[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

[RoxyFoxy22]

My mom and especially my brother have a negative impact on me and my life at this point. It's not healthy for me to love with them anymore as its toxic. I'm going to use them for what I need and after I get my own means of transportation and get a job and then save enough money up to move out, I am gone and they will never see or hear from me again.

My brother physically abused from the time I was 13-16yrs old. He put me through hell and I got real sick at 16 and had to drop out of school because i literally went A-wall. The doctor diagnosed me with bi polar schizophrenia and after that i have not been the same since. I've been on psyche meds for well over a decade to keep my mind as stable as possible. My brother takes no responsibility for what he did to me, almost like he doesn't even care and has no remorse.

My mom wishes and Hope's that I can forgive him and have an actual bond. But, fuk that I'm not giving him or her that satisfaction. They dont deserve it. My mother let him abuse me as she was addicted to opiates and didnt care about me or what I was going through. I was alone and lonely and no one cared about me and what I was being put through. She was never there for me when I needed her the most. Now, she can suffer along with him like I have for so long.

Fuk them both.

I'm so sorry because this happened to you. I wish you would have reported him to the police. Would it be possible for you to restart school for a period and leave the house when you are ready to take a job and rent a place by yourself ?

If you can get a job now, I think you could still join a high school or something and you could succeed. Don't give up, many people are in the same situation as you and they made it. Lots of luck <3

[eod8989]

Going NC on caffeine as i think it's a huge part of my problem. I haven't felt right since i started it 2.5 years ago. Quitting this chit so i feel normal again. It has so many bad side effects.

[manletstrength]

I'm so sorry because this happened to you. I wish you would have reported him to the police. Would it be possible for you to restart school for a period and leave the house when you are ready to take a job and rent a place by yourself ?

If you can get a job now, I think you could still join a high school or something and you could succeed. Don't give up, many people are in the same situation as you and they made it. Lots of luck <3

I want to get my GED as I'm way too old to go back to highschool. I started looking for a job today. I got to make some kind of money so I can save up and move out.

Their were times where I was going to press charges against him and my mom talked me out of it, of course. If it was now I'd do it in a heartbeat and not listen to her.

[BigTimePlayer]

Have had so many suicidal thoughts today. It’s just brutal living this way. I just feel so trapped in a hell I can’t escape from. Nothing helps no matter what I do.

[jesusxchrist]

Going NC on caffeine as i think it's a huge part of my problem. I haven't felt right since i started it 2.5 years ago. Quitting this chit so i feel normal again. It has so many bad side effects.

First post you’ve made where I agree with you

[manletstrength]

I have no one anymore. My brother and mother can go **** themselves. I have no love for my mother anymore like I use to. Shes totally changed into a fuking kunt. I wish she would just die.

[eod8989]

There's nowhere to go. Anytime I leave my house I see a Chad or stacy and feel fat and bloated or ugly af. Loneliness really rots your brain and makes you feel worthless.

[manletstrength]

I'm looking for a job today and when I do start working I'm saving up as much money as I can and moving out. Theres no point in me living here with my mother anymore. She has totally turned on me and I'm not going to put myself through this any longer. I'm fuking done with this piece of chit "mother" of mine. Yeah, the one who let her older son beat the fuk out of me everyday for years while she was popping pills left and right. What a fuking kunt!

[300BLK]

There's nowhere to go. Anytime I leave my house I see a Chad or stacy and feel fat and bloated or ugly af. Loneliness really rots your brain and makes you feel worthless.

How can you feel lonely if you have a gf? m8 it's all in your head

[Basiliskboy]

My family failed me and now they mock me for it. They never wanted me to have the things they didn’t have, and every self motivated effort I made to overcome my circumstance from highschool on, they would reject Downright tried to discourage me. Literally telling me I couldn’t do it, I shouldn’t do it, and they won’t let me do it.

These 25 years has been a bad misfortunate hand.

I over crying about it but I’m just reflecting on how incredibly negligent my “village” has been. It’s literally a miracle from God I didn’t end up some wannabe thug or some druggy by now

[eod8989]

How can you feel lonely if you have a gf? m8 it's all in your head

It doesn't really matter when my GF doesn't share the same interests as me. That's why i feel alone. Sucks not having anyone to experience your hobbies with.

[portamoral]

It doesn't really matter when my GF doesn't share the same interests as me. That's why i feel alone. Sucks not having anyone to experience your hobbies with.

you should tell her your misc username and let her read your posts. then post results

[300BLK]

I am so sick of this life.

Went to a family BBQ, all you can eat pretty much. We took food home, and someone decided to pack only two burgers. My brother earlier said he wanted one, but didn't claim one, while then later my sister decides she's going to fix herself the other one, and while she was doing it, I jokingly said I didn't give af that he wanted one, I wanted one too, so I ate the other one, and then my sister just gets all emotional, throws down the burger she was fixing and is like he can have it, and I'm like "wtf?" And then she goes and tells him that I said I didn't give af about him, like I said it in a serious manner, and here he comes confronting me saying what I did was evil af. Fuking dramatic asses. Your ass should have ate as many fuking burgers while we were there. Saying we should have split it, WHY DONT YOU SPLIT IT WITH MY SISTER? WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE ONE TO SPLIT IT? It's like they want me to be a fuknig doormat or something. Asses being dramatic over a fuking burger.

And then earlier they had the nerve to say I was "babied" by our parents, stating it like it was a fact, like uh, did our mom put a fuking knife to your throat and blame you for losing our dog when it was her fuking fault? And my stepdad basically treated me like Bender from The Breakfast Club; "This is what you get for spilling paint in the garage". And they have the nerve to say they took it easy on me. They don't know half the chit I had to put up with my parents. I'm so sick of this chit. So sick of having a fuking dramatic ass family who just bitches and complains about everything.

And it's weird too, because my brother is only this dramatic when my sister is around. How is he this influenced by her? It's fuking weird. And my sister used to tell me I was her favorite brother, but then her ass never fuking acts like it. Just a dramatic crazy ass family. I want to go NC on them so bad.

[KingNothing95]

You brahs think it’s worth it to force myself to do yoga or CrossFit classes to expand my social circle and meet girls? Cold approaching just doesn’t work unless the girl is way bellow my standards.

[ATT82121]

Any recovering alcoholics/binge-aholics in here?

[KingNothing95]

Any recovering alcoholics/binge-aholics in here?

Would you recommend it?

[ATT82121]

Would you recommend it?

Yeah brah as long as you enjoy it.

[eod8989]

On the verge of losing my job because of depression. My moods get so low that i have to leave or call in. I realize my job could be worst but idk how to deal with the petty environment and idk how to cope with monotonous 8 hour shifts. I tell myself things will be fine but as soon as i get there and deal with the BS i just go in these insanely low moods and brain fog and anxiety and can't focus.

[BigTimePlayer]

On the verge of losing my job because of depression. My moods get so low that i have to leave or call in. I realize my job could be worst but idk how to deal with the petty environment and idk how to cope with monotonous 8 hour shifts. I tell myself things will be fine but as soon as i get there and deal with the BS i just go in these insanely low moods and brain fog and anxiety and can't focus.

There’s so many days I just want to quit since I can’t deal with it anymore. It’s like I have to fight & force my way through all the negativeness within myself just to appear normal in public. I don’t really want to burn bridges with anyone though by quitting. What is one supposed to do if they reach a point where they literally can’t function at all though? How is someone expected to keep going to work in that condition.

[eod8989]

There’s so many days I just want to quit since I can’t deal with it anymore. It’s like I have to fight & force my way through all the negativeness within myself just to appear normal in public. I don’t really want to burn bridges with anyone though by quitting. What is one supposed to do if they reach a point where they literally can’t function at all though? How is someone expected to keep going to work in that condition.

That's basically where i'm at now. Why even go to work if you realize it's all just BS and you don't want to talk to anyone you work with and are in a depressed mood all day? Most people can cope somehow but i can't anymore.

[davik]

My family failed me and now they mock me for it. They never wanted me to have the things they didn’t have, and every self motivated effort I made to overcome my circumstance from highschool on, they would reject Downright tried to discourage me. Literally telling me I couldn’t do it, I shouldn’t do it, and they won’t let me do it.

These 25 years has been a bad misfortunate hand.

I over crying about it but I’m just reflecting on how incredibly negligent my “village” has been. It’s literally a miracle from God I didn’t end up some wannabe thug or some druggy by now

mate a lot of families have failed a lot of people, its the sign of the times not personal failures on their part. we're at the end of civilisation so you shouldnt blame them

[BigTimePlayer]

Why can you never escape the quiet label no matter what? Someone I work with today just had to mention I’m quiet & it’s just so annoying. People just flat out view quietness as a negative. It’s no wonder women don’t like me since it just seems like such a horrible trait to have for whatever reason.

[eod8989]

Why can you never escape the quiet label no matter what? Someone I work with today just had to mention I’m quiet & it’s just so annoying. People just flat out view quietness as a negative. It’s no wonder women don’t like me since it just seems like such a horrible trait to have for whatever reason.

Yeah you cant. The front desk people at the y dont even talk to me anymore because I'm just quiet and only say hello when I walk in. I get it nobody likes quiet people. But its not like I have much to say to people. I always see people talking but it's always about some random bs like peoples kids or something and idc about that.

[BigTimePlayer]

Yeah you cant. The front desk people at the y dont even talk to me anymore because I'm just quiet and only say hello when I walk in. I get it nobody likes quiet people. But its not like I have much to say to people. I always see people talking but it's always about some random bs like peoples kids or something and idc about that.

It just gets so old being labeled as the quiet guy though. No one has any respect for quiet people it feels like. Women want nothing to do with me because I bet they think I’m creepy or some **** just for being quiet. I really feel it’s the worst trait for a guy to have. Women can be quiet & no one cares or says anything but if it’s a guy than that label is with them forever.

[TheMrfabio]

On the verge of losing my job because of depression. My moods get so low that i have to leave or call in. I realize my job could be worst but idk how to deal with the petty environment and idk how to cope with monotonous 8 hour shifts. I tell myself things will be fine but as soon as i get there and deal with the BS i just go in these insanely low moods and brain fog and anxiety and can't focus.

I hear you and know what you feel like. I'm guessing a major change would be too much to handle at this time like changing jobs? I know when I moved to a different job the social circle there was much better and began to feel better. I couldn't stand all the drama bs and hamster wheel living from the old place. Really brought me down in AND out of work. Something to consider bro

[eod8989]

It just gets so old being labeled as the quiet guy though. No one has any respect for quiet people it feels like. Women want nothing to do with me because I bet they think I’m creepy or some **** just for being quiet. I really feel it’s the worst trait for a guy to have. Women can be quiet & no one cares or says anything but if it’s a guy than that label is with them forever.

yeah i feel like i creep women out too because they always give me the same reaction. Like omg i can't believe this guy is so quiet and i don't understand his sense of humor he is weird" reaction. Nobody takes me serious at all. I just don't think anyone likes me at all after i get labeled the quiet guy.

[eod8989]

How do you guys deal with being the quiet guy at work that nobody likes? I dont get why people treat me different because I just want to do my work and make money and dont talk much. I'm not there to join in on the drama or whatever else is going on I'm just there because I need money.

[Basiliskboy]

How do you guys deal with being the quiet guy at work that nobody likes? I dont get why people treat me different because I just want to do my work and make money and dont talk much. I'm not there to join in on the drama or whatever else is going on I'm just there because I need money.

I don’t feel like I escaped the quiet label but when I have something to say I say it. Idk why but this has gradually warmed people up to just talking to me. Not as much as others but they still talk to me.

I feel like mastering small talk is what we should get better at. Making observational conversation.

just yesterday at work I was in the back taking out the garbage with a coworker. There was a random trash couch just sitting in the middle of the back lot. I mentioned it, some way we got onto the topic of a city nearby.
I should’ve asked her what she was doing in that city or whatever. But yeah conversations are just a mess of random experiences and all you’re searching for is a good laugh to share with someone.

It’s crazy I haven’t figured that out until now, but up until now I haven’t really had that much experience socializing so yeah.

[BigTimePlayer]

When I socialize with people at work it’s mainly just talking about how the job sucks & things related to that. It’s probably the easiest way to talk to people at my job but when it comes to random topics I never have anything to say unless it’s something I’m interested in like gaming, movies or certain sports. Some people can just talk for literally hours straight about random pointless **** & I don’t know how they do it.

[eod8989]

When I socialize with people at work it’s mainly just talking about how the job sucks & things related to that. It’s probably the easiest way to talk to people at my job but when it comes to random topics I never have anything to say unless it’s something I’m interested in like gaming, movies or certain sports. Some people can just talk for literally hours straight about random pointless **** & I don’t know how they do it.

Yeah everyone i work with just talks about retarded random chit and i pretty much have given up talking and go back to just working alone but sometimes i get dragged into their conversations and just want to punch myself in the face. They think i'm an ******* because i just stay to myself. But it's like i don't want to talk about Marvel or drag queens every day or their kids or whatever they talk about. 2 of them just get bored and have like 2 hour conversations and repeat themselves over and over and i just want to scream.