Been struggling a lot with motivation lately. How do you keep up motivation to lift hard and heavy in the face of slowing natty gains?
I ate whatever I wanted and relaxed my whole life up till 22 years old. This left me at 115lb of literally skin and bone (like, i did not even have visible abs at 115...zero muscle) the size of a fuking 7th grader.
One day I decided I'd had enough of being he skinniest smallest motherfcker in the northern hemisphere, so I started lifting. That was a year and a half ago. Today I weigh around 165lb.
People say that sounds great, or that I look better. But people are wrong. I'm still extremely skinny and my gains have slowed to a crawl. I've clearly used up all of my noob gains but still can't even bench 2 plates (not even close). I've gained 50lb and busted my ass every single day in and out (diet) of the gym for over 18 months and I still just look average because I had to start from skeletor status.
Furthermore I'm realizing more and more of my horrendous genetics - pectus excavatum, flared ribs, terrible chest in general, postural and skeletal deficiencies (lordosis, APT, etc). Sometimes I feel like the deck was so stacked against me to begin with that I feel like I'm just wasting my time, on top of the slowing gains that remain nowhere near where my goals were. I go so hard that I nearly throw up multiple times per day (whether from lifting hard as fck or cramming so much more food in my mouth than my body wants that I physically cannot eat one more calorie) and for wht? These chitty gains draped over a genetic disaster?
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