Had the biggest breakdown of my entire life and almost lost my life...over women....

[Loko0000]

I'm pretty much the truest sense of the word:FA

- Never had an attractive woman find me attractive

- Virgin

- No friends

- No social circle. No way of establishing social circle



For this semester, I thought I found the one. after 7 painful years, I actually felt I connected(on a personal+emotional level) with a female. Ever since I was 15 years old, I've wanted a chick. But i'd always get rejected, told "the one will come for you, be patient", but she never came.

So I decided to start approaching women, dressing better. Still no luck and i'd get rejected

So I decided to focus on myself and goals. Decide to hide my feelings for women,do everything I could to suppress my emotions. Still didn't work.

But this semester, I thought I found her, and she became my oneitis. We talked a lot, she made attempts to talk to me. We had a lot of similar interests. But ultimately, like my entire life, I failed. I did ask her out, but she rejected me, and I will likely never see her again. Consequently because of the whole ordeal, i've lost more than 20lbs, and still losing some more. I can't think straight. When i was with her, I had hope, because I thought I could finally connect and get with a woman I found attractive.

But now I have no more hope. I've tried tinder, barely any matches+responses. Tried okcupid and other sites. No responses. There are barely any women I'm attracted to in the college i'm in, and without hope or light, i'm done.

As I was reading misc threads+******** and other forums, i came across threads where people were over 25 years old and still virgins. Miscers saying that manlets(I am one) have no chance of getting with good looking women. Miscers saying that if you you still haven't "smashed" women in college before 21, then you are a failure for life. Right now i'm a senior in college and still haven't gotten laid by a decent looking female.

All of the negativity on this forum+my entire life just combined together, and needless to say, I broke down hard. Cried to my hardest, punched the walls, screamed the loudest. Almost decided to just say **** it, and end it all and stab myself. But of course, I was too afraid and decided to stop. Only managed to hit a part of my arm, which bleed a little but i managed to stop it.

As of now, currently drinking some beer, and thinking if there are still ways of getting a woman, or just throwing in the towel and just be content with misery. I do not want to be a virgin until 25-26. I don't want to last 10 more years without having a female companion that i'm attracted to.


I just don't understand how is it that my older friends could get women at 13 ****ing years old, and yet at my early 20's, i'm still unable to do so! dammit, I have no experience. I have no concept of highschool love. Teen relationships. College relationships. I will never experience it, and that literally makes me sick.

If only there was a way to remove all attraction for women and get rid of sexual desire and companionship, perhaps then I would be more happy.



Cliffs:
- FA'er

- Rejected by oneitis, lose a lot of weight(more than 20lbs)

-Read threads on here+******** about how if you are still a virgin over 21, then you have no future and it's your faith

-Read threads that if you haven't gotten any college "sloots", then you're doomed for life

-Break down because of all the threads+my lack of getting women. Throw things around the house, rage hard

-Nearly decide to end it all.

- Still remember I have pets(birds+a dog). As well as family. Currently composed

-Drinking some beer to make myself feel better

- Call me beta. dumb. I don't care anymore, because no amount of insults here or negs will ever compare to that of the current situation of my life. I'd rather get insulted for life and called ugly here , if it meant being with a woman.

[datclownbaby]

Damn man, I hope you make it

[Neybor]

So reps all round or nah?

[recedingjaw]

Are you actually ugly? Post a face pic (srs) and I can give some solid advice. Most of the time people make these threads and they are average looking but just socially retarded. Truth is, you need to lower your standards if you actually are ugly.

Also yeah you are beta for getting that upset over lack of women, but it's not uncommon. I feel for you brah

[Loko0000]

So reps all round or nah?

just neg me. I dont care anymore. A lot of people here are going to call me beta and pathetic, and perhaps I am but atleast they got to experience love and have a better state of mind after it.

I still haven't, and no matter what I do am still unable to achieve my ultimate goal in life: Have an attractive female companion who actually shares my interests.

[Bigred0289]

Damn man, I hope you make it

this

[Trojans86]

We're all gonna make it brah. Keep your head up.

[Xzorroth]

lol you lost 20 lbs when you finally had something to feel good about?

You can't go backwards bro, you can only go forwards, so make the most of it.

[maoriaz]

All of the negativity on this forum+my entire life just combined together, and needless to say, I broke down hard. Cried to my hardest, punched the walls, screamed the loudest.

lold at this sentence and dont blame the misc for your problems, youve only been a member for a month you beta

[TheLawDawg]

OP I was a virgin until age 20 and was a total beta ******* due to my upbringing by my semi-feminist single mom (I love my mom very much, but no mom can replace a dad).

I am now known in my social circle as a dude with balls of iron who slays good looking girls with consistency. I'm still a softy at heart by misc standards though.

You just have a lot of growing to do OP. The sooner you realize that no female can solve your problems, the better. You are relying on girls. They are supposed to be the ones relying on you. Until you have built yourself into a rock solid man, you have nothing to offer a woman. Focus on building yourself OP.

Edit: have also had several long(ish) term girlfriends, couple of years max. Just thought I'd let you know that it's not all sunshine and rainbows. Maybe it is for the first six months, but you'll get used to it fast when the time comes.

[bodybuilderbob8]

Brah, disregard females, acquire aesthetics. Keep building yourself up by lifting, studying/working hard, etc. The girls will come eventually. Be patient, man.

[ats94]

Fuk those hoes m8, you are an alpha male

[Zironexium]

I didnt get laid till 22. Srs

Edit: was worth it too cuz she let me stick it in her butt, raw.

[Neybor]

just neg me. I dont care anymore. A lot of people here are going to call me beta and pathetic, and perhaps I am but atleast they got to experience love and have a better state of mind after it.

I still haven't, and no matter what I do am still unable to achieve my ultimate goal in life: Have an attractive female companion who actually shares my interests.

Roll bread confirmed.

[Mr. Bowflex]

You're not telling us everything OP. How did you fail with the oneitis?

[yusufamir]

Keep your head straight. Yes, getting a companion, as well as friends, is an essential part of life, because humans are not made to be lonely, but remember that there is so much more to life that that. I hate to say this, because you already gave up on this, but your time may come. Focus on your goals, such as graduating and getting a better job. Who knows, you might meet your future wife there.

[BloodyRed5]

Roll bread confirmed.

It might be roll bread but it's hysterical that men have this view.

[TheLawDawg]

It might be roll bread but it's hysterical that men have this view.

I don't think it's a roll bread. I used to think this way. Yes it was pathetic, though lulzy looking back on it. I'm so happy with how far I've come, and it started with an honest self assessment like OP is giving us here. I think OP can make it if his will is strong enough.

OP, by the time you get where you need to be, girls won't seem so important. They're just icing on the cake.

[thisisnotxoxo]

Maybe you should seek some counseling. Could help. Feel better, OP.

[Loko0000]

Roll bread confirmed.

In a perfect world, I made this up and I'm living decently with good friends. Have gotten laid, have gotten a GF whose attractive, and doing this **** for ****s and giggles

The reality is that this thread is real. I have no friends as of now . I've never had a GF. At the very least making friends isn't impossible

Having a female companion i'm attracted to, who actually has the same feelings, practically is impossible. but i've wanted to break that mold and prove that anything in life is obtainable . I can pass tests, drive, do things when I put my mind to it. But can't get a woman I am attracted too, because women aren't objects. They are people with different thoughts, and perhaps that's why i'll continue to fail. Because no matter how hard you try, no amount of studying and effort will guarantee you get a companion.

I've been having these thoughts since I was 15. They have never went away. Only been suppressed at best

[Mobraelite]

tldr

































negged

[jwlee7ucla]

just neg me. I dont care anymore. A lot of people here are going to call me beta and pathetic, and perhaps I am but atleast they got to experience love and have a better state of mind after it.

I still haven't, and no matter what I do am still unable to achieve my ultimate goal in life: Have an attractive female companion who actually shares my interests.

attractive is pretty relative, but that being said some people will just have no chance outside of pure luck with an "attractive female companion"

[Loko0000]

You're not telling us everything OP. How did you fail with the oneitis?

She just...never had the same feelings for me. Didn't even want to stay in contact. I was just another average guy "friend" at best.

[TrentAM]

1. You do have ways to make a social circle. (unless you live in the middle of no where)
-School clubs, bowling league, dart league, habitat for humanity..
2. Focus on improving yourself and your situation (mental state, find hobbies, find a way to meet people, do something to become interesting)
3. You should know from being on the MISC that it's a fact that even if you do get a HBB girlfriend at our age she will end up cheating.

You'll probably look back in ten years and laugh at this.
Best of luck man

[Kodiak Bear]

you need to stop giving a fuk about anything, and just do whatever u want. then things will fall into place.

[Yero91]

Hey, bro. If you need to talk to anyone, pm me. You really shouldn't let one girl make or break your confidence, it's not conducive to actually getting laid.

[TheLawDawg]

In a perfect world, I made this up and I'm living decently with good friends. Have gotten laid, have gotten a GF whose attractive, and doing this **** for ****s and giggles

The reality is that this thread is real. I have no friends as of now . I've never had a GF. At the very least making friends isn't impossible

Having a female companion i'm attracted to, who actually has the same feelings, practically is impossible. but i've wanted to break that mold and prove that anything in life is obtainable . I can pass tests, drive, do things when I put my mind to it. But can't get a woman I am attracted too, because women aren't objects. They are people with different thoughts, and perhaps that's why i'll continue to fail

You'll continue to fail as long as you need validation from a woman. No woman can validate a man. By the time you build yourself into an accomplished man, you'll see that most girls are (from an emotional perspective) floundering around in life waiting to be saved by a strong man.

After working hard, dedicating yourself to life goals, and achieving them, you won't be put off by a girls indecisiveness and flakiness. You'll just lol about it.

You need to focus first on friendships and comradery with other males. Get a hobby, play an intramural sport. Shared experiences make bonds between men. You also need to work on basic social skills. If you had those down, you'd have a solid group of friends already.

[PeterDINK]

you're not gonna make it if you value females so much, its that simple, stop putting pussy on a pedestal you beta *******. that would solve 99% of your problems and then you might be able to gain focus in life and actually achieve something that would make you attractive towards women.

[jwlee7ucla]

In a perfect world, I made this up and I'm living decently with good friends. Have gotten laid, have gotten a GF whose attractive, and doing this **** for ****s and giggles

The reality is that this thread is real. I have no friends as of now . I've never had a GF. At the very least making friends isn't impossible

Having a female companion i'm attracted to, who actually has the same feelings, practically is impossible. but i've wanted to break that mold and prove that anything in life is obtainable . I can pass tests, drive, do things when I put my mind to it. But can't get a woman I am attracted too, because women aren't objects. They are people with different thoughts, and perhaps that's why i'll continue to fail. Because no matter how hard you try, no amount of studying and effort will guarantee you get a companion.

I've been having these thoughts since I was 15. They have never went away. Only been suppressed at best

so you have so many problems, yet your only focus is on females. do you even priority?

[Wholesomeguy]

Why do you wanna smash by certain age op? Perhaps you outta do some repentance at your nearest Buddhist temple