Came across these pics yesterday, and posted them up on my log and got a solid response. I actually looked pretty in depth at them, and I was surprised myself..
some of you may know me, I'm a recovering anorexic. About a year ago, I had my log up in the "Nutrition Logs" section. But I was living in agony, I was frail, weak, living on an "Artificial Thyroid" hormone that basically screwed up my life. I thought it was doing wonders for me... I had always had endocrine issues, my endo thought it would help my thyroid issues by putting me on it. I dropped from 145lbs... down to 119lbs at my worst.
I was unable to change my eating habits, due to my Eating Disorder.. and the weight flew off of me. I lost all of my muscle mass (the little amount that I even had) and learned to hate the way I looked, hated how I felt, and hated everything in general. I can remember it being 85 degrees outside (in beautiful Southern California), but I was inside my apartment.. huddled in 2 hoodies, and a blanket.. trying to sleep the day away.. because I had nothing else to live for.. but sleeping, and food. I was too weak to go to the gym, to weak to walk up a flight of stairs without collapsing on myself. I was coming off of caffeine/stimulants, at the same time... I couldn't walk outside without getting the most painful migraines I've ever felt/had in my entire life, the entire left side of my head would dull up in pain. And the only way to solve it, was to go back in my apartment (I lived alone, at the young age of 19) and sleep the day away..
Thankfully, I got the "Wake up call" that I needed. My dad sat me down on night, with tears in his eyes. And told me, that he couldn't watch me die anymore.. he and the family were going to lose me.. if I continued my ways. If I continued to live in depression, in my ED, in my own "bubble".. He laid down 2 options for me. Either get help, get my life back, or I would be disowned.. I would have everything taken away from me, and I could watch myself die.
I thought of my life then, how I prayed for "things to get better".. how much I wished I had a life at times, and how much agony I lived in day in and day out.. and I made the choice I got help.. and got my life back.
I won't go on, because there's so much more to the story, and there's so much more I could say.. But I just wanted to throw these pictures up, because I feel like they mean something to me.. Obviously, I've got SO much more to go.. I doubt myself at times, doubt my genetic potential to gain muscle.. but I just have to keep telling myself that "one day, you'll get to where you want to be.. one day".
Thanks guys, if you took the time to read.
September 2012 - 119lbs
October 2013 ???
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10-26-2013, 12:36 PM #1Registered User
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My "Transformation" from Eating Disorder to Growth
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10-26-2013, 12:49 PM #2Registered User
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Awesome transformation mate! Glad too see you dug in there and came through. It goes to show if you really want it you'll get there
Well done
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10-26-2013, 12:54 PM #3Registered User
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Bump for Eric
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10-26-2013, 12:55 PM #4Registered User
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well done man !! looking healthy now !
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10-26-2013, 12:57 PM #5
Happy for you man. Good job.
Would rep but you know how it is.
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10-26-2013, 01:16 PM #6Registered User
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Thanks alot man! I really appreciate the kind words. Motivates me to stay on track.Originally Posted by thornypop
Thanks dude!Originally Posted by little dragon
Happy for you as well man! We've got the rest of our lives ahead of us. It's time to LIVE!Originally Posted by Hunttarded
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10-26-2013, 01:22 PM #7Registered User
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Definitely seen you around in your log, ED support group, etc. GJDM seriously looks like you're making it. Reps.
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10-26-2013, 01:38 PM #8Registered User
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Thank you I appreciate it.Originally Posted by DarthInvadeHer
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10-26-2013, 01:40 PM #9Registered User
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Wow man, you were almost just bones lol. No offense.
Great progress, you're really filling out well. Also you look healthier than previously.
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10-26-2013, 01:49 PM #10Registered User
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None taken, because that's essentially what I was.. just bones.Originally Posted by FiveElevenNine
Thanks man, I appreciate the comment.
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10-26-2013, 02:26 PM #11Registered User
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Much respect for you, i thought that i was skinny before i started training...
Keep it up
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10-26-2013, 02:47 PM #12Registered User
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Great job, good to see you looking healthy. Repped.
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10-26-2013, 02:52 PM #13
fuuu I got a little teary eyed reading that. So were you taking T3?
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10-26-2013, 03:15 PM #14Unregistered User
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nice work keep it up!
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10-26-2013, 03:56 PM #15Registered User
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Wow great work OP ! Keep your head up knowing each day you're getting better and better.
Wish you all the best OP , sending you positive vibes★★ Wishing everyone in this human experience eternal happiness and peace ★★
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Great work. You're gonna kick it's ass
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Thanks dude. I appreciate that.Originally Posted by DoctorHitch
Much respect for you, i thought that i was skinny before i started training...
Keep it up
Returned (when I'm off recharge) thanks man.Originally Posted by Stalldad
Yessir.Originally Posted by GDPONE
Thanks!Originally Posted by Kratistos
Thanks broski.Originally Posted by ChrisLB
I know I can and I will! Thanks man.Originally Posted by Renegadegod
Great work. You're gonna kick it's ass
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10-26-2013, 09:24 PM #18One day at a time
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Amazing, excellent work!
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10-26-2013, 10:58 PM #19Registered User
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This is motivational! Looks like youre doing good bruh!
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10-26-2013, 11:03 PM #20Ducks Fly Together
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Congrats man! You're only going to get better as time goes by. We're all gonna make it.
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Freaking Fanastic man, Great job... super impressive amazing transformation repped
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10-27-2013, 12:21 AM #22Registered User
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Originally Posted by Goalie_Girl
Originally Posted by teemas
Thanks again guys, I appreciate all of the positive feedback. I'd rep, but I'm all out for today. ;(Originally Posted by Ahhhmeno
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10-27-2013, 04:20 AM #23Bloody but unbowed
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Great respect for you overcoming the anorexia and re-taking hold of your life. Great job on the transformation!
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Inspirational stuff. Looking great, even better, sounding great in your head.
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That is awesome transformation man, good job!
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10-27-2013, 11:32 AM #26Registered User
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Originally Posted by fittofattofit
Originally Posted by rachelremnant
Thanks all, it's been a long road.Originally Posted by HigiJaVaev
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10-27-2013, 11:36 AM #27instagram:investorfitness
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first off, congrats on overcoming your eating disorder. that's probably the greatest accomplishment of your story. but your gains are good so far man. good luck with future goals. repped.
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I wish I could say that I was fully recovered from my ED, that will come in time. But yeah, I'm on my way.. thanks man. I appreciate the kind words.Originally Posted by drumplayer
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