[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[wnc817]

Unlikely. More likely you're just engaging more cope? Try IF, that way you're much more likely not to underestimate just how much you eat per day.I wouldn't agree depression can be cause by poor nutrition, but it most certainly can be exacerbated by it. My mood can change drastically from the time I'm hungry to the time I'm satiated. Luckily, my bio-feedback capabilities have improved exponentially since I've been under therapy so getting to an intolerable level is now virtually non-existent.

It's good to hear that you are doing well. I know what it's like to get "hangry" and start yelling at people.

It's not so much that someone isn't eating healthy foods, but that they may be lacking certain essential nutrients. B3 is a big one. Many Schizo people are cured after taking large enough doses. Some of the more long-term cases required supplementation for five years to get better. Lithium is found in drinking water, but only in certain areas. Although SAM-e is a natural chemical in the body, it is used as a prescription anti-depressant in a few European countries.

[300BLK]

Trying to officially quit smoking again, had my last smoke a day or two ago and feel like absolute dogchit.

Part of me keeps saying, "fuk it man, you like smoking. Why suffer? Have at it."
Other part of me keeps saying, "don't listen to him, you can get through this, you have before, smoking isn't good in the long run, you planned to quit, so time to fulfill it."

Welp I failed. Someone bought more smokes and it was impossible to say no, but was going strong for 3 days if not 4. Oh well. Will try again next time.

[KRANE]

Im a 27 year old male and am working as a new engineer in Florida. Away from family, friends. I'm lonely, feel like I'm pidgeonholed in my job, and depressed. I failed navy flight school after college, so 3 years after graduating, I have started over doing engineering.

I feel like I've fallen behind, I can't get a gf, I'm losing the dominance hierarchy.

What is your Hierarchy of Needs? A girlfriend can be the best thing that ever happened to you or the worse thing in your life. You really need to get stable -- and comfortable in your own skin -- first so that you don't become devastated and fall apart when the relationship ends.

I just got off the phone with a friend who did engineering for 2 years after graduating, one year each at 2 places. Then last year he got a supervisor position at a new place paying 95k, and he had no experience in this sector of engineering. I'm making 60k. And he's being told he's being groomed for VP. To top it off, he looks like a model, has a model tier wife, new beautiful baby, and is extremely athletic.

People often look a lot better off than they really are when you're looking in from the outside. You really need to stop comparing yourself to the Jones and chart your own course. Your success is what you determine. Not someone elses ideas.

My HR rep told me "sure, once your a senior engineer you can look for supervisor positions". Senior engineer is 15 years experience.

So now you know it's time to cross that persons advice off your list. If they're not telling you something positive then its time to move on.

Right now the plan is to try to get into a good full time MBA program in another 3 years. I think that's my best hope to do something lucrative. I will do whatever it takes to get ahead but I feel stuck since I'm being trained as the sole structural engineer at my company once my mentor retires in a year.

You seem very committed to your career. Why this is so important to you?

I just need to vent a little. Still terrified I won't get into a good full time MBA and I'll stay behind my former classmates and other men when it comes to getting women. Honestly, a large part of this is about social status, money, women, standing in the dominance hierarchy.

Again, the comparison. Ever consider that maybe they'd like to be like you?

I spend most nights staying home drinking or watching porn or Netflix. I'm trying to cut those out. I got involved in a couple meetups that should be fun and hopefully make some friends. I wish I had a better personality, and better looking. ****. I know I'm just bitching. Flight school set me back so far. If I just did engineering after school I'd already be applying to mba's, but now I need good experience here first. I wish I lived life as a Chad. And I'm saving all my money to improve my looks (already got a hair transplant), but if I was already making more, it'd only take like 3 years,

Nobody succeeds 100% of the time. What is your Plan B?

This life is so ****n boring brahs

If you say it is. Then is becomes your reality.

[2RDEYE]

god my job is depressing me so much because of the supervisors and managers. like the actual job is very simple and coworkers are really cool. but the bosses are ****ing incompetent...

it's such a hard decision to make to leave though. job i like, but bosses are idiots. i dont' even have time to think about beyond this chit warehousing job because i only have 3 hours to spend at home because of the chit commute.

i want to ****ing cry. wish i had gone to school so ****in bad. still dont know what to take though. ****in life is so ****in hard. all i can think about is that i'm gonna be working in a warehouse my entire life... which i don't mean to offend people who do but it's just so hard to get into a good career, if ur chit at school.

so stressed. gonna be ****in 30 with no real job i know it

[KRANE]

god my job is depressing me so much because of the supervisors and managers. like the actual job is very simple and coworkers are really cool. but the bosses are ****ing incompetent...

That's not unique -- all bosses are. That's not true, I've had great bosses more than once.

it's such a hard decision to make to leave though. job i like, but bosses are idiots. i dont' even have time to think about beyond this chit warehousing job because i only have 3 hours to spend at home because of the chit commute.

On one hand it's killing you to stay; but on the other, it's difficulty to leave the job security. All I can say is that if I could do it over, I would have left a lot sooner...a whole lot sooner.[quote]

i want to ****ing cry. wish i had gone to school so ****in bad. [quote]What's stopping your?

still dont know what to take though. ****in life is so ****in hard. all i can think about is that i'm gonna be working in a warehouse my entire life... which i don't mean to offend people who do but it's just so hard to get into a good career, if ur chit at school.

so stressed. gonna be ****in 30 with no real job i know it

Take a test to see what you're good at. Then you at least have a list of things to choose from.

[eod8989]

god my job is depressing me so much because of the supervisors and managers. like the actual job is very simple and coworkers are really cool. but the bosses are ****ing incompetent...

it's such a hard decision to make to leave though. job i like, but bosses are idiots. i dont' even have time to think about beyond this chit warehousing job because i only have 3 hours to spend at home because of the chit commute.

i want to ****ing cry. wish i had gone to school so ****in bad. still dont know what to take though. ****in life is so ****in hard. all i can think about is that i'm gonna be working in a warehouse my entire life... which i don't mean to offend people who do but it's just so hard to get into a good career, if ur chit at school.

so stressed. gonna be ****in 30 with no real job i know it

Warehouse is the worst work out there, so I would do anything but that. I worked in one 3 years ago and it was one of the worst experiences of my life

[2RDEYE]

[QUOTE=KRANE;1533978211]That's not unique -- all bosses are. That's not true, I've had great bosses more than once.
On one hand it's killing you to stay; but on the other, it's difficulty to leave the job security. All I can say is that if I could do it over, I would have left a lot sooner...a whole lot sooner.[quote]

i want to ****ing cry. wish i had gone to school so ****in bad.

What's stopping your?Take a test to see what you're good at. Then you at least have a list of things to choose from.

yeah i've had very few good bosses and supervisors, but the good ones make a huge difference, like i actually respect and would work very hard for them... after knowing good supervisors like that it's so easy to tell apart the chit and the good ones.

the job security is definitely a factor in me staying too. because i am already comfortable with whats going on.

Warehouse is the worst work out there, so I would do anything but that. I worked in one 3 years ago and it was one of the worst experiences of my life

it's all i can think of that i can do, and am good at. i'm not good at jobs like customer service, or dealing with phones. i can't handle those. and i don't like trade jobs...

so ****in stressed....... i feel like im gonna lose my chit. i lost my chit like 2 days ago in the gym. im so ****in tired of this ****in old asian chithead putting his water bottle and towel on equipment he doesn't use. i ****in threw his water bottle away. he didn't say chit, but i could tell he was like wtf?? i already told that ******* not to do that couple months ago. he does it all the ****in time and doesn't even use that equipment. he puts his chit on the cable row bench to be specific. im using it tomorrow, lets see if this ****ing kunt says anything. the guy has no ****in consideration for other people

[eod8989]

[QUOTE=2RDEYE;1533979471][QUOTE=KRANE;1533978211]That's not unique -- all bosses are. That's not true, I've had great bosses more than once.
On one hand it's killing you to stay; but on the other, it's difficulty to leave the job security. All I can say is that if I could do it over, I would have left a lot sooner...a whole lot sooner.

i want to ****ing cry. wish i had gone to school so ****in bad.

yeah i've had very few good bosses and supervisors, but the good ones make a huge difference, like i actually respect and would work very hard for them... after knowing good supervisors like that it's so easy to tell apart the chit and the good ones.

the job security is definitely a factor in me staying too. because i am already comfortable with whats going on.



it's all i can think of that i can do, and am good at. i'm not good at jobs like customer service, or dealing with phones. i can't handle those. and i don't like trade jobs...

so ****in stressed....... i feel like im gonna lose my chit. i lost my chit like 2 days ago in the gym. im so ****in tired of this ****in old asian chithead putting his water bottle and towel on equipment he doesn't use. i ****in threw his water bottle away. he didn't say chit, but i could tell he was like wtf?? i already told that ******* not to do that couple months ago. he does it all the ****in time and doesn't even use that equipment. he puts his chit on the cable row bench to be specific. im using it tomorrow, lets see if this ****ing kunt says anything. the guy has no ****in consideration for other people

It's possible to change because I did. But it is not easy that's for sure. I'm stuck in this office as well and I hate it. I'd rather be doing factory work but not dealing with the dick head bosses and extreme hard labor because of my neck.

[ScramFranklin]

What is your Hierarchy of Needs? A girlfriend can be the best thing that ever happened to you or the worse thing in your life. You really need to get stable -- and comfortable in your own skin -- first so that you don't become devastated and fall apart when the relationship ends.People often look a lot better off than they really are when you're looking in from the outside. You really need to stop comparing yourself to the Jones and chart your own course. Your success is what you determine. Not someone elses ideas.So now you know it's time to cross that persons advice off your list. If they're not telling you something positive then its time to move on.You seem very committed to your career. Why this is so important to you?Again, the comparison. Ever consider that maybe they'd like to be like you?Nobody succeeds 100% of the time. What is your Plan B?If you say it is. Then is becomes your reality.

Thanks for your reply.

Well I'm getting my basic needs met for sure. I think a lot of it has to do with men's natural competitive drive. Gaining power, influence, etc. And I think we have that innate drive in order to attract a mate and be able to pass on our genes. I realize i need to stop comparing myself to others.... but I feel like that's the best way to measure how I'm doing. Like in a race, we know the person in first did well by comparing him to the other racers.

My career is so important to me because of the above, and it's finally a chance to be "cool". I was very nice growing up and picked on even though I was nice. I was "cool" to an extent at my military college.... but i think I still yearn for male and female approval, admiration..... I think about going back to highschool in another ten years and doing better than all the popular kids. I got along with many of them, but I was never "one of them". They got the girls, the attention, etc. Also, the more money I make the quicker I can change my appearance for the better... fix my recessed jaws, get my hairline lower, get my crooked nose straigher.... maybe even do the height surgery or something for a bigger dick if its safe and works.

I definitely do have many insecurities I need to work out. Height (even though I'm 5'11'', dick size, how attracted women are to me, how attractive my face is, my balding, my voice, how much money I make, my athleticism..... literally everything you could possibly think of. But I also think those things are real, and I'm just coping if I'm okay with them.

I don't see why they would want to be like me. My little brother has been way more successful than me and that stings. Plus he's taller, and has a bigger frame. I just sometimes wish I could go back in time and do things better...and change my genes.

My Plan B if I dont get into a good fulltime MBA is to get a good part time MBA and then try to move to a F500 company and work my way up. It will just be much tougher and unlikely to do that way. I think that's the most likely way to have a lucrative career and make great money.

It seems although I'm very low in "conscientiousness" in the big 5 personality traits. Right now I'm trying to improve that..... I think my plan will be attainable if I can actually stay organized, committed to a task, stop procrastinating, spend less time messing on my ipad and spend more time on my career. Higher conscientiousness would have helped my college gpa, helped me in flight school, etc.

[2RDEYE]

i got fired from my job out of the blue...... it's like a feeling of relief but at the same time... what the **** do i do now. gonna have to job hunt like crazy before i become insanely socially anxious again. cause the only place i can communicate with people is in a workplace.

i'm actually very depressed about it

[eod8989]

i got fired from my job out of the blue...... it's like a feeling of relief but at the same time... what the **** do i do now. gonna have to job hunt like crazy before i become insanely socially anxious again. cause the only place i can communicate with people is in a workplace.

Yeah same here. I have to actually work with people to get to know them. All of my friends i've ever made were made from work. I have no idea how to just initiate a decent conversation with people in passing, it just seems so weird to me.

Also i got fired from Scholastic 3 years ago for having a DWI lol. That place was horrible. I left work early some nights because it was such a ****ty job

[2RDEYE]

Yeah same here. I have to actually work with people to get to know them. All of my friends i've ever made were made from work. I have no idea how to just initiate a decent conversation with people in passing, it just seems so weird to me.

Also i got fired from Scholastic 3 years ago for having a DWI lol. That place was horrible. I left work early some nights because it was such a ****ty job

yeah all the communication i had with people outside my family for like the past 8 years has been from work. i wish i had close friends outside of work.

the thing that always happens whenever i quit or am fired is that i ALWAYS become insanely socially anxious and lazy. i ****in hate it. like my social skills becomes zero because of lack of practice, every time... gonna try to find a job right away but i know it probably wont happen. i'll probably go through a chit ton of job hopping... hard to find a job that i can stand

fuk me not even motivated to job hunt fuk... i'll do it tmr ...just got off work.

[eod8989]

yeah all the communication i had with people outside my family for like the past 8 years has been from work. i wish i had close friends outside of work.

the thing that always happens whenever i quit or am fired is that i ALWAYS become insanely socially anxious and lazy. i ****in hate it. like my social skills becomes zero because of lack of practice, every time... gonna try to find a job right away but i know it probably wont happen. i'll probably go through a chit ton of job hopping... hard to find a job that i can stand

fuk me not even motivated to job hunt fuk... i'll do it tmr ...just got off work.

Yeah i don't talk to people at the gym or anything. I don't know why but it's just hard to get close to people unless i work with them because it actually forces me to get to know them

[2RDEYE]

Yeah i don't talk to people at the gym or anything. I don't know why but it's just hard to get close to people unless i work with them because it actually forces me to get to know them

yeah, it feels sort of like idk, i haven't been in the army, but it's like we become a band of brothers, cause we spend 40 hours a week with each other dealing with bullchit. well if they are cool workers... which is rarely the case for me...

[eod8989]

yeah, it feels sort of like idk, i haven't been in the army, but it's like we become a band of brothers, cause we spend 40 hours a week with each other dealing with bullchit. well if they are cool workers... which is rarely the case for me...

Yeah, it's easy to relate to coworkers because you can always talk about work lol. Then you can talk about whatever else if they have any of the same interests. You have to get to know them eventually. Sucks because i don't have any coworkers either. I need to quit my job but i would be giving up the best insurance and job security

[eod8989]

Going to the gym at 430 am tomorrow again. I go almost every day. But nobody really talks there. The only people that are social are the weird older guys. Even if people did talk i don't know how i could ever make friends with any of them in that environment. It's just such a weird feeling trying to make friends with other guys at my age. There's just no way i care enough to socialize with people unless i really connect with them through similar hobbies/passions. It's like finding a needle in a haystack these days i swear.

[8eggs]

The struggle is real , keep fighting Bro's. Tomorrow can be that turning point .

[2RDEYE]

fuk... that first day feel of no job... brb going to the gym... and then what? fuk my life

[eod8989]

fuk... that first day feel of no job... brb going to the gym... and then what? fuk my life

I went to the gym 4 hours ago. Idk this life is so brutal. It's 25 degrees outside so i'm pretty sure i'm going to rot on the computer all day again. There is no point in any of this at all.

[Smashiin]

Feeling better today than i have in weeks. No more nightmares and I vented to my mom about why I've been stressed out and a bit depressed. She is so understanding and caring. Feel a lot better now after getting all that off my chest.

[2RDEYE]

I went to the gym 4 hours ago. Idk this life is so brutal. It's 25 degrees outside so i'm pretty sure i'm going to rot on the computer all day again. There is no point in any of this at all.

lol leg day for me so i didn't go yet. no motivation. usually i go before work because i'm going outside anyways. but when i have nothing to do or no where to go. i'm just like what's the point.

[eod8989]

lol leg day for me so i didn't go yet. no motivation. usually i go before work because i'm going outside anyways. but when i have nothing to do or no where to go. i'm just like what's the point.

That's why i go early in the morning after coffee. Fuk man there is literally nothing to do. It's going to be cold as fuk for the next 4 months. Without friends there is nowhere to go in this town. The misc isn't even that active anymore until the evening so its hard to even find good threads to post on here these days. Fuuuuuk

[2RDEYE]

i wonder if i can call the suicide hotline just to retain my oral communication skills. i already feel like i'm losing the ability to talk

[eod8989]

i wonder if i can call the suicide hotline just to retain my oral communication skills. i already feel like i'm losing the ability to talk

I'm like a deer in the headlights when it comes to talking these days. Too depressed. Plus i don't know anyone so every convo is weird and superficial. I'm definitely on the spectrum these days

I'm just really sad and it oozes out of me. I just wish someone would understand my life these days

[2RDEYE]

applied to an agency for another warehouse job. and these mother ****ers want 2 references.. its a ****in warehouse job god damn

[ScramFranklin]

Just feeling a little down today. Already in bed. Wish I had some friends to hang out with but I guess that will come if I keep going to meet ups to meet people

[eod8989]

Man i love just sitting around at home all winter every year

[SteadyWayfarer]

Yeah, I hope this Winter won't be that bad for us. Today, I felt more suicidal than usual, and wasn't productive at all. I have to find better ways to spend my free time.

[2RDEYE]

i just played video games 12 hours straight. ****in hate it. like i actually think going out and getting high and doing whatever outside, even by myself, would be a better lifestyle.

tomorrow is my uncle's 70'th birthday. we are having a huge party somewhere. gonna ****in suck seeing cousins my age group with their girlfriends and chit. i'm just gonna order like 2 bottles of wine and get pissed drunk. maybe i'll go ****in high. and then fall asleep.

[eod8989]

i just played video games 12 hours straight. ****in hate it. like i actually think going out and getting high and doing whatever outside, even by myself, would be a better lifestyle.

tomorrow is my uncle's 70'th birthday. we are having a huge party somewhere. gonna ****in suck seeing cousins my age group with their girlfriends and chit. i'm just gonna order like 2 bottles of wine and get pissed drunk. maybe i'll go ****in high. and then fall asleep.

When i was smoking and drinking it was much better. All you had to do was go somewhere and smoke or have a few drinks and you could socialize. When you're always sober staying inside it sucks.