make like equivalent to $100 cad/month. but you can buy nice full dinner for $4 cad equivalent pesos. they don't have crazy tax like they do here either.
i live in canada where you can't even buy a mcdonalds meal for $10. with tax it's like $14. and then public transit commute back and forth is like $8
rather be poor in a poor country than poor in a rich country. canada is complete trash if you're poor. well it's a trash country in general, but it's worse if you're poor, and worse if you're poor and not white. it's not life. whereas in asia if you're poor you can still be happy. there's people in asia without jobs who love life. the vibe is much nicer in asia.Last edited by 2RDEYE; 05-22-2019 at 12:06 PM.
There is only one Hell: the one we live in now.
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05-22-2019, 04:07 PM #4209
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05-22-2019, 04:11 PM #4210
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05-22-2019, 04:34 PM #4211
Yeah, I’m sick of it man. Even my new store manager the other day labeled me as the quiet guy. He had to mention I’m quiet when no one else ever gets that label. Women are exempt from it since being quiet as a woman isn’t labeled as a negative in society but a quiet guy is deemed as a negative automatically & no one wants to be around you. It really does limit your quality of life being a quiet guy but if that’s your natural personally what are you supposed to do?
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05-22-2019, 04:38 PM #4212
Yeah my boss does this too. She always says "it's the man of no words" or "we will leave you alone now" and stuff like that. I swear people just think you are crazy or something if you are quiet. People always try to fuk with me and take jabs at me in conversation too so idk how to socialize when others are around because someone always does this and makes me look stupid.
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05-22-2019, 05:52 PM #4213
One minute my brother is being cool with me and then the next minute he is acting like a dick. Fuk him I'm sick of him and his OCD split personality bull****! Hes been acting like this towards me lately I'm getting really pissed off.
Let him pop his pills and smoke his weed. Fat fuking slob.Training Log:
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05-22-2019, 07:11 PM #4214
uni is bull**** man, i failed some classes but when i tried properly i did really good in them. if you arent motivated, you wont do good. im telling you when it comes to a career, just think broader. you might actually like something thats a bit obscure like i said maybe something LE related like working at a court or something or a fire fighter
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05-23-2019, 12:14 AM #4215
Its only hard to hold a convo if you think about not knowing what to say, bc then you run out of stuff to say automatically, social skills are developed from being social so obvs bad social skills=less social=worse social skills
A good way to hold convos is to firstly watch podcats gives you things to talk about and practice in convos. I just talk about whatever comes to mind, if you overanalyze convos you panic and forget what 2 talk about.
I got more out going by drinking for 2weeks straight(srs), which was my intention going into it in order to rewire my brain. Most ppl should not attempt this unless you know you have the will power. Addy is a huge personality changer fr, makes you love to be social and you can legit talk 4ever id recommend that for 2-3months and a lot safer. You can hold 2hr phone convos easy, mad game etc. Your brain releases serotonin according to where you see yourself in the social hierachy. High rank = more serotonin, addy = more serotonin, you trick your brain into being high social status.6´3 crew
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05-23-2019, 06:24 AM #4216
**** lol. i had a phone interview, i think i had a good chance of being hired but i can't make it to the place because no buses around the time..... maybe i should buy a skateboard. but it's still a 40 minute walk lol. there's another high paying part-time job i'm really qualified for but need a car as well. **** this city. public transit should be high priority for big cities. people in charge of cities are so stupid. you want us all ****in driving. there's no ****in place to park cars. roads are already congested. not everyone can afford that **** either. only japan does cities properly, got buses and advanced trains going everywhere. extremely populated city but barely any traffic, and able to get anywhere you want without a car, that's how you do a city.
people who can't afford a car + can't get a job because no car, brb doesn't make sense. + brb city is already congested with cars = brb city doesn't come with a solution = **** this country
i can't imagine failing my classes. spend so much money on them. i would have been better off spending the money on first aid training so i could become a first aid attendant. still thinking about that actually but the training is like $900. i spent $1500 on college... well I got lucky because the government gave me a low-income grant lol. so I actually only paid about $400Last edited by 2RDEYE; 05-23-2019 at 11:41 AM.
There is only one Hell: the one we live in now.
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05-24-2019, 04:40 AM #4217
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05-24-2019, 12:04 PM #4218
All i do is misc and lay in bed all day
I don't get it when i go places all i see is people with their families or whatever shopping or going places to eat. People seem so happy just talking to each other and doing simple things. Yet i feel like i'm the only one with this crippling depression. But it never fails no matter where i go 98% of people are talking to each other like they have been friends forever.PC specs
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05-24-2019, 12:32 PM #4219
I don’t get how people can be happy just doing the same boring things all the time. I guess having a social life makes things more fun for them where it doesn’t feel boring. I just don’t know where to meet people anymore. At my job a few days ago there was an older woman I was briefly interacting with saying how people are always on their cellphones these days & that no one talks to each other anymore. I agreed 100% & if an older woman like that is in the know than it must be true. What I don’t understand is if no one is social anymore how is it everyday I constantly see people in groups or guys are always with these good looking wives/girlfriends. I really think other people are just programmed into things & they naturally work out for them while I’m one of the only real people in this world. It’s just so damn bizarre man how things organically work out for everyone even with how no one talks to one another anymore. You go out anywhere & people are glued to their cellphones or have earbuds in not wanting to be bothered.
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05-24-2019, 01:12 PM #4220
Yeah I dont get how people dont get bored that is what I have a hard time grasping. It seems like everywhere you go though people have their own little social groups and these people can just talk all day so easily
I get bored af if I have to talk to people for more than like 20 minutes but it seems like 98% of people just fukin love talking and I dont get it.
How do they not get bored or run out of things to say?
Everyone is glued to their phones if they are alone but that like I said is only maybe 2 or 5% of people. But anyone like that isnt goin to talk anyways so my only chance is to try and fit into someone else's group which is impossible when you have no friends anywhere
Like literally everyone I interact with on a daily basis seems like an extrovert too. I can't be around those people for very long because I need time to recharge.PC specs
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1440p 120+ fps only crew
6'2 master race crew
Audiophile crew
Metal crew
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05-24-2019, 08:33 PM #4221
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05-25-2019, 05:51 AM #4222
Almost relapsed on self harm. One of the reasons I just got out of a relationship was because she didn’t like the fact I was on antidepressants.
I wasn’t ****ed up on them.. she never saw me take them or my bottles. It really hurt. The only girl to ever make me feel so.. terrible about being on medication.
I guess smoking dabs and drinking is a better way to cope from her avrooms. Only 3 months but I really liked her. I do drink but not a lot. I don’t smoke.educate yourself before you wreck yourself.
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05-25-2019, 09:30 AM #4223
Out of town right now at some mall and like I said it's just 100% couples and kids everywhere. I walked around for a bit but the whole time I was thinking I already have everything I need here and I can just get this stuff online. I just dont understand why I always feel this way all a dr will do is tell me I'm depressed but it seems like there is nothing I can do to help myself
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i9 9900k/AMD RX 6800 16 GB/16 GB RAM/LG BX 65'' OLED/Gigabyte GS27QC 27''
OLED Master Race crew
1440p 120+ fps only crew
6'2 master race crew
Audiophile crew
Metal crew
Introvert/INTJ crew
German crew
If you aren't getting stronger you aren't getting bigger crew
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05-25-2019, 02:06 PM #4224
I have to work in less than an hour & feel horrible right now. I just don’t understand why I always have to feel so miserable. I have no energy right now & just want to lay in bed. I envy people that can just wake up & feel good about the day naturally without worrying about anything. I just feel like a lost soul these days where I don’t even know why I’m still here. Everything just feels depressing, pointless & boring.
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05-25-2019, 03:41 PM #4225
i need a job man
applied to like 10 diff jobs ****in only 1 call and i can't get that job cause no car lol **** me
all my bills are going to my student loans, thank god i have student loans lol. it's like credit card except interest isn't until later onThere is only one Hell: the one we live in now.
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05-26-2019, 02:54 AM #4226
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Trust me dude, not everyone is stoked about working but it's the fact of being dependent on that income of working to pay for your current lifestyle. It helps to like what you do especially if it's a milestone to something better but if your current lifestyle is dependent on it then you don't have much of a choice unless you have a new opportunity with better circumstances that you can move on towards. In regards to your general energy, it could be your sleeping schedules and/or current diet/nutrition. Are you eating enough carbs? Are you drinking at least 2L of water daily?
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05-26-2019, 04:27 AM #4227
Medication.
Lifting, supplements and yoga only go so far.
I had a problem with a substance. I’ve battled social anxiety since I was 21 (bipolar since 12)
Go to a bar. Not a club and try and make friends. Go early, around 9-10 o clock. It’s the best time. Make friends with a group of girls. Uglier is the best because you learn social skills. Then go from there. Rejection is going to happen but it’s just like breaking a PR.
FYI Iwas in Santa Cruz on business and didn’t make any friends until the last night I was there. 2 nights out and went home without a single new friend.
You want friends? Push yourself. Talk in the mirror. Don’t be quite and shy. Learn from your mistakes.
Imagine what type of friend you want and be him/her
I just hooked up with a girl I’ve been trying to for five years. It’s not about confidence, it’s about being genuine.educate yourself before you wreck yourself.
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05-26-2019, 01:55 PM #4228
internet is ****ing poision.... so close to asking for a perma-ban or something. but it wouldn't really help because i'd be on other forums. Avoiding internet doesn't work in this world anymore... need it for everything. Except on vacation.
****in everyone makes me mad on the internet now lol. gets my blood boiling so hard.There is only one Hell: the one we live in now.
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05-26-2019, 02:00 PM #4229
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05-26-2019, 05:08 PM #4230
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